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>> GOOD AFTERNOON.

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IT'S SUCH A PLEASURE TO BE HERE

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WITH YOU TODAY.

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I'D LOVE TO WELCOM EVERYONE TO

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THIS SPECIAL EVENT.  WE HAVE A

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VIDEOCAST AND HERE LIVE.

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WE'RE PLEASED TO HAVE YOU HERE

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FOR AUTISM ACCEPTANCE MONTH,

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SPONSORED BY NATIONAL INSTITUTE

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OF MENTAL HEALTH AND ONAC.

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I'M DR. SUSAN DANIELS, DIRECTOR

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OF ONAC.

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EVERY YEAR IN APRIL, WE HAVE

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THIS EVENT, I LOOKED BACK AND

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2011 WAS OUR FIRST EVENT.

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WE'VE BEEN DOING IT A WHILE.

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IT'S A SPECIAL TIME TO RECOGNIZE

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PEOPLE ON THE AUTISM SPECTRUM

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AND ALL THAT THEY CONTRIBUTE TO

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FAMILIES AND SOCIETY AND

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REAFFIRM OUR COMMITMENT TO THEIR

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ACCEPTANCE, INCLUSION AND FULL

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PARTICIPATION IN COMMUNITY LIFE.

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THIS FOR AUTISM ACCEPTANCE MONTH

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EVENT WE'RE GOING TO BE HEARING

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FROM A WONDERFUL GROUP OF PEOPLE

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TODAY.

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WE'RE LOOKING FORWARD TO

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LEARNING MORE ABOUT HOW THEY

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HAVE CONTRIBUTED IN THIS SPACE.

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AND WE ARE CELEBRATING THEIR

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AND IMPORTANT CONTRIBUTIONSMENT

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THIS YEAR'S FEATURE IS CALLED

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"SOUNDTRACKS, AN ARTISTIC

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JOURNEY TO BELONGING" AND WE'RE

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EXCITED TO SHOW THE SHORT FILM

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"SOUNDTRACKS" CREATED BY

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RESOURCE CENTER, FEATURES BLAIR

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BUNTING AND LAURA NADINE.

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TODAY WE'LL SPEAK WITH JOHN

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BLAIR AND LAURA ABOUT THEIR

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PERSONAL JOURNEYS IN ART.

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SO, BEFORE DIVING INTO THE

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PROGRAM, I'D LOVE TO GIVE A

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WELCOME TO DR. JOSHUA GORDON,

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DIRECTOR OF NIMH, TO LET HIM

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GIVE SOME REMARKS.

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SO, WELCOME, JOSH.

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>> THANK YOU, SUSAN.

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THANK YOU, TO THOSE IN THE ROOM

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FOR COMING TODAY, FOR THOSE

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ONLINE, I'M LOOKING FOR A

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CAMERA, NOT SURE WHERE IT IS.

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FOR JOINING US TODAY.

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AND ESPECIALLY TO OUR SPECIAL

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GUESTS FOR BRINGING US THEIR

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CREATIVITY, AND SPEAKING WITH US

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ABOUT THEIR JOURNEY.

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THIS TITLE, SOUNDTRACKS, AN

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ARTISTIC JOURNEY TO BELONGING,

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IS ONE THAT IS EXTREMELY

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APPROPRIATE, GIVEN THIS AUTISM

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ACCEPTANCE MONTH SPECIAL EVENT.

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I ALSO, IF I COULD REFLECT FOR A

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MOMENT, HAVE EXPERIENCED MY OWN

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JOURNEY TO BELONGING IN THE

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AUTISM COMMUNITY.

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IT'S MAYBE A SCIENTIFIC JOURNEY

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BUT ENTAILS A LOT OF CREATIVITY.

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WHEN I CAME TO NIMH 7 1/2 YEARS

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AGO AND LEARN IN ACCEPTING THE

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POSITION OF DIRECTOR I HAD ALSO

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THOUGH, AND HEARING FROM MANY OF

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YOU IN THE AUDIENCE TODAY, MANY

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OF YOU ONLINE TODAY, ALL ABOUT

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THE EXPERIENCES OF INDIVIDUALS

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IN THIS COMMUNITY, BE THEY

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INDIVIDUALS WITH AUTISM,

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INDIVIDUALS WHO ARE MEMBERS OF

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COMMUNITY ORGANIZATIONS, AND

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COMMUNITIES, IT'S REALLY BEEN A

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JOURNEY FOR ME, A JOURNEY WHERE

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SENSE OF WHAT IT IS TO BELONG TO

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THIS COMMUNITY.

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THE COMMUNITY THAT WE'RE GOING

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TO HEAR ABOUT TODAY, CREATIVITY,

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BELONGING, AND I'M VERY EXCITED

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FOR THE SCREENING AND TO HEAR

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SO THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR

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JOINING US.

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>> THANK YOU.

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SO, I WOULD ALSO LIKE TO MAKE AN

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INTRODUCTION NOW OF A VERY

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SPECIAL PERSON THAT I MET, WHOM

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I MET WHEN I FIRST CAME TO THE

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NIMH, WHEN I STARTED WORKING

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COORDINATING COMMITTEE.

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DENISE RESNIK IS THE CO-FOUNDER

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OF THE SOUTHWEST AUTISM RESEARCH

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AND RESOURCE CENTER, AS WELL AS

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THE FOUNDER AND CEO OF FIRST

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PLACE ARIZONA, WAS A MEMBER OF

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THE IACC, I GOT TO KNOW HER MANY

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YEARS AGO WORKING FOR MANY YEARS

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TOGETHER, AND SHE WENT ON TO

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FOUND FIRST PLACE ARIZONA, AND

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HER ORGANIZATION ENGAGES IN

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HELPING SUPPORT PEOPLE ON THE

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AUTISM SPECTRUM IN MANY WAYS,

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LOOKING FOR SOLUTIONS IN THE

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SERVICE SYSTEM, AND SUPPORTING

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AUTISTIC PEOPLE IN THE COMMUNITY

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AS WELL AS ADVOCATING ON THE

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LOCAL AND NATIONAL LEVEL.

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SO, I'M SO PROUD OF THE

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WONDERFUL WORK DENISE HAS DONE,

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CHANCE TO INTRODUCE HERSELF TO

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[APPLAUSE]

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>> WELL, THANK YOU, SUSAN.

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FOR FIRST PLACE IN OUR FIRST

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PLACE GLOBAL LEADERSHIP

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INSTITUTE, WE DREAM REALLY BIG.

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AND WE HAVE A LOFTY VISION TO

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ENSURE THAT HOUSING, HEALTH

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AS IT IS FOR EVERYONE ELSE.

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COMING TOGETHER IN OUR LOCAL

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MARKETS WITH OUR EXPERTISE,

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THEY ARE DEFINED NOT BY WHAT WE

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ON HOW WE MAKE PEOPLE FEEL

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KNOWING WHAT'S WORKING, AND FOR

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WHOM, AND WHAT NEEDS TO WORK

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EXPRESSION, ALL THE DIFFERENT

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WAYS THAT WE RECOGNIZE WHAT

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WE'RE DOING AT FIRST PLACE, AND

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OUR FIRST PLACE PHOENIX

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PROPERTY, WHICH WE ALSO  DEFINE

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ACKNOWLEDGES IS THE MOST

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WORLD AND WE ACKNOWLEDGE WHAT

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PEOPLE ARE DOING EVERYWHERE

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TALENTS, SKILLS, WHAT THEY'VE

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AND TREMENDOUS PLEASURE THAT I

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INTRODUCE YOU TO "SOUNDTRACKS"

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AND  CONVERGENCE OF PEOPLE WE'VE

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GOT TON KNOW WHO ARE OUR

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FRIENDS, BLAIR BUNTING, AND

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LAUREN NADINE, VIOLIN VIRTUOSO,

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AND EDUCATOR, AND JOHN SHAFFER,

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FILM PRODUCER, ALL PEOPLE LIVING

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WHAT WE ARE DOING, WHO WE ARE

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WORKING FOR, AND TO BE ABLE TO

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LEARN FROM THEM AS WE BETTER

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APPRECIATE THEIR STORIES.

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SO, PLEASE, JOIN ME IN

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EXPERIENCING AND FEELING

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"SOUNDTRACKS."

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>> MY FAMILY, WE MOVED TO

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SMALLTOWN ILLINOIS, EVERY

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SUMMER, I THINK PART WAS TO TRY

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AND ESCAPE THE AC BILLS, MY

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PARENTS WERE BOTH TEACHERS.

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THERE WOULD BE NOTHING TO DO.

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MY GRANDMA LIVED RIGHT NEXT TO

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THE TRAIN TRACKS, AND SO AS

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KIDS, THAT'S ALL WE'D DO, RUN

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DIDN'T FALL IN LOVE WITH IT.

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I REMEMBER BEING AT SCHOOL,

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HAVING ALL THESE FRIENDS AROUND

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ME THAT WERE TRYING TO LEARN TO

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MAY, STRUGGLING.

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I WOULD STAY AFTER SCHOOL AND

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HELP THEM LEARN, THEY WANTED

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FRIENDS TO PLAY WITH.

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I WAS TRYING TO BUILD AN

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ORCHESTRA THAT COULD KEEP UP

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WITH MY BY GIVING THEM AS MUCH

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OF MYSELF AS I COULD.

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>> COMING IN ON THE CLOSE

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TRACKS, YES, IT'S ALMOST HERE.

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IT'S GOING TO BE RIGHT HERE.

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I'M GOING TO STAND RIGHT HERE

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AND WATCH IT.

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>> THERE'S SOME PHOTOS THAT,

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YEAH, YOU KNOW, YOU KNOW

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IMMEDIATELY.

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YOU DON'T HAVE TO LOOK IN THE

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CAMERA.

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ONCE YOU PRESS THAT BUTTON AND

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THE STROKE IS FIRED, THAT

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ATHLETE WAS IN THAT STAGE OF

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MOTION, YOU KNOW YOU HAVE IT.

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THERE'S NOTHING STOPPING IT FROM

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BEING A GREAT IMAGE.

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>> WHEN I FIRST HEAR A SHADOW

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SONG, IT'S A DULL COLOR PALLET.

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AS I FOCUS MY ENERGY INTO

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LISTENING TO THESE SOUNDS AND

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CURATING IT INTO A SCENE, IT'S

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MUDDY, IT'S LIKE A SMUDGED

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WINDOW, YOU HAVE TO KEEP WORKING

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AND WORKING AT CLEARING THE

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WINDOW UNTIL YOU CAN SEE IT,

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FEEL IT.

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YOU FEEL THAT IT'S THERE.

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>> I USED TO BE BEHIND A CAMERA,

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OVERWHELMED ON PHOTO SHEETS WITH

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30 OR 40 ASSISTANTS,

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CELEBRITIES, IT'S A LARGE

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PRODUCTION.

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WHAT I DO IS I WOULD SHUT MY

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CAMERA OFF AND I WOULD JUST

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WATCH EVERYONE THROUGH THE

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REFLECTION ON THE LCD SCREEN.

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LOOKING AT THE LCD SCREEN NOT

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FOR THE PICTURE CREATED ON THE

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CAMERA BUT FOR THE WORLD THAT

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EXISTED BEHIND IT.

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>> LET'S SAY THAT YOU ARE AN ACE

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MECHANIC, AND YOU HAVE YOUR

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GARAGE WHERE YOU HAVE YOUR

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TOOLS, WRENCHES, SCREWDRIVERS,

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LIGHTS, FLUID, YOU KNOW WHERE

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EVERYTHING IS.

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SO AS YOU'RE WORKING, YOU JUST

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KIND OF REACH AND IT'S THERE.

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WELL, IMAGINE THAT ONE DAY AND

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FOR EVERY DAY AFTER THAT, FOR

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FIVE YEARS IN A ROW, SOMEONE

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CAME IN OVERNIGHT AND MOVED

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EVERYTHING.

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SO THE NEXT DAY, YOU HAD TO

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RE-FIND ALL YOUR TOOLS.

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>> WHY AM I OUT HERE?

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THE MOST STRAIGHTFORWARD ANSWER

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TO PHOTOGRAPH TRAINS, MORE

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CIRCULAR ANSWER TO BRING MYSELF

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DOWN TO EARTH A LITTLE BIT, IT'S

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PEACEFUL, ALLOWS ME TO BREATHE

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BETTER OUT HERE.

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I THINK THAT'S WHERE THE ANXIETY

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CREEPS IN IS YOU LET THE REST OF

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LIFE OVERWHELM YOU, THAT THE

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AUTONOMIC ASPECTS DON'T SEEM TO

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FOLLOW, AND YOU GET OUT HEAR,

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YOU HEAR THE WIND, SEE THE

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TRAIN, YOU TAKE THAT INHALE AND

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EVERYTHING COMES DOWN.

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IT'S LIKE A NATURAL XANAX.

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>> WHEN I PULL OUT CERTAIN

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PIECES OF MUSIC IT'S LIKE THE

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WORLD DISAPPEARS.

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AND I WANT TO PLAY IT.

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I REALLY DON'T EVEN CARE IF

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ANYBODY LIKES THE WAY IT SOUNDS.

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♪

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>> AT MY PSYCHIATRIST'S, I WENT

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THERE BECAUSE I TOLD HER I'M NOT

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GETTING THROUGH ANYMORE.

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I'M NOT GETTING BY AT THE HOUSE

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ANYMORE.

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STARTING TO HAVE BREAKDOWNS WITH

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MY, AT THAT POINT, TWO OR THREE

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YEAR OLD DAUGHTER AND THE NOISES

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SHE MADE.

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AND SO SHE SAID TELL ME ABOUT

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YOUR DAUGHTER.

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♪

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MY PSYCHIATRIST SAID IS SHE ALSO

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AUTISTIC?

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THE FRIENDS THAT I CALLED AND

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TOLD THEM THAT I HAD BEEN

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DIAGNOSED WITH AUTISM, THE CLOSE

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FRIENDS ALL LAUGHED.

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AND THE ONES THAT WERE IN THE

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MEDICAL FIELD MORE OR LESS SAID,

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ARE YOU SERIOUS, IT TOOK YOU

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THIS LONG TO REALIZE IT?

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♪

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I ALWAYS KNEW IT.

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BUT I DIDN'T REALLY CARE.

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>> HOW AM I DOING NOW?

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WHAT'S AUTISM LIKE NOW?

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♪

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IT'S GETTING HARDER, NOT EASIER.

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THERE WAS A POINT IT SEEMED TO

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BE GETTING EASIER.

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BUT IT'S GETTING HARDER.

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AND THERE ARE ZERO SUPPORTS AND

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RESOURCES AROUND FOR ME TO GO

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TO.

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♪

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IF I TALK ABOUT AGING AND

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AUTISM, THERE'S JUST NOTHING

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THERE.

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>> THERE ARE PIECES OF ME THAT I

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WISH DIDN'T EXIST, BUT THE

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LARGER PICTURE, THE GREATER

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WHOLE, I'M EVERYDAY GRATEFUL FOR

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BECAUSE MY ART IS A DERIVATIVE

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OF MY MIND.

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♪

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>> I'M DEFINITELY ONE OF THOSE

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PEOPLE THAT WHEN THEY SET I

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FORGET ABOUT EATING, EVERYTHING

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ELSE, I FOCUS ON WHAT I'M DOING.

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I WANT TO BE OBSESSIVE ABOUT THE

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THING I WANT TO DO AND I WANT TO

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DO IT AND WORK ON IT UNTIL IT'S

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DONE.

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AND OTHER PEOPLE WANT, YOU KNOW,

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STRUCTURE AND ... AND SCHEDULES

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AND BREAKS.

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>> MY LIFE LIVES OFF TRAIN

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WIRES, I'M COMFORTABLE BEING ON

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THIRDS.

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MY OBSESSION WITH DETAIL IS A

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LOT OF TIMES A DETRIMENT.

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IT NEVER, I DON'T KNOW ABOUT

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NEVER, NOT USUALLY ON THOSE

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AROUND ME.

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♪

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IT'S NOT CONDUCIVE TO SLEEP BUT

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AT THE SAME TIME, YEAH, MAYBE IT

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HELPS ME CONVINCE MYSELF THAT I

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POSSESS WHAT EVERYONE THINKS OF

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AS ART BECAUSE I THINK EVERY

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ARTIST GOES THROUGH THAT

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PROBABLY.

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>> CREATING IS SUPPOSED TO BE

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THAT PLACE WHERE I GO INTO MY

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STUDIO HERE, INTO MY SPACE

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ALONE, UNINTERRUPTED, AND JUST

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WORK.

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AND CREATE SOMETHING AND

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HOPEFULLY WHEN I'M DONE WITH IT,

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PEOPLE GET SOMETHING OUT OF IT.

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♪

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>> I THINK A LOT OF PEOPLE SEE A

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PERSON THAT IS ON TOP OF THE

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WORLD WHEN IT COMES TO

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PHOTOGRAPHY AND THEN DOING BIG

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PHOTO SHOOTS AND MAKING GREAT

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ACHIEVEMENTS, BUT THEY OFTEN

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DON'T SEE THE GUY THAT GOES HOME

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AND CRIES AT THE END OF THE BED.

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♪

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THOSE THAT ARE SUCCESSFUL ON THE

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SPECTRUM ARE VERY GOOD AT

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CURATING THEIR IMAGE.

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LETTING THE WORLD IN IN PLACES

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THEY ARE WILLING TO, BUT NOT

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OTHERS.

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>> PART OF THE WORLD OF CREATIVE

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PHOTOGRAPHY, FILM, MUSIC, DANCE,

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IT'S EASIER TO MASK BECAUSE TO A

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CERTAIN EXTENT PEOPLE EXPECT

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ARTISTS TO BE ODD.

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AND MAYBE ONE OF THE REASONS THE

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FIELD IS SO INVITING AND THAT WE

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DON'T HAVE TO CREATE, YEAH,

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ANOTHER LAYER.

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♪

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>> PEOPLE WHO HAVE AUTISM, WHO

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ARE ARTISTS, HAVE THIS LANGUAGE

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WE CAN TALK TO EACH OTHER IN.

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FOR ME THAT'S LIGHTING, FOR

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LAURA THAT'S MUSIC.

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IT'S LESS LISTENING TO A SONG,

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MORE A CONVERSATION WITH LAURA.

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WHAT SHE WROTE IS ... IT'S

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BEAUTIFUL.

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♪

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>> NEUROTYPICALS ARE NOISY AND

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LIKE TO BLOW STUFF UP.

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I LIKE A QUIETER WORLD, MORE

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PEACE AND PAUSE.

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>> TRAINS BEING ALL CAPS WAS

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FUNCTION OF PROBABLY HOW I SAY

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IT IN MY MIND.

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♪

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[APPLAUSE]

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>> I KNOW EVERYONE REALLY

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ENJOYED THAT AMAZING IF I

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AMAZING -- FILM AND GIVE US

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INSIGHT INTO WHO WE'RE GOING TO

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SPEAK TO.

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THE AGENDA, WE FIRST HEARD SOME

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INTRODUCTORY REMARKS, WE WATCHED

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THE FILM, NOW WE'RE GOING TO

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HAVE TIME FOR ME TO ASK SOME

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QUESTIONS TO OUR SPEAKERS AND

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HAVE THEM TALK WITH US ABOUT

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THEIR PERSONAL JOURNEYS ON THE

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SPECTRUM AND WITH THEIR ART.

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AND AFTER THAT, WE'LL HAVE SOME

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TIME FOR Q&A WITH THE AUDIENCE

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SO YOU'LL BE WELCOME TO USE

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MICS.

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WE'LL HAVE A PERSON WALKING

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AROUND WITH A MIC.

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WE HAVE SOME STANDING MICS.

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THOSE ONLINE, IF YOU HAVE

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QUESTIONS YOU CAN USE THE LINK

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IN NIH VIDEOCAST TO PROVIDE YOUR

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QUESTIONS AND COMMENTS, AND

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WE'LL HAVE COME HERE THAT'S

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GOING TO BE ABLE TO READ THOSE

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OUT.

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WE WELCOME YOU TO THINK ABOUT

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QUESTIONS THAT YOU HAVE AS YOU

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LISTEN.

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BUT WE ARE REALLY EXCITED NOW TO

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DIVE INTO THE CONVERSATION WITH

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OUR GUESTS.

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SO I'LL WELCOME EVERYONE TO COME

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UP TO THE TABLE.

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>> AGAIN, WHAT AN INCREDIBLE

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PROJECT AND INCREDIBLE JOURNEY

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WE JUST WENT ON WATCHING THE

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FILM.

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WE'RE JUST DELIGHTED TO BE

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JOINED BY ALL THREE OF YOU.

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AND TO BE ABLE TO HEAR FROM YOU

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ABOUT YOUR PERSONAL JOURNEYS.

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AND I'D LIKE TO FIRST GIVE YOU

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EACH AN OPPORTUNITY TO INTRODUCE

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YOURSELVES.

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SO, I'LL START WITH BLAIR.

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CAN YOU TELL US ABOUT YOURSELF

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AND YOUR JOURNEY WITH AUTISM,

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AND HOW YOU DISCOVERED YOUR GIFT

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IN PHOTOGRAPHY?

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>> HI, EVERYBODY, I'M BLAIR.

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I THINK THE JOURNEY OF AUTISM,

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ALSO PHOTOGRAPHY ARE VERY MUCH

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MARRIED THROUGHOUT MY LIFE.

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GROWING UP IN HIGH SCHOOL WAS

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SIGNIFICANTLY SHY AND AN

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INTROVERT.

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I WAS AWARE AROUND ME I DIDN'T

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FIT IN, AND THAT WAS OKAY.

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WHEN I WAS ABOUT 17, I TOOK A

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PHOTO CLASS, WHERE MY DAD GAVE

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ME MY FIRST CAMERA.

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AND IT WAS THE FIRST TIME AT

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WHICH I HAD THE ABILITY TO

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EXPRESS WHAT I WAS SEEING IN

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THIS WORLD TO PEOPLE AROUND ME,

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WHERE COMMUNICATION WASN'T

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STRONG.

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I WAS TALKING TO THEM THROUGH

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THE IMAGES THAT I CREATED.

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AND THERE WAS A COMFORT AND A

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SOLACE THAT EXISTED WITHIN THAT.

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SO, AS I PROGRESSED AND GOING

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INTO COLLEGE, THAT BECAME JUST

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MY WAY OF EXPRESSION.

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AND SO IN MANY WAYS, FINDING

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THAT ART, THAT FORTUITOUS MOMENT

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WITH THE CLASS AND ALSO MY

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PARENTS' SUPPORT, BECAME A WAY

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OF OPENING UP MY LIFE.

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AND SO, WHEN WE USED TO TALK

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ABOUT THIS IDEA, THIS SENSE OF

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BELONGING WITHIN THE TITLE, I

523
00:22:22,107 --> 00:22:23,675
BELONG BEHIND THE CAMERA.

524
00:22:23,742 --> 00:22:25,143
IT'S WHERE MY HEART AND MY

525
00:22:25,210 --> 00:22:28,847
COMFORT IS.

526
00:22:28,914 --> 00:22:29,314
>> AMAZING.

527
00:22:29,381 --> 00:22:32,451
THANK YOU SO MUCH.

528
00:22:32,517 --> 00:22:35,754
SO, NEXT I WILL ASK LAURA.

529
00:22:35,821 --> 00:22:37,155
CAN YOU TELL US A LITTLE BIT

530
00:22:37,222 --> 00:22:39,224
ABOUT YOURSELF AND YOUR PERSONAL

531
00:22:39,291 --> 00:22:40,559
EXPERIENCES ON THE AUTISM

532
00:22:40,625 --> 00:22:42,761
SPECTRUM AND HOW YOU DISCOVERED

533
00:22:42,828 --> 00:22:44,496
YOUR MUSICAL TALENT?

534
00:22:44,563 --> 00:22:44,763
>> SURE.

535
00:22:44,830 --> 00:22:46,465
HI, I'M LAURA.

536
00:22:46,531 --> 00:22:48,667
I'M THE MUSIC YOU'VE BEEN

537
00:22:48,734 --> 00:22:50,202
HEARING ALL AFTERNOON.

538
00:22:50,268 --> 00:22:51,737
SORRY, IT'S QUIET IN HERE, I

539
00:22:51,803 --> 00:22:53,038
FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO GET

540
00:22:53,105 --> 00:22:54,372
EVERYBODY WARMED UP AND MAYBE

541
00:22:54,439 --> 00:22:56,241
LAUGHING A LITTLE BIT.

542
00:22:56,308 --> 00:22:56,608
[LAUGHTER]

543
00:22:56,675 --> 00:22:59,411
I HATE CALLING IT TALENT,JUST

544
00:22:59,478 --> 00:23:01,279
BECAUSE I'M A TEACHER, I'VE BEEN

545
00:23:01,346 --> 00:23:02,914
TEACHING STUDENTS FOR 30 YEARS

546
00:23:02,981 --> 00:23:04,449
TO PLAY THE VIOLIN, VIOLA,

547
00:23:04,516 --> 00:23:09,454
CELLO, I WEATHER  -- I WORK WITH

548
00:23:09,521 --> 00:23:10,255
STUDENTS WITH SPECIAL NEEDS.

549
00:23:10,322 --> 00:23:13,859
I HAD A THING IN ME THAT SAID GO

550
00:23:13,925 --> 00:23:14,760
DO THIS.

551
00:23:14,826 --> 00:23:16,394
I COVERING TO MY MOTHER I

552
00:23:16,461 --> 00:23:20,999
POINTED TO THE SCREEN WHEN I WAS

553
00:23:21,066 --> 00:23:22,400
3, ITZHAK PERLMAN ON PBS AND

554
00:23:22,467 --> 00:23:24,703
SAID I WANTED TO PLAY THAT.

555
00:23:24,770 --> 00:23:27,072
I HAVE A KNACK FOR PICKING IT UP

556
00:23:27,139 --> 00:23:27,305
QUICKLY.

557
00:23:27,372 --> 00:23:29,207
THERE'S A POINT IT'S JUST HARD

558
00:23:29,274 --> 00:23:30,509
WORK, AND YOU'RE PUTTING IN THE

559
00:23:30,575 --> 00:23:31,076
HOURS.

560
00:23:31,143 --> 00:23:33,245
MY HIGH SCHOOL LIFE WAS FILLED

561
00:23:33,311 --> 00:23:35,080
WITH ORCHESTRA REHEARSALS AND

562
00:23:35,147 --> 00:23:36,414
SOME DANCE CONCERTS AND THAT WAS

563
00:23:36,481 --> 00:23:45,090
PRETTY OF IT. -- PRETTY MUCH IT.

564
00:23:45,157 --> 00:23:46,291
ASK MY TEACHERS, I PRIORITIZED

565
00:23:46,358 --> 00:23:46,725
THAT.

566
00:23:46,792 --> 00:23:47,626
AUTISM WAS THE SECOND PIECE OF

567
00:23:47,692 --> 00:23:48,693
THE STORY.

568
00:23:48,760 --> 00:23:49,895
I DIDN'T RECOGNIZE I HAD AUTISM

569
00:23:49,961 --> 00:23:53,064
UNTIL MY SON WAS DIAGNOSED AT

570
00:23:53,131 --> 00:23:53,598
AGE 3.

571
00:23:53,665 --> 00:23:55,801
IT WAS ACTUALLY KIND OF A FUN

572
00:23:55,867 --> 00:23:57,235
EXCHANGE, ONE OF THE MORE FUN

573
00:23:57,302 --> 00:24:00,205
ONES I'VE HAD WITH A DOCTOR.

574
00:24:00,272 --> 00:24:01,907
NO OFFENSE.

575
00:24:01,973 --> 00:24:03,275
ANYBODY IN HERE ...

576
00:24:03,341 --> 00:24:05,243
MY SON WAS HAVING SOME ISSUES.

577
00:24:05,310 --> 00:24:06,344
HE WASN'T SPEAKING WHEN HE WAS

578
00:24:06,411 --> 00:24:07,612
SUPPOSED TO.

579
00:24:07,679 --> 00:24:11,449
SO I BROUGHT HIM IN OF COURSE TO

580
00:24:11,516 --> 00:24:15,854
THE PEDIATRICIAN, I HAD ONE

581
00:24:15,921 --> 00:24:20,258
TRIED AND KNEW THE CHILD.

582
00:24:20,325 --> 00:24:22,627
HE'S SLIDING BROCHURES ACROSS

583
00:24:22,694 --> 00:24:25,263
THE TABLE ABOUT ADULTS WITH

584
00:24:25,330 --> 00:24:28,333
AUTISM, AM I THAT OBVIOUS?

585
00:24:28,400 --> 00:24:30,101
I GOT IN COLLEGE IN DECATUR

586
00:24:30,168 --> 00:24:31,403
GEORGIA, AFTER MY MEDICAL

587
00:24:31,469 --> 00:24:32,404
DIAGNOSIS AT EMORY.

588
00:24:32,470 --> 00:24:33,605
OH, THAT'S WHY I DO THIS.

589
00:24:33,672 --> 00:24:37,475
OH, THAT'S WHY IS DO THAT.

590
00:24:37,542 --> 00:24:39,110
ASPERGER'S WAS THE PERFECT FIT

591
00:24:39,177 --> 00:24:40,111
FOR ME.

592
00:24:40,178 --> 00:24:42,514
THAT FITS ME MORE THAN AUTISM

593
00:24:42,581 --> 00:24:43,281
SPECTRUM DISORDER.

594
00:24:43,348 --> 00:24:46,685
BUT WHAT I LEARNED WAS THE MUSIC

595
00:24:46,751 --> 00:24:47,886
HAD BEEN MY SOCIALIZING

596
00:24:47,953 --> 00:24:48,253
INSTRUMENT.

597
00:24:48,320 --> 00:24:50,322
SO I HAD A HARDER TIME MAKING

598
00:24:50,388 --> 00:24:53,058
FRIENDS, I DIDN'T LIKE HANGING

599
00:24:53,124 --> 00:24:54,259
OUT, I NEVER FOLLOWED FASHION

600
00:24:54,326 --> 00:24:54,492
TRENDS.

601
00:24:54,559 --> 00:24:57,662
IT'S HARD TO TELL NOW, AS TRENDY

602
00:24:57,729 --> 00:25:00,665
AS I AM, BUT MUSIC WAS MY

603
00:25:00,732 --> 00:25:01,933
CONNECTION, WHERE I COULD TALK

604
00:25:02,000 --> 00:25:03,802
TO PEOPLE WITHOUT ACTUALLY

605
00:25:03,869 --> 00:25:04,669
SAYING A WORD.

606
00:25:04,736 --> 00:25:08,373
I THINK IT WAS GOOD THAT US

607
00:25:08,440 --> 00:25:10,442
MUSIC WAS THERE FIRST SO WHEN

608
00:25:10,508 --> 00:25:13,979
THE DIAGNOSIS CAME I KNEW WHICH

609
00:25:14,045 --> 00:25:16,381
TOOLBOX TO REACH IN.

610
00:25:16,448 --> 00:25:17,582
>> THANK YOU, LAURA.

611
00:25:17,649 --> 00:25:19,551
AND JOHN, CAN YOU TELL US ABOUT

612
00:25:19,618 --> 00:25:21,186
YOURSELF AND YOU WHO YOU GOT

613
00:25:21,253 --> 00:25:24,689
INTO FILM MAKING AND YOUR

614
00:25:24,756 --> 00:25:27,959
JOURNEY WITH NEURODIVERGENCE?

615
00:25:28,026 --> 00:25:29,828
>> BEFORE I INTRODUCE MYSELF, A

616
00:25:29,895 --> 00:25:33,331
SHOUT OUT TO MY CLASS, TEACH

617
00:25:33,398 --> 00:25:34,099
DISABILITY STUDIES AT NORTHERN

618
00:25:34,165 --> 00:25:35,166
ARIZONA UNIVERSITY, THIS IS MY

619
00:25:35,233 --> 00:25:36,167
SCHEDULED CLASS TIME.

620
00:25:36,234 --> 00:25:37,602
THEY WERE HOPING FOR A DAY OFF

621
00:25:37,669 --> 00:25:40,405
FROM CLASS BUT THEY ARE ALL ON

622
00:25:40,472 --> 00:25:41,406
ZOOM UP THERE WATCHING.

623
00:25:41,473 --> 00:25:44,276
SO I WANTED TO GIVE THEM A SHOUT

624
00:25:44,342 --> 00:25:44,576
OUT.

625
00:25:44,643 --> 00:25:45,377
SO I'M JOHN.

626
00:25:45,443 --> 00:25:47,679
AND I HAD BEEN MAKING FILMS

627
00:25:47,746 --> 00:25:49,748
SINCE I WAS A KID.

628
00:25:49,814 --> 00:25:52,150
MY FAMILY HAD A VHS RECORDER, ME

629
00:25:52,217 --> 00:25:53,585
AND MY BROTHERS WOULD MAKE SHORT

630
00:25:53,652 --> 00:25:54,119
FILMS.

631
00:25:54,185 --> 00:25:56,554
IT WAS SOMETHING THAT I ALWAYS

632
00:25:56,621 --> 00:25:57,389
REALLY ENJOYED.

633
00:25:57,455 --> 00:25:58,823
IT FOLLOWED ME THROUGH MY

634
00:25:58,890 --> 00:25:59,391
COLLEGE YEARS.

635
00:25:59,457 --> 00:26:04,095
I GOT A BACHELOR'S DEGREE IN

636
00:26:04,162 --> 00:26:05,063
POLITICAL SCIENCE, I WANTED TO

637
00:26:05,130 --> 00:26:08,500
CHANGE THE WORLD.

638
00:26:08,566 --> 00:26:09,801
AFTER I GRADUATED, I HAD NO

639
00:26:09,868 --> 00:26:11,736
DIRECTION, DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO

640
00:26:11,803 --> 00:26:15,941
CHANGEED  -- THE WORLD OR EVEN

641
00:26:16,007 --> 00:26:17,676
NETWORK OR FIND A PATH.

642
00:26:17,742 --> 00:26:19,311
I WAS FLOATING AROUND DOING

643
00:26:19,377 --> 00:26:21,179
JOBS, A BAGEL BAKER, AND THEN I

644
00:26:21,246 --> 00:26:23,682
GOT INSPIRED WITH THE

645
00:26:23,748 --> 00:26:25,450
INDEPENDENT FILM MOVEMENT.

646
00:26:25,517 --> 00:26:26,985
THE MOVE, CLERKS, OTHER MOVIES

647
00:26:27,052 --> 00:26:28,186
WERE COMING OUT, PEOPLE WERE

648
00:26:28,253 --> 00:26:34,192
MAKING GREAT FILMS WITH ALMOST

649
00:26:34,259 --> 00:26:34,926
NO BUDGET.

650
00:26:34,993 --> 00:26:37,262
I HAD NO MONEY, A BAGEL BAKER,

651
00:26:37,329 --> 00:26:40,398
ASKED MY PARENTS TO HELP ME BUY

652
00:26:40,465 --> 00:26:41,066
A CAMERA.

653
00:26:41,132 --> 00:26:44,669
A PITCH I SOLD TO MY DATA, I

654
00:26:44,736 --> 00:26:48,506
GREW UP IN RURAL OHIO OUTSIDE

655
00:26:48,573 --> 00:26:48,773
CLEVELAND.

656
00:26:48,840 --> 00:26:51,276
AND OLD TRAIN WENT BY THE

657
00:26:51,343 --> 00:26:52,010
COMMUNITY ABANDONED SINCE THE

658
00:26:52,077 --> 00:26:53,578
'30s BUT THE TRAIN BED WAS

659
00:26:53,645 --> 00:26:53,778
THERE.

660
00:26:53,845 --> 00:26:55,413
AS A KID WE WALKED THE TRAIN BED

661
00:26:55,480 --> 00:26:57,048
AND WOULD LOOK FOR RAILROAD

662
00:26:57,115 --> 00:26:59,484
SPIKES AND ANY OTHER KIND OF

663
00:26:59,551 --> 00:27:00,752
RELIC OF THE PAST.

664
00:27:00,819 --> 00:27:03,188
IT WAS SOMETHING THAT'S LARGELY

665
00:27:03,254 --> 00:27:05,357
FORGOTTEN BY MOST PEOPLE, BUT IN

666
00:27:05,423 --> 00:27:07,993
MY FAMILY IT HAD A TREMENDOUS

667
00:27:08,059 --> 00:27:08,326
SIGNIFICANCE.

668
00:27:08,393 --> 00:27:09,995
I TOLD MY DAD THAT, WITH THIS

669
00:27:10,061 --> 00:27:12,630
CAMERA, I'D MAKE A FILM ABOUT

670
00:27:12,697 --> 00:27:13,531
THIS TRAIN.

671
00:27:13,598 --> 00:27:16,334
I NEVER ACTUALLY MADE THAT FILM.

672
00:27:16,401 --> 00:27:19,537
BUT THE ENTIRE TIME I WAS MAKING

673
00:27:19,604 --> 00:27:20,939
SOUND TRACKS, I WAS THINKING

674
00:27:21,006 --> 00:27:22,707
ABOUT MY DAD, ABOUT THE TRAIN.

675
00:27:22,774 --> 00:27:25,710
HERE I AM FINALLY MAKING A

676
00:27:25,777 --> 00:27:28,346
MOVIE, MAYBE DIFFERENT SUBJECT,

677
00:27:28,413 --> 00:27:29,414
BUT STILL ABOUT TRAINS.

678
00:27:29,481 --> 00:27:31,483
SO THEN I MOVED TO ARIZONA.

679
00:27:31,549 --> 00:27:34,152
I WORKED IN A GROUP HOME WITH

680
00:27:34,219 --> 00:27:35,653
ADULTS WITH DEVELOPMENTAL

681
00:27:35,720 --> 00:27:36,087
DISABILITIES.

682
00:27:36,154 --> 00:27:38,289
THAT WAS MY INTRODUCTION TO

683
00:27:38,356 --> 00:27:39,057
AUTISM.

684
00:27:39,124 --> 00:27:43,128
I WORKED WITH SEVERAL DIFFERENT

685
00:27:43,194 --> 00:27:44,863
PEOPLE ON VARIOUS PLACES WITHIN

686
00:27:44,929 --> 00:27:45,497
THE SPECTRUM.

687
00:27:45,563 --> 00:27:48,133
AND I WORKED WITH SOME PEOPLE

688
00:27:48,199 --> 00:27:49,567
THAT HAD VERY CHALLENGING

689
00:27:49,634 --> 00:27:50,869
BEHAVIOR RELATED TO THEIR

690
00:27:50,935 --> 00:27:51,970
AUTISM, WORKED ON SOME PEOPLE

691
00:27:52,037 --> 00:27:55,707
WHO ARE LESS ISSUES WITH IT, BUT

692
00:27:55,774 --> 00:27:57,609
I REALLY BECAME INVOLVED IN THE

693
00:27:57,675 --> 00:27:57,876
COMMUNITY.

694
00:27:57,942 --> 00:27:59,411
AND REALLY THE DISABILITY

695
00:27:59,477 --> 00:28:00,745
COMMUNITY AS A WHOLE.

696
00:28:00,812 --> 00:28:06,551
AND I DECIDED AFTER TEN YEARS OF

697
00:28:06,618 --> 00:28:07,419
JUST WORKING AS DIRECT CARE

698
00:28:07,485 --> 00:28:12,123
STAFF I WANTED TO DO, GOT A

699
00:28:12,190 --> 00:28:13,291
DEGREE IN SPECIAL EDUCATION, TO

700
00:28:13,358 --> 00:28:14,092
HELP CHILDREN, SOMETHING I

701
00:28:14,159 --> 00:28:15,727
WANTED TO DO, GIVE ME A NEW

702
00:28:15,794 --> 00:28:16,461
PATH, NEW DIRECTION.

703
00:28:16,528 --> 00:28:19,030
AND WHILE I WAS WORKING ON MY

704
00:28:19,097 --> 00:28:20,165
MASTER'S DEGREE, I WAS HOOKED UP

705
00:28:20,231 --> 00:28:22,500
WITH A FACULTY THAT WAS ALSO

706
00:28:22,567 --> 00:28:24,069
INTERESTED IN VIDEOS, WE CAME UP

707
00:28:24,135 --> 00:28:26,571
WITH THIS PROJECT WHERE WE USED

708
00:28:26,638 --> 00:28:29,507
FILM MAKING PROCESS TO TEACH

709
00:28:29,574 --> 00:28:31,176
SELF-ADVOCACY SKILLS TO

710
00:28:31,242 --> 00:28:31,910
INDIVIDUALS WITH DEVELOPMENTAL

711
00:28:31,976 --> 00:28:32,377
DISABILITIES.

712
00:28:32,444 --> 00:28:34,212
AND IT WAS REALLY FUN BECAUSE WE

713
00:28:34,279 --> 00:28:36,081
JUST BASICALLY MADE A FICTIONAL

714
00:28:36,147 --> 00:28:36,381
MOVIE.

715
00:28:36,448 --> 00:28:38,383
WE MADE THIS SCRIPT.

716
00:28:38,450 --> 00:28:39,684
WE TALKED ABOUT WHAT DO YOU WANT

717
00:28:39,751 --> 00:28:40,985
TO DO WITH YOUR LIFE?

718
00:28:41,052 --> 00:28:42,754
ONE OF THEM WANTED TO BE A SIGN

719
00:28:42,821 --> 00:28:43,721
LANGUAGE TEACHER.

720
00:28:43,788 --> 00:28:45,790
ONE WANTED TO BE A MECHANIC.

721
00:28:45,857 --> 00:28:48,093
SO WE MADE THIS FILM WHERE ONE

722
00:28:48,159 --> 00:28:50,195
WAS A MECHANIC, ONE WAS A SIGN

723
00:28:50,261 --> 00:28:51,729
LANGUAGE TEACHER.

724
00:28:51,796 --> 00:28:53,231
THE MECHANIC GOES, LEARNS SIGN

725
00:28:53,298 --> 00:28:54,799
FROM THE SIGN LANGUAGE TEACHER

726
00:28:54,866 --> 00:28:57,635
IN ORDER THAT THEY CAN ASK A

727
00:28:57,702 --> 00:28:59,804
DEAF WOMAN TO DANCE WITH THEM AT

728
00:28:59,871 --> 00:29:00,338
A DANCE.

729
00:29:00,405 --> 00:29:01,806
AND SO IT WAS REALLY GREAT TO

730
00:29:01,873 --> 00:29:06,077
SEE LIKE THE  POW VIDEO AND DO

731
00:29:06,144 --> 00:29:09,547
DIFFERENT THINGS WITH IT.

732
00:29:09,614 --> 00:29:11,649
AND THEN I GRADUATED, DIDN'T GO

733
00:29:11,716 --> 00:29:12,417
INTO SPECIAL EDUCATION, STARTED

734
00:29:12,484 --> 00:29:14,252
MY FAMILY.

735
00:29:14,319 --> 00:29:16,154
I WAS THE STAY-AT-HOME DAD,

736
00:29:16,221 --> 00:29:18,656
STARTED TEACHING PART TIME IN

737
00:29:18,723 --> 00:29:19,624
DISABILITIES PROGRAM AT NORTHERN

738
00:29:19,691 --> 00:29:21,726
ARIZONA UNIVERSITY.

739
00:29:21,793 --> 00:29:22,827
THAT SAME FACULTY ADVISOR

740
00:29:22,894 --> 00:29:24,896
APPROACHED ME AND SAID THEY JUST

741
00:29:24,963 --> 00:29:28,500
MET THIS PERSON WITH AUTISM,

742
00:29:28,566 --> 00:29:30,034
LAUREN NEAGLE, STARTING TO DO

743
00:29:30,101 --> 00:29:31,669
SPEAKING ENGAGEMENTS, CAN YOU

744
00:29:31,736 --> 00:29:32,537
MAKE A YouTube VIDEO ABOUT

745
00:29:32,604 --> 00:29:37,575
HER TO HELP HER WITH HER CAREER

746
00:29:37,642 --> 00:29:37,842
SPEAKING.

747
00:29:37,909 --> 00:29:40,311
I MET LAURA.

748
00:29:40,378 --> 00:29:42,280
WE HAD COFFEE.

749
00:29:42,347 --> 00:29:43,715
I LEFT THE COFFEE SHOP AND SAID

750
00:29:43,781 --> 00:29:46,317
THERE'S NO WAY I JUST WANT TO

751
00:29:46,384 --> 00:29:47,385
MAKE A YouTube VIDEO, LET'S

752
00:29:47,452 --> 00:29:49,387
STRIKE TO MAKE A REAL FILM, A

753
00:29:49,454 --> 00:29:51,456
FILM FESTIVAL FILM.

754
00:29:51,523 --> 00:29:52,257
SO WE DID THAT.

755
00:29:52,323 --> 00:29:54,425
WE MADE IT UP AS WE WENT.

756
00:29:54,492 --> 00:29:57,061
AND THAT FILM WENT ON TO PLAY IN

757
00:29:57,128 --> 00:29:59,464
FILM FESTIVALS ALL AROUND THE

758
00:29:59,531 --> 00:30:00,999
WORLD, ONE FIVE AWARDS, IT WAS

759
00:30:01,065 --> 00:30:01,766
REALLY GREAT.

760
00:30:01,833 --> 00:30:05,370
IT REACHED A WHOLE NEW AUDIENCE

761
00:30:05,436 --> 00:30:07,238
WITH A MESSAGE OF ACCEPTANCE AND

762
00:30:07,305 --> 00:30:07,672
APPRECIATION.

763
00:30:07,739 --> 00:30:09,207
AND SINCE THAT FILM I'VE MADE

764
00:30:09,274 --> 00:30:10,742
ANOTHER THREE OR FOUR FILMS

765
00:30:10,808 --> 00:30:12,277
ABOUT PEOPLE WITH AUTISM.

766
00:30:12,343 --> 00:30:13,912
I'VE MADE SEVERAL FILMS ABOUT

767
00:30:13,978 --> 00:30:16,514
OTHER PEOPLE WITH OTHER

768
00:30:16,581 --> 00:30:17,615
DISABILITIES, CEREBRAL PALSY,

769
00:30:17,682 --> 00:30:19,918
CHRONIC PAIN, THINGS LIKE THAT.

770
00:30:19,984 --> 00:30:20,919
SO IT'S SOMETHING THAT IT'S

771
00:30:20,985 --> 00:30:22,220
REALLY IMPORTANT TO ME.

772
00:30:22,287 --> 00:30:25,690
AND SOMETHING THAT I REALLY

773
00:30:25,757 --> 00:30:26,057
ENJOY DOING.

774
00:30:26,124 --> 00:30:28,092
IN TERMS OF MY NEURODIVERGENCE,

775
00:30:28,159 --> 00:30:29,994
THIS IS A VERY NEW CONVERSATION

776
00:30:30,061 --> 00:30:31,529
FOR ME.

777
00:30:31,596 --> 00:30:33,398
I'VE ONLY PUBLICLY STATED THAT

778
00:30:33,464 --> 00:30:33,665
RECENTLY.

779
00:30:33,731 --> 00:30:36,434
I HAVE NO OFFICIAL DIAGNOSIS.

780
00:30:36,501 --> 00:30:38,436
AND I KNOW THAT MAYBE SOME

781
00:30:38,503 --> 00:30:42,340
PEOPLE IN THIS CROWD THAT MIGHT

782
00:30:42,407 --> 00:30:43,007
FEEL LEGITIMIZED, MY

783
00:30:43,074 --> 00:30:43,675
PERSPECTIVE, I UNDERSTAND THAT

784
00:30:43,741 --> 00:30:44,709
AND I GET IT.

785
00:30:44,776 --> 00:30:47,712
I WAS ONE OF THE PEOPLE ARGUING

786
00:30:47,779 --> 00:30:48,613
AGAINST SELF-IDENTIFICATION.

787
00:30:48,680 --> 00:30:50,248
I WAS ALSO ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE

788
00:30:50,315 --> 00:30:55,019
THAT WAS ARGUING AGAINST WHEN

789
00:30:55,086 --> 00:30:56,321
THE TERM NEURODIVERGENT GOT

790
00:30:56,387 --> 00:30:57,355
BIGGER.

791
00:30:57,422 --> 00:31:03,828
BACK IN THE DAY IT MEANT SLOW

792
00:31:03,895 --> 00:31:08,833
SUPPORT NEEDS AUTISTIC PEOPLE.

793
00:31:08,900 --> 00:31:10,568
THEN DYSLEXIA UNDER THIS

794
00:31:10,635 --> 00:31:11,803
UMBRELLA TERM, SOMETHING I

795
00:31:11,869 --> 00:31:13,204
WASN'T COMPLETELY COMFORTABLE

796
00:31:13,271 --> 00:31:14,405
WITH.

797
00:31:14,472 --> 00:31:15,240
SOMEONE WHO VALUES ACCURACY, AND

798
00:31:15,306 --> 00:31:17,141
SO I HAD A LITTLE STRUGGLE WITH

799
00:31:17,208 --> 00:31:17,775
IT.

800
00:31:17,842 --> 00:31:20,311
BUT IT WAS ACTUALLY LAURA, SHE

801
00:31:20,378 --> 00:31:22,180
WAS PRESENTING AT MY CLASS, I

802
00:31:22,247 --> 00:31:24,816
HAD A STUDENT WHO SAID THEY HADS

803
00:31:24,882 --> 00:31:27,418
ADHD AND IDENTIFIED AS

804
00:31:27,485 --> 00:31:27,785
NEURODIVERGENT.

805
00:31:27,852 --> 00:31:28,620
I ASKED LAURA, WHAT DO YOU THINK

806
00:31:28,686 --> 00:31:28,953
ABOUT THAT?

807
00:31:29,020 --> 00:31:30,922
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT THIS

808
00:31:30,989 --> 00:31:33,091
TERM GETTING BIGGER AND

809
00:31:33,157 --> 00:31:33,358
EXPANDING?

810
00:31:33,424 --> 00:31:36,928
SHE SAID, THE MORE THE MERRIER.

811
00:31:36,995 --> 00:31:39,030
AND BASICALLY THAT THE MORE

812
00:31:39,097 --> 00:31:41,099
PEOPLE THAT IDENTIFY WITHIN THIS

813
00:31:41,165 --> 00:31:42,467
COMMUNITY, THE MORE THAT OUR

814
00:31:42,533 --> 00:31:44,736
SOCIETY IS GOING TO BE ABLE TO

815
00:31:44,802 --> 00:31:46,571
ADAPT TO PEOPLE WHO THINK

816
00:31:46,638 --> 00:31:49,741
DIFFERENTLY OR EXPERIENCE THE

817
00:31:49,807 --> 00:31:51,276
WORLD DIFFERENTLY, WHO HAVE

818
00:31:51,342 --> 00:31:52,277
SENSORY PERCEPTIONS DIFFERENTLY.

819
00:31:52,343 --> 00:31:54,345
SO I STARTED TO BE ABLE TO FEEL

820
00:31:54,412 --> 00:31:54,879
COMFORTABLE WITH IT.

821
00:31:54,946 --> 00:31:56,514
I'VE BEEN IN THE COMMUNITY FOR A

822
00:31:56,581 --> 00:31:59,384
VERY LONG TIME.

823
00:31:59,450 --> 00:32:01,019
WORKING WITH THEM, TEACHING

824
00:32:01,085 --> 00:32:04,656
PEOPLE ABOUT DISABILITIES, AND

825
00:32:04,722 --> 00:32:06,257
TEACHING STUDENTS WITH AUTISM.

826
00:32:06,324 --> 00:32:08,559
I KNOW LIKE BLAIR SAID WE ALL

827
00:32:08,626 --> 00:32:10,762
KNOW THAT WE'RE DIFFERENT AS

828
00:32:10,828 --> 00:32:10,962
KIDS.

829
00:32:11,029 --> 00:32:14,232
OUR PEERS LET US KNOW THAT.

830
00:32:14,299 --> 00:32:16,334
WE KNOW BY OUR BEHAVIORS.

831
00:32:16,401 --> 00:32:17,201
MOST PEOPLE AREN'T TERRIFIED OF

832
00:32:17,268 --> 00:32:20,605
THE PHONE LIKE I WAS.

833
00:32:20,672 --> 00:32:22,340
MY COLLEGE ROOMMATE ONCE SAID TO

834
00:32:22,407 --> 00:32:24,742
ME, I'VE NEVER HEARD YOU LISTEN

835
00:32:24,809 --> 00:32:26,611
TO A WHOLE SONG, I WAS LIKE,

836
00:32:26,678 --> 00:32:28,246
WELL, BECAUSE YOU GET TO THE

837
00:32:28,313 --> 00:32:29,681
SECOND CHORUS AND YOU JUST MOVE

838
00:32:29,747 --> 00:32:31,482
ON, RIGHT?

839
00:32:31,549 --> 00:32:33,818
YOU FLIP OVER.

840
00:32:33,885 --> 00:32:35,820
I ALWAYS KNEW THAT I EXPERIENCED

841
00:32:35,887 --> 00:32:38,022
THE WORLD DIFFERENTLY THAN MY

842
00:32:38,089 --> 00:32:38,556
TYPICAL PEERS.

843
00:32:38,623 --> 00:32:44,896
AND IT WAS ONLY AFTER THE

844
00:32:44,962 --> 00:32:45,530
CONVERSATION WITHIN THE

845
00:32:45,596 --> 00:32:46,764
NEURODIVERGENT COMMUNITY THAT I

846
00:32:46,831 --> 00:32:47,832
FEEL COMFORTABLE STATING THAT.

847
00:32:47,899 --> 00:32:50,468
AND I'M NOT TRYING TO GET

848
00:32:50,535 --> 00:32:51,336
ACCOMMODATIONS, AND I'M NOT

849
00:32:51,402 --> 00:32:56,040
TRYING TO BE SOME SORT OF LIKE

850
00:32:56,107 --> 00:32:56,774
REPRESENTATIVE OF THE

851
00:32:56,841 --> 00:32:57,575
NEURODIVERSE COMMUNITY AT ALL.

852
00:32:57,642 --> 00:33:00,778
I UNDERSTAND THERE ARE PEOPLE

853
00:33:00,845 --> 00:33:02,213
THAT HAVE REALLY GREAT NEEDS.

854
00:33:02,280 --> 00:33:03,214
AND THAT THERE'S A LOT OF

855
00:33:03,281 --> 00:33:04,849
SUPPORT THAT WE NEED TO PROVIDE.

856
00:33:04,916 --> 00:33:06,818
I'M NOT TRYING TO TAKE ANYTHING

857
00:33:06,884 --> 00:33:07,552
AWAY FROM THAT.

858
00:33:07,618 --> 00:33:13,658
JUST LIKE IN THE FILM, "SOUND

859
00:33:13,725 --> 00:33:15,093
TRACKS," THERE'S THINGS THAT

860
00:33:15,159 --> 00:33:16,994
HAPPEN, CHALLENGES, NOT JUST ALL

861
00:33:17,061 --> 00:33:17,628
ABOUT APPRECIATION.

862
00:33:17,695 --> 00:33:19,297
I WANT TO MAKE THAT POINT CLEAR.

863
00:33:19,364 --> 00:33:20,932
FOR ME BEING PART OF THE

864
00:33:20,998 --> 00:33:21,833
COMMUNITY THAT HAS REALLY

865
00:33:21,899 --> 00:33:23,668
WELCOMED ME, THAT'S THE PART I

866
00:33:23,735 --> 00:33:25,536
FEEL GOOD ABOUT IT.

867
00:33:25,603 --> 00:33:27,705
THAT, YOU KNOW, I COULD TALK TO

868
00:33:27,772 --> 00:33:30,007
LAURA AND BLAIR AND WE

869
00:33:30,074 --> 00:33:30,475
UNDERSTAND.

870
00:33:30,541 --> 00:33:31,642
WE'RE EXPERIENCING THINGS IN

871
00:33:31,709 --> 00:33:33,077
VERY, VERY SIMILAR WAYS.

872
00:33:33,144 --> 00:33:41,819
AND FOR ME, THAT'S WHAT IT'S ALL

873
00:33:41,886 --> 00:33:42,186
ABOUT.

874
00:33:42,253 --> 00:33:43,955
>> ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME YOU

875
00:33:44,021 --> 00:33:45,189
NEVER LISTENED TO MY SONGS ALL

876
00:33:45,256 --> 00:33:46,891
THE WAY THROUGH?

877
00:33:46,958 --> 00:33:48,926
>> THERE'S AN END TO YOUR SONGS?

878
00:33:48,993 --> 00:33:49,694
>> THANK YOU, JOHN.

879
00:33:49,761 --> 00:33:52,497
I'M GOING TO ASK YOU TO TELL US

880
00:33:52,563 --> 00:33:53,498
WHAT INSPIRED YOU IN THE

881
00:33:53,564 --> 00:33:55,166
CREATION OF THIS FILM AND WHAT

882
00:33:55,233 --> 00:33:57,135
YOU'RE EXCITED ABOUT AS YOU

883
00:33:57,201 --> 00:34:00,204
CREATED IT?

884
00:34:00,271 --> 00:34:01,639
>> I CAN DO THAT, YEAH.

885
00:34:01,706 --> 00:34:05,810
IS THAT THE BATTING ORDER?

886
00:34:05,877 --> 00:34:06,544
OKAY, I'LL GO FIRST.

887
00:34:06,611 --> 00:34:10,281
HOW DO YOU SAY NO TO DENISE?

888
00:34:10,348 --> 00:34:11,849
IT WAS SUCH A COMPELLING

889
00:34:11,916 --> 00:34:13,151
PRESENTATION BECAUSE I REMEMBER

890
00:34:13,217 --> 00:34:15,887
WHEN I FIRST GOT THE E-MAIL FROM

891
00:34:15,953 --> 00:34:18,289
TOM AT FIRST PLACE, I WAS LIKE,

892
00:34:18,356 --> 00:34:21,125
I COULDN'T WRAP MY HEAD AROUND

893
00:34:21,192 --> 00:34:24,228
WHAT YOU WERE ENVISIONING,

894
00:34:24,295 --> 00:34:28,599
TRYING TO DECIPHER FROM TEXT.

895
00:34:28,666 --> 00:34:38,009
I'M ALSO SEVERELY DYSLEXIC.

896
00:34:38,075 --> 00:34:39,210
WHEN THE PROJECT WAS SENT TO ME,

897
00:34:39,277 --> 00:34:40,845
I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GOING TO DO

898
00:34:40,912 --> 00:34:41,612
THIS.

899
00:34:41,679 --> 00:34:47,952
ONCE I SAW THE FILM

900
00:34:48,019 --> 00:34:49,720
, BLAIR WATCHING THE TRAIN, I

901
00:34:49,787 --> 00:34:50,254
CAN'T STOP.

902
00:34:50,321 --> 00:34:53,424
I WANT TO KEEP WORKING ON THIS.

903
00:34:53,491 --> 00:34:54,625
THERE WAS SOMETHING COMPELLING

904
00:34:54,692 --> 00:34:55,526
ABOUT YOUR ENERGY.

905
00:34:55,593 --> 00:34:56,928
I LOVE TRAINS, BUT NOT TO THE

906
00:34:56,994 --> 00:34:58,029
SAME EXTENT YOU DO.

907
00:34:58,096 --> 00:35:04,936
I'M LOOKING AT PICTURES OF

908
00:35:05,002 --> 00:35:07,205
TRAINS, ORANGE, YELLOW, ALL I

909
00:35:07,271 --> 00:35:09,841
COULD HEAR WAS THE "ORANGE

910
00:35:09,907 --> 00:35:11,142
BLOSSOM SPECIAL."

911
00:35:11,209 --> 00:35:14,011
I SAW HOW EXCITED HE GOT, AND

912
00:35:14,078 --> 00:35:15,012
THERE WAS THIS DESCRIPTION.

913
00:35:15,079 --> 00:35:16,614
I DON'T KNOW IF IT WAS IN THE

914
00:35:16,681 --> 00:35:19,784
FILM, SOME OF THE FOOTAGE, A

915
00:35:19,851 --> 00:35:21,018
DESCRIPTION YOU GAVE, BLAIR,

916
00:35:21,085 --> 00:35:22,086
ABOUT THE WOODS, BEING ON THE

917
00:35:22,153 --> 00:35:24,489
EDGE OF THE WOODS AND THE TRAIN

918
00:35:24,555 --> 00:35:26,591
PASSING BY, HOW THAT ENERGY OF

919
00:35:26,657 --> 00:35:28,159
THE WOODS SOMEHOW CONTRIBUTED TO

920
00:35:28,226 --> 00:35:28,359
THAT.

921
00:35:28,426 --> 00:35:29,861
WHEN YOU LISTEN TO THE PIECE

922
00:35:29,927 --> 00:35:31,195
THAT I COMPOSED, THERE'S SOME

923
00:35:31,262 --> 00:35:35,032
HIDDEN TREASURES FOR YOU IN

924
00:35:35,099 --> 00:35:39,170
THERE ABOUT THIS FILM.

925
00:35:39,237 --> 00:35:41,572
ONE, HARMONIES ARE IN TRITONE,

926
00:35:41,639 --> 00:35:45,076
COMMON FOR TRAIN ENGINES, THREE

927
00:35:45,142 --> 00:35:45,276
TONES.

928
00:35:45,343 --> 00:35:47,044
THE SOFT PART IN THE MIDDLE IS

929
00:35:47,111 --> 00:35:48,246
THE WOODS SPEAKING TO BLAIR

930
00:35:48,312 --> 00:35:49,881
WHILE HE'S LISTENING TO THE

931
00:35:49,947 --> 00:35:51,082
TRAIN AND YOU'RE FEELING THE

932
00:35:51,148 --> 00:35:51,682
WIND PASS.

933
00:35:51,749 --> 00:35:53,050
THE RUMBLE AT THE BEGINNING WAS

934
00:35:53,117 --> 00:35:55,820
SOMETHING YOU MENTIONED ABOUT

935
00:35:55,887 --> 00:35:56,754
THE TRACKS RUMBLING BEFORE THE

936
00:35:56,821 --> 00:35:57,321
TRAIN CAME.

937
00:35:57,388 --> 00:35:58,556
ALL THAT HE TALKED ABOUT ENDED

938
00:35:58,623 --> 00:36:00,491
UP IN THE SCORE.

939
00:36:00,558 --> 00:36:08,799
I WAS INSPIRED BY BLAIR.

940
00:36:11,636 --> 00:36:14,505
>> MINE IS -- APOLOGIZE FOR MY

941
00:36:14,572 --> 00:36:15,740
BREVITY, BUT I GOT CALLED BY

942
00:36:15,806 --> 00:36:16,173
TOM.

943
00:36:16,240 --> 00:36:18,142
HE SAID, DO YOU WANT TO DO A

944
00:36:18,209 --> 00:36:20,545
FILM ABOUT WATCHING TRAINS?

945
00:36:20,611 --> 00:36:22,179
AND THAT'S ONE OF THE MORE

946
00:36:22,246 --> 00:36:25,483
SIMPLE QUESTIONS I COULD EVER

947
00:36:25,550 --> 00:36:25,716
ANSWER.

948
00:36:25,783 --> 00:36:27,885
YES, YES, I LIKE TO WATCH THINS,

949
00:36:27,952 --> 00:36:29,320
THERE'S GOING TO BE A GUY WITH A

950
00:36:29,387 --> 00:36:30,521
CAMERA NEXT TO YOU.

951
00:36:30,588 --> 00:36:33,024
LESS EXCITED ABOUT THAT BUT

952
00:36:33,090 --> 00:36:36,561
GOING OUT INTO THE FOREST AND

953
00:36:36,627 --> 00:36:37,862
SEEING TRAINS, AS I KIND OF

954
00:36:37,929 --> 00:36:39,964
DESCRIBED IN THE FILM, THAT'S

955
00:36:40,031 --> 00:36:42,333
HOW I RECENTER.

956
00:36:42,400 --> 00:36:44,969
SO, YEAH, AFTER A LONG

957
00:36:45,036 --> 00:36:49,173
PRODUCTION, OR OTHER PRODUCTIONS

958
00:36:49,240 --> 00:36:50,474
WE'LL TALK ABOUT LATER, THERE IS

959
00:36:50,541 --> 00:36:52,543
A NEED FOR ME TO GO INTO THE

960
00:36:52,610 --> 00:36:57,582
FOREST AND WATCH A TRAIN.

961
00:36:57,648 --> 00:37:00,017
IT KIND OF GETS ME BACK TO -- IT

962
00:37:00,084 --> 00:37:01,652
GETS ME BACK TO A PLACE WHERE

963
00:37:01,719 --> 00:37:04,589
THE REST OF MY CAREER DOESN'T

964
00:37:04,655 --> 00:37:06,223
MATTER.

965
00:37:06,290 --> 00:37:08,759
AND WHAT PEOPLE PROBABLY SEE AS

966
00:37:08,826 --> 00:37:12,463
THE EXCITING PARTS OF MY CAREER

967
00:37:12,530 --> 00:37:13,531
ARE ACTUALLY NOT.

968
00:37:13,598 --> 00:37:15,967
TRUTH IS BEING IN THE FOREST OF

969
00:37:16,033 --> 00:37:18,169
NORTHERN ARIZONA, WATCHING A

970
00:37:18,235 --> 00:37:20,905
FREIGHT TRAIN GO BY IS THE BEE'S

971
00:37:20,972 --> 00:37:21,105
KNEES.

972
00:37:21,172 --> 00:37:22,306
ANY QUESTIONS THAT INVOLVES ME

973
00:37:22,373 --> 00:37:24,709
STANDING NEXT TO A TRAIN TRACK

974
00:37:24,775 --> 00:37:25,576
TAKING PICTURES OF TRAINS,

975
00:37:25,643 --> 00:37:27,545
OBVIOUSLY THE ANSWER IS GOING TO

976
00:37:27,612 --> 00:37:28,179
BE YES.

977
00:37:28,245 --> 00:37:31,015
SO THAT'S IT.

978
00:37:34,885 --> 00:37:36,354
>> I WAS INSPIRED RIGHT OFF THE

979
00:37:36,420 --> 00:37:36,687
BAT.

980
00:37:36,754 --> 00:37:39,423
I HAVE TO SAY A LITTLE BACK

981
00:37:39,490 --> 00:37:39,790
STORY.

982
00:37:39,857 --> 00:37:42,927
SO, FIRST PLACE, TOM AND DENISE,

983
00:37:42,994 --> 00:37:44,428
TOM ORTEGA IS HERE, HE HELPED

984
00:37:44,495 --> 00:37:46,664
PRODUCE, DOES A LOT OF WORK WITH

985
00:37:46,731 --> 00:37:47,431
FIRST PLACE.

986
00:37:47,498 --> 00:37:50,501
THEY ALREADY HAD THE NAME "SOUND

987
00:37:50,568 --> 00:37:52,870
TRACKS," ALREADY KNEW LAURA WAS

988
00:37:52,937 --> 00:37:55,172
GOING TO MAKE MUSIC TO BLAIR'S

989
00:37:55,239 --> 00:37:55,473
PHOTOGRAPHS.

990
00:37:55,539 --> 00:37:57,141
AND THEN THEY KIND OF BROUGHT ME

991
00:37:57,208 --> 00:38:02,513
ON JUST KIND OF TO DO LIKE A

992
00:38:02,580 --> 00:38:03,280
BEHIND-THE-SCENES, LIKE HOW THEY

993
00:38:03,347 --> 00:38:04,248
COMMUNICATE WITH EACH OTHER AND

994
00:38:04,315 --> 00:38:05,583
SHARE THEIR ART.

995
00:38:05,650 --> 00:38:07,451
WE TALKED ABOUT FILMING, LIKE

996
00:38:07,518 --> 00:38:09,620
ZOOM CALLS AND STUFF, OF THEM

997
00:38:09,687 --> 00:38:11,255
HAVING THIS CONVERSATION.

998
00:38:11,322 --> 00:38:12,390
AND HONESTLY THAT DIDN'T REALLY

999
00:38:12,456 --> 00:38:14,792
EXCITE ME AT ALL.

1000
00:38:14,859 --> 00:38:15,993
I WANTED TO DO MORE.

1001
00:38:16,060 --> 00:38:17,762
I LIKE TO TELL STORIES.

1002
00:38:17,828 --> 00:38:19,630
I LIKE TO TELL STORIES IN

1003
00:38:19,697 --> 00:38:22,233
DIFFERENT KINDS OF WAYS.

1004
00:38:22,299 --> 00:38:25,403
SO WHAT REALLY INSPIRED ME WHEN

1005
00:38:25,469 --> 00:38:27,071
I ASKED TOM CAN I DO WHAT I WANT

1006
00:38:27,138 --> 00:38:28,272
TO DO WITH THIS?

1007
00:38:28,339 --> 00:38:30,541
AND HE SAID YES.

1008
00:38:30,608 --> 00:38:31,442
SO THE INSPIRATION.

1009
00:38:31,509 --> 00:38:33,177
AFTER THAT, ONCE THE THREE OF US

1010
00:38:33,244 --> 00:38:34,812
HAD THE FREEDOM TO CREATE THIS

1011
00:38:34,879 --> 00:38:36,347
PROJECT, AND THIS WAS ALL THREE

1012
00:38:36,414 --> 00:38:39,016
OF US, WE DID THIS TOGETHER.

1013
00:38:39,083 --> 00:38:40,418
BLAIR, YOU KNOW, HE HAD WHAT HE

1014
00:38:40,484 --> 00:38:41,185
WANTED TO SAY.

1015
00:38:41,252 --> 00:38:42,720
WE TALKED ABOUT WHAT HE WANTED

1016
00:38:42,787 --> 00:38:43,354
TO SAY.

1017
00:38:43,421 --> 00:38:44,689
LAURA TALKED ABOUT WHAT SHE

1018
00:38:44,755 --> 00:38:45,589
WANTED TO SAY.

1019
00:38:45,656 --> 00:38:47,324
SO IT WAS REALLY A COLLABORATION

1020
00:38:47,391 --> 00:38:48,426
BETWEEN ALL THREE OF US.

1021
00:38:48,492 --> 00:38:49,960
I JUST GOT TO PUT IT ALL

1022
00:38:50,027 --> 00:38:53,064
TOGETHER IN TEN MINUTES.

1023
00:38:55,800 --> 00:38:57,401
>> SO WHAT DO YOU HOPE PEOPLE

1024
00:38:57,468 --> 00:38:59,070
WILL TAKE AWAY FROM THIS FILM

1025
00:38:59,136 --> 00:39:00,337
WHEN THEY WATCH IT?

1026
00:39:00,404 --> 00:39:04,775
WHAT WERE YOU HOPING TO CONVEY?

1027
00:39:07,311 --> 00:39:09,880
>> I'LL START.

1028
00:39:09,947 --> 00:39:14,118
I WANTED IT TO BE HONEST.

1029
00:39:14,185 --> 00:39:16,821
GOING BACK TO EVEN THE PREVIOUS

1030
00:39:16,887 --> 00:39:18,389
QUESTION, LIKE THE REALITY OF

1031
00:39:18,456 --> 00:39:21,792
WHAT MY CAREER IS, WHAT PEOPLE

1032
00:39:21,859 --> 00:39:24,295
SEE, IS -- I ALLUDED TO IT IN

1033
00:39:24,361 --> 00:39:25,796
THE FILM.

1034
00:39:25,863 --> 00:39:27,298
IT'S MASKING, IN THE SENSE THAT

1035
00:39:27,364 --> 00:39:29,266
YOU WILL SEE THE IMAGES, YOU'LL

1036
00:39:29,333 --> 00:39:32,870
SEE THE CELEBRITIES, BUT THE

1037
00:39:32,937 --> 00:39:38,008
TRUTH IS THE EQUAL SIDE OF MY

1038
00:39:38,075 --> 00:39:40,811
LIFE IS UNFORTUNATELY IN

1039
00:39:40,878 --> 00:39:43,280
SITUATIONS I'M CRYING ON THE

1040
00:39:43,347 --> 00:39:47,218
BED, WITH FEARS OF NOT FITTING

1041
00:39:47,284 --> 00:39:48,085
IN.

1042
00:39:48,152 --> 00:39:48,486
INADEQUACY.

1043
00:39:48,552 --> 00:39:49,053
THAT'S STILL ONGOING.

1044
00:39:49,120 --> 00:39:53,124
IT'S NOT THE THING THAT GOES

1045
00:39:53,190 --> 00:39:57,695
AWAY, NO MATTER HOW LARGE

1046
00:39:57,762 --> 00:39:58,262
ACCOMPLISHMENTS HAVE BEEN.

1047
00:39:58,329 --> 00:39:59,897
I WANT TO MAKE SURE PEOPLE KNOW,

1048
00:39:59,964 --> 00:40:01,565
OBVIOUSLY FOR YEARS I WENT

1049
00:40:01,632 --> 00:40:02,867
THROUGH QUIETLY, BUT TO ME THAT

1050
00:40:02,933 --> 00:40:04,835
TELLS ME THAT SOMEBODY ELSE IS

1051
00:40:04,902 --> 00:40:06,804
GOING THROUGH IT QUIETLY TOO.

1052
00:40:06,871 --> 00:40:09,974
AND SO MY HOPE WAS TO BE HONEST

1053
00:40:10,040 --> 00:40:12,710
TO THE CAMERA AND TO JOHN DURING

1054
00:40:12,777 --> 00:40:15,813
THE FILM, SO THAT IF SOMEBODY

1055
00:40:15,880 --> 00:40:18,182
ELSE THAT SAW IT IS EXPERIENCING

1056
00:40:18,249 --> 00:40:20,918
THAT, THAT THEY KNOW THAT THEY

1057
00:40:20,985 --> 00:40:23,187
DON'T -- THEY ARE NOT ALONE IN

1058
00:40:23,254 --> 00:40:23,420
IT.

1059
00:40:23,487 --> 00:40:27,258
AND SO IT WAS MORE OF AN

1060
00:40:27,324 --> 00:40:30,427
OUTREACH TO THE PERSON I DON'T

1061
00:40:30,494 --> 00:40:34,031
KNOW, TO TRY AND GIVE THEM

1062
00:40:34,098 --> 00:40:35,766
COMFORT WITH KNOWING THAT THIS

1063
00:40:35,833 --> 00:40:38,836
IS A JOURNEY THAT DOESN'T MEAN

1064
00:40:38,903 --> 00:40:42,673
YOU'RE LIMITED.

1065
00:40:42,740 --> 00:40:46,644
AND THE DOWN SIDES OF SPECTRUM

1066
00:40:46,710 --> 00:40:48,245
IS THEY AREN'T NECESSARILY --

1067
00:40:48,312 --> 00:40:49,580
THEY MAY BE TOUGH AT THE TIME

1068
00:40:49,647 --> 00:40:51,682
BUT THERE ARE BENEFITS TO THEM

1069
00:40:51,749 --> 00:40:53,918
SOMEHOW.

1070
00:40:57,321 --> 00:41:00,424
>> I LIKE THAT WE HAVE A BUTTON

1071
00:41:00,491 --> 00:41:01,826
TO SPEAK.

1072
00:41:01,892 --> 00:41:05,362
I'M FASCINATED WITH THIS BUTTON.

1073
00:41:05,429 --> 00:41:06,897
I ACTUALLY THOUGHT I WAS PRETTY

1074
00:41:06,964 --> 00:41:08,532
MUCH DONE BEFORE THIS PROJECT

1075
00:41:08,599 --> 00:41:10,067
CAME UP.

1076
00:41:10,134 --> 00:41:11,268
I FIGURED NOBODY REALLY CARED

1077
00:41:11,335 --> 00:41:11,902
ABOUT ANYTHING I DID.

1078
00:41:11,969 --> 00:41:14,104
I DID A LOT OF WORK IN ADVOCACY

1079
00:41:14,171 --> 00:41:18,576
WHEN I WAS IN MY 20s AND

1080
00:41:18,642 --> 00:41:19,476
30's, SINGLE PARENT TO, TWO

1081
00:41:19,543 --> 00:41:20,911
KIDS, ONE ON THE SPECTRUM I

1082
00:41:20,978 --> 00:41:21,879
RAISED ON MY OWN.

1083
00:41:21,946 --> 00:41:23,848
I WORKED IN THE STATE OF GEORGIA

1084
00:41:23,914 --> 00:41:25,950
WITH EMORY UNIVERSITY, WITH ALL

1085
00:41:26,016 --> 00:41:27,818
THE COLLEGES THERE.

1086
00:41:27,885 --> 00:41:29,119
JUST TRYING TO HELP MAKE THE

1087
00:41:29,186 --> 00:41:30,321
WORLD A LITTLE BIT BETTER FOR

1088
00:41:30,387 --> 00:41:31,455
PEOPLE ON THE SPECTRUM.

1089
00:41:31,522 --> 00:41:33,691
I FELT LIKE THERE WERE A LOT OF

1090
00:41:33,757 --> 00:41:34,225
QUESTIONS.

1091
00:41:34,291 --> 00:41:36,327
THEN SUDDENLY IT WENT CRICKETS.

1092
00:41:36,393 --> 00:41:37,761
AND I COULDN'T QUITE FIGURE OUT

1093
00:41:37,828 --> 00:41:38,863
WHAT THAT WAS.

1094
00:41:38,929 --> 00:41:40,598
I DON'T -- I'M NOT SOME

1095
00:41:40,664 --> 00:41:43,234
EXTRAORDINARY PERSON, RIGHT?

1096
00:41:43,300 --> 00:41:44,969
I'M NOT SOMEBODY MEMORIZING PI

1097
00:41:45,035 --> 00:41:46,503
TO 24 POINTS OR WRITING

1098
00:41:46,570 --> 00:41:47,838
SYMPHONIES IN AN HOUR.

1099
00:41:47,905 --> 00:41:50,241
THAT'S NOT THE TYPE OF PERSON

1100
00:41:50,307 --> 00:41:52,543
THAT I AM.

1101
00:41:52,610 --> 00:41:56,180
SPECTACULARLY  MEDIOCRE, AND FUN

1102
00:41:56,247 --> 00:41:57,848
TO PROVE THAT PEOPLE WITH

1103
00:41:57,915 --> 00:41:59,483
DISABILITIES CAN JUST HAVE A

1104
00:41:59,550 --> 00:42:00,551
LIFE, JUST A NORMAL EVERYDAY

1105
00:42:00,618 --> 00:42:00,851
LIFE.

1106
00:42:00,918 --> 00:42:04,722
WE DON'T HAVE TO BE SOME SORT OF

1107
00:42:04,788 --> 00:42:06,824
SOURCE OF INSPIRATION OR WATCH

1108
00:42:06,891 --> 00:42:08,692
OUR STORY AND CRY.

1109
00:42:08,759 --> 00:42:11,095
YOU CAN SIT BACK AND ENJOY THE

1110
00:42:11,161 --> 00:42:12,630
FACT THAT WE CREATED THIS PIECE

1111
00:42:12,696 --> 00:42:13,831
OF ART DESPITE CHALLENGES

1112
00:42:13,898 --> 00:42:15,099
BROUGHT UP BY A DISABILITY.

1113
00:42:15,165 --> 00:42:17,001
I GUESS WHAT I HOPE PEOPLE TAKE

1114
00:42:17,067 --> 00:42:20,170
AWAY FROM THAT, I'M A

1115
00:42:20,237 --> 00:42:21,906
HARD-WORKING ARTIST THAT CREATES

1116
00:42:21,972 --> 00:42:22,973
EVERYTHING.

1117
00:42:23,040 --> 00:42:24,541
EVERY BIT OF MUSIC YOU'VE HEARD

1118
00:42:24,608 --> 00:42:25,943
IN I HAD ROOM HAS BEEN SOMETHING

1119
00:42:26,010 --> 00:42:30,981
I RECORDED ON MY OWN, ONLY ME,

1120
00:42:31,048 --> 00:42:33,517
NO OTHER MUSICIANS USING A MAC

1121
00:42:33,584 --> 00:42:34,818
BOOK.

1122
00:42:34,885 --> 00:42:37,621
YOU HEAR THE HORNS, THOSE ARE

1123
00:42:37,688 --> 00:42:38,656
MIDI, I WORK HARD TO MANIPULATE

1124
00:42:38,722 --> 00:42:39,657
TO GIVE YOU THE SOUND.

1125
00:42:39,723 --> 00:42:42,059
I LOVE TO BE ABLE TO DO MOVE, TO

1126
00:42:42,126 --> 00:42:47,298
DO THE DREAM I HAD AS A KID, TO

1127
00:42:47,364 --> 00:42:47,731
PLAY CARNEGIE HALL.

1128
00:42:47,798 --> 00:42:49,400
I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S IN THE

1129
00:42:49,466 --> 00:42:51,902
CARDS BUT I FELT THE EXPIRATION

1130
00:42:51,969 --> 00:42:56,173
SEDATE HIT -- EXPIRATION DATE

1131
00:42:56,240 --> 00:42:58,776
HIT, BEING OLDER.

1132
00:42:58,842 --> 00:43:01,845
I HIT 40, EVERYONE WENT, WHO ARE

1133
00:43:01,912 --> 00:43:02,179
YOU?

1134
00:43:02,246 --> 00:43:04,148
NOW CLOSER TO 50, I DON'T KNOW,

1135
00:43:04,214 --> 00:43:05,115
I FEEL INVISIBLE.

1136
00:43:05,182 --> 00:43:06,016
I THINK THERE'S A LOT OF WOMEN

1137
00:43:06,083 --> 00:43:08,319
IN THE ROOM THAT CAN ACTUALLY

1138
00:43:08,385 --> 00:43:10,421
FOLLOW ALONG WITH THIS STORY OF

1139
00:43:10,487 --> 00:43:11,822
FEELING LIKE YOU'RE FADING INTO

1140
00:43:11,889 --> 00:43:12,723
THE BACKGROUND, SOMETHING I

1141
00:43:12,790 --> 00:43:14,558
BROUGHT UP IN THE FILM.

1142
00:43:14,625 --> 00:43:16,760
I HOPE BY WATCHING THIS IT

1143
00:43:16,827 --> 00:43:18,062
BRINGS ATTENTION BACK.

1144
00:43:18,128 --> 00:43:20,030
HEY, WE'RE STILL AROUND, STILL

1145
00:43:20,097 --> 00:43:21,999
CREATING STUFF.

1146
00:43:22,066 --> 00:43:24,735
YEAH, MAYBE I DIDN'T INVENT THE

1147
00:43:24,802 --> 00:43:26,403
CURE TO CANCER, BUT I THINK IT

1148
00:43:26,470 --> 00:43:29,273
SOUNDS PRETTY COOL.

1149
00:43:34,878 --> 00:43:36,981
>> WELL, FOR ME, "SOUND TRACKS"

1150
00:43:37,047 --> 00:43:40,517
IS A MOVIE ABOUT SPACES, THE

1151
00:43:40,584 --> 00:43:42,152
SPACES AND THESE PLACES THAT

1152
00:43:42,219 --> 00:43:43,687
NEURODIVERGENT PEOPLE GO, PLACES

1153
00:43:43,754 --> 00:43:46,190
WHERE WE GO FOR OUR SANITY, TO

1154
00:43:46,256 --> 00:43:46,857
KEEP US GROUNDED.

1155
00:43:46,924 --> 00:43:49,460
BUT THERE ARE ALSO PLACES WE GO

1156
00:43:49,526 --> 00:43:50,661
TO CREATE.

1157
00:43:50,728 --> 00:43:52,429
AND ONE OF THE MESSAGES I'D LIKE

1158
00:43:52,496 --> 00:43:54,164
PEOPLE TO TAKE AWAY FROM THIS IS

1159
00:43:54,231 --> 00:43:56,467
THAT REALLY IF YOU'RE SOMEBODY

1160
00:43:56,533 --> 00:43:57,334
WHO IS NEURODIVERGENT OR YOU

1161
00:43:57,401 --> 00:43:59,436
HAVE A FAMILY MEMBER OR CHILD

1162
00:43:59,503 --> 00:44:02,006
THAT IS NEURODIVERGENT, LET HIM

1163
00:44:02,072 --> 00:44:03,140
PURSUE THOSE INTERESTS THEY ARE

1164
00:44:03,207 --> 00:44:05,542
REALLY INTERESTED IN.

1165
00:44:05,609 --> 00:44:07,411
LET THEM PURSUE THOSE PASSIONS.

1166
00:44:07,478 --> 00:44:09,046
SAND MAYBE THEY WILL BE ABLE TO

1167
00:44:09,113 --> 00:44:11,448
DO IT FOR MONEY, OR MAYBE NOT,

1168
00:44:11,515 --> 00:44:12,783
BUT THAT'S WHAT THEY NEED TO

1169
00:44:12,850 --> 00:44:13,951
REALLY DEAL WITH THE WHOLE REST

1170
00:44:14,018 --> 00:44:15,619
OF LIFE, ALL THE OTHER STUFF

1171
00:44:15,686 --> 00:44:16,487
THAT GOES ON.

1172
00:44:16,553 --> 00:44:18,022
AND SO THAT'S THE MESSAGE I'D

1173
00:44:18,088 --> 00:44:19,456
LIKE PEOPLE TO TAKE AWAY.

1174
00:44:19,523 --> 00:44:20,424
GIVE US THE SPACE.

1175
00:44:20,491 --> 00:44:25,562
LET US GO TO THOSE PLACES.

1176
00:44:25,629 --> 00:44:27,631
>> SO, WHAT DO EACH OF YOU LOVE

1177
00:44:27,698 --> 00:44:29,833
THE MOST ABOUT WHAT YOU DO NOW?

1178
00:44:29,900 --> 00:44:32,336
AND THIS PROCESS OF CREATION AND

1179
00:44:32,403 --> 00:44:33,670
THE OUTREACH THAT YOU'RE HAVING

1180
00:44:33,737 --> 00:44:34,872
WITH PEOPLE TODAY BECAUSE OF THE

1181
00:44:34,938 --> 00:44:38,008
WORK THAT YOU DO?

1182
00:44:42,846 --> 00:44:45,182
>> I HIT THE BUTTON FIRST SO I

1183
00:44:45,249 --> 00:44:46,283
GET TO GO.

1184
00:44:46,350 --> 00:44:51,855
>> LIKE JEOPARDY.

1185
00:44:51,922 --> 00:44:53,057
>> I KNOW.

1186
00:44:53,123 --> 00:44:55,259
WE NEED THE STUFF IN THE SKY.

1187
00:44:55,325 --> 00:44:56,560
NO, THAT'S SIMON WITH HIS

1188
00:44:56,627 --> 00:44:57,628
BUTTON, NEVER MIND.

1189
00:44:57,694 --> 00:45:00,697
WHAT WAS THE QUESTION?

1190
00:45:00,764 --> 00:45:01,365
[LAUGHTER]

1191
00:45:01,432 --> 00:45:02,800
>> WHAT YOU LOVE ABOUT WHAT YOU

1192
00:45:02,866 --> 00:45:03,667
DO, HOW IT'S CREATED

1193
00:45:03,734 --> 00:45:05,736
OPPORTUNITIES FOR YOU TO

1194
00:45:05,803 --> 00:45:10,107
INTERACT WITH PEOPLE.

1195
00:45:10,174 --> 00:45:13,277
>> I CAN'T IMAGINE A WORLD

1196
00:45:13,343 --> 00:45:22,052
WITHOUT  MUSIC.

1197
00:45:22,119 --> 00:45:24,254
THE GOAL IS TO MAKE SOUND.

1198
00:45:24,321 --> 00:45:25,522
WE'RE ORGANIZING SOUND WAVES.

1199
00:45:25,589 --> 00:45:27,424
IT MAKES US FEEL THINGS.

1200
00:45:27,491 --> 00:45:28,926
IT MAKES US THINK THINGS.

1201
00:45:28,992 --> 00:45:31,328
IT CAN ELEVATE US OUT OF A

1202
00:45:31,395 --> 00:45:31,962
SITUATION.

1203
00:45:32,029 --> 00:45:33,530
THERE'S SOME GREAT MOVIES,

1204
00:45:33,597 --> 00:45:33,764
RIGHT?

1205
00:45:33,831 --> 00:45:35,966
THAT WOULD BE NOTHING WITHOUT

1206
00:45:36,033 --> 00:45:36,600
THEIR SOUNDTRACKS.

1207
00:45:36,667 --> 00:45:39,670
LOOK BACK AT THE ORIGINAL KING

1208
00:45:39,736 --> 00:45:40,804
KONG.

1209
00:45:40,871 --> 00:45:42,606
YOU KNOW HOW RIDICULOUS THAT

1210
00:45:42,673 --> 00:45:46,210
LOOKS WITHOUT THE INCREDIBLE

1211
00:45:46,276 --> 00:45:46,777
SOUNDTRACK?

1212
00:45:46,844 --> 00:45:48,278
A CLAY GUY ATTACKING A POWER,

1213
00:45:48,345 --> 00:45:50,280
BUT WITH THE MUSIC IT'S AMAZING.

1214
00:45:50,347 --> 00:45:52,116
MUSIC IS THE PIECE THAT KEEPS ME

1215
00:45:52,182 --> 00:45:54,852
CONNECTED TO THE WORLD.

1216
00:45:54,918 --> 00:45:56,487
THE NEURODIVERGENT SIDE, I LIVED

1217
00:45:56,553 --> 00:45:58,455
SO LONG WITHOUT THE DIAGNOSIS,

1218
00:45:58,522 --> 00:46:02,626
YOU KNOW, I WANT EVERYONE TO BE

1219
00:46:02,693 --> 00:46:03,727
POSITIVE, WANT KIDS DIAGNOSED TO

1220
00:46:03,794 --> 00:46:04,495
HAVE HOPE.

1221
00:46:04,561 --> 00:46:07,464
YOU SHOULD HAVE HOPE.

1222
00:46:07,531 --> 00:46:09,666
YOU SEE PLACES WHERE YOUR

1223
00:46:09,733 --> 00:46:11,635
DIAGNOSIS IS A SUPERPOWER FOR

1224
00:46:11,702 --> 00:46:12,069
YOU.

1225
00:46:12,136 --> 00:46:17,908
FOR ME, IT HAS REALLY BEEN AN

1226
00:46:17,975 --> 00:46:19,543
ALBATROSS ON MY SHOULDERS, KEPT

1227
00:46:19,610 --> 00:46:24,114
ME FROM BEING ABLE TO COMPLETE

1228
00:46:24,181 --> 00:46:25,449
AUDITIONS FOR SYMPHONY

1229
00:46:25,516 --> 00:46:29,153
ORCHESTRAS BECAUSE I CAN'T DEAL

1230
00:46:29,219 --> 00:46:30,687
WITH THE ANXIETY.

1231
00:46:30,754 --> 00:46:32,990
WORKING FOR OTHER PEOPLE IS

1232
00:46:33,056 --> 00:46:33,423
DIFFICULT.

1233
00:46:33,490 --> 00:46:34,858
I MISSED OUT ON A LOT OF GREAT

1234
00:46:34,925 --> 00:46:36,827
OPPORTUNITIES TO PLAY WITH OTHER

1235
00:46:36,894 --> 00:46:37,928
MUSICIANS BECAUSE OF THE

1236
00:46:37,995 --> 00:46:40,430
DIAGNOSIS.

1237
00:46:47,504 --> 00:46:48,972
>> SO, I LOVE MY JOBS, AND I

1238
00:46:49,039 --> 00:46:55,179
HAVE LOTS OF JOBS.

1239
00:46:55,245 --> 00:46:58,682
CREATE FILMS, MY COMPANY, WILD

1240
00:46:58,749 --> 00:47:03,587
ASPERAGUS PRODUCTIONS.

1241
00:47:03,654 --> 00:47:04,688
TEACH AT NAU.

1242
00:47:04,755 --> 00:47:06,657
I'M ALLOWED TO DO LOTS OF

1243
00:47:06,723 --> 00:47:07,424
DIFFERENT THINGS.

1244
00:47:07,491 --> 00:47:09,193
I DON'T HAVE TO FOCUS ON ONE

1245
00:47:09,259 --> 00:47:09,393
THING.

1246
00:47:09,459 --> 00:47:11,161
IF I DON'T WANT TO DO SOMETHING

1247
00:47:11,228 --> 00:47:13,397
ONE DAY, I CAN DO SOMETHING ELSE

1248
00:47:13,463 --> 00:47:14,865
THAT'S RELATED TO MY JOBS.

1249
00:47:14,932 --> 00:47:16,633
SO I REALLY LOVE THAT.

1250
00:47:16,700 --> 00:47:19,136
BUT ALSO I FEEL REALLY GOOD

1251
00:47:19,203 --> 00:47:20,671
ABOUT I'M GIVING SOMETHING BACK.

1252
00:47:20,737 --> 00:47:21,672
I'M TRYING TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE

1253
00:47:21,738 --> 00:47:22,739
IN THIS WORLD.

1254
00:47:22,806 --> 00:47:24,942
I'VE HAD THIS PASSION SINCE I

1255
00:47:25,008 --> 00:47:29,646
WAS A KID, GOT MY DEGREE IN

1256
00:47:29,713 --> 00:47:30,948
POLITICAL SCIENCE TO CHANGE THE

1257
00:47:31,014 --> 00:47:31,181
WORLD.

1258
00:47:31,248 --> 00:47:34,818
EVERY SEMESTER I GET ANOTHER 65

1259
00:47:34,885 --> 00:47:36,887
STUDENTS TO TALK TO, HOPEFULLY

1260
00:47:36,954 --> 00:47:38,755
THEY WILL GET INSPIRED TO SPEAK

1261
00:47:38,822 --> 00:47:39,523
TO 65 PEOPLE.

1262
00:47:39,590 --> 00:47:41,391
THAT'S A BIG PART OF MY JOB AND

1263
00:47:41,458 --> 00:47:44,061
JOB SATISFACTION.

1264
00:47:49,566 --> 00:47:53,437
>> I TAKE -- SO PHOTOGRAPHY IS

1265
00:47:53,503 --> 00:47:55,939
OBVIOUSLY MY PROFESSION, BUT

1266
00:47:56,006 --> 00:47:58,008
ALSO IT IS A PERSONAL

1267
00:47:58,075 --> 00:47:58,342
EXPRESSION.

1268
00:47:58,408 --> 00:48:03,180
AND I KIND OF ALWAYS MAKE A

1269
00:48:03,247 --> 00:48:06,783
VERY -- YOU CAN DELINEATE, OKAY,

1270
00:48:06,850 --> 00:48:09,620
THIS IS SHOT FOR SOMEONE OR FOR

1271
00:48:09,686 --> 00:48:09,820
ME.

1272
00:48:09,886 --> 00:48:11,888
BUT THE TRUTH IS I LOVE THE

1273
00:48:11,955 --> 00:48:12,155
NECESSITY.

1274
00:48:12,222 --> 00:48:13,223
I NEED TO CREATE.

1275
00:48:13,290 --> 00:48:16,059
I NEED TO PRESS THAT BUTTON, AND

1276
00:48:16,126 --> 00:48:18,061
I NEED TO -- WHETHER THE WORLD

1277
00:48:18,128 --> 00:48:21,865
AROUND IS TRAINS OR ATHLETES OR

1278
00:48:21,932 --> 00:48:23,066
CELEBRITIES, I THINK SOME PEOPLE

1279
00:48:23,133 --> 00:48:26,903
WOULD WANT TO PRESS THAT BUTTON

1280
00:48:26,970 --> 00:48:30,173
SO THEY COULD SHOW OFF THE ART

1281
00:48:30,240 --> 00:48:33,143
THEY CREATED, BUT MINE IS THE

1282
00:48:33,210 --> 00:48:34,878
IMAGES, I'M TRYING TO OPEN THAT

1283
00:48:34,945 --> 00:48:35,979
CONVERSATION TO SOMEBODY.

1284
00:48:36,046 --> 00:48:40,050
AND SO, I LOVE MY PROFESSION

1285
00:48:40,117 --> 00:48:40,784
BECAUSE, AGAIN, IT'S THAT

1286
00:48:40,851 --> 00:48:42,019
CONVERSATION WITH THE WORLD

1287
00:48:42,085 --> 00:48:45,289
AROUND ME THAT'S ENABLED

1288
00:48:45,355 --> 00:48:45,856
THROUGHOUT THE ART.

1289
00:48:45,922 --> 00:48:50,227
AND SO I WOULD NEVER TRADE IT

1290
00:48:50,294 --> 00:48:51,194
FOR ANYTHING.

1291
00:48:51,261 --> 00:48:52,729
I'M GRATEFUL FOR IT.

1292
00:48:52,796 --> 00:48:55,132
YEAH, THAT'S IT.

1293
00:48:55,198 --> 00:48:55,799
>> WELL, THANKS.

1294
00:48:55,866 --> 00:48:57,167
SO, DO ANY OF YOU WANT TO

1295
00:48:57,234 --> 00:48:59,303
COMMENT ON SOME OF THE

1296
00:48:59,369 --> 00:49:00,604
CHALLENGES YOU FACED AS YOU

1297
00:49:00,671 --> 00:49:01,605
DEVELOPED OVER TIME?

1298
00:49:01,672 --> 00:49:04,875
OR MAYBE CHALLENGES THAT YOU

1299
00:49:04,941 --> 00:49:06,510
HAVE RIGHT NOW THAT YOU ARE

1300
00:49:06,576 --> 00:49:08,645
WORKING THROUGH AS YOU CONTINUE

1301
00:49:08,712 --> 00:49:11,248
ON YOUR JOURNEY?

1302
00:49:11,315 --> 00:49:13,917
>> I'LL START.

1303
00:49:18,188 --> 00:49:19,122
CHALLENGES FOR PRODUCTIONS ARE

1304
00:49:19,189 --> 00:49:21,191
DIFFICULT.

1305
00:49:21,258 --> 00:49:23,160
IT DEPENDS WHO THE CLIENT IS.

1306
00:49:23,226 --> 00:49:24,661
SOMETIMES I WILL BE OPEN WITH

1307
00:49:24,728 --> 00:49:25,629
WHAT'S GOING ON.

1308
00:49:25,696 --> 00:49:31,802
OTHER TIMES I'M NOT AS

1309
00:49:31,868 --> 00:49:33,337
COMFORTABLE TO EXPRESS THAT.

1310
00:49:33,403 --> 00:49:34,771
YOU MASK THE STRUGGLES.

1311
00:49:34,838 --> 00:49:37,274
THE TRUTH IS I REMEMBER SHOOTING

1312
00:49:37,341 --> 00:49:40,711
A CAMPAIGN FOR A TV SHOW CALLED

1313
00:49:40,777 --> 00:49:44,047
"RIVER MONSTERS," WHERE WE

1314
00:49:44,114 --> 00:49:45,482
CLOSED DOWN A BEACH IN SOUTH

1315
00:49:45,549 --> 00:49:46,616
BEACH, FLORIDA.

1316
00:49:46,683 --> 00:49:48,652
I HAD SO MUCH OF ANXIETY AND

1317
00:49:48,719 --> 00:49:50,287
ATTACK THAT I SHOWED UP

1318
00:49:50,354 --> 00:49:52,255
UNCONSCIOUS IN THE CAR BECAUSE

1319
00:49:52,322 --> 00:49:55,125
MY ASSISTANT WAS DRIVING AND I

1320
00:49:55,192 --> 00:49:55,559
FAINTED.

1321
00:49:55,625 --> 00:49:58,729
BUT THEN YOU GET ON SET, AND

1322
00:49:58,795 --> 00:50:00,364
EVERYTHING GOES AWAY.

1323
00:50:00,430 --> 00:50:04,935
EVERY BIT OF FEAR TURNS INTO

1324
00:50:05,001 --> 00:50:05,736
CREATION.

1325
00:50:05,802 --> 00:50:09,439
AND YOU ARE THINKING NOT IN

1326
00:50:09,506 --> 00:50:11,975
LINEAR TERMS OF WORRY ABOUT THE

1327
00:50:12,042 --> 00:50:15,245
OUTSIDE BEING SEEN.

1328
00:50:15,312 --> 00:50:16,713
YOU'RE THINKING OF EXPOSURE AND

1329
00:50:16,780 --> 00:50:18,849
F STOPS.

1330
00:50:18,915 --> 00:50:20,050
THERE ARE CHALLENGES.

1331
00:50:20,117 --> 00:50:21,151
BUT IN OVERCOMING THOSE I

1332
00:50:21,218 --> 00:50:22,786
BELIEVE YOU CAN HAVE A GREATER

1333
00:50:22,853 --> 00:50:25,789
OUTCOME THAN IF YOU NEVER HAD

1334
00:50:25,856 --> 00:50:26,990
THAT CHALLENGE IN THE FIRST

1335
00:50:27,057 --> 00:50:29,326
PLACE.

1336
00:50:32,295 --> 00:50:34,097
>> SOME OF THE CHALLENGES I FACE

1337
00:50:34,164 --> 00:50:37,267
IS JUST GETTING OUTSIDE OF MY

1338
00:50:37,334 --> 00:50:37,934
COMFORT ZONE.

1339
00:50:38,001 --> 00:50:40,103
I STAYED IN SOME OF THOSE JOBS

1340
00:50:40,170 --> 00:50:41,605
LIKE THE BAGEL BAKER, EVEN THE

1341
00:50:41,671 --> 00:50:43,407
GROUP HOME, FOR A LOT LONGER

1342
00:50:43,473 --> 00:50:45,375
THAN I PROBABLY WANTED TO, JUST

1343
00:50:45,442 --> 00:50:47,043
BECAUSE I WAS AFRAID OF LEAVING

1344
00:50:47,110 --> 00:50:49,079
THAT BUBBLE AND HAVING TO TALK

1345
00:50:49,146 --> 00:50:50,647
TO DIFFERENT PEOPLE.

1346
00:50:50,714 --> 00:50:53,250
AND THAT'S AN ONGOING CHALLENGE

1347
00:50:53,316 --> 00:50:54,451
FOR ME.

1348
00:50:54,518 --> 00:50:55,886
IT'S GOTTEN EASIER.

1349
00:50:55,952 --> 00:50:57,421
I'VE BEEN TEACHING NOW FOR FOUR

1350
00:50:57,487 --> 00:50:58,422
YEARS IN PERSON.

1351
00:50:58,488 --> 00:50:59,823
IT'S HELPED A LOT.

1352
00:50:59,890 --> 00:51:01,792
BUT PROBABLY ONE OF THE BIGGEST

1353
00:51:01,858 --> 00:51:04,094
CHALLENGES THAT I JUST HAVE IS

1354
00:51:04,161 --> 00:51:08,064
JUST TAKING CARE OF THE ROUTINE

1355
00:51:08,131 --> 00:51:11,234
MAINTENANCE OF LIFE.

1356
00:51:11,301 --> 00:51:13,537
I STRUGGLE WITH THAT WITH MY

1357
00:51:13,603 --> 00:51:15,172
CAR, AND WITH MYSELF, CHANGING

1358
00:51:15,238 --> 00:51:17,274
THE OIL, EATING RIGHT, TAKING

1359
00:51:17,340 --> 00:51:18,308
CARE OF THOSE RESPONSIBILITIES

1360
00:51:18,375 --> 00:51:22,078
THAT YOU HAVE TO DO.

1361
00:51:22,145 --> 00:51:24,614
>> THIS IS A BIG ONE.

1362
00:51:24,681 --> 00:51:28,885
I'M SURE YOU GUYS GET YOUR EARS

1363
00:51:28,952 --> 00:51:30,187
FILLED ALL THE TIME WITH

1364
00:51:30,253 --> 00:51:32,823
CHALLENGES, IT'S HOW YOU MAKE

1365
00:51:32,889 --> 00:51:34,591
GOOD TV COMMERCIALS.

1366
00:51:34,658 --> 00:51:36,126
NO, I'M SERIOUS, RIGHT?

1367
00:51:36,193 --> 00:51:39,196
HERE'S THE SOB STORY.

1368
00:51:39,262 --> 00:51:41,264
BUT I THINK IT NARROWS DOWN TO

1369
00:51:41,331 --> 00:51:44,534
WHO MASSIVE POINTS FOR ME.

1370
00:51:44,601 --> 00:51:45,635
ONE IS ENTREPRENEURSHIP.

1371
00:51:45,702 --> 00:51:48,271
JUST WANTING TO BE SOMEONE WHO

1372
00:51:48,338 --> 00:51:50,874
CREATES THINGS, IS IN CHARGE OF

1373
00:51:50,941 --> 00:51:51,875
THINGS, NOT ALWAYS THE

1374
00:51:51,942 --> 00:51:53,443
BENEFICIARY OF A PROGRAM.

1375
00:51:53,510 --> 00:51:56,580
I DON'T WANT TO LIVE OFF

1376
00:51:56,646 --> 00:51:57,180
PEOPLE'S GENEROSITY.

1377
00:51:57,247 --> 00:51:59,216
I WANT TO HAVE THE PRIDE OF

1378
00:51:59,282 --> 00:52:00,851
WORKING AND EARNING FOR MYSELF.

1379
00:52:00,917 --> 00:52:03,053
YES, I CREATED THIS.

1380
00:52:03,119 --> 00:52:06,022
I GOT PAID ADEQUATELY FOR IT.

1381
00:52:06,089 --> 00:52:09,593
IF I CLOCK EVEN A QUARTER OF

1382
00:52:09,659 --> 00:52:11,127
HOURS I DONATED, DONATED IN THE

1383
00:52:11,194 --> 00:52:15,832
LOOSEST OF QUOTES, GIVING PEOPLE

1384
00:52:15,899 --> 00:52:17,234
ADVICE, HELPS ORGANIZATIONS WHO

1385
00:52:17,300 --> 00:52:18,568
TURN AROUND AROUND MAKE MONEY

1386
00:52:18,635 --> 00:52:21,304
OFF THE IDEAS I GIVE THEM, I

1387
00:52:21,371 --> 00:52:23,540
WOULD NOT BE WORKING ON THE

1388
00:52:23,607 --> 00:52:25,742
11-YEAR-OLD MAC I HAVE NOW.

1389
00:52:25,809 --> 00:52:26,776
IT'S FRUSTRATING TO ALWAYS BE IN

1390
00:52:26,843 --> 00:52:28,645
THIS POSITION OF LET'S WAIT FOR

1391
00:52:28,712 --> 00:52:29,946
THE FUNDING, LET'S WAIT FOR A

1392
00:52:30,013 --> 00:52:31,581
GOVERNMENT OR AN INSTITUTION TO

1393
00:52:31,648 --> 00:52:34,651
MAKE A DECISION AND THEN TRICKLE

1394
00:52:34,718 --> 00:52:38,054
FUNDS DOWN TO ME AS SOMEBODY ON

1395
00:52:38,121 --> 00:52:40,323
THE SPECTRUM.

1396
00:52:40,390 --> 00:52:41,324
I WANT TO OPPORTUNITY TO LEARN

1397
00:52:41,391 --> 00:52:43,860
HOW TO DO THINGS FOR MYSELF AS

1398
00:52:43,927 --> 00:52:45,295
AN ENTREPRENEUR.

1399
00:52:45,362 --> 00:52:47,230
THE OTHER PART OF IT IS I

1400
00:52:47,297 --> 00:52:49,432
ACTUALLY LOVE, LIKE YOU, I LOVE

1401
00:52:49,499 --> 00:52:49,799
TEACHING.

1402
00:52:49,866 --> 00:52:51,401
I REALLY LOVE THE EXCITEMENT OF

1403
00:52:51,468 --> 00:52:52,602
A STUDENT WHEN THEY FIGURE

1404
00:52:52,669 --> 00:52:54,237
SOMETHING OUT THEY COULDN'T DO

1405
00:52:54,304 --> 00:52:54,471
BEFORE.

1406
00:52:54,538 --> 00:52:56,239
IT'S JUST THE BEST FEELING IN

1407
00:52:56,306 --> 00:52:57,641
THE WORLD.

1408
00:52:57,707 --> 00:53:00,377
I CHOSE A TEACHING PROFESSION ON

1409
00:53:00,443 --> 00:53:01,077
PURPOSE.

1410
00:53:01,144 --> 00:53:02,445
BUT I RUN INTO A LOT OF PEOPLE

1411
00:53:02,512 --> 00:53:04,881
WHO THINK THAT I JUST FAILED

1412
00:53:04,948 --> 00:53:07,617
SOMEHOW AT BEING A PERFORMANCE

1413
00:53:07,684 --> 00:53:10,220
ARTIST AND I'VE BEEN, YOU KNOW,

1414
00:53:10,287 --> 00:53:11,755
LOWERED MYSELF INTO TEACHING

1415
00:53:11,821 --> 00:53:12,188
STANDARDS.

1416
00:53:12,255 --> 00:53:14,591
WHEN THE ADD THE AUTISM

1417
00:53:14,658 --> 00:53:16,026
DIAGNOSIS ON THAT, IT ALMOST

1418
00:53:16,092 --> 00:53:17,894
FEELS LIKE IT FITS.

1419
00:53:17,961 --> 00:53:19,195
OH, THAT MUST BE WHY.

1420
00:53:19,262 --> 00:53:20,730
NO, LET ME LIST THE WAYS.

1421
00:53:20,797 --> 00:53:22,265
I DON'T HAVE THE PRODIGY

1422
00:53:22,332 --> 00:53:23,033
PACKAGE.

1423
00:53:23,099 --> 00:53:25,869
I DIDN'T COME IN AS, YOU KNOW, A

1424
00:53:25,936 --> 00:53:27,837
YOUNG MALE THAT HAD THE RIGHT

1425
00:53:27,904 --> 00:53:31,007
TEACHERS, RIGHT?

1426
00:53:31,074 --> 00:53:32,542
I WAS AN OBNOXIOUS PRECOCIOUS

1427
00:53:32,609 --> 00:53:36,146
YOUNG GIRL WHO DID WITH A I

1428
00:53:36,212 --> 00:53:37,047
WANTED.

1429
00:53:37,113 --> 00:53:38,348
SORRY, QUICK EDIT.

1430
00:53:38,415 --> 00:53:38,615
[LAUGHTER]

1431
00:53:38,682 --> 00:53:40,951
I WAS IMPRESSED I DID THAT SO

1432
00:53:41,017 --> 00:53:41,484
FAST.

1433
00:53:41,551 --> 00:53:45,989
AND I HAD ALL THESE OBSTACLES.

1434
00:53:46,056 --> 00:53:50,360
I HAD TERRIBLE LEADERS IN THE

1435
00:53:50,427 --> 00:53:51,561
COMMUNITY, WILLIAM PRUSEL IS A

1436
00:53:51,628 --> 00:53:52,028
GOOD EXAMPLE.

1437
00:53:52,095 --> 00:53:53,863
IF YOU TAKE TIME TO LOOK HIM UP

1438
00:53:53,930 --> 00:53:55,865
ONLINE, HE'S IN JAIL NOW FOR

1439
00:53:55,932 --> 00:53:58,034
SOME THINGS HE DID TO YOUNG

1440
00:53:58,101 --> 00:53:59,569
PEOPLE HE WAS TEACHING.

1441
00:53:59,636 --> 00:54:01,438
THIS WAS THE WORLD.

1442
00:54:01,504 --> 00:54:02,505
THIS IS WHERE I WENT.

1443
00:54:02,572 --> 00:54:03,740
NOT BECAUSE OF AUTISM I DIDN'T

1444
00:54:03,807 --> 00:54:04,708
MAKE IT THERE.

1445
00:54:04,774 --> 00:54:07,444
IT WAS BECAUSE OF A LOT OF OTHER

1446
00:54:07,510 --> 00:54:08,445
SYSTEMIC ISSUES.

1447
00:54:08,511 --> 00:54:09,746
JUST AUTISM HAS BECOME THE

1448
00:54:09,813 --> 00:54:11,047
CONVENIENT EXCUSE FOR PEOPLE TO

1449
00:54:11,114 --> 00:54:12,382
GO, OH, THAT'S WHY YOU HAVEN'T

1450
00:54:12,449 --> 00:54:13,583
DONE THAT.

1451
00:54:13,650 --> 00:54:14,884
I WILL WORK HARDER THAN ANYONE

1452
00:54:14,951 --> 00:54:15,752
YOU KNOW.

1453
00:54:15,819 --> 00:54:18,822
I WORK SIX DAYS A WEEK, 80

1454
00:54:18,888 --> 00:54:20,924
STUDENTS, I BARELY MAKE IT BY.

1455
00:54:20,991 --> 00:54:21,791
THAT'S JUST RIDICULOUS.

1456
00:54:21,858 --> 00:54:23,960
WE HAVE TO HAVE A WORLD WHERE

1457
00:54:24,027 --> 00:54:25,295
PEOPLE CAN WORK HARD, I DON'T

1458
00:54:25,362 --> 00:54:27,497
CARE WHAT THE LABEL IS, AND THEY

1459
00:54:27,564 --> 00:54:29,232
MAKE A DECENT LIVING TO AFFORD

1460
00:54:29,299 --> 00:54:31,334
THEIR OWN HOMES, AND THEIR OWN

1461
00:54:31,401 --> 00:54:33,870
RETIREMENT.

1462
00:54:33,937 --> 00:54:36,306
[APPLAUSE]

1463
00:54:39,142 --> 00:54:40,110
>> WELL, THANK YOU FOR SHARING

1464
00:54:40,176 --> 00:54:41,144
SOME OF THOSE CHALLENGES.

1465
00:54:41,211 --> 00:54:43,480
NOW I'M GOING TO TURN TO ASKING

1466
00:54:43,546 --> 00:54:48,084
YOU WHO SUPPORTED YOU ON THIS

1467
00:54:48,151 --> 00:54:50,687
JOURNEY AND INSPIRED YOU TO YOUR

1468
00:54:50,754 --> 00:54:51,154
WORK?

1469
00:54:51,221 --> 00:54:51,988
EVERYBODY HAS SOMEONE IN THEIR

1470
00:54:52,055 --> 00:54:53,623
LIFE THAT MAY HAVE CONTRIBUTED

1471
00:54:53,690 --> 00:54:55,525
TO THEIR SUCCESS AND I'D LOVE TO

1472
00:54:55,592 --> 00:54:58,695
HEAR ABOUT YOURS.

1473
00:54:58,762 --> 00:55:02,298
>> SO LIKE MOST PEOPLE, I WOULD

1474
00:55:02,365 --> 00:55:04,067
SAY THE FIRST BIG SUPPORTER OF

1475
00:55:04,134 --> 00:55:05,902
ME WAS MY MOM.

1476
00:55:05,969 --> 00:55:08,004
SHE SUPPORTED ALL MY ENDEAVORS.

1477
00:55:08,071 --> 00:55:10,940
SHE CONVINCED MY DAD TO LET ME

1478
00:55:11,007 --> 00:55:12,509
BUY THAT -- HAVE THEM BUY THAT

1479
00:55:12,575 --> 00:55:13,576
CAMERA FOR ME.

1480
00:55:13,643 --> 00:55:15,345
SHE ALWAYS ALLOWED THAT.

1481
00:55:15,412 --> 00:55:16,646
SHE ALSO WAS VERY SUPPORTIVE OF

1482
00:55:16,713 --> 00:55:17,080
ME.

1483
00:55:17,147 --> 00:55:19,716
I WAS A VERY SENSITIVE KID.

1484
00:55:19,783 --> 00:55:22,786
SHE GAVE ME THE PROPER SUPPORT

1485
00:55:22,852 --> 00:55:24,320
AND HUGS THAT I NEEDED.

1486
00:55:24,387 --> 00:55:27,057
AND THE OTHER PERSON, FOR SURE,

1487
00:55:27,123 --> 00:55:28,692
IS MY WIFE.

1488
00:55:28,758 --> 00:55:32,362
SHE'S ACTUALLY A FACULTY AT

1489
00:55:32,429 --> 00:55:32,929
NORTHERN ARIZONA UNIVERSITY,

1490
00:55:32,996 --> 00:55:34,431
SCIENTIST IN THE FOREST ARE I

1491
00:55:34,497 --> 00:55:34,998
DEPARTMENT.

1492
00:55:35,065 --> 00:55:36,933
TONIGHT SHE IS GOING TO BE

1493
00:55:37,000 --> 00:55:38,234
HONORED WITH THE PRESIDENT'S

1494
00:55:38,301 --> 00:55:40,336
DIVERSITY AWARD BECAUSE NOT ONLY

1495
00:55:40,403 --> 00:55:42,539
DOES SHE SUPPORT ME, SHE

1496
00:55:42,605 --> 00:55:44,708
SUPPORTS ALL HER STUDENTS,

1497
00:55:44,774 --> 00:55:46,743
PARTICULARLY HER NEURODIVERGENT

1498
00:55:46,810 --> 00:55:47,744
AND DISABLED STUDENTS.

1499
00:55:47,811 --> 00:55:49,879
AND SHE REALLY IS THE ONE THAT

1500
00:55:49,946 --> 00:55:52,282
HELPS ME WITH THAT ROUTINE

1501
00:55:52,348 --> 00:55:52,816
MAINTENANCE OF LIFE.

1502
00:55:52,882 --> 00:55:55,785
AND SO SHE'S BEEN A HUGE

1503
00:55:55,852 --> 00:55:57,420
SUPPORTER.

1504
00:55:57,487 --> 00:56:00,590
AND THEN ALSO THE STUDENTS.

1505
00:56:00,657 --> 00:56:02,892
IT'S REALLY REFRESHING TO GO IN

1506
00:56:02,959 --> 00:56:05,829
AND GET THE ENERGY THAT YOU GET

1507
00:56:05,895 --> 00:56:07,130
FROM THE STUDENTS.

1508
00:56:07,197 --> 00:56:09,099
AND THEIR GENERATION IS SO MUCH

1509
00:56:09,165 --> 00:56:11,000
MORE OPEN THAN MY GENERATION.

1510
00:56:11,067 --> 00:56:12,969
IT REALLY GIVES ME A LOT OF

1511
00:56:13,036 --> 00:56:13,303
HOPE.

1512
00:56:13,369 --> 00:56:14,704
THEY SUPPORT ME BY JUST GETTING

1513
00:56:14,771 --> 00:56:17,207
ME THROUGH AND LETTING ME FOCUS.

1514
00:56:17,273 --> 00:56:19,175
THERE'S A LOT OF PROGRESS

1515
00:56:19,242 --> 00:56:19,576
HAPPENING.

1516
00:56:19,642 --> 00:56:20,844
THERE'S BAD THINGS GOING ON.

1517
00:56:20,910 --> 00:56:22,245
AND WE ALL KNOW ABOUT THAT.

1518
00:56:22,312 --> 00:56:26,583
BUT THERE'S A LOT OF GOOD TOO.

1519
00:56:29,753 --> 00:56:29,986
>> LAURA?

1520
00:56:30,053 --> 00:56:31,888
>> OH, I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO

1521
00:56:31,955 --> 00:56:32,655
FIRST, THERE'S INSTRUCTIONS

1522
00:56:32,722 --> 00:56:35,725
HERE.

1523
00:56:35,792 --> 00:56:37,460
YEAH, THE BUTTON.

1524
00:56:37,527 --> 00:56:38,895
I HAD GREAT TEACHERS.

1525
00:56:38,962 --> 00:56:41,631
I WAS REALLY LUCKY.

1526
00:56:41,698 --> 00:56:43,666
I GREW UP OUTSIDE ATLANTA, WHEN

1527
00:56:43,733 --> 00:56:45,568
OUTSIDE ATLANTA DIDN'T HAVE

1528
00:56:45,635 --> 00:56:46,536
MUCH.

1529
00:56:46,603 --> 00:56:52,008
I HAD A TEACHERE STEPHANIE GRACE

1530
00:56:52,075 --> 00:56:53,243
ROLLINS, A PERFECT FIT.

1531
00:56:53,309 --> 00:56:54,310
SHE SOMEHOW UNDERSTOOD ME.

1532
00:56:54,377 --> 00:56:55,845
KNEW HOW TO ASK THE RIGHT

1533
00:56:55,912 --> 00:56:57,847
QUESTIONS AND THINK THROUGH

1534
00:56:57,914 --> 00:56:58,114
PROBLEMS.

1535
00:56:58,181 --> 00:56:59,015
SHE WAS GREAT.

1536
00:56:59,082 --> 00:57:02,418
I ACTUALLY MADE A FILM ABOUT HER

1537
00:57:02,485 --> 00:57:06,256
IN COLLEGE, "MY VIOLIN CRIES,"

1538
00:57:06,322 --> 00:57:08,091
TO MOURN HER AFTER HER PASSING

1539
00:57:08,158 --> 00:57:10,059
WITH CANCER.

1540
00:57:10,126 --> 00:57:12,695
OTHER GREAT TEACHERS, NORMA

1541
00:57:12,762 --> 00:57:13,863
BURNALL, BRAD STEWART, THE ONLY

1542
00:57:13,930 --> 00:57:15,732
ONE STILL ALIVE OUT OF THAT

1543
00:57:15,799 --> 00:57:15,932
GROUP.

1544
00:57:15,999 --> 00:57:17,934
I DID HAVE GREAT SUPPORT AT

1545
00:57:18,001 --> 00:57:18,134
HOME.

1546
00:57:18,201 --> 00:57:20,570
MY MOM UNDERSTOOD THE VALUE OF

1547
00:57:20,637 --> 00:57:21,437
ART.

1548
00:57:21,504 --> 00:57:22,772
MY DAD, WHO COULD NOT SING A

1549
00:57:22,839 --> 00:57:25,842
NOTE IN TUNE TO ABSOLUTELY SAVE

1550
00:57:25,909 --> 00:57:28,344
HIS LIFE, JUST LOVED MUSIC.

1551
00:57:28,411 --> 00:57:30,313
AND IN FACT HE BOUGHT ME THIS

1552
00:57:30,380 --> 00:57:33,516
VIOLIN THAT I'M GOING TO PLAY ON

1553
00:57:33,583 --> 00:57:34,050
TODAY.

1554
00:57:34,117 --> 00:57:34,384
SORRY.

1555
00:57:34,450 --> 00:57:38,922
MY DAD PASSED AWAY IN MARCH.

1556
00:57:43,092 --> 00:57:47,263
WHEN HE BOUGHT ME THE VIOLIN, HE

1557
00:57:47,330 --> 00:57:51,201
SPENT ABOUT $4,000 ON IT, WHICH

1558
00:57:51,267 --> 00:57:52,235
IN 1992 WAS A LOT OF MONEY TO

1559
00:57:52,302 --> 00:57:54,604
SPEND ON A TEENAGER.

1560
00:57:54,671 --> 00:58:00,643
I SAID DAD, YOU KNOW, THIS IS

1561
00:58:00,710 --> 00:58:01,711
EXPENSIVE.

1562
00:58:01,778 --> 00:58:06,316
WHY ARE YOU SPENDING SO MUCH

1563
00:58:06,382 --> 00:58:06,516
MONEY?

1564
00:58:06,583 --> 00:58:10,920
YOU CAN'T PLAY A CART AT

1565
00:58:10,987 --> 00:58:14,190
CARNEGIE HALL.

1566
00:58:14,257 --> 00:58:15,525
>> THANKS FOR SHARING THAT,

1567
00:58:15,592 --> 00:58:15,758
LAURA.

1568
00:58:15,825 --> 00:58:17,060
WE'RE GREAT FOLLOW HAVE YOU HERE

1569
00:58:17,126 --> 00:58:19,796
TODAY TO HONOR YOUR DAD'S GIFT

1570
00:58:19,863 --> 00:58:22,298
TO YOU AND HIS SUPPORT FOR YOU.

1571
00:58:22,365 --> 00:58:24,067
I KNOW THAT YOU TOLD US BEFORE

1572
00:58:24,133 --> 00:58:25,602
THAT YOU REALLY ARE FEELING HIM

1573
00:58:25,668 --> 00:58:26,269
TODAY.

1574
00:58:26,336 --> 00:58:28,137
SO THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING

1575
00:58:28,204 --> 00:58:31,374
WITH US PERSONALLY ABOUT THAT.

1576
00:58:33,209 --> 00:58:36,779
BLAIR, I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU THE

1577
00:58:36,846 --> 00:58:38,181
STAGE TO SHARE ABOUT SOMEONE WHO

1578
00:58:38,248 --> 00:58:39,515
INSPIRED YOU ALONG THE WAY.

1579
00:58:39,582 --> 00:58:41,184
I UNDERSTAND YOU HAVE A REALLY

1580
00:58:41,251 --> 00:58:43,152
SPECIAL STORY TO SHARE AND I'D

1581
00:58:43,219 --> 00:58:51,227
LOVE TO GIVE YOU THAT

1582
00:58:51,294 --> 00:58:51,895
OPPORTUNITY.

1583
00:58:51,961 --> 00:58:53,529
>> YEAH, I TOO WAS FORTUNATE TO

1584
00:58:53,596 --> 00:58:58,468
HAVE THE SUPPORT OF MY DAD, WITH

1585
00:58:58,534 --> 00:59:00,103
PICKING OUT MY FIRST CAMERA.

1586
00:59:00,169 --> 00:59:03,273
AND IT WAS AN OPPORTUNITY WHERE

1587
00:59:03,339 --> 00:59:04,574
HE GAVE ME HIS CAMERA THAT HE

1588
00:59:04,641 --> 00:59:06,809
HAD IN COLLEGE THAT HE HAD

1589
00:59:06,876 --> 00:59:12,448
BOUGHT TO DO HIS FILM CLASS AND

1590
00:59:12,515 --> 00:59:13,783
PHOTOGRAPH, MY MOM WAS EVEN I

1591
00:59:13,850 --> 00:59:15,752
THINK PART OF THE COLLEGE

1592
00:59:15,818 --> 00:59:16,319
PROJECT.

1593
00:59:16,386 --> 00:59:18,388
AND WHAT IT ENDED UP BEING WAS

1594
00:59:18,454 --> 00:59:19,722
ONE OF THE FIRST TIMES IN MY

1595
00:59:19,789 --> 00:59:21,224
LIFE I HAD MY PARENTS' SUPPORT

1596
00:59:21,291 --> 00:59:24,861
AND ALSO A CHOICE THAT I COULD

1597
00:59:24,928 --> 00:59:29,565
PURSUE AN ART THAT I WANTED TO.

1598
00:59:29,632 --> 00:59:31,634
IT WAS A FREEING -- THAT WILL

1599
00:59:31,701 --> 00:59:35,104
PLAY INTO THIS NEXT PIECE.

1600
00:59:35,171 --> 00:59:39,275
BUT REALLY MY WIFE AND MY

1601
00:59:39,342 --> 00:59:44,013
DAUGHTER, MY DAUGHTER'S 6.

1602
00:59:44,080 --> 00:59:48,284
AND SHE KNOWS THAT HER DAD HAS A

1603
00:59:48,351 --> 00:59:50,153
CONDITION THAT MAKES THINGS A

1604
00:59:50,219 --> 00:59:51,921
LITTLE DIFFERENT.

1605
00:59:51,988 --> 00:59:52,789
THERE'S ACTUALLY -- FORGIVE ME

1606
00:59:52,855 --> 00:59:56,025
IF I GET THE NAME OF THE SHOW

1607
00:59:56,092 --> 00:59:56,426
INCORRECT.

1608
00:59:56,492 --> 00:59:58,895
THE ALARM IS GOING.

1609
00:59:58,962 --> 01:00:01,864
BUT THERE'S A CARTOON I BELIEVE

1610
01:00:01,931 --> 01:00:04,467
CALLED SUPER HERO, HERO

1611
01:00:04,534 --> 01:00:08,404
ELEMENTARY, IT HAS THESE HEROES,

1612
01:00:08,471 --> 01:00:09,539
SUPER HEROES KIDS, ONE CHARACTER

1613
01:00:09,605 --> 01:00:11,708
IS A.J.

1614
01:00:11,774 --> 01:00:13,810
HE HAS AUTISM.

1615
01:00:13,876 --> 01:00:17,180
AND THEY TOUCH ON THE IDEA THAT

1616
01:00:17,246 --> 01:00:20,550
HE WEARS HEADPHONES SOMETIMES,

1617
01:00:20,616 --> 01:00:22,218
AND HE HAS SENSORY OVERLOAD.

1618
01:00:22,285 --> 01:00:29,158
AND IT'S VERY MUCH LIKE I DO.

1619
01:00:29,225 --> 01:00:31,828
SO, MY DAUGHTER, SHE'S BEEN

1620
01:00:31,894 --> 01:00:33,496
SUPPORTIVE, EVEN AT A YOUNG AGE.

1621
01:00:33,563 --> 01:00:37,500
EVEN AT 4 OR 5 YEARS OLD, I'LL

1622
01:00:37,567 --> 01:00:39,035
HAVE TIMES WHEN I'M REALLY NOT

1623
01:00:39,102 --> 01:00:40,036
KEEPING UP WITH THINGS.

1624
01:00:40,103 --> 01:00:41,437
AND SHE WILL BRING HEADPHONES

1625
01:00:41,504 --> 01:00:43,639
INTO THE LIVING ROOM SO I CAN

1626
01:00:43,706 --> 01:00:46,409
LISTEN AND SO I CAN ACTUALLY

1627
01:00:46,476 --> 01:00:49,345
CALM MYSELF.

1628
01:00:49,412 --> 01:00:51,948
FAST FORWARD TO TWO YEARS AGO,

1629
01:00:52,015 --> 01:00:53,282
AND I WAS ASKED TO GO TO THE

1630
01:00:53,349 --> 01:00:58,287
EDGE OF SPACE TO PHOTOGRAPH THE

1631
01:00:58,354 --> 01:00:58,654
EARTH.

1632
01:00:58,721 --> 01:01:03,593
IENT WITH  -- I WANTED HER TO BE

1633
01:01:03,659 --> 01:01:03,860
INCLUDED.

1634
01:01:03,926 --> 01:01:08,698
I ASKED IF IT WAS OKAY IF DADDY

1635
01:01:08,765 --> 01:01:09,599
WENT TO SPACE.

1636
01:01:09,665 --> 01:01:11,234
SHE SAID JUST DON'T HIT AN

1637
01:01:11,300 --> 01:01:11,467
STEROID.

1638
01:01:11,534 --> 01:01:13,436
WHEN I GOT TO IT, IT WAS EIGHT

1639
01:01:13,503 --> 01:01:14,737
MONTHS OF TRAINING.

1640
01:01:14,804 --> 01:01:18,708
YOU GO, WHEN THE PENTAGON GREEN

1641
01:01:18,775 --> 01:01:21,110
LIT THE PROJECT, YOU GO

1642
01:01:21,177 --> 01:01:23,112
INITIALLY PRETTY QUICKLY TO GET

1643
01:01:23,179 --> 01:01:25,281
YOUR SPACE SUIT FITTED, AND THAT

1644
01:01:25,348 --> 01:01:26,282
WAS A TERRIFYING EXPERIENCE

1645
01:01:26,349 --> 01:01:27,350
BECAUSE I THINK EVERYONE THINKS

1646
01:01:27,417 --> 01:01:31,087
OF BEING IN A SPACE SUIT AS THIS

1647
01:01:31,154 --> 01:01:33,222
QUIET BREATHING, BUT THE TRUTH

1648
01:01:33,289 --> 01:01:34,590
IS THERE'S A LOT OF MOTORS GOING

1649
01:01:34,657 --> 01:01:36,893
ON TO KEEP YOU ALIVE.

1650
01:01:36,959 --> 01:01:38,728
FOR SOMEBODY WHO GETS

1651
01:01:38,795 --> 01:01:41,597
OVERWHELMED BY SOUNDS, THAT WAS

1652
01:01:41,664 --> 01:01:43,266
EXTRAORDINARILY DIFFICULT.

1653
01:01:43,332 --> 01:01:46,736
SO FOR EIGHT MONTHS BETWEEN

1654
01:01:46,803 --> 01:01:48,938
HAVING PERSONAL TRAINING AT THE

1655
01:01:49,005 --> 01:01:51,340
GYM AND MEETING WITH

1656
01:01:51,407 --> 01:01:52,508
PSYCHOLOGISTS FROM BOTH MILITARY

1657
01:01:52,575 --> 01:01:53,643
AROUND PERSONAL, TO TRY AND PUT

1658
01:01:53,709 --> 01:01:55,278
TOGETHER A PLAN OF HOW WE'RE

1659
01:01:55,344 --> 01:02:00,083
GOING TO GET THROUGH THE

1660
01:02:00,149 --> 01:02:02,185
PROJECT, WE WERE ABLE TO GET ME

1661
01:02:02,251 --> 01:02:04,287
TO A PLACE WHERE I WOULD BE

1662
01:02:04,353 --> 01:02:07,924
COMFORTABLE ENOUGH TO DO THE

1663
01:02:07,990 --> 01:02:08,157
PROJECT.

1664
01:02:08,224 --> 01:02:09,225
A CURVE BALL WAS THROWN A LITTLE

1665
01:02:09,292 --> 01:02:10,793
BIT LATE IN THE GAME WHERE THEY

1666
01:02:10,860 --> 01:02:12,395
SAID NOW WE'RE GOING TO NEED YOU

1667
01:02:12,462 --> 01:02:14,063
TO DO THE PHOTO SHOOT AT THE

1668
01:02:14,130 --> 01:02:16,466
EDGE OF SPACE BUT WE DON'T WANT

1669
01:02:16,532 --> 01:02:18,768
YOUR HEART RATE GOING OVER 70

1670
01:02:18,835 --> 01:02:22,939
BECAUSE ANY EXCESS HEART RATE

1671
01:02:23,005 --> 01:02:24,140
AND RESPIRATION WILL ICE OVER

1672
01:02:24,207 --> 01:02:25,475
THE CANOPY AND RUIN THE SHOOT.

1673
01:02:25,541 --> 01:02:30,279
NOW WE HAVE TO DO THE PROJECT,

1674
01:02:30,346 --> 01:02:31,180
KEEP CALM, THERE WERE CERTAIN

1675
01:02:31,247 --> 01:02:32,248
DRUGS THAT HELPED A LITTLE BIT

1676
01:02:32,315 --> 01:02:35,218
WITH THAT BUT ALSO THERE'S A LOT

1677
01:02:35,284 --> 01:02:37,987
OF PREPARATION.

1678
01:02:41,023 --> 01:02:43,292
BUT TWO NIGHTS BEFORE AT 3 A.M.

1679
01:02:43,359 --> 01:02:45,061
I HAD A BREAKDOWN HAVING

1680
01:02:45,128 --> 01:02:47,964
CONVULSIONS IN BED.

1681
01:02:51,134 --> 01:02:52,902
I ASKED MY WIFE, I TOLD HER I

1682
01:02:52,969 --> 01:02:55,872
DIDN'T WANT TO DO IT.

1683
01:02:55,938 --> 01:02:57,073
SHE SAID, YOU'RE GOING TO BE

1684
01:02:57,140 --> 01:02:57,540
FINE.

1685
01:02:57,607 --> 01:03:00,009
WE'RE GOING TO TAKE ONE STEP.

1686
01:03:00,076 --> 01:03:01,611
TOMORROW WE'RE GOING TO WAKE UP.

1687
01:03:01,677 --> 01:03:02,979
WE'RE GOING TO HAVE BREAKFAST.

1688
01:03:03,045 --> 01:03:04,847
YOU'RE GOING TO TAKE A SHOWER,

1689
01:03:04,914 --> 01:03:06,149
YOU'RE GOING TO THE BASE.

1690
01:03:06,215 --> 01:03:08,317
YOU'LL DO YOUR BRIEFINGS AND

1691
01:03:08,384 --> 01:03:09,118
TRAININGS, SPACE SUIT FITTING

1692
01:03:09,185 --> 01:03:11,621
ONE LAST TIME AND YOU'RE GOING

1693
01:03:11,687 --> 01:03:12,722
TO GO TO SLEEP.

1694
01:03:12,788 --> 01:03:14,257
NEXT DAY YOU'LL WAKE UP, GO TO

1695
01:03:14,323 --> 01:03:15,658
THE BASE, YOU'LL GO TOE SPACE.

1696
01:03:15,725 --> 01:03:16,959
ONE STEP AT A TIME.

1697
01:03:17,026 --> 01:03:18,928
LET'S JUST GO TO BED SO WE CAN

1698
01:03:18,995 --> 01:03:20,062
WAKE UP TOMORROW.

1699
01:03:20,129 --> 01:03:23,900
WHAT IT ENDED UP BEING WAS THE

1700
01:03:23,966 --> 01:03:28,304
PROJECT WAS A LOVE SONG TO AVA,

1701
01:03:28,371 --> 01:03:31,941
MY DAUGHTER.

1702
01:03:32,008 --> 01:03:40,283
I WANTED HER TO KNOW THAT I HAVE

1703
01:03:40,349 --> 01:03:42,318
LIMITATIONS.

1704
01:03:42,385 --> 01:03:45,488
BUT AFTER THE FLIGHT THERE'S NO

1705
01:03:45,555 --> 01:03:45,888
MORE LIMITATIONS.

1706
01:03:45,955 --> 01:03:47,256
>> THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING

1707
01:03:47,323 --> 01:03:47,456
THAT.

1708
01:03:47,523 --> 01:03:49,192
AND NOW WE'RE GOING TO BE ABLE

1709
01:03:49,258 --> 01:03:51,093
TO SEE SOME OF THE IMAGES THAT

1710
01:03:51,160 --> 01:03:52,061
BLAIR TOOK IN SPACE.

1711
01:03:52,128 --> 01:03:54,330
I KNOW YOU ALL ARE GOING TO JUST

1712
01:03:54,397 --> 01:03:55,231
LOVE THIS.

1713
01:03:55,298 --> 01:03:59,235
SO, WE CAN PULL UP THE VIDEO.

1714
01:04:03,906 --> 01:04:06,576
♪

1715
01:04:26,062 --> 01:04:29,365
[ ORCHESTRAL MUSIC ]

1716
01:04:29,432 --> 01:04:39,609
♪ SNOTTED

1717
01:04:41,644 --> 01:04:41,677
♪

1718
01:04:41,744 --> 01:04:41,844
♪

1719
01:04:41,911 --> 01:04:42,011
♪

1720
01:04:42,078 --> 01:04:52,154
♪

1721
01:04:57,526 --> 01:04:57,627
♪

1722
01:04:57,693 --> 01:05:00,196
♪

1723
01:05:18,714 --> 01:05:24,587
>> MY NAME IS BLAIR BUNT

1724
01:05:24,654 --> 01:05:26,022
APPROXIMATING. -- BUNTING.

1725
01:05:26,088 --> 01:05:28,124
I DID A PHOTO SHOOT IN SPACE IN

1726
01:05:28,190 --> 01:05:31,427
COLLABORATION WITH THE MEN AND

1727
01:05:31,494 --> 01:05:33,763
WOMEN OF THE AIR FORCE WE TOLD

1728
01:05:33,829 --> 01:05:35,197
THE STORY OF THE DRAGON LADY

1729
01:05:35,264 --> 01:05:43,072
THROUGH A SERIES OF  IM IMAGES

1730
01:05:43,139 --> 01:05:47,977
AT 70,000 FEET OFF THE GROUND,

1731
01:05:48,044 --> 01:05:51,981
AN INCREDIBLE EXPERIENCE I WILL

1732
01:05:52,048 --> 01:05:52,315
NEVER FORGET.

1733
01:05:52,381 --> 01:06:02,458
♪

1734
01:06:33,089 --> 01:06:35,424
♪

1735
01:07:02,585 --> 01:07:06,288
>> IF WE CAN BRING THE PLANE

1736
01:07:06,355 --> 01:07:07,656
BACK ABOUT 35 FEET.

1737
01:07:07,723 --> 01:07:10,359
♪

1738
01:07:21,303 --> 01:07:24,206
WE'LL DO THE LIGHTING SCENARIO,

1739
01:07:24,273 --> 01:07:25,508
SHOOTING TO THE NORTH.

1740
01:07:25,574 --> 01:07:28,043
♪

1741
01:07:28,110 --> 01:07:31,313
CAN'T WAIT TO GET OFF THE

1742
01:07:31,380 --> 01:07:33,082
GROUND, MAN, MY ASS IS HURTING

1743
01:07:33,149 --> 01:07:34,950
SO BAD, WE CAN HAVE A BEER AFTER

1744
01:07:35,017 --> 01:07:35,284
THIS.

1745
01:07:35,351 --> 01:07:37,853
♪

1746
01:07:46,529 --> 01:07:49,665
>> HEY, DAD.

1747
01:07:53,736 --> 01:07:55,304
I DIDN'T TELL YOU, I TOOK YOUR

1748
01:07:55,371 --> 01:07:59,241
LENS.

1749
01:07:59,308 --> 01:07:59,508
IN SPACE.

1750
01:07:59,575 --> 01:08:01,911
I JUST WANT TO SAY THANK YOU FOR

1751
01:08:01,977 --> 01:08:02,278
YOUR SUPPORT.

1752
01:08:02,344 --> 01:08:05,080
♪

1753
01:08:45,287 --> 01:08:45,488
♪

1754
01:08:45,554 --> 01:08:48,390
[APPLAUSE]

1755
01:09:18,254 --> 01:09:19,655
>> DID YOU GUYS ENJOY THAT?

1756
01:09:19,722 --> 01:09:22,758
[APPLAUSE]

1757
01:09:24,727 --> 01:09:25,728
>> YES, ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLE.

1758
01:09:25,794 --> 01:09:28,264
EVEN BETTER WHEN YOU HAVE A

1759
01:09:28,330 --> 01:09:30,132
GIANT SCREEN BEHIND YOU, BETTER

1760
01:09:30,199 --> 01:09:32,034
THAN WATCHING ON YOUR IPAD.

1761
01:09:32,101 --> 01:09:35,404
SO, THAT WAS AMAZING!

1762
01:09:35,471 --> 01:09:39,475
AND PROBABLY THE ONLY PERSONAL

1763
01:09:39,542 --> 01:09:41,844
VIEW OF SPACE I'LL HAVE.

1764
01:09:41,911 --> 01:09:43,379
I DON'T THINK I'M GOING.

1765
01:09:43,445 --> 01:09:44,380
NOT PLANNING ON IT.

1766
01:09:44,446 --> 01:09:48,317
>> YOU DON'T WANT TO, TRUST ME.

1767
01:09:48,384 --> 01:09:49,084
>> AMAZING, THANK YOU FOR

1768
01:09:49,151 --> 01:09:50,052
SHARING THAT WITH US.

1769
01:09:50,119 --> 01:09:52,788
I'D LIKE TO TURN TO ASKING YOU

1770
01:09:52,855 --> 01:09:54,657
WHAT YOU ALL -- ACTUALLY MAYBE

1771
01:09:54,723 --> 01:09:56,759
BLAIR, I'LL GIVE YOU A CHANCE TO

1772
01:09:56,825 --> 01:09:57,693
REFLECT AFTER WATCHING THAT,

1773
01:09:57,760 --> 01:10:02,331
ANYTHING YOU WANT TO TELL US

1774
01:10:02,398 --> 01:10:03,966
ABOUT?

1775
01:10:04,033 --> 01:10:04,833
>> YEAH.

1776
01:10:04,900 --> 01:10:06,001
IT WAS AN INTERESTING

1777
01:10:06,068 --> 01:10:06,302
EXPERIENCE.

1778
01:10:06,368 --> 01:10:09,605
THERE'S A LOT OF FACTORS YOU

1779
01:10:09,672 --> 01:10:13,075
KIND OF -- YOU KNOW GOING SO

1780
01:10:13,142 --> 01:10:14,143
HIGH HAS ITS CHALLENGES.

1781
01:10:14,209 --> 01:10:15,911
SOME OF THE THINGS THAT WERE OF

1782
01:10:15,978 --> 01:10:17,880
INTEREST IS I LOST MY MEMORY FOR

1783
01:10:17,947 --> 01:10:20,149
ABOUT TWO WEEKS.

1784
01:10:20,215 --> 01:10:21,717
I HAD EVERYTHING UNTIL ABOUT AN

1785
01:10:21,784 --> 01:10:25,187
HOUR AFTER I LANDED, AND THEN IT

1786
01:10:25,254 --> 01:10:26,488
WAS ALL GONE.

1787
01:10:26,555 --> 01:10:29,024
BUT I NEVER WANT TO RETURN BACK.

1788
01:10:29,091 --> 01:10:32,194
I THOUGHT IT WAS GOING TO BE

1789
01:10:32,261 --> 01:10:33,562
THIS TRANSITIVE EXPERIENCE WHERE

1790
01:10:33,629 --> 01:10:35,998
YOU KIND OF -- YOU GO UP, AND

1791
01:10:36,065 --> 01:10:38,400
YOU'RE CLOSER TO THE HEAVENS,

1792
01:10:38,467 --> 01:10:40,135
AND THEY ASK YOU IF YOU WANT TO

1793
01:10:40,202 --> 01:10:41,770
TAKE ANYTHING PERSONAL.

1794
01:10:41,837 --> 01:10:45,608
SO I ACTUALLY DOG MY DOG'S TAGS.

1795
01:10:45,674 --> 01:10:48,377
AND THE TRUTH IS, YOU GET UP SO

1796
01:10:48,444 --> 01:10:51,747
HIGH, YOU START TO SEE THE

1797
01:10:51,814 --> 01:10:53,349
BLACKNESS AROUND YOU.

1798
01:10:53,415 --> 01:10:54,450
AND UNFORTUNATELY, IT DIDN'T

1799
01:10:54,516 --> 01:10:55,351
HAVE THAT EXPERIENCE.

1800
01:10:55,417 --> 01:10:58,721
IT WASN'T LIKE I FELT CLOSER TO

1801
01:10:58,787 --> 01:10:59,488
RILEY, MY DOG.

1802
01:10:59,555 --> 01:11:01,457
WHAT I FOUND IS THAT EVERYTHING

1803
01:11:01,523 --> 01:11:03,759
I LOVED AND EVERYTHING I WILL

1804
01:11:03,826 --> 01:11:06,061
AND HAVE EVER LOVED WAS ON THIS

1805
01:11:06,128 --> 01:11:08,364
BLUE GLOWING BALL BELOW ME.

1806
01:11:08,430 --> 01:11:10,833
AND THE SENSATION AND THE IDEA

1807
01:11:10,899 --> 01:11:15,604
OF WHAT IS HOME.

1808
01:11:15,671 --> 01:11:18,207
HOME IS NEVER MORE.

1809
01:11:18,273 --> 01:11:21,443
I KNOW THAT IT WAS AN EXCITING

1810
01:11:21,510 --> 01:11:23,178
ONE; I WILL NEVER DO IT AGAIN

1811
01:11:23,245 --> 01:11:23,579
THOUGH.

1812
01:11:23,646 --> 01:11:33,555
>> WHAT DID YOUR DAUGHTER THINK

1813
01:11:33,622 --> 01:11:34,990
OF THIS?

1814
01:11:35,057 --> 01:11:38,394
>> AVA IS -- SHE'S MY OWN LITTLE

1815
01:11:38,460 --> 01:11:39,028
HEIGHT MAN.

1816
01:11:39,094 --> 01:11:41,897
I SOMETIMES YOU WANT TO GO A

1817
01:11:41,964 --> 01:11:44,500
PLACE AND NOT HAVING IT ENTER

1818
01:11:44,566 --> 01:11:45,601
INTO THE CONVERSATION.

1819
01:11:45,668 --> 01:11:46,402
SHE'S ALWAYS THERE, ALWAYS

1820
01:11:46,468 --> 01:11:47,569
EXCITED ABOUT IT.

1821
01:11:47,636 --> 01:11:50,539
I WAS TALKING WITH A SENIOR

1822
01:11:50,606 --> 01:11:51,874
OFFICIAL IN THE MILITARY ABOUT

1823
01:11:51,940 --> 01:11:53,642
HER SPECIFICALLY AFTER WE HAD

1824
01:11:53,709 --> 01:11:57,112
DONE IT, WE KNEW IT WAS

1825
01:11:57,179 --> 01:11:57,646
SUCCESSFUL.

1826
01:11:57,713 --> 01:12:00,649
I TOLD THEM THAT MY DAUGHTER HAD

1827
01:12:00,716 --> 01:12:01,817
A GREAT IMAGINATION.

1828
01:12:01,884 --> 01:12:03,585
SHE WAS GOING TO GO TO THE MOON

1829
01:12:03,652 --> 01:12:05,888
AND SEND ME A TEXT MESSAGE.

1830
01:12:05,954 --> 01:12:07,189
AND THAT OFFICIAL SAID, AFTER

1831
01:12:07,256 --> 01:12:09,491
WHAT YOU'VE JUST DONE YOU CAN

1832
01:12:09,558 --> 01:12:13,762
NEVER TELL HER THAT SHE CAN'T.

1833
01:12:13,829 --> 01:12:16,065
>> WELL, THAT'S SO AMAZING.

1834
01:12:16,131 --> 01:12:17,599
SO THANK YOU.

1835
01:12:17,666 --> 01:12:20,903
SO, FOR YOU ALL, WHAT WOULD YOU

1836
01:12:20,969 --> 01:12:22,504
LIKE TO SHARE WITH AUTISTIC

1837
01:12:22,571 --> 01:12:24,173
YOUTH AND ADULT WHO IS ARE

1838
01:12:24,239 --> 01:12:25,374
INTERESTED IN PURSUING A

1839
01:12:25,441 --> 01:12:27,109
CREATIVE CAREER OR JUST

1840
01:12:27,176 --> 01:12:28,477
GENERALLY INTERESTED IN PURSUING

1841
01:12:28,544 --> 01:12:28,844
THEIR DREAMS?

1842
01:12:28,911 --> 01:12:30,946
WHAT HAVE YOU LEARNED ON YOUR

1843
01:12:31,013 --> 01:12:32,681
JOURNEY THAT YOU WOULD LOVE TO

1844
01:12:32,748 --> 01:12:33,248
IMPART TO THEM?

1845
01:12:33,315 --> 01:12:39,588
>> I CAN SPEAK TO THAT.

1846
01:12:39,655 --> 01:12:41,924
I MEAN, ONLY DO IT FOR A LIVING.

1847
01:12:41,990 --> 01:12:47,396
I HAVE TO LAUGH, THE WAY THIS

1848
01:12:47,463 --> 01:12:49,031
AFTERNOON IS GOING TO FINISH.

1849
01:12:49,098 --> 01:12:50,566
THERE WAS A STUDY DONE, I HAVE

1850
01:12:50,632 --> 01:12:52,768
TO FIND THE PAPER I READ, THEY

1851
01:12:52,835 --> 01:12:55,604
TRIED TO STUDY ART AND DECIDE

1852
01:12:55,671 --> 01:12:57,272
WHAT MADE GREAT ART.

1853
01:12:57,339 --> 01:12:59,641
THEY LOOKED AT MASTERS.

1854
01:12:59,708 --> 01:13:01,076
MICHELANGELO, ALL THESE PAST

1855
01:13:01,143 --> 01:13:01,677
ARTISTS.

1856
01:13:01,744 --> 01:13:05,214
THEY WERE ABLE TO COME TO ZERO

1857
01:13:05,280 --> 01:13:06,315
CONCLUSIONS ON WHAT MADE GREAT

1858
01:13:06,381 --> 01:13:08,150
ART BUT DID FIGURE OUT EVERY

1859
01:13:08,217 --> 01:13:10,152
MASTERPIECE WAS ONLY A FEW BRUSH

1860
01:13:10,219 --> 01:13:12,454
STROKES AWAY FROM BEING A TOTAL

1861
01:13:12,521 --> 01:13:12,788
DISASTER.

1862
01:13:12,855 --> 01:13:16,825
IF I GIVE ADVICE TO ANY STUDENT,

1863
01:13:16,892 --> 01:13:18,594
IT IS THIS.

1864
01:13:18,660 --> 01:13:26,468
KNOW WHEN  TO LET IT GO.

1865
01:13:26,535 --> 01:13:27,569
YOU NEVER CULTIVATE, YOU NEVER

1866
01:13:27,636 --> 01:13:28,003
FINISH.

1867
01:13:28,070 --> 01:13:31,707
I WATCH THE FILM, I WAS LATE ON

1868
01:13:31,774 --> 01:13:33,675
THE DOWN BEAT, EVERYTHING I DID

1869
01:13:33,742 --> 01:13:35,444
WRONG BUT YOU HAVE TO LET GO AND

1870
01:13:35,511 --> 01:13:36,645
MOVE TO THE NEXT THING BECAUSE

1871
01:13:36,712 --> 01:13:38,847
THAT'S HOW YOU GROW AS AN

1872
01:13:38,914 --> 01:13:40,883
ARTIST.

1873
01:13:40,949 --> 01:13:45,287
>> I THINK LIKE I SAID

1874
01:13:45,354 --> 01:13:47,356
PREVIOUSLY THAT EXPLORE THOSE

1875
01:13:47,422 --> 01:13:48,657
THINGS YOU'RE PASSIONATE ABOUT.

1876
01:13:48,724 --> 01:13:51,994
AND IF CREATING ART IS ONE OF

1877
01:13:52,060 --> 01:13:54,163
THOSE THINGS, EXPLORE IT.

1878
01:13:54,229 --> 01:13:57,232
DO IT, TRY TO DO IT AT A

1879
01:13:57,299 --> 01:13:58,534
PROFESSIONAL LEVEL, BUT DON'T BE

1880
01:13:58,600 --> 01:14:00,502
UPSET IF YOU CAN'T GET THERE.

1881
01:14:00,569 --> 01:14:02,771
DO IT FOR THE LOVE OF DOING IT.

1882
01:14:02,838 --> 01:14:04,106
AND THEN IF YOU DO IT LONG

1883
01:14:04,173 --> 01:14:05,541
ENOUGH YOU'RE GOING TO FIND

1884
01:14:05,607 --> 01:14:07,075
THERE'S A WAY TO FIT IT IN WITH

1885
01:14:07,142 --> 01:14:09,478
YOUR LIFE AND MAYBE FINANCIALLY

1886
01:14:09,545 --> 01:14:10,145
AND STUFF.

1887
01:14:10,212 --> 01:14:12,414
SO JUST KEEP DOING IT AND KEEP

1888
01:14:12,481 --> 01:14:14,783
CREATING.

1889
01:14:18,053 --> 01:14:21,490
>> FOR INDIVIDUALS PURSUING A

1890
01:14:21,557 --> 01:14:25,327
CAREER IN THE ARTS, YOUR ART IS

1891
01:14:25,394 --> 01:14:26,762
YOUR SOUL.

1892
01:14:26,829 --> 01:14:28,864
IT'S THE GROUNDING ASPECT OF

1893
01:14:28,931 --> 01:14:31,333
YOUR JOURNEY OF LIFE.

1894
01:14:31,400 --> 01:14:33,869
AND SO, THERE'S A LOT OF HOPE I

1895
01:14:33,936 --> 01:14:35,737
THINK FOR KIDS THAT PEOPLE WANT

1896
01:14:35,804 --> 01:14:38,373
TO GET INTO THIS PROFESSION,

1897
01:14:38,440 --> 01:14:42,077
MAKE MONEY, WHAT NOT, BUT WHEN

1898
01:14:42,144 --> 01:14:43,178
THINGS HAPPEN, WHEN YOU'RE

1899
01:14:43,245 --> 01:14:45,247
HAVING DAYS WHERE THAT MENTAL

1900
01:14:45,314 --> 01:14:47,783
STRUGGLE IS THERE, YOU HAVE TO

1901
01:14:47,850 --> 01:14:50,385
HAVE THAT ART FIRST BECAUSE

1902
01:14:50,452 --> 01:14:52,154
THAT'S WHAT WILL KEEP YOU AROUND

1903
01:14:52,221 --> 01:14:55,858
AND HELP YOU GET THROUGH IT.

1904
01:14:55,924 --> 01:14:58,393
SO, IF I WOULD SAY ANY ADVICE TO

1905
01:14:58,460 --> 01:14:59,494
HAVE THAT SOLID RELATIONSHIP

1906
01:14:59,561 --> 01:15:06,802
WITH YOUR ART BEFORE EVER MAKING

1907
01:15:06,869 --> 01:15:10,939
IT INTO A PROFESSION.

1908
01:15:11,006 --> 01:15:12,307
>> AND MY FINAL QUESTION BEFORE

1909
01:15:12,374 --> 01:15:13,742
WE GIVE THE AUDIENCE A CHANCE TO

1910
01:15:13,809 --> 01:15:15,577
TALK, HOW DO YOU HOPE THE WORLD

1911
01:15:15,644 --> 01:15:17,112
WILL CHANGE IN THE COMING YEARS

1912
01:15:17,179 --> 01:15:22,985
TO MAKE LIFE EASIER AND BE MORE

1913
01:15:23,051 --> 01:15:24,019
INCLUSIVE FOR AUTISTIC AND

1914
01:15:24,086 --> 01:15:25,954
NEURODIVERGENT PEOPLE?

1915
01:15:26,021 --> 01:15:27,623
>> DO WE HAVE ANOTHER HOUR?

1916
01:15:27,689 --> 01:15:29,258
WE'VE BEEN WATCHING FILMS AND

1917
01:15:29,324 --> 01:15:30,559
EVERYTHING TOO ABOUT WHAT'S

1918
01:15:30,626 --> 01:15:31,760
GOING ON.

1919
01:15:31,827 --> 01:15:33,729
OUR ART SPEAKS FOR THAT.

1920
01:15:33,795 --> 01:15:35,797
WHAT WOULD I LIKE TO SEE CHANGE

1921
01:15:35,864 --> 01:15:36,698
IN THE WORLD?

1922
01:15:36,765 --> 01:15:40,836
IN GENERAL I WANT TO SEE HATE GO

1923
01:15:40,903 --> 01:15:41,036
AWAY.

1924
01:15:41,103 --> 01:15:43,572
I DON'T LIKE A WORLD WITH HATE

1925
01:15:43,639 --> 01:15:44,873
FOR ANY REASON, WHETHER FOR

1926
01:15:44,940 --> 01:15:46,975
COLOR OF SOMEONE'S SKIN OR

1927
01:15:47,042 --> 01:15:48,343
RELIGION OR THEIR DIAGNOSIS.

1928
01:15:48,410 --> 01:15:50,479
THE FACT THAT WE CAN'T BE IN A

1929
01:15:50,545 --> 01:15:52,748
ROOM AND JUST BE DIFFERENT, I

1930
01:15:52,814 --> 01:15:53,148
DON'T UNDERSTAND.

1931
01:15:53,215 --> 01:15:56,018
I KNOW THAT THERE'S THIS WHOLE

1932
01:15:56,084 --> 01:15:58,220
THING WITH, YOU KNOW, GROUP

1933
01:15:58,287 --> 01:15:59,755
MENTALITIES, PEOPLE WANT A SENSE

1934
01:15:59,821 --> 01:16:01,723
OF BELONGING, BUT WE'RE A GLOBE

1935
01:16:01,790 --> 01:16:02,057
NOW.

1936
01:16:02,124 --> 01:16:03,358
WE LIVE IN A GLOBAL WORLD.

1937
01:16:03,425 --> 01:16:04,559
WE KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON IN CHINA

1938
01:16:04,626 --> 01:16:06,194
AS SOON AS WE KNOW WHAT'S GOING

1939
01:16:06,261 --> 01:16:07,829
ON IN OUR OWN BACK YARD.

1940
01:16:07,896 --> 01:16:09,064
THIS IS THE UNIVERSE WE'RE

1941
01:16:09,131 --> 01:16:09,731
LIVING IN.

1942
01:16:09,798 --> 01:16:10,866
SO WE HAVE TO REALIZE THERE'S

1943
01:16:10,933 --> 01:16:12,267
ALWAYS GOING TO BE SOMEBODY

1944
01:16:12,334 --> 01:16:13,335
DIFFERENT IN THE ROOM.

1945
01:16:13,402 --> 01:16:15,837
AND IF YOU SEE SOMEBODY, THAT'S

1946
01:16:15,904 --> 01:16:17,372
SITTING ALONE IN A CORNER, MIGHT

1947
01:16:17,439 --> 01:16:20,776
NOT BE A BAD IDEA TO SAY, HEY,

1948
01:16:20,842 --> 01:16:24,513
MY NAME IS ... NICE TO MEET YOU.

1949
01:16:24,579 --> 01:16:29,985
AND JUST CHAT.

1950
01:16:30,052 --> 01:16:31,820
>> FIRST I WANT TO SAY WE'VE

1951
01:16:31,887 --> 01:16:33,488
COME A LONG WAY IN THE 25 YEARS

1952
01:16:33,555 --> 01:16:36,325
OR SO THAT I'VE BEEN INVOLVED IN

1953
01:16:36,391 --> 01:16:37,626
THE AUTISM COMMUNITY.

1954
01:16:37,693 --> 01:16:40,262
WE'VE MADE GREAT STRIDES.

1955
01:16:40,329 --> 01:16:43,999
WE'RE NOT HAVING THE SAME

1956
01:16:44,066 --> 01:16:45,200
CONVERSATION ABOUT TRAGEDY AND

1957
01:16:45,267 --> 01:16:45,968
DEFICIENCY.

1958
01:16:46,034 --> 01:16:47,402
WE'RE TALKING ABOUT ACCEPTANCE

1959
01:16:47,469 --> 01:16:47,903
NOW.

1960
01:16:47,970 --> 01:16:50,439
AND THAT'S A BIG CHANGE.

1961
01:16:50,505 --> 01:16:52,407
AND I HOPE THE TRAJECTORY THAT

1962
01:16:52,474 --> 01:16:53,742
WE'RE ON CONTINUES.

1963
01:16:53,809 --> 01:16:54,710
I'VE HAD CONVERSATIONS WITH MANY

1964
01:16:54,776 --> 01:16:56,678
PEOPLE IN THIS ROOM ABOUT THE

1965
01:16:56,745 --> 01:16:59,414
WORK THEY ARE DOING, ABOUT

1966
01:16:59,481 --> 01:17:01,583
DESIGNING ARCHITECTURE TO BE

1967
01:17:01,650 --> 01:17:03,685
MORE INCLUSIVE TO PEOPLE'S

1968
01:17:03,752 --> 01:17:04,453
SENSORY NEEDS.

1969
01:17:04,519 --> 01:17:06,421
IT'S DOING THIS IN OUR PUBLIC

1970
01:17:06,488 --> 01:17:06,922
ARCHITECTURE.

1971
01:17:06,989 --> 01:17:08,390
WE TALK ABOUT IT AT OUR

1972
01:17:08,457 --> 01:17:11,360
UNIVERSITY, HOW DO WE INCLUDE

1973
01:17:11,426 --> 01:17:12,995
OUR STUDENTS WITH ADHD AND

1974
01:17:13,061 --> 01:17:17,165
AUTISM, HOW DO WE MAKE THEIR

1975
01:17:17,232 --> 01:17:18,333
ACADEMIC CAREERMORE SUCCESSFUL,

1976
01:17:18,400 --> 01:17:19,234
PROVIDING ACCOMMODATIONS AND

1977
01:17:19,301 --> 01:17:19,634
STUFF.

1978
01:17:19,701 --> 01:17:21,036
WE HAVE A LOT OF GOOD IDEAS OUT

1979
01:17:21,103 --> 01:17:23,305
THERE, A LOT OF PEOPLE WORKING

1980
01:17:23,372 --> 01:17:23,505
ON IT.

1981
01:17:23,572 --> 01:17:25,941
I JUST HOPE THAT ALL THESE GOOD

1982
01:17:26,008 --> 01:17:27,042
IDEAS ACTUALLY GET PUT INTO

1983
01:17:27,109 --> 01:17:29,611
PRACTICE.

1984
01:17:30,579 --> 01:17:31,813
>> I'M GOING BACK A LITTLE BIT

1985
01:17:31,880 --> 01:17:33,949
TO WHAT I MENTIONED PRIOR TO

1986
01:17:34,016 --> 01:17:37,419
THIS SPACE.

1987
01:17:37,486 --> 01:17:39,721
EDUCATION, BUT ALSO SUPPORT AT A

1988
01:17:39,788 --> 01:17:41,990
YOUNG AGE.

1989
01:17:42,057 --> 01:17:44,393
I KNOW THAT SOUNDS SILLY BUT

1990
01:17:44,459 --> 01:17:46,161
THAT CARTOON WITH A HERO THAT

1991
01:17:46,228 --> 01:17:47,596
HAD AUTISM MADE IT POSSIBLE FOR

1992
01:17:47,662 --> 01:17:51,199
A FATHER AND DAUGHTER TO HAVE A

1993
01:17:51,266 --> 01:17:53,502
RELATIONSHIP THAT'S MORE OPEN,

1994
01:17:53,568 --> 01:17:56,538
AT 5 YEARS OLD, ALREADY FOR HER

1995
01:17:56,605 --> 01:17:56,872
TO REALIZE IT.

1996
01:17:56,938 --> 01:17:59,441
SO MUCH SO THAT THERE'S BEEN

1997
01:17:59,508 --> 01:18:03,445
TIMES WHEN THERE IS ANOTHER KID

1998
01:18:03,512 --> 01:18:06,848
THAT -- A CHILD HER AGE THAT HAS

1999
01:18:06,915 --> 01:18:07,949
ASPECTS SHE CAN IDENTIFY

2000
01:18:08,016 --> 01:18:12,220
ALREADY, THAT SHE CAN HELP BE

2001
01:18:12,287 --> 01:18:12,654
SUPPORTIVE.

2002
01:18:12,721 --> 01:18:17,492
AND AT 6 YEARS OLD, I CAN'T EVEN

2003
01:18:17,559 --> 01:18:19,895
REMEMBER WHAT 6 YEARS OLD WAS

2004
01:18:19,961 --> 01:18:21,196
FOR ME.

2005
01:18:21,263 --> 01:18:24,132
FIRST GRADE TO COLLEGE WAS A

2006
01:18:24,199 --> 01:18:24,499
BLUR.

2007
01:18:24,566 --> 01:18:26,568
YOUNGER WE CAN REACH SOMEBODY TO

2008
01:18:26,635 --> 01:18:30,305
TEACH THEM MAYBE ABOUT A PARENT,

2009
01:18:30,372 --> 01:18:31,606
MAYBE ANOTHER FRIEND THEY HAVE,

2010
01:18:31,673 --> 01:18:34,409
OPEN THEIR HEART TO HOW TO

2011
01:18:34,476 --> 01:18:35,544
SUPPORT THAT PERSON, I THINK

2012
01:18:35,610 --> 01:18:40,248
IT'S A LARGE STEP IN HOW DO WE

2013
01:18:40,315 --> 01:18:44,986
MAKE THE LIVES OF THOSE AFFECTED

2014
01:18:45,053 --> 01:18:48,023
MORE FULL, MORE FRUITFUL.

2015
01:18:48,090 --> 01:18:50,759
>> I HOPE YOU ALL WILL JOIN ME

2016
01:18:50,826 --> 01:18:52,627
IN THANKING OUR SPEAKERS FOR

2017
01:18:52,694 --> 01:18:54,930
SHARING SO PERSONALLY WITH US.

2018
01:18:54,996 --> 01:18:56,898
I FEEL PRIVILEGED TO HEAR FROM

2019
01:18:56,965 --> 01:18:57,199
YOU.

2020
01:18:57,265 --> 01:18:59,601
AND WE JUST REALLY ENJOYED

2021
01:18:59,668 --> 01:19:01,369
SEEING ALL THE IMAGES, FEELING

2022
01:19:01,436 --> 01:19:03,972
ALL THE FIELDS, AS WE COULD

2023
01:19:04,039 --> 01:19:05,640
TRAVEL THIS JOURNEY WITH YOU, SO

2024
01:19:05,707 --> 01:19:06,374
THANK YOU.

2025
01:19:06,441 --> 01:19:08,643
[APPLAUSE]

2026
01:19:12,247 --> 01:19:15,016
AND NOW I'D LIKE TO INVITE

2027
01:19:15,083 --> 01:19:21,723
STEPHEN ISAACSON TO JOIN US, THE

2028
01:19:21,790 --> 01:19:22,924
NEURODIVERSITY LIAISON.

2029
01:19:22,991 --> 01:19:24,559
WE'LL HAVE Q&A TIME WITH THE

2030
01:19:24,626 --> 01:19:24,993
AUDIENCE.

2031
01:19:25,060 --> 01:19:29,030
ONLINE IF YOU'RE WATCHING ON NIH

2032
01:19:29,097 --> 01:19:30,465
VIDEOCAST USE THE LINK TO SHARE

2033
01:19:30,532 --> 01:19:31,900
YOUR QUESTIONS.

2034
01:19:31,967 --> 01:19:33,001
STEPHEN WILL BE MONITORING

2035
01:19:33,068 --> 01:19:33,335
THOSE.

2036
01:19:33,401 --> 01:19:34,636
WE'LL BE HAPPY TO TAKE YOUR

2037
01:19:34,703 --> 01:19:34,903
QUESTIONS.

2038
01:19:34,970 --> 01:19:37,806
WE HAVE A STANDING MIC AND ONE

2039
01:19:37,873 --> 01:19:41,443
OF OUR TEAM MEMBERS, LOUISE

2040
01:19:41,510 --> 01:19:42,310
VALDES LOPEZ, RUNNING AROUND

2041
01:19:42,377 --> 01:19:45,580
WITH THE MIC TO HELP WITH

2042
01:19:45,647 --> 01:19:50,285
QUESTIONS.

2043
01:19:50,352 --> 01:19:52,020
I WAS JUST REMINDED, I SKIPPED

2044
01:19:52,087 --> 01:19:53,121
THE MOMENT.

2045
01:19:53,188 --> 01:19:55,090
BEFORE WE GO TO THE Q&A, THAT

2046
01:19:55,157 --> 01:20:03,532
WE'RE GOING TO HEAR FROM LAURA.

2047
01:20:03,598 --> 01:20:07,335
>> WE'LL DO IT.

2048
01:20:07,402 --> 01:20:08,870
>> I'M SORRY.

2049
01:20:08,937 --> 01:20:10,205
WE HAVE -- LAURA IS GOING TO

2050
01:20:10,272 --> 01:20:11,173
PLAY FOR US LIVE.

2051
01:20:11,239 --> 01:20:13,475
WE'LL HAVE A MOMENT TO HEAR FROM

2052
01:20:13,542 --> 01:20:16,211
HER RIGHT HERE IN THIS ROOM AN

2053
01:20:16,278 --> 01:20:17,612
ORIGINAL COMPETITION.

2054
01:20:17,679 --> 01:20:20,148
>> I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU A NOTE

2055
01:20:20,215 --> 01:20:20,448
BEFOREHAND.

2056
01:20:20,515 --> 01:20:22,450
THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I'VE

2057
01:20:22,517 --> 01:20:23,752
PLAYED MY VIOLIN SINCE MY

2058
01:20:23,818 --> 01:20:24,719
FATHER'S PASSING IN MARCH.

2059
01:20:24,786 --> 01:20:26,721
AND THIS PIECE IS ACTUALLY

2060
01:20:26,788 --> 01:20:29,391
WRITTEN FOR HIM.

2061
01:20:47,842 --> 01:20:50,378
♪

2062
01:22:56,671 --> 01:22:59,441
[APPLAUSE]

2063
01:23:07,782 --> 01:23:09,884
>> THAT WAS BEAUTIFUL, LAURA.

2064
01:23:09,951 --> 01:23:11,953
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING

2065
01:23:12,020 --> 01:23:12,220
WITH US.

2066
01:23:12,287 --> 01:23:14,622
WE REALLY APPRECIATED THAT.

2067
01:23:14,689 --> 01:23:18,993
SO NOW WE'LL TURN TO THE Q&A.

2068
01:23:19,060 --> 01:23:20,729
SO, DOES ANYONE HAVE A QUESTION

2069
01:23:20,795 --> 01:23:23,598
THAT YOU'D LIKE TO ASK OUR

2070
01:23:23,665 --> 01:23:23,965
GUESTS?

2071
01:23:24,032 --> 01:23:26,501
DR. GORDON?

2072
01:23:33,074 --> 01:23:37,379
>> FIRST, I WANT TO REITERATE MY

2073
01:23:37,445 --> 01:23:39,781
THANKS TO YOU FOR BEING HERE,

2074
01:23:39,848 --> 01:23:40,548
SPEAKING ELOQUENTLY AND

2075
01:23:40,615 --> 01:23:41,649
PRESENTING US WITH WONDERFUL

2076
01:23:41,716 --> 01:23:42,951
ART.

2077
01:23:43,017 --> 01:23:46,121
THE WORK THAT YOU'VE ALL

2078
01:23:46,187 --> 01:23:49,424
PRESENTED TODAY IS CLEARLY

2079
01:23:49,491 --> 01:23:51,626
IMBUED WITH TREMENDOUS EMOTION.

2080
01:23:51,693 --> 01:23:53,661
AND, BLAIR AND LAURA ESPECIALLY,

2081
01:23:53,728 --> 01:23:55,797
REALLY ALL THREE OF YOU, HAVE

2082
01:23:55,864 --> 01:23:59,033
TOLD US ABOUT HOW YOUR ART HAS

2083
01:23:59,100 --> 01:24:02,103
GIVEN YOU THE ABILITY TO EXPRESS

2084
01:24:02,170 --> 01:24:05,073
AND COMMUNICATE IN WAYS THAT IS

2085
01:24:05,140 --> 01:24:06,608
MORE DIFFICULT TO DO OUTSIDE OF

2086
01:24:06,674 --> 01:24:08,410
THE ART.

2087
01:24:08,476 --> 01:24:09,778
I'M WONDERING IN THE EXPERIENCE

2088
01:24:09,844 --> 01:24:11,413
OF LEARNING TO CREATE THE ART

2089
01:24:11,479 --> 01:24:13,581
AND OF CREATING THE ART, HOW

2090
01:24:13,648 --> 01:24:15,250
THAT HELPS YOU COMMUNICATE WITH

2091
01:24:15,316 --> 01:24:17,118
THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU IN OTHER

2092
01:24:17,185 --> 01:24:17,986
WAYS AS WELL.

2093
01:24:18,052 --> 01:24:20,822
OR DO YOU REALLY RELY ON THE ART

2094
01:24:20,889 --> 01:24:23,792
TO COMMUNICATE THE DEEP EMOTIONS

2095
01:24:23,858 --> 01:24:29,030
THAT YOU FEEL?

2096
01:24:29,097 --> 01:24:31,199
>> THAT'S ACTUALLY A DEEP

2097
01:24:31,266 --> 01:24:31,466
QUESTION.

2098
01:24:31,533 --> 01:24:37,038
I THINK -- I'M GOING TO GUESS.

2099
01:24:37,105 --> 01:24:39,908
I THINK I FEEL EMOTION LIKE

2100
01:24:39,974 --> 01:24:40,775
ANYBODY ELSE.

2101
01:24:40,842 --> 01:24:42,977
I MISS THE LABEL, MY EXPRESSION

2102
01:24:43,044 --> 01:24:43,945
CAN SOMETIMES BE AWKWARD.

2103
01:24:44,012 --> 01:24:46,481
MY HUSBAND AND I LIKE TO

2104
01:24:46,548 --> 01:24:47,649
ACTUALLY JOKE AROUND BECAUSE

2105
01:24:47,715 --> 01:24:49,984
SOME PEOPLE HAVE LIKE RESTING

2106
01:24:50,051 --> 01:24:53,154
MAD FACE, I HAVE RESTING

2107
01:24:53,221 --> 01:24:57,525
CONFUSED PACE.

2108
01:24:57,592 --> 01:24:58,293
FACE.

2109
01:24:58,359 --> 01:25:01,696
IT'S MY PROCESSING FACE.

2110
01:25:01,763 --> 01:25:03,665
MUSIC MAKES IT CLEARER WHAT I'M

2111
01:25:03,731 --> 01:25:04,132
FEELING.

2112
01:25:04,199 --> 01:25:07,168
I CAN THINK BACK INTO CHILDHOOD

2113
01:25:07,235 --> 01:25:08,803
WHEN I WAS PERFORMING, IF I

2114
01:25:08,870 --> 01:25:09,804
INTENDED FORETHE AUDIENCE TO

2115
01:25:09,871 --> 01:25:11,439
CRY, THEY WOULD CRY.

2116
01:25:11,506 --> 01:25:13,508
IF I WANTED THEM TO LAUGH I

2117
01:25:13,575 --> 01:25:14,676
WOULD MAKE THEM LAUGH, SOMETHING

2118
01:25:14,742 --> 01:25:17,245
I STRUGGLED TO DO IN

2119
01:25:17,312 --> 01:25:17,579
CONVERSATION.

2120
01:25:17,645 --> 01:25:19,113
YES, MUSIC GAVE ME A VOCABULARY

2121
01:25:19,180 --> 01:25:26,254
OF EMOTION I DIDN'T HAVE BEFORE.

2122
01:25:26,321 --> 01:25:34,095
>> PICKING UP THE CAMERA WAS --

2123
01:25:34,162 --> 01:25:37,298
IT HELPED THE PROCESS OF BEING

2124
01:25:37,365 --> 01:25:38,700
OPEN AND EMOTIONALLY VULNERABLE.

2125
01:25:38,766 --> 01:25:45,273
THERE ARE TIMES ON THE SET

2126
01:25:45,340 --> 01:25:47,675
YOU'RE CREATING OVERWHELMING

2127
01:25:47,742 --> 01:25:47,842
ART.

2128
01:25:47,909 --> 01:25:50,078
TOM, THE THAT GENTLEMAN I WORKED

2129
01:25:50,144 --> 01:25:51,513
WITH, BEFORE FIRST PLACE, HE'S

2130
01:25:51,579 --> 01:25:54,115
SEEN ME ON AN AD CAMPAIGN.

2131
01:25:54,182 --> 01:25:55,783
THERE'S A CERTAIN FREEDOM THAT

2132
01:25:55,850 --> 01:25:57,519
HAVING THAT CAMERA AND PICKING

2133
01:25:57,585 --> 01:26:00,054
IT UP FOR THE FIRST TIME TO

2134
01:26:00,121 --> 01:26:02,991
CREATE ART, THE ART IS WHAT YOU

2135
01:26:03,057 --> 01:26:04,425
START THE CONVERSATION WITH, BUT

2136
01:26:04,492 --> 01:26:06,928
IT HAS OPENED UP MY LIFE TO

2137
01:26:06,995 --> 01:26:08,463
KNOWING PEOPLE LIKE HIM AND A

2138
01:26:08,530 --> 01:26:10,698
NUMBER OF OTHER ART DIRECTORS

2139
01:26:10,765 --> 01:26:12,500
AND CREATIVE DIRECTORS WHERE I

2140
01:26:12,567 --> 01:26:13,601
CAN HAVE CONVERSATIONS THAT I

2141
01:26:13,668 --> 01:26:18,339
COULDN'T HAVE HAD BEFORE I HAD

2142
01:26:18,406 --> 01:26:19,741
THE CAMERA.

2143
01:26:19,807 --> 01:26:24,245
IT'S AN INTERESTING ONE BUT YOU

2144
01:26:24,312 --> 01:26:27,849
FIND THAT THE MORE YOU HAVE THAT

2145
01:26:27,916 --> 01:26:30,685
CONVERSATION ON SET, THE MORE

2146
01:26:30,752 --> 01:26:32,220
EVERYONE -- THE MORE PEOPLE YOU

2147
01:26:32,287 --> 01:26:33,988
FIND THAT ARE JUST IN THE EXACT

2148
01:26:34,055 --> 01:26:36,291
SAME EXPERIENCE GOING THROUGH

2149
01:26:36,357 --> 01:26:39,027
THAT LIFE, AND IT MAKES FOR A

2150
01:26:39,093 --> 01:26:41,095
BOND THAT IS CLOSE BEYOND THE

2151
01:26:41,162 --> 01:26:42,964
CREATION THAT YOU HAVE ON THAT

2152
01:26:43,031 --> 01:26:44,065
PROJECT, IT MAKES FOR SOMEBODY

2153
01:26:44,132 --> 01:26:46,134
THAT YOU CAN TRUST AND THAT YOU

2154
01:26:46,200 --> 01:26:47,769
CAN TALK TO.

2155
01:26:47,835 --> 01:26:54,542
AND SO, IN A WAY, MY CONDITION

2156
01:26:54,609 --> 01:26:56,544
STOPPED ME FROM BEING ABLE TO

2157
01:26:56,611 --> 01:26:58,580
TALK UNTIL THE CAMERA WAS

2158
01:26:58,646 --> 01:27:00,448
BROUGHT AND THE CAMERA WAS

2159
01:27:00,515 --> 01:27:01,449
INITIALLY THE MOUTHPIECE, BUT

2160
01:27:01,516 --> 01:27:02,917
THEN MADE IT TO WHERE I WAS ABLE

2161
01:27:02,984 --> 01:27:05,620
TO OPEN UP TO A WAY I WAS NOT

2162
01:27:05,687 --> 01:27:07,322
BEFORE.

2163
01:27:10,491 --> 01:27:12,160
>> IF I COULD MAKE ONE QUICK

2164
01:27:12,226 --> 01:27:12,827
POINT.

2165
01:27:12,894 --> 01:27:18,166
I THINK MY FILMS SHOW MY

2166
01:27:18,232 --> 01:27:19,934
SENSITIVITY, AND MY CONCERN AND

2167
01:27:20,001 --> 01:27:21,369
CARE FOR PEOPLE.

2168
01:27:21,436 --> 01:27:22,870
AND I THINK THAT I DO THAT WITH

2169
01:27:22,937 --> 01:27:23,538
ALL MY FILMS.

2170
01:27:23,605 --> 01:27:29,544
THAT'S ONE OF THE WAYS THAT I

2171
01:27:29,611 --> 01:27:32,180
COMMUNICATE MY INNER GENUINENESS

2172
01:27:32,246 --> 01:27:33,314
TOWARDS HELPING AND LIFTING ALL

2173
01:27:33,381 --> 01:27:36,017
PEOPLE.

2174
01:27:36,084 --> 01:27:36,484
>> THANKS.

2175
01:27:36,551 --> 01:27:39,587
ARE THERE OTHER QUESTIONS?

2176
01:27:42,323 --> 01:27:45,593
WE'RE GOING TO THE TOP.

2177
01:27:49,430 --> 01:27:50,264
>> HI THERE.

2178
01:27:50,331 --> 01:27:52,266
FIRST OFF, I WANT TO THANK YOU

2179
01:27:52,333 --> 01:27:53,434
GUYS FOR, YOU KNOW, SHARING ALL

2180
01:27:53,501 --> 01:27:55,169
OF THIS STUFF ABOUT YOUR LIFE.

2181
01:27:55,236 --> 01:27:58,439
ONE THING THAT I NOTICED BOTH

2182
01:27:58,506 --> 01:27:59,774
LAURA AND BLAIR TALKING ABOUT, I

2183
01:27:59,841 --> 01:28:01,943
DON'T KNOW IF THIS IS TRUE FOR

2184
01:28:02,010 --> 01:28:04,112
YOU, JOHN, BUT I JUST WANTED TO

2185
01:28:04,178 --> 01:28:07,649
KNOW, I HEARD FROM BOTH OF YOU

2186
01:28:07,715 --> 01:28:12,353
THE EXPERIENCE OF UNDERSTANDING

2187
01:28:12,420 --> 01:28:12,920
YOUR OWN NEURODEVELOPMENTAL

2188
01:28:12,987 --> 01:28:15,423
STRUGGLES, WHEN YOU HAVE A CHILD

2189
01:28:15,490 --> 01:28:17,358
AS WELL WHO MIGHT -- OR BLAIR

2190
01:28:17,425 --> 01:28:19,560
DURING THE FILM, I REMEMBER A

2191
01:28:19,627 --> 01:28:20,762
MOMENT THEY ASKED DO YOU THINK

2192
01:28:20,828 --> 01:28:22,196
YOUR DAUGHTER MIGHT HAVE AUTISM,

2193
01:28:22,263 --> 01:28:23,297
FOR LAURA YOU SAID IT WAS

2194
01:28:23,364 --> 01:28:25,566
THROUGH YOUR SECOND CHILD.

2195
01:28:25,633 --> 01:28:28,403
I WAS WONDERING WHAT THE

2196
01:28:28,469 --> 01:28:30,605
EXPERIENCE OF BEING SOMEONE

2197
01:28:30,672 --> 01:28:34,108
WITH -- BEING NEURODIVERGENT AND

2198
01:28:34,175 --> 01:28:36,310
HAVING A NEURODIVERGENT CHILD.

2199
01:28:36,377 --> 01:28:39,347
>> THAT'S A GREAT QUESTION.

2200
01:28:39,414 --> 01:28:40,982
WE STILL DON'T ACTUALLY KNOW

2201
01:28:41,049 --> 01:28:44,919
WITH MY DAUGHTER IF SHE IS.

2202
01:28:44,986 --> 01:28:46,054
BUT WHAT'S BEEN REALLY SPECIAL

2203
01:28:46,120 --> 01:28:49,424
ABOUT IT, WHETHER OR NOT SHE

2204
01:28:49,490 --> 01:28:50,825
TURNS OUT TO HAVE A

2205
01:28:50,892 --> 01:28:52,160
NEURODIVERSITY OR NOT, WE'VE

2206
01:28:52,226 --> 01:28:53,795
BEEN ABLE TO HAVE AN OPEN

2207
01:28:53,861 --> 01:28:55,697
DIALOGUE BETWEEN A FATHER AND

2208
01:28:55,763 --> 01:28:57,165
DAUGHTER AT A YOUNG AGE, TO

2209
01:28:57,231 --> 01:29:00,401
WHERE SHE UNDERSTANDS THAT IF

2210
01:29:00,468 --> 01:29:02,970
SHE HAS FEELINGS AND EXPERIENCES

2211
01:29:03,037 --> 01:29:04,639
EMOTIONS IN A CERTAIN WAY THAT

2212
01:29:04,706 --> 01:29:07,275
IT IS OKAY.

2213
01:29:07,341 --> 01:29:08,910
AND THAT IF SHE -- LIKE WE SAID

2214
01:29:08,976 --> 01:29:11,079
FROM ONE OF THE PREVIOUS

2215
01:29:11,145 --> 01:29:11,746
QUESTIONS, SHE SEES ANOTHER

2216
01:29:11,813 --> 01:29:14,582
CHILD OR FRIEND THAT HAS THAT,

2217
01:29:14,649 --> 01:29:18,119
THAT SUPPORTING THEM IN A

2218
01:29:18,186 --> 01:29:23,024
CERTAIN WAY CAN BE BENEFICIAL.

2219
01:29:23,091 --> 01:29:25,593
I THINK THAT THERE ARE DAYS WHEN

2220
01:29:25,660 --> 01:29:28,129
I GO THROUGH STRUGGLES

2221
01:29:28,196 --> 01:29:29,230
INTERNALLY OF WOULD I WANT MY

2222
01:29:29,297 --> 01:29:30,798
DAUGHTER TO HAVE WHAT I HAVE,

2223
01:29:30,865 --> 01:29:33,668
AND GO THROUGH WHAT I GO

2224
01:29:33,735 --> 01:29:34,268
THROUGH.

2225
01:29:34,335 --> 01:29:35,303
AND SOME DAYS THAT'S

2226
01:29:35,369 --> 01:29:39,040
HEARTBREAKING, THE IDEA OF IT,

2227
01:29:39,107 --> 01:29:40,541
BECAUSE IT'S PAINFUL.

2228
01:29:40,608 --> 01:29:43,177
BUT THERE ARE OTHER DAYS WHEN IT

2229
01:29:43,244 --> 01:29:44,612
IS THE CATALYST THAT HAS

2230
01:29:44,679 --> 01:29:46,013
INSPIRED ME TO DO PROJECTS.

2231
01:29:46,080 --> 01:29:49,517
LIKE THE ONE WE SAW.

2232
01:29:49,584 --> 01:29:54,455
SO, I LOOK AT IT AS EITHER WAY,

2233
01:29:54,522 --> 01:29:56,190
EITHER WAY SHE'LL ALWAYS KNOW

2234
01:29:56,257 --> 01:30:00,595
THAT I AM THERE FOR HER.

2235
01:30:00,661 --> 01:30:02,029
AND I NEVER THOUGHT AT A YOUNG

2236
01:30:02,096 --> 01:30:03,765
AGE IT WOULD BE THE OTHER WAY

2237
01:30:03,831 --> 01:30:04,632
AROUND AND SHE WOULD BE THERE

2238
01:30:04,699 --> 01:30:09,904
FOR ME BUT IT'S MADE US CLOSER.

2239
01:30:09,971 --> 01:30:13,207
>> I HAVE TWO KIDS.

2240
01:30:13,274 --> 01:30:14,642
MY YOUNGEST IS 23.

2241
01:30:14,709 --> 01:30:15,743
AND MY OLDEST IS 25.

2242
01:30:15,810 --> 01:30:17,578
MY OLDEST IS NOT ON THE

2243
01:30:17,645 --> 01:30:17,845
SPECTRUM.

2244
01:30:17,912 --> 01:30:20,214
THE REASON I BRING THAT UP IS

2245
01:30:20,281 --> 01:30:22,517
RAISING THE YOUNGER ONE, RAISING

2246
01:30:22,583 --> 01:30:24,485
SHAY ON THE SPECTRUM, I

2247
01:30:24,552 --> 01:30:25,853
UNDERSTOOD WHERE THE POTHOLES

2248
01:30:25,920 --> 01:30:27,021
WERE, EVEN THOUGH MY DIAGNOSIS

2249
01:30:27,088 --> 01:30:28,122
CAME LATE.

2250
01:30:28,189 --> 01:30:30,858
I WAS A PRETTY GOOD HELP FOR

2251
01:30:30,925 --> 01:30:31,726
FINDING THE RIGHT EDUCATIONAL

2252
01:30:31,793 --> 01:30:32,827
SUPPORTS FOR HIM.

2253
01:30:32,894 --> 01:30:34,262
I HOME SCHOOLED FROM GREAT 7

2254
01:30:34,328 --> 01:30:35,329
THROUGH HIGH SCHOOL BECAUSE I

2255
01:30:35,396 --> 01:30:40,268
COULDN'T GET SUPPORTS I NEED

2256
01:30:40,334 --> 01:30:43,771
NEEDED AT SCHOOL.

2257
01:30:43,838 --> 01:30:46,174
THE CHALLENGE WAS MY DAUGHTER,

2258
01:30:46,240 --> 01:30:47,275
INDEPENDENT, INCREDIBLE HUMAN

2259
01:30:47,341 --> 01:30:48,810
BEING, I WAS AFRAID SHE WOULD

2260
01:30:48,876 --> 01:30:50,011
FEEL LIKE SHE WOULD HAVE TO TAKE

2261
01:30:50,077 --> 01:30:51,579
CARE OF ME, A HUGE CONCERN ON MY

2262
01:30:51,646 --> 01:30:52,847
MIND ALL THE TIME.

2263
01:30:52,914 --> 01:30:58,352
SHE WENT TO COLLEGE EARLY,

2264
01:30:58,419 --> 01:30:59,987
SIMON'S ROCK, AN EARLY COLLEGE

2265
01:31:00,054 --> 01:31:04,892
AT AGE 15, I WANTED HER TO BE

2266
01:31:04,959 --> 01:31:06,060
AROUND NEUROTYPICAL FAMILY AND

2267
01:31:06,127 --> 01:31:07,762
NOT FEEL LIKE SHE HAD TO TAKE

2268
01:31:07,829 --> 01:31:10,364
CARE OF ME.

2269
01:31:10,431 --> 01:31:11,899
I GOT FEEDBACK FROM HER

2270
01:31:11,966 --> 01:31:14,969
TEACHERS.

2271
01:31:15,036 --> 01:31:16,070
HAVING A SPECTRUM PARENT MEANT

2272
01:31:16,137 --> 01:31:17,839
SHE HAD TO VERBALIZE MORE OFTEN.

2273
01:31:17,905 --> 01:31:19,674
THE TEACHER SAID SHE WAS QUITE

2274
01:31:19,740 --> 01:31:21,209
GOOD AT EXPRESSING IN WORDS HOW

2275
01:31:21,275 --> 01:31:23,644
SHE FELT, GETTING WHAT SHE

2276
01:31:23,711 --> 01:31:24,612
NEEDED, ADVOCATING FOR HER OWN

2277
01:31:24,679 --> 01:31:25,079
NEEDS.

2278
01:31:25,146 --> 01:31:27,982
IN IN A WAY, THE THING I WAS

2279
01:31:28,049 --> 01:31:28,983
MOST WORRIED ABOUT WAS SHE

2280
01:31:29,050 --> 01:31:30,518
WOULDN'T BE COMPLETE.

2281
01:31:30,585 --> 01:31:32,153
I ACTUALLY APPARENTLY GAVE HER

2282
01:31:32,220 --> 01:31:35,323
SOMETHING, A TOOL THAT SHE

2283
01:31:35,389 --> 01:31:35,756
NEEDED.

2284
01:31:35,823 --> 01:31:38,392
I FEEL LIKE I'M STUMBLING OVER

2285
01:31:38,459 --> 01:31:38,559
IT.

2286
01:31:38,626 --> 01:31:44,699
>> NO, THANK YOU.

2287
01:31:44,832 --> 01:31:46,734
>> SO, PART OF MY OWN ACCEPTANCE

2288
01:31:46,801 --> 01:31:49,337
OF BEING PART OF THIS COMMUNITY

2289
01:31:49,403 --> 01:31:52,940
IS FROM WATCHING MY DAUGHTER

2290
01:31:53,007 --> 01:31:53,941
EXPERIENCE THE WORLD.

2291
01:31:54,008 --> 01:31:58,112
AND SHE'S HER OWN THINKER.

2292
01:31:58,179 --> 01:31:59,647
AND SHE -- HER BRAIN OPERATES IN

2293
01:31:59,714 --> 01:32:01,582
ITS OWN WAY.

2294
01:32:01,649 --> 01:32:03,784
BUT I SEE A LOT OF HOW I

2295
01:32:03,851 --> 01:32:06,187
INTERFACE WITH THE WORLD AT HER

2296
01:32:06,254 --> 01:32:07,321
AGE.

2297
01:32:07,388 --> 01:32:09,156
SO THAT WAS PARTLY -- I DIDN'T

2298
01:32:09,223 --> 01:32:13,561
GO THROUGH IT BUT PARTLY WHY I

2299
01:32:13,628 --> 01:32:14,462
CAN CONSIDER MYSELF

2300
01:32:14,528 --> 01:32:16,631
NEURODIVERGENT.

2301
01:32:16,697 --> 01:32:17,632
>> THANK YOU SO MUCH.

2302
01:32:17,698 --> 01:32:19,166
>> AND WE'LL GO TO A QUESTION

2303
01:32:19,233 --> 01:32:21,669
FROM ONLINE.

2304
01:32:21,736 --> 01:32:22,870
>> GOOD AFTERNOON, EVERYONE.

2305
01:32:22,937 --> 01:32:24,839
FIRST QUESTION FROM ONLINE IS AS

2306
01:32:24,906 --> 01:32:26,507
ARTISTS, DO YOU EVER EXPERIENCE

2307
01:32:26,574 --> 01:32:27,475
ARTIST BLOCK?

2308
01:32:27,541 --> 01:32:29,343
IF SO, HOW DO YOU GO ABOUT YOUR

2309
01:32:29,410 --> 01:32:32,847
PROCESS OF GETTING PAST IT?

2310
01:32:32,914 --> 01:32:33,714
AND FINDING YOUR INSPIRATION

2311
01:32:33,781 --> 01:32:37,318
AGAIN?

2312
01:32:37,385 --> 01:32:38,419
>> SURE, OF COURSE.

2313
01:32:38,486 --> 01:32:40,288
EVERYONE GOES THROUGH ARTIST

2314
01:32:40,354 --> 01:32:40,488
BLOCK.

2315
01:32:40,554 --> 01:32:41,756
IT'S DIFFICULT TO PRODUCE AND

2316
01:32:41,822 --> 01:32:44,325
PUT OUT ALL THE TIME.

2317
01:32:44,392 --> 01:32:45,993
THERE'S A POINT WHERE YOU'RE NOT

2318
01:32:46,060 --> 01:32:47,061
CONSUMING ENOUGH COMING IN.

2319
01:32:47,128 --> 01:32:49,463
YOU'RE PUTTING TOO MUCH GOING

2320
01:32:49,530 --> 01:32:50,231
OUT.

2321
01:32:50,298 --> 01:32:53,534
YOUR RESERVOIR RUNS DRY.

2322
01:32:53,601 --> 01:32:55,169
I WOULD SAY FINDING SOMETHING

2323
01:32:55,236 --> 01:32:56,170
COMPLETELY OPPOSITE TO DO.

2324
01:32:56,237 --> 01:32:59,006
WHEN I LEARNED TO ICE SKATE, I'M

2325
01:32:59,073 --> 01:33:01,542
TERRIBLE AT IT, BY THE WAY.

2326
01:33:01,609 --> 01:33:03,511
EVERYONE CRINGES WHEN I'M ON

2327
01:33:03,577 --> 01:33:03,744
SKATES.

2328
01:33:03,811 --> 01:33:06,013
NOT ONLY DO I WANT TO SKATE, I

2329
01:33:06,080 --> 01:33:11,919
WENT TO LEARN TO PLAY HOCKEY.

2330
01:33:11,986 --> 01:33:13,921
I FOUND THE FARTHEST THING FROM

2331
01:33:13,988 --> 01:33:14,889
PLAYING THE VIOLIN, BUT IT

2332
01:33:14,956 --> 01:33:16,624
CLEARS MY MIND.

2333
01:33:16,691 --> 01:33:18,592
SOMETHING ABOUT BEING ON THE

2334
01:33:18,659 --> 01:33:19,593
ICE, TOTALLY CLUELESS WHAT TO

2335
01:33:19,660 --> 01:33:22,964
DO, I HAVE THE GRACE OF A ROCK

2336
01:33:23,030 --> 01:33:24,832
BUT IT CLEARS YOUR MIND.

2337
01:33:24,899 --> 01:33:27,034
TAKING WALKS IN THE WOODS,

2338
01:33:27,101 --> 01:33:28,769
WHATEVER, WALK COMPLETELY AWAY,

2339
01:33:28,836 --> 01:33:30,338
DON'T FEEL PRESSURED TO COME

2340
01:33:30,404 --> 01:33:32,473
BACK UNTIL YOU'RE READY.

2341
01:33:32,540 --> 01:33:36,510
THAT WOULD BE MY ADVICE.

2342
01:33:37,912 --> 01:33:39,680
>> NOW I'M GOING TO SAY THE

2343
01:33:39,747 --> 01:33:40,147
EXACT OPPOSITE.

2344
01:33:40,214 --> 01:33:43,317
[LAUGHTER]

2345
01:33:43,384 --> 01:33:45,286
YES, I HAVE GONE THROUGH ARTIST

2346
01:33:45,353 --> 01:33:47,254
BLOCK.

2347
01:33:47,321 --> 01:33:49,156
AND THERE'S A COUPLE -- IF THIS

2348
01:33:49,223 --> 01:33:50,224
PERSON THAT ASKED, SOUNDS LIKE

2349
01:33:50,291 --> 01:33:53,627
THEY MIGHT BE AN ARTIST AS WELL.

2350
01:33:53,694 --> 01:33:55,162
THERE IS DIFFERENT TYPES,

2351
01:33:55,229 --> 01:33:57,565
ESPECIALLY IN A PROFESSIONAL

2352
01:33:57,631 --> 01:33:58,232
CAREER.

2353
01:33:58,299 --> 01:34:05,006
THERE'S THE ARTIST BLOCK IN THE

2354
01:34:05,072 --> 01:34:07,308
I NEED TO CREATE AND CAN'T SEE

2355
01:34:07,375 --> 01:34:10,711
IT OR I'M NOT WORKING ANDS

2356
01:34:10,778 --> 01:34:12,847
THEREFORE MY ART IS NOT ANY GOOD

2357
01:34:12,913 --> 01:34:13,247
ANYMORE.

2358
01:34:13,314 --> 01:34:16,183
WITH IT BEING SPECIAL IT'S QUICK

2359
01:34:16,250 --> 01:34:17,251
TO TRANSPOSE PROPERTIES OF MY

2360
01:34:17,318 --> 01:34:22,189
PERSONAL VALUE AND MY ART'S

2361
01:34:22,256 --> 01:34:22,523
VALUE.

2362
01:34:22,590 --> 01:34:26,460
SO, I ACTUALLY HAVE GONE THROUGH

2363
01:34:26,527 --> 01:34:26,894
THAT.

2364
01:34:26,961 --> 01:34:28,562
FOR YEARS, THERE WAS --

2365
01:34:28,629 --> 01:34:29,430
HEARTBREAKING BUT I KEEP A LOT

2366
01:34:29,497 --> 01:34:30,531
OF CAMERAS AT THE HOUSE.

2367
01:34:30,598 --> 01:34:32,366
THERE'S A COUPLE THAT ARE JUST

2368
01:34:32,433 --> 01:34:34,668
ALWAYS ONES I TAKE OUT.

2369
01:34:34,735 --> 01:34:35,903
AND THERE WERE TIMES AND PERIODS

2370
01:34:35,970 --> 01:34:37,738
WHERE I WENT THROUGH SUCH AN

2371
01:34:37,805 --> 01:34:39,273
ARTIST BLOCK THAT I WOULD CHARGE

2372
01:34:39,340 --> 01:34:41,142
UP THE CAMERA WITH BEST

2373
01:34:41,208 --> 01:34:43,010
INTENTIONS, AND NOT GO OUT THAT

2374
01:34:43,077 --> 01:34:45,613
DAY, BUT IT WOULD BE SUCH A LONG

2375
01:34:45,679 --> 01:34:47,281
TIME THAT BETWEEN THE PERIODS OF

2376
01:34:47,348 --> 01:34:49,683
PICKING UP THE CAMERA THE

2377
01:34:49,750 --> 01:34:51,652
BATTERY HAD GONE DEAD AND I HAD

2378
01:34:51,719 --> 01:34:52,520
TO RECHARGE AGAIN.

2379
01:34:52,586 --> 01:34:54,822
WHAT I FOUND FOR ME IS BEING

2380
01:34:54,889 --> 01:34:57,558
WILLING TO NOT TAKE IT

2381
01:34:57,625 --> 01:34:58,859
SERIOUSLY, BEING WILLING TO -- I

2382
01:34:58,926 --> 01:35:01,729
THINK WHEN YOU GET TO A CERTAIN

2383
01:35:01,796 --> 01:35:03,230
PEDESTAL YOU FEEL ESPECIALLY

2384
01:35:03,297 --> 01:35:04,865
WHEN THERE'S LARGE FIGURE OF

2385
01:35:04,932 --> 01:35:06,534
MONEY ATTACHED TO THE WORK THAT

2386
01:35:06,600 --> 01:35:08,269
YOU CREATE, YOU FEEL THAT YOU

2387
01:35:08,335 --> 01:35:09,737
SHOULDN'T DO IT UNLESS YOU'RE

2388
01:35:09,804 --> 01:35:11,138
GETTING PAID FOR IT.

2389
01:35:11,205 --> 01:35:13,574
AND THAT'S A DANGER AND A

2390
01:35:13,641 --> 01:35:14,975
POTHOLE TO FALL INTO.

2391
01:35:15,042 --> 01:35:17,378
WHAT I STARTED HAVING TO DO IS

2392
01:35:17,445 --> 01:35:18,712
SAYING, HEY, I'M GOING OUT EVERY

2393
01:35:18,779 --> 01:35:20,548
DAY, AND I DO EVERY DAY, ABOUT

2394
01:35:20,614 --> 01:35:23,084
THREE TO FIVE P.M., AND I JUST

2395
01:35:23,150 --> 01:35:25,052
TAKE PICTURES OF THE WORLD

2396
01:35:25,119 --> 01:35:27,354
AROUND, NOT FOR ANY PURPOSE OF

2397
01:35:27,421 --> 01:35:30,091
EVER SELLING OR CREATING GREAT

2398
01:35:30,157 --> 01:35:33,494
ARTWORKS, BUT JUST FOR

2399
01:35:33,561 --> 01:35:35,463
APPRECIATING THE LIGHT.

2400
01:35:35,529 --> 01:35:37,665
BECAUSE MINUS THREE IS ALL ABOUT

2401
01:35:37,731 --> 01:35:38,265
LIGHT.

2402
01:35:38,332 --> 01:35:40,401
IT'S BEING ABLE TO EXPERIENCE IT

2403
01:35:40,468 --> 01:35:41,802
AND TELL YOURSELF THAT'S WHAT

2404
01:35:41,869 --> 01:35:43,037
LIFE LOOKS LIKE.

2405
01:35:43,104 --> 01:35:45,406
WHAT I FOUND IS IN DOING SO, THE

2406
01:35:45,473 --> 01:35:48,075
NEXT TIME I TAKE MY CAMERA UP ON

2407
01:35:48,142 --> 01:35:52,646
SET I'M SHARPER.

2408
01:35:52,713 --> 01:35:53,848
>> CLAIRE, DID YOU HAVE A

2409
01:35:53,914 --> 01:35:56,417
QUESTION?

2410
01:36:02,456 --> 01:36:04,458
>> IT'S KIND OF MORE OF A THANK

2411
01:36:04,525 --> 01:36:05,226
YOU, I GUESS.

2412
01:36:05,292 --> 01:36:07,828
YOU MIGHT HAVE GATHERED I'M NOT

2413
01:36:07,895 --> 01:36:08,596
FROM AROUND HERE.

2414
01:36:08,662 --> 01:36:10,364
I WAS HERE IN THE STATES TWO

2415
01:36:10,431 --> 01:36:11,999
WEEKS AGO, IT TAKES ME 38 HOURS

2416
01:36:12,066 --> 01:36:14,735
TO GET TO THIS SIDE OF THE

2417
01:36:14,802 --> 01:36:14,969
COAST.

2418
01:36:15,035 --> 01:36:19,640
I WENT HOME, I KNEW I WAS COMING

2419
01:36:19,707 --> 01:36:19,840
BACK.

2420
01:36:19,907 --> 01:36:21,609
AND I NEARLY DIDN'T MAKE IT.

2421
01:36:21,675 --> 01:36:22,510
SUSAN BLOCK YOUR EARS.

2422
01:36:22,576 --> 01:36:24,712
I WAS AT THE AIRPORT, SO

2423
01:36:24,778 --> 01:36:28,015
OVERWHELMED BY THE JOURNEY TO

2424
01:36:28,082 --> 01:36:30,217
COME, THAT I WAS STUCK.

2425
01:36:30,284 --> 01:36:33,587
BUT I HAVE A REALLY STRONG

2426
01:36:33,654 --> 01:36:35,222
BELIEF THAT I END UP IN PLACES I

2427
01:36:35,289 --> 01:36:41,095
NEED TO BE BECAUSE I NEED TO

2428
01:36:41,162 --> 01:36:42,229
HEAR SOMETHING.

2429
01:36:42,296 --> 01:36:45,399
IN PARTICULAR, BLAIR, WHAT YOU

2430
01:36:45,466 --> 01:36:46,734
SAID ABOUT COMPARTMENTALIZED,

2431
01:36:46,800 --> 01:36:49,603
I'VE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO

2432
01:36:49,670 --> 01:36:50,538
ARTICULATE THAT.

2433
01:36:50,604 --> 01:36:51,972
I WANTED TO SAY THANK YOU TO THE

2434
01:36:52,039 --> 01:36:54,275
THREE OF YOU AND TELL YOU THAT

2435
01:36:54,341 --> 01:36:56,243
IT WORKED.

2436
01:36:56,310 --> 01:36:57,011
SOMEONE HEARD IT.

2437
01:36:57,077 --> 01:36:58,412
AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO THANK

2438
01:36:58,479 --> 01:37:01,015
YOU FOR THE TOOLS YOU'VE JUST

2439
01:37:01,081 --> 01:37:03,184
GIVEN ME THROUGH THE FILM AND

2440
01:37:03,250 --> 01:37:03,918
CONVERSATION, SO THANKS.

2441
01:37:03,984 --> 01:37:06,353
[APPLAUSE]

2442
01:37:09,323 --> 01:37:10,791
>> IF I MAY, YOU'VE ACTUALLY HIT

2443
01:37:10,858 --> 01:37:14,595
ON A COUPLE THINGS FOR ME.

2444
01:37:14,662 --> 01:37:17,331
THERE WERE -- ONE OF THE PARTS

2445
01:37:17,398 --> 01:37:19,533
OF THE FLIGHT, WITH THE DOG'S

2446
01:37:19,600 --> 01:37:22,069
TAG, TAKING MY DOG'S TAGS UP,

2447
01:37:22,136 --> 01:37:24,805
NOT BEING ABLE TO CRY, THEY

2448
01:37:24,872 --> 01:37:25,472
WANTED TO COMPARTMENTALIZE

2449
01:37:25,539 --> 01:37:25,873
EMOTION.

2450
01:37:25,940 --> 01:37:27,575
WHEN YOU'RE IN A SPACE SUIT I

2451
01:37:27,641 --> 01:37:28,976
CAN'T TOUCH YOUR FACE.

2452
01:37:29,043 --> 01:37:31,378
IF YOU OPEN IT, IT'S A FATAL

2453
01:37:31,445 --> 01:37:32,146
SITUATION.

2454
01:37:32,213 --> 01:37:36,850
SO, WHEN THEY TOLD ME YOU NEED

2455
01:37:36,917 --> 01:37:38,252
TO TAKE SOMETHING MEANINGFUL TO

2456
01:37:38,319 --> 01:37:40,221
YOU, BUT ALSO YOU CAN'T CRY, AS

2457
01:37:40,287 --> 01:37:42,756
SOON AS YOU DO SHUT THAT OFF,

2458
01:37:42,823 --> 01:37:45,593
THAT WAS HOW I LEARNED ALMOST

2459
01:37:45,659 --> 01:37:47,761
THE VALUE OF COMPARTMENTALIZING,

2460
01:37:47,828 --> 01:37:50,097
BUT GOING BACK TO YOUR

2461
01:37:50,164 --> 01:37:52,266
TRAVELING, BEFORE COVID I WAS

2462
01:37:52,333 --> 01:37:54,468
DOING SHOOTS IN BEIJING, AND

2463
01:37:54,535 --> 01:37:56,437
I -- ONE OF THE MORE SIGNIFICANT

2464
01:37:56,503 --> 01:37:57,605
BREAKDOWNS I'VE EVER HAD, AND

2465
01:37:57,671 --> 01:37:59,173
THE FIRST TIME I EVER

2466
01:37:59,240 --> 01:38:00,708
EXPERIENCED A TRUE PANIC ATTACK,

2467
01:38:00,774 --> 01:38:01,909
WAS PRIOR TO THE FLIGHT BECAUSE

2468
01:38:01,976 --> 01:38:04,645
I SAID I'M NOT GOING TO SURVIVE

2469
01:38:04,712 --> 01:38:05,846
THIS 18-HOUR FLIGHT.

2470
01:38:05,913 --> 01:38:09,049
NO LOGIC ACTUALLY HIT IN.

2471
01:38:09,116 --> 01:38:10,684
AND WHAT'S SPECIAL FOR ME ABOUT

2472
01:38:10,751 --> 01:38:16,156
THAT TO THIS DAY, THAT IS THE

2473
01:38:16,223 --> 01:38:17,224
FIRST BREAKDOWN THAT WAS

2474
01:38:17,291 --> 01:38:19,526
SIGNIFICANT ENOUGH FOR ME TO

2475
01:38:19,593 --> 01:38:20,828
SEEK PROFESSIONAL HELP, AND THAT

2476
01:38:20,894 --> 01:38:22,263
WAS THE CATALYST FOR BEING ABLE

2477
01:38:22,329 --> 01:38:23,664
TO UNDERSTAND A LITTLE BIT MORE

2478
01:38:23,731 --> 01:38:29,737
ABOUT THIS LIFE AND THIS

2479
01:38:29,803 --> 01:38:33,107
EXPERIENCE, SO AS MUCH AS IT WAS

2480
01:38:33,173 --> 01:38:35,075
PAINFUL, IT WAS -- IT'S PROBABLY

2481
01:38:35,142 --> 01:38:36,277
WHAT MADE ALL THESE THINGS

2482
01:38:36,343 --> 01:38:36,610
POSSIBLE.

2483
01:38:36,677 --> 01:38:38,145
SO THANK YOU FOR BEING HONEST

2484
01:38:38,212 --> 01:38:39,146
ABOUT THAT.

2485
01:38:39,213 --> 01:38:41,882
THAT'S PRETTY COOL.

2486
01:38:41,949 --> 01:38:43,284
>> WE'LL HAVE TIME FOR TWO MORE

2487
01:38:43,350 --> 01:38:43,550
QUESTIONS.

2488
01:38:43,617 --> 01:38:45,152
WE'RE GOING TO TAKE ONE MORE

2489
01:38:45,219 --> 01:38:47,988
ONLINE QUESTION.

2490
01:38:48,055 --> 01:38:53,027
>> SO THIS MESSAGE IS FROM

2491
01:38:53,093 --> 01:38:54,561
ONLINE FROM LAURA'S DAUGHTER,

2492
01:38:54,628 --> 01:38:54,795
ALANA.

2493
01:38:54,862 --> 01:38:56,830
SHE SAID, I'M SO PROUD TO BE

2494
01:38:56,897 --> 01:38:57,531
YOUR DAUGHTER.

2495
01:38:57,598 --> 01:38:58,732
CAN YOU EXPLAIN WHAT IT WAS LIKE

2496
01:38:58,799 --> 01:39:00,367
TO SHARE YOUR LOVE FOR MUSIC

2497
01:39:00,434 --> 01:39:04,238
WITH ME AND TEACH ME VIOLIN?

2498
01:39:10,844 --> 01:39:13,080
>> OH, WOW!

2499
01:39:13,147 --> 01:39:13,614
SNEAKY LITTLE THING.

2500
01:39:13,681 --> 01:39:17,318
[LAUGHTER]

2501
01:39:17,384 --> 01:39:19,386
YES, NO, I THINK ALANA AND I

2502
01:39:19,453 --> 01:39:20,487
HAVE A REALLY SPECIAL BOND.

2503
01:39:20,554 --> 01:39:22,022
ONE OF THE COOL THINGS YOU GET

2504
01:39:22,089 --> 01:39:23,757
TO DO, YOU'LL EXPERIENCE THIS AS

2505
01:39:23,824 --> 01:39:24,858
YOUR DAUGHTER GETS OLDER, YOU

2506
01:39:24,925 --> 01:39:26,593
KNOW YOUR KIDS AND KIDS AND THEN

2507
01:39:26,660 --> 01:39:32,066
YOU GET TO RE-KNOW THEM AS

2508
01:39:32,132 --> 01:39:32,966
ADULTS, YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY

2509
01:39:33,033 --> 01:39:34,501
IF THEY ARE GOING TO STEP IN

2510
01:39:34,568 --> 01:39:36,704
FRONT OF A MOVING VEHICLE.

2511
01:39:36,770 --> 01:39:39,106
FOR ALANA AND I, I THINK IT WAS

2512
01:39:39,173 --> 01:39:39,306
ART.

2513
01:39:39,373 --> 01:39:42,042
I HAVE A DANCE BACKGROUND, I

2514
01:39:42,109 --> 01:39:44,011
STARTED AS A DANCER AT AGE 3.

2515
01:39:44,078 --> 01:39:45,245
SHE'S A DANCER.

2516
01:39:45,312 --> 01:39:46,980
WE HAD THIS THING ABOUT

2517
01:39:47,047 --> 01:39:47,448
MOVEMENT, MUSIC.

2518
01:39:47,514 --> 01:39:48,949
I NEED TO STOP PLAYING WITH THAT

2519
01:39:49,016 --> 01:39:51,018
BECAUSE I'M SURE THAT'S LOUD.

2520
01:39:51,085 --> 01:39:53,420
SO, SHE'S PICKED UP THE VIOLIN

2521
01:39:53,487 --> 01:39:54,955
AND I'VE WORKED WITH HER IN

2522
01:39:55,022 --> 01:39:56,623
MIDDLE SCHOOL, CAME IN AND

2523
01:39:56,690 --> 01:39:57,925
VOLUNTEERED WITH THE ORCHESTRA.

2524
01:39:57,991 --> 01:39:59,326
AND THEY ENJOYED HAVING ME THERE

2525
01:39:59,393 --> 01:40:02,429
SO MUCH THEY ENDED UP HIRING ME

2526
01:40:02,496 --> 01:40:04,498
OUT OF THEIR FUNDS THEY RAISED

2527
01:40:04,565 --> 01:40:06,367
FOR ME TO CONDUCT THE ORCHESTRA.

2528
01:40:06,433 --> 01:40:07,101
WE HAD A BLAST.

2529
01:40:07,167 --> 01:40:08,902
IT WAS SO MUCH FUN WORKING WITH

2530
01:40:08,969 --> 01:40:09,770
THE KIDS.

2531
01:40:09,837 --> 01:40:11,739
THEY ALL WORKED REALLY HARD.

2532
01:40:11,805 --> 01:40:13,941
WHEN JOHN MADE THE SHADOW

2533
01:40:14,007 --> 01:40:15,542
LISTENER, THE DOCUMENTARY ABOUT

2534
01:40:15,609 --> 01:40:19,179
ME, WE ACTUALLY HAD A CONCERT

2535
01:40:19,246 --> 01:40:19,513
TOGETHER.

2536
01:40:19,580 --> 01:40:21,148
AND ALANA SAID, LET ME ASK MY

2537
01:40:21,215 --> 01:40:21,915
FRIENDS FROM SCHOOL, MAYBE THEY

2538
01:40:21,982 --> 01:40:22,549
WILL COME.

2539
01:40:22,616 --> 01:40:24,184
WE FILLED AN ORCHESTRA.

2540
01:40:24,251 --> 01:40:26,720
WE HAD A WHOLE STRING ORCHESTRA

2541
01:40:26,787 --> 01:40:28,155
OF KIDS THAT CAME FROM PEOPLE

2542
01:40:28,222 --> 01:40:28,722
SHE KNEW.

2543
01:40:28,789 --> 01:40:29,890
I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT.

2544
01:40:29,957 --> 01:40:31,658
THEY ALL WERE SO EXCITED TO HELP

2545
01:40:31,725 --> 01:40:32,860
AND PLAY.

2546
01:40:32,926 --> 01:40:37,331
THE ORCHESTRA IN THE FILM IS

2547
01:40:37,398 --> 01:40:39,666
ACTUALLY ALL FORMER STUDENTS AND

2548
01:40:39,733 --> 01:40:41,635
FRIENDS OF ALANA'S WHO SHE

2549
01:40:41,702 --> 01:40:43,137
BROUGHT IN AND SHE'S PLAYING TOO

2550
01:40:43,203 --> 01:40:43,704
ON HER VIOLIN.

2551
01:40:43,771 --> 01:40:46,106
IT WAS FUN THAT WE HAD THOSE

2552
01:40:46,173 --> 01:40:47,541
ENDPOINTS OF STARTING OFF LIFE

2553
01:40:47,608 --> 01:40:49,610
WITH MUSIC AND HAVING THIS BIG

2554
01:40:49,676 --> 01:40:52,346
CONCERT BEFORE SHE WENT OFF TO

2555
01:40:52,413 --> 01:40:53,781
SIMON'S ROCK.

2556
01:40:53,847 --> 01:40:54,548
SO, YEAH.

2557
01:40:54,615 --> 01:40:55,983
AND I'M CALLING YOU LATER.

2558
01:40:56,049 --> 01:40:58,585
[LAUGHTER]

2559
01:40:58,652 --> 01:41:01,955
WITH CAMERAS ON.

2560
01:41:02,022 --> 01:41:04,925
>> SO, I'D LIKE TO SAY HELLO TO

2561
01:41:04,992 --> 01:41:05,459
BLAIR.

2562
01:41:05,526 --> 01:41:07,461
I'VE WORKED WITH BLAIR FOR MANY

2563
01:41:07,528 --> 01:41:09,296
YEARS AT THE DISCOVERY CHANNEL.

2564
01:41:09,363 --> 01:41:12,933
AND ONE OF THE THINGS THAT THE

2565
01:41:13,000 --> 01:41:14,168
REASON I KEPT GOING BACK TO

2566
01:41:14,234 --> 01:41:16,403
BLAIR, I FEEL A LITTLE BIT

2567
01:41:16,470 --> 01:41:18,372
FOOLISH IN THE SENSE, ALMOST

2568
01:41:18,439 --> 01:41:21,241
LIKE A CLOWN, I DIDN'T EVEN

2569
01:41:21,308 --> 01:41:21,608
REALIZE.

2570
01:41:21,675 --> 01:41:23,410
HE WOULD TELL ME HE WOULD HAVE

2571
01:41:23,477 --> 01:41:24,845
CLOSE TO PANIC ATTACKS OR THINGS

2572
01:41:24,912 --> 01:41:26,713
BUT WE BRUSHED OVER IT AND JUST

2573
01:41:26,780 --> 01:41:27,147
MOVED ON.

2574
01:41:27,214 --> 01:41:29,783
BUT ONE OF THE THINGS WE KEPT

2575
01:41:29,850 --> 01:41:33,954
GOING BACK TO BLAIR FOR HIS

2576
01:41:34,021 --> 01:41:35,589
FANTASTIC WORK WAS REALLY WHAT

2577
01:41:35,656 --> 01:41:37,991
STRUCK ME MOST WAS HIS PRE-WORK,

2578
01:41:38,058 --> 01:41:40,861
BEFORE EVERY PROJECT.

2579
01:41:40,928 --> 01:41:43,797
AND I'M NOT SURE IF THAT WAS

2580
01:41:43,864 --> 01:41:45,866
JUST PART OF CONDITION OR WHAT

2581
01:41:45,933 --> 01:41:47,935
YOU WERE DOING, BUT WHEN BLAIR

2582
01:41:48,001 --> 01:41:49,803
WOULD PRE-WORK, ALL THIS

2583
01:41:49,870 --> 01:41:52,239
PRE-WORK, WOULD SET US UP FOR

2584
01:41:52,306 --> 01:41:52,473
SUCCESS.

2585
01:41:52,539 --> 01:41:54,975
ANY SORT OF CHALLENGES, ANY SORT

2586
01:41:55,042 --> 01:41:58,045
OF HURDLES, JUST  LOGISTICS AND

2587
01:41:58,111 --> 01:41:59,546
STUFF, HE WOULD BE FANTASTIC

2588
01:41:59,613 --> 01:42:00,914
ABOUT TAKING THOSE THINGS AND

2589
01:42:00,981 --> 01:42:02,516
JUST CHECKING THEM OFF THE LIST,

2590
01:42:02,583 --> 01:42:04,585
CHECKING OFF THE LIST, SO WHEN

2591
01:42:04,651 --> 01:42:07,855
WE WENT TO THE ACTUAL SHOOT, HE

2592
01:42:07,921 --> 01:42:09,423
WAS ABLE TO -- WE WERE ABLE TO

2593
01:42:09,490 --> 01:42:11,425
FREE UP OUR MINDS AND

2594
01:42:11,492 --> 01:42:13,594
COLLABORATE AND JUST, YOU KNOW,

2595
01:42:13,660 --> 01:42:15,395
GET INTO THAT CREATIVE SPACE

2596
01:42:15,462 --> 01:42:16,964
WHERE WE HAD IDEAS OF WHAT WAS

2597
01:42:17,030 --> 01:42:18,031
SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN.

2598
01:42:18,098 --> 01:42:20,334
AND THEN YOU KIND OF -- THE

2599
01:42:20,400 --> 01:42:22,102
MAGIC HAPPENS WHEN YOU DO ALL

2600
01:42:22,169 --> 01:42:23,737
THE THAT PRE-WORK BEFOREHAND.

2601
01:42:23,804 --> 01:42:25,005
AND BLAIR WAS PHENOMENAL AT

2602
01:42:25,072 --> 01:42:25,472
DOING THAT.

2603
01:42:25,539 --> 01:42:28,876
I'D LIKE TO ASK THE OTHER TWO

2604
01:42:28,942 --> 01:42:30,511
PANELISTS, PRE-WORK FOR WHAT YOU

2605
01:42:30,577 --> 01:42:33,714
GUYS DO, OR HOW YOU GET INTO

2606
01:42:33,780 --> 01:42:35,582
YOUR PROCESS, HOW DOES THAT -- I

2607
01:42:35,649 --> 01:42:37,518
MEAN, IS THAT SOMETHING THAT YOU

2608
01:42:37,584 --> 01:42:41,588
USE BECAUSE OF HOW YOU GUYS ARE

2609
01:42:41,655 --> 01:42:43,090
FUNCTIONING OR, YOU KNOW, IS IT

2610
01:42:43,156 --> 01:42:45,392
JUST -- HOW DOES IT HELP YOU

2611
01:42:45,459 --> 01:42:54,635
MOVE ALONG WITH YOUR PROJECTS?

2612
01:42:54,701 --> 01:42:55,802
>> THE PHOTO CONSCIOUS IN THE

2613
01:42:55,869 --> 01:43:01,174
PASSENGER SEAT WAS HIS.

2614
01:43:01,241 --> 01:43:01,942
RIVER MONSTERS.

2615
01:43:02,009 --> 01:43:06,213
AND A FUN BACK STORY, IF WE

2616
01:43:06,280 --> 01:43:06,847
WILL.

2617
01:43:06,914 --> 01:43:11,885
WE WERE ASKED TO PHOTOGRAPH THIS

2618
01:43:11,952 --> 01:43:14,621
CAMPAIGN WITH -- AM I ALLOWED TO

2619
01:43:14,688 --> 01:43:17,391
SAY FAKE FISH?

2620
01:43:17,457 --> 01:43:19,893
A $25,000 FAKE FISH MADE BY

2621
01:43:19,960 --> 01:43:20,761
UNIVERSITY STUDIOS, THEY DROVE

2622
01:43:20,827 --> 01:43:23,730
THIS THING OUT IN A TRUCK TO

2623
01:43:23,797 --> 01:43:27,668
HAVE JERRY WADE, THE HOST OF

2624
01:43:27,734 --> 01:43:28,869
RIVER MONSTERS, FIGHT IT IN THE

2625
01:43:28,936 --> 01:43:29,736
OCEAN.

2626
01:43:29,803 --> 01:43:33,140
WE HAD A ENOUGH OF DIFFERENT

2627
01:43:33,206 --> 01:43:33,340
TASKS.

2628
01:43:33,407 --> 01:43:35,175
WE WERE GOING TO PUT A LOT OF

2629
01:43:35,242 --> 01:43:35,876
ELECTRICITY AND PEOPLE IN THE

2630
01:43:35,943 --> 01:43:39,780
WATER AT THE SAME TIME.

2631
01:43:39,846 --> 01:43:41,582
AND SO MY THOUGHTS WERE I NEED

2632
01:43:41,648 --> 01:43:44,284
TO START LEARNING THE DYNAMICS

2633
01:43:44,351 --> 01:43:48,021
OF LIGHT, WITH THAT WATER, WITH

2634
01:43:48,088 --> 01:43:48,555
THAT CHAOS.

2635
01:43:48,622 --> 01:43:51,858
SO THAT I CAN, ONE, SAFELY GET

2636
01:43:51,925 --> 01:43:55,562
THE SHOOT DONE AND, TWO, MAKE A

2637
01:43:55,629 --> 01:43:56,430
GOOD IMAGE.

2638
01:43:56,496 --> 01:43:57,965
TWO WEEKS PRIOR WENT TO MY

2639
01:43:58,031 --> 01:44:00,500
ASSISTANT'S HOUSE EVERY DAY.

2640
01:44:00,567 --> 01:44:03,303
WE TOOK A HOSE, AND WATERED THE

2641
01:44:03,370 --> 01:44:05,606
TOP OF HIS HIBACHI GRILL TO

2642
01:44:05,672 --> 01:44:06,506
WATCH HOW LIGHT REFRACTED

2643
01:44:06,573 --> 01:44:08,141
KNOWING THE PAINT USED ON THE

2644
01:44:08,208 --> 01:44:11,311
FAKE FISH WOULD HAVE THE SAME

2645
01:44:11,378 --> 01:44:12,212
TRANSITIVE PROPERTIES.

2646
01:44:12,279 --> 01:44:13,513
THEREFORE DIFFRACTION THAT COMES

2647
01:44:13,580 --> 01:44:15,716
WITH THE CAMERA WOULD BE EQUAL.

2648
01:44:15,782 --> 01:44:18,652
A FUNNY THING ABOUT THAT SHOOT

2649
01:44:18,719 --> 01:44:21,822
THOUGH IS THE HOST WHO WAS A

2650
01:44:21,888 --> 01:44:24,558
WONDERFUL MAN, JEREMY IS A GREAT

2651
01:44:24,625 --> 01:44:31,365
GUY, WE HAVE FIVE ASSISTANTS IN

2652
01:44:31,431 --> 01:44:33,433
THE WATER, PROBABLY LINUS AND I,

2653
01:44:33,500 --> 01:44:35,402
JEREMY SAYS TO THE CREW, I ONCE

2654
01:44:35,469 --> 01:44:37,704
CAUGHT A BULL SHARK AT THIS

2655
01:44:37,771 --> 01:44:38,572
EXACT SAME BEACH.

2656
01:44:38,639 --> 01:44:40,273
AND WE WERE A LITTLE BIT

2657
01:44:40,340 --> 01:44:42,542
HESITANT BECAUSE WE'RE IN THE

2658
01:44:42,609 --> 01:44:43,343
DARK, USING FLASHING LIGHTS, A

2659
01:44:43,410 --> 01:44:48,448
LOT OF MOVEMENT IN THE OCEAN.

2660
01:44:48,515 --> 01:44:50,917
AND THEN HE SAYS, YEAH, IT WAS

2661
01:44:50,984 --> 01:44:51,618
LAST NIGHT.

2662
01:44:51,685 --> 01:44:52,486
[LAUGHTER]

2663
01:44:52,552 --> 01:44:53,387
AND WE ALL IMMEDIATELY WENT OUT

2664
01:44:53,453 --> 01:44:55,489
OF THE OCEAN AND STARTED

2665
01:44:55,555 --> 01:44:58,592
SHOOTING ON SHORE.

2666
01:45:01,795 --> 01:45:04,665
>> I STRUGGLE WITH PREPARATION.

2667
01:45:04,731 --> 01:45:07,200
ONE OF THE THINGS THAT KIND OF

2668
01:45:07,267 --> 01:45:11,705
ROUTINE MAINTENANCE OF LIFE

2669
01:45:11,772 --> 01:45:12,673
THAT'S TOUGH FOR ME.

2670
01:45:12,739 --> 01:45:13,874
THE LAST SHOOT WITH BLAIR WHERE

2671
01:45:13,940 --> 01:45:16,710
HE HAS EAR PHONES IN, I HAD MY

2672
01:45:16,777 --> 01:45:18,578
SHOT LIST, HAD ON IT I NEED TO

2673
01:45:18,645 --> 01:45:19,980
MAKE SURE I REMEMBER TO SHOOT

2674
01:45:20,047 --> 01:45:22,616
THE PHONE WITH THE SONG TITLE ON

2675
01:45:22,683 --> 01:45:22,849
IT.

2676
01:45:22,916 --> 01:45:26,119
AND WE ENDED UP DOING THE SHOOT,

2677
01:45:26,186 --> 01:45:27,854
I START DRIVING HOME, PULL OUT

2678
01:45:27,921 --> 01:45:29,956
MY SHOT LIST, I NEVER DID IT.

2679
01:45:30,023 --> 01:45:32,893
SO I WISH I HAD BLAIR'S

2680
01:45:32,959 --> 01:45:34,661
ATTENTION TO DETAIL AND

2681
01:45:34,728 --> 01:45:35,062
PREPARATION.

2682
01:45:35,128 --> 01:45:36,463
BUT THAT'S SOMETHING I STRUGGLE

2683
01:45:36,530 --> 01:45:40,801
WITH, FOR SURE.

2684
01:45:40,867 --> 01:45:42,169
>> I MOVE FURNISH.

2685
01:45:42,235 --> 01:45:44,738
MY HUSBAND JOKINGLY CALLS IT MY

2686
01:45:44,805 --> 01:45:45,672
MONTHLY CONSTRUCTION PROJECT.

2687
01:45:45,739 --> 01:45:48,008
I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS, WHEN

2688
01:45:48,075 --> 01:45:49,176
I'M GETTING READY FOR SOMETHING,

2689
01:45:49,242 --> 01:45:51,311
I CAN'T THINK ABOUT THE GIG.

2690
01:45:51,378 --> 01:45:53,046
I GET SO OVERWHELMED WITH MY OWN

2691
01:45:53,113 --> 01:45:54,147
THOUGHTS I START MOVING STUFF

2692
01:45:54,214 --> 01:45:55,248
AROUND THE HOUSE.

2693
01:45:55,315 --> 01:45:56,450
I NEED SOMETHING TO DO,

2694
01:45:56,516 --> 01:45:57,751
SOMETHING TO BUILD, SOMETHING TO

2695
01:45:57,818 --> 01:45:58,852
PAINT, SOMETHING TO FIX.

2696
01:45:58,919 --> 01:46:01,154
I TOOK UP CAR REPAIR ACTUALLY SO

2697
01:46:01,221 --> 01:46:02,689
HE DO MY HUSBAND'S BRAKES ON HIS

2698
01:46:02,756 --> 01:46:03,457
CAR TOO.

2699
01:46:03,523 --> 01:46:05,225
IT'S SOMETHING THAT KEEPS ME

2700
01:46:05,292 --> 01:46:05,559
GOING.

2701
01:46:05,625 --> 01:46:06,960
UNTIL I'M READY TO SIT DOWN.

2702
01:46:07,027 --> 01:46:08,061
I'M ALSO ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE

2703
01:46:08,128 --> 01:46:09,262
WHEN I COMPOSE I SIT DOWN AND

2704
01:46:09,329 --> 01:46:10,831
KNOCK OUT THE WHOLE THING AT

2705
01:46:10,897 --> 01:46:11,398
ONCE.

2706
01:46:11,465 --> 01:46:14,868
I CAN'T WALK AWAY AND COME BACK.

2707
01:46:14,935 --> 01:46:16,069
THAT'S THAT OVER-FOCUS THAT I

2708
01:46:16,136 --> 01:46:17,404
THINK AUTISM PROBABLY BRINGS TO

2709
01:46:17,471 --> 01:46:17,904
ME.

2710
01:46:17,971 --> 01:46:19,873
I HAVE TO WORK MYSELF INTO THIS

2711
01:46:19,940 --> 01:46:24,945
PERFECT SPOT AND THEN GO DO IT.

2712
01:46:25,011 --> 01:46:26,713
>> AS THE FINAL ITEM THAT I'LL

2713
01:46:26,780 --> 01:46:27,981
ASK YOU ABOUT, BECAUSE I THINK

2714
01:46:28,048 --> 01:46:29,983
THE AUDIENCE MAY WANT TO KNOW

2715
01:46:30,050 --> 01:46:31,651
THIS, ABOUT YOUR FUTURE PLANS.

2716
01:46:31,718 --> 01:46:32,619
ARE THERE PLACES PEOPLE SHOULD

2717
01:46:32,686 --> 01:46:34,020
BE LOOKING OUT FOR YOU IN THE

2718
01:46:34,087 --> 01:46:36,556
FUTURE THAT YOU'RE GOING TO BE

2719
01:46:36,623 --> 01:46:37,090
DOING?

2720
01:46:37,157 --> 01:46:37,657
THINGS THAT BE UPCOMING?

2721
01:46:37,724 --> 01:46:38,825
I WANTED TO GIVE YOU THE

2722
01:46:38,892 --> 01:46:39,960
OPPORTUNITY TO SHARE IF YOU WANT

2723
01:46:40,026 --> 01:46:42,996
TO SHARE ANYTHING THERE.

2724
01:46:45,432 --> 01:46:47,734
>> I'M STILL WILLING TO PLAY

2725
01:46:47,801 --> 01:46:48,268
CARNEGIE.

2726
01:46:48,335 --> 01:46:50,637
[APPLAUSE]

2727
01:46:52,839 --> 01:46:53,974
>> I HAVE FOUR DIFFERENT VIDEO

2728
01:46:54,040 --> 01:46:55,942
MOVIE PROJECTS THAT I'M WORKING

2729
01:46:56,009 --> 01:46:59,346
ON RIGHT NOW IN ADDITION TO MY

2730
01:46:59,412 --> 01:46:59,613
TEACHING.

2731
01:46:59,679 --> 01:47:01,314
I JUST CAN'T STOP.

2732
01:47:01,381 --> 01:47:02,716
WE TALKED ABOUT THE ARTIST

2733
01:47:02,783 --> 01:47:03,183
BLOCK.

2734
01:47:03,250 --> 01:47:05,585
I DON'T REALLY HAVE THAT.

2735
01:47:05,652 --> 01:47:07,554
I HAVE THE ARTIST FINISH ISSUE.

2736
01:47:07,621 --> 01:47:08,722
HOPEFULLY I'M GOING TO BE

2737
01:47:08,789 --> 01:47:12,392
PRODUCING A LOT MORE WORK.

2738
01:47:15,028 --> 01:47:18,031
>> I HAVE AN 11:00 MEETING

2739
01:47:18,098 --> 01:47:19,166
TOMORROW AT THE SMITHSONIAN.

2740
01:47:19,232 --> 01:47:21,134
I THINK IT'S LIKELY THAT YOU

2741
01:47:21,201 --> 01:47:25,705
GUYS WILL SEE THE PRINTS FROM

2742
01:47:25,772 --> 01:47:28,408
THE SPACE SERIES IN THERE IN THE

2743
01:47:28,475 --> 01:47:29,342
NEAR FUTURE.

2744
01:47:29,409 --> 01:47:30,877
OTHER THAN THAT, I'M GOING TO GO

2745
01:47:30,944 --> 01:47:35,248
HOME AND WATCH MY TRAINS.

2746
01:47:35,315 --> 01:47:36,750
[APPLAUSE]

2747
01:47:36,817 --> 01:47:37,117
>> AMAZING.

2748
01:47:37,184 --> 01:47:38,084
[APPLAUSE]

2749
01:47:38,151 --> 01:47:41,054
WELL, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR

2750
01:47:41,121 --> 01:47:41,354
BEING HERE.

2751
01:47:41,421 --> 01:47:42,455
IT'S JUST BEEN INCREDIBLE

2752
01:47:42,522 --> 01:47:43,757
HEARING FROM YOU.

2753
01:47:43,824 --> 01:47:46,526
I DEFINITELY WILL BE CHECKING

2754
01:47:46,593 --> 01:47:47,694
THE SMITHSONIAN FOR ANY

2755
01:47:47,761 --> 01:47:48,361
PERMANENT EXHIBITIONS BY ANYONE

2756
01:47:48,428 --> 01:47:52,098
THAT IT MOO BE IN THIS ROOM.

2757
01:47:52,165 --> 01:47:54,701
SO, NOW WE WILL HAVE A MOMENT TO

2758
01:47:54,768 --> 01:47:55,268
TRANSITION.

2759
01:47:55,335 --> 01:47:58,104
WE'RE GOING TO HEAR FROM THE

2760
01:47:58,171 --> 01:48:01,174
SPONSOR OF THE FILM, DENISE

2761
01:48:01,241 --> 01:48:03,343
RESNIK, AND FIRST PLACE ARIZONA

2762
01:48:03,410 --> 01:48:04,978
BEFORE WE ENTER THE RECEPTION.

2763
01:48:05,045 --> 01:48:07,747
DENISE AND HER ORGANIZATION HAVE

2764
01:48:07,814 --> 01:48:08,682
GRACIOUSLY OFFERED TO HOST A

2765
01:48:08,748 --> 01:48:10,283
RECEPTION FOR ALL OF US TO ENJOY

2766
01:48:10,350 --> 01:48:11,685
WHO ARE HERE IN THE ROOM.

2767
01:48:11,751 --> 01:48:14,120
SO THANK YOU SO MUCH, DENISE.

2768
01:48:14,187 --> 01:48:15,422
I'LL HAND IT OVER TO YOU.

2769
01:48:15,488 --> 01:48:16,890
>> WELL, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

2770
01:48:16,957 --> 01:48:20,694
[APPLAUSE]

2771
01:48:20,760 --> 01:48:23,330
WHEN I SAID EARLIER, IT'S NOT

2772
01:48:23,396 --> 01:48:24,965
WHAT WE SAY ABOUT COMMUNITY,

2773
01:48:25,031 --> 01:48:27,801
IT'S HOW IT MAKES US FEEL, AND

2774
01:48:27,868 --> 01:48:32,405
YOU HAVE ALL MADE US FEEL

2775
01:48:32,472 --> 01:48:33,773
INSPIRED.

2776
01:48:33,840 --> 01:48:36,576
YOU HAVE MADE US FEEL HUMBLED.

2777
01:48:36,643 --> 01:48:38,945
YOU HAVE MADE US FEEL THAT WE

2778
01:48:39,012 --> 01:48:40,714
NEVER SAY NEVER.

2779
01:48:40,780 --> 01:48:42,482
AND THAT YOU, BLAIR, AS YOU

2780
01:48:42,549 --> 01:48:43,917
TALKED ABOUT YOUR DAUGHTER, AND

2781
01:48:43,984 --> 01:48:46,419
AS A MOTHER OF A 32-YEAR-OLD SON

2782
01:48:46,486 --> 01:48:49,055
WITH AUTISM, I DIDN'T WANT TO

2783
01:48:49,122 --> 01:48:50,891
HEAR THAT HE COULD HAVE A JOB OR

2784
01:48:50,957 --> 01:48:53,193
THAT HE COULD HAVE A HOME OR

2785
01:48:53,260 --> 01:48:55,662
THAT HE COULD HAVE AN INCLUSIVE

2786
01:48:55,729 --> 01:48:55,929
COMMUNITY.

2787
01:48:55,996 --> 01:48:58,665
I WANTED TO BE ABLE TO SHOW HIM

2788
01:48:58,732 --> 01:49:00,300
AND TO SHOW OTHER PEOPLE DURING

2789
01:49:00,367 --> 01:49:01,167
MY LIFETIME.

2790
01:49:01,234 --> 01:49:04,137
AND THAT IS WHY AND HOW WE

2791
01:49:04,204 --> 01:49:04,905
CONTINUE TO RAISE THE BAR IN

2792
01:49:04,971 --> 01:49:06,673
TERMS OF WHAT WE DREAM ABOUT,

2793
01:49:06,740 --> 01:49:10,911
WHAT WE THINK ABOUT, WHAT WE DO.

2794
01:49:10,977 --> 01:49:13,446
IN TERMS OF MODELING INCLUSIVE

2795
01:49:13,513 --> 01:49:14,414
COMMUNITIES, HERE AND

2796
01:49:14,481 --> 01:49:14,748
EVERYWHERE.

2797
01:49:14,814 --> 01:49:18,184
AND I LOVED WHAT YOU SAID, DR.

2798
01:49:18,251 --> 01:49:20,553
GORDON, AS YOU REFERENCED OUR

2799
01:49:20,620 --> 01:49:23,089
TALENT HERE, THESE AMAZING

2800
01:49:23,156 --> 01:49:24,724
PEOPLE, THAT IMBUED WITH

2801
01:49:24,791 --> 01:49:25,759
TREMENDOUS EXPRESSION AND HOW

2802
01:49:25,825 --> 01:49:27,560
THAT TOUCHES US AND HOW THAT

2803
01:49:27,627 --> 01:49:30,864
INSPIRES US, AND FOR YOU, LAURA,

2804
01:49:30,931 --> 01:49:32,265
TALKING ABOUT YOUR SOCIALIZING

2805
01:49:32,332 --> 01:49:35,135
INSTRUMENT, DON'T WE ALL WANT TO

2806
01:49:35,201 --> 01:49:37,103
HAVE A SOCIALIZING INSTRUMENT?

2807
01:49:37,170 --> 01:49:38,338
SOMETHING THAT CONNECTS US TO

2808
01:49:38,405 --> 01:49:40,073
THE WORLD, TO OUR COMMUNITIES,

2809
01:49:40,140 --> 01:49:43,009
TO PEOPLE WE CARE ABOUT.

2810
01:49:43,076 --> 01:49:46,746
AND FOR YOU, JOHN, WHO TALKED

2811
01:49:46,813 --> 01:49:49,683
ABOUT ACCEPTANCE AND

2812
01:49:49,749 --> 01:49:51,751
APPRECIATION, AND INSPIRATION,

2813
01:49:51,818 --> 01:49:53,620
THAT FILM CONTINUES TO INSPIRE

2814
01:49:53,687 --> 01:49:56,356
AND I NEVER TIRE OF WATCHING IT

2815
01:49:56,423 --> 01:49:57,891
AND THINKING ABOUT ALL THE

2816
01:49:57,958 --> 01:50:01,094
DETAILS AND ALL THE THINKING AND

2817
01:50:01,161 --> 01:50:05,365
TALENT THAT WENT BEHIND THAT.

2818
01:50:05,432 --> 01:50:07,867
AND, BLAIR, I'M ALWAYS STRUCK BY

2819
01:50:07,934 --> 01:50:10,837
YOUR GREATNESS AND YOUR

2820
01:50:10,904 --> 01:50:15,408
HUMILITY, AND HOW WE MAKE

2821
01:50:15,475 --> 01:50:16,843
OURSELVES LIFELONG HUMBLE

2822
01:50:16,910 --> 01:50:17,978
LEARNERS, BECAUSE COMMUNITY

2823
01:50:18,044 --> 01:50:19,679
DEVELOPMENT, LIKE PEOPLE, ARE

2824
01:50:19,746 --> 01:50:20,780
PERFECTLY IMPERFECT.

2825
01:50:20,847 --> 01:50:23,416
AND WE NEED MORE CHANCES AND

2826
01:50:23,483 --> 01:50:25,585
MORE OPPORTUNITIES TO GET IT

2827
01:50:25,652 --> 01:50:27,120
RIGHT FOR OURSELVES, FOR THOSE

2828
01:50:27,187 --> 01:50:28,655
WHO COME AFTER US, FOR THE

2829
01:50:28,722 --> 01:50:32,892
PEOPLE WE CARE AND WE LOVE THE

2830
01:50:32,959 --> 01:50:33,193
MOST.

2831
01:50:33,259 --> 01:50:35,228
AND SO, WHEN WE TALK ABOUT FIRST

2832
01:50:35,295 --> 01:50:38,965
PLACE AND THE GLOBAL LEADERSHIP

2833
01:50:39,032 --> 01:50:40,834
INSTITUTE, WE CELEBRATE HOW ONE

2834
01:50:40,900 --> 01:50:42,469
FIRST LEADS TO THE NEXT.

2835
01:50:42,535 --> 01:50:44,771
AND THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE DOING.

2836
01:50:44,838 --> 01:50:47,707
CONTINUING TO SET THE BAR HIGHER

2837
01:50:47,774 --> 01:50:49,542
AND HIGHER, FAR BEYOND WHAT WE

2838
01:50:49,609 --> 01:50:50,443
MIGHT HAVE DREAMED ABOUT,

2839
01:50:50,510 --> 01:50:52,946
CERTAINLY WHEN OUR SON WAS

2840
01:50:53,013 --> 01:50:54,581
DIAGNOSED 30 YEARS AGO AND WE

2841
01:50:54,647 --> 01:51:00,487
WERE TOLD TO LOVE, ACCEPT, PLAN

2842
01:51:00,553 --> 01:51:02,155
TO INSTITUTIONALIZE HIM, HE'S

2843
01:51:02,222 --> 01:51:04,224
MORE PROFOUNDLY IMPACTED BY HIS

2844
01:51:04,290 --> 01:51:06,393
AUTISM, I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE A

2845
01:51:06,459 --> 01:51:08,261
CONVERSATION WITH HIM, TO BE

2846
01:51:08,328 --> 01:51:10,897
ABLE TO UNDERSTAND WHAT IS GOING

2847
01:51:10,964 --> 01:51:14,367
ON IN THERE, BUT I CONTINUE TO

2848
01:51:14,434 --> 01:51:22,909
HAVE TO TAP IN TO HOW HE'S

2849
01:51:22,976 --> 01:51:23,710
SUPPRESS EXPRESSING HIMSELF

2850
01:51:23,777 --> 01:51:24,444
THROUGH EMOTION AND MUSIC.

2851
01:51:24,511 --> 01:51:26,179
WE NEED TO BE REMINDED HOW

2852
01:51:26,246 --> 01:51:27,180
DIFFERENT WE ARE.

2853
01:51:27,247 --> 01:51:28,848
THE EXPRESSION OF COMMUNITY,

2854
01:51:28,915 --> 01:51:31,217
REAL COMMUNITY, IT'S DEFINED BY

2855
01:51:31,284 --> 01:51:33,920
WHO WE INCLUDE VERSUS WHO WE

2856
01:51:33,987 --> 01:51:34,354
EXCLUDE.

2857
01:51:34,421 --> 01:51:36,823
SO, THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH FOR

2858
01:51:36,890 --> 01:51:38,792
THIS OPPORTUNITY TO BE INCLUDED

2859
01:51:38,858 --> 01:51:43,930
HERE AT THIS PROGRAM, AND TO

2860
01:51:43,997 --> 01:51:49,502
ALSO SHARE WITH YOU "SOUND

2861
01:51:49,569 --> 01:51:55,508
TRACKS" SHARED AROUND THE WORLD

2862
01:51:55,575 --> 01:51:57,911
AT OUR 12th GLOBAL LEADERSHIP

2863
01:51:57,977 --> 01:51:59,245
INSTITUTES, AND WE'RE PLANNING

2864
01:51:59,312 --> 01:52:02,515
THE 13th FOR THIS FALL.

2865
01:52:02,582 --> 01:52:03,850
YOU RAISED THE BAR FOR US.

2866
01:52:03,917 --> 01:52:05,685
I'LL GIVE YOU A TASTE OF WHAT

2867
01:52:05,752 --> 01:52:13,259
FIRST PLACE IS, AS A PROPERTY,

2868
01:52:13,326 --> 01:52:14,461
OPERATING, DEVELOPER, MODELING

2869
01:52:14,527 --> 01:52:15,228
HOW WE LEARN, PRACTICE,

2870
01:52:15,295 --> 01:52:17,197
UNDERSTAND HOW TO GET IT RIGHT,

2871
01:52:17,263 --> 01:52:18,498
FOR WHOM, WHAT WE NEED TO DO

2872
01:52:18,565 --> 01:52:20,233
BETTER AND HOW WE CONTINUE TO

2873
01:52:20,300 --> 01:52:23,436
LEAD NOT ALONE BUT THROUGH

2874
01:52:23,503 --> 01:52:24,204
COLLABORATORS AND COMMUNITIES

2875
01:52:24,270 --> 01:52:25,939
ACROSS THE COUNTRY AND AROUND

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01:52:26,005
THE WORLD.