1 00:00:05,600 --> 00:00:08,000 WELCOME, EVERYBODY, A SPECIAL 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:09,840 WELCOME TO SHARON MILGRAM AND 3 00:00:09,840 --> 00:00:12,960 JOCELYNE RIVERA. 4 00:00:12,960 --> 00:00:15,040 TWO WOMEN OF OUR SERIES. 5 00:00:15,040 --> 00:00:17,360 AND THIS IS THE WOMEN LEADERS IN 6 00:00:17,360 --> 00:00:19,720 ACADEMIC RESEARCH, WHICH WAS 7 00:00:19,720 --> 00:00:23,000 RENAMED THIS YEAR TO EMPOWERMENT 8 00:00:23,000 --> 00:00:24,520 OF UNDERREPRESENTED RESEARCHERS. 9 00:00:24,520 --> 00:00:25,400 IT'S A MONTHLY SEARCH SERIES 10 00:00:25,400 --> 00:00:29,080 BROUGHT TO YOU BY THE NIH CENTER 11 00:00:29,080 --> 00:00:30,360 FOR COLLEGES. 12 00:00:30,360 --> 00:00:32,080 >> TODAY'S SPEAKER IS DR. SHARON 13 00:00:32,080 --> 00:00:33,840 MILGRAM, DIRECTOR OF THE NIH 14 00:00:33,840 --> 00:00:37,080 OFFICE OF INTRAMURAL TRAINING 15 00:00:37,080 --> 00:00:39,520 AND EDUCATION WHO WILL SHARE HOW 16 00:00:39,520 --> 00:00:40,760 AN EAR WORM SHAPES MY LIFE AND 17 00:00:40,760 --> 00:00:41,880 MY CAREER. 18 00:00:41,880 --> 00:00:45,960 SO THE LECTURE IS FOR THIS TIME 19 00:00:45,960 --> 00:00:47,680 IS LESSONS LEARNED FROM A CAREER 20 00:00:47,680 --> 00:00:49,680 IN SCIENCE AND TRAINING 21 00:00:49,680 --> 00:00:50,400 MENTORSHIP WITH A DISCUSSION OF 22 00:00:50,400 --> 00:00:53,080 SOME OF THE ISSUES WE FACE IN 23 00:00:53,080 --> 00:00:56,000 THE RESEARCH COMMUNITY. 24 00:00:56,000 --> 00:00:57,120 HEALTH, MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES, 25 00:00:57,120 --> 00:00:59,080 TOXIC ENVIRONMENTS, 26 00:00:59,080 --> 00:01:00,040 MICRO-AGGRESSIONS AND 27 00:01:00,040 --> 00:01:01,080 DISCRIMINATIONS. 28 00:01:01,080 --> 00:01:03,240 THANK YOU, DR. MILLIGRAM FOR 29 00:01:03,240 --> 00:01:05,360 JOINING US TODAY. 30 00:01:05,360 --> 00:01:07,840 >> AND YOU'LL HEAR MORE IN A BIT 31 00:01:07,840 --> 00:01:08,200 ABOUT SHARON. 32 00:01:08,200 --> 00:01:10,480 SHE IS, AS I TOLD HER IN THE 33 00:01:10,480 --> 00:01:11,240 BEGINNING, SHE IS THE EPIDEMY OF 34 00:01:11,240 --> 00:01:15,080 WHAT THIS LECTURE SERIES IS 35 00:01:15,080 --> 00:01:15,880 ABOUT AND WHAT WE STRIVE FOR IT 36 00:01:15,880 --> 00:01:18,680 TO BE, AND SHE HAS A VOICE THAT 37 00:01:18,680 --> 00:01:20,520 YOU'LL HEAR THAT IS TRULY 38 00:01:20,520 --> 00:01:21,920 INSPIRATIONAL, MOTIVATIONAL. 39 00:01:21,920 --> 00:01:25,080 SHE IS A FRUSTRATED PHILOSOPHER, 40 00:01:25,080 --> 00:01:30,480 I THINK, LIKE MYSELF, AND SPEAKS 41 00:01:30,480 --> 00:01:31,040 FROM THE HEART. 42 00:01:31,040 --> 00:01:32,280 WE ARE REALLY EXCITED ABOUT THIS 43 00:01:32,280 --> 00:01:34,520 AND SHE IS AN ACCOMPLISHED 44 00:01:34,520 --> 00:01:35,600 LEADER. 45 00:01:35,600 --> 00:01:40,040 NIH IS TRULY LUCKY TO HAVE HER 46 00:01:40,040 --> 00:01:40,240 HERE. 47 00:01:40,240 --> 00:01:41,640 HER PRESENCE SHEAR NOTICEABLE, 48 00:01:41,640 --> 00:01:41,920 PALPABLE. 49 00:01:41,920 --> 00:01:43,920 WE KNOW SHE IS HERE AT THE HELM 50 00:01:43,920 --> 00:01:45,440 LEADING THE EDUCATIONAL 51 00:01:45,440 --> 00:01:47,480 INFRASTRUCTURE AND SHE RUNS AN 52 00:01:47,480 --> 00:01:48,000 AMAZING TEAM. 53 00:01:48,000 --> 00:01:50,040 SHE INCLUDES PHIL, KARL PARKS 54 00:01:50,040 --> 00:01:52,040 TRICIA, A NUMBER OF FOLKS THAT 55 00:01:52,040 --> 00:01:53,560 ALL SHARE HER SAME PASSION. 56 00:01:53,560 --> 00:01:55,640 SHE IS A PASSIONATE ADVOCATE FOR 57 00:01:55,640 --> 00:01:58,120 TRAINEES AND FOR MENTORS ALIKE 58 00:01:58,120 --> 00:01:58,480 HERE. 59 00:01:58,480 --> 00:02:00,360 SHE IS A PROBLEM-SOLVER. 60 00:02:00,360 --> 00:02:01,720 YOU'RE GOING TO LEARN A LOT OF 61 00:02:01,720 --> 00:02:02,760 HER PHILOSOPHY TODAY. 62 00:02:02,760 --> 00:02:06,360 I CALL HER THE NIH WELLNESS 63 00:02:06,360 --> 00:02:08,400 OFFICER AND CHIEF. 64 00:02:08,400 --> 00:02:10,320 SHE HAS ALL OF OUR INTERNETS AT 65 00:02:10,320 --> 00:02:11,960 HEART AND SHE INSTITUTED A 66 00:02:11,960 --> 00:02:13,720 SEMINAR SERIES FOCUSED ON THE 67 00:02:13,720 --> 00:02:16,440 WELL-BEING OF TRAINEES AND 68 00:02:16,440 --> 00:02:17,880 MENTEES ALIKE WITH THEIR 69 00:02:17,880 --> 00:02:19,440 MENTORS, ALSO. 70 00:02:19,440 --> 00:02:21,720 IT'S A TOP-TO-BOTTOM SOUP TO 71 00:02:21,720 --> 00:02:24,600 NUTS APPROACH TOWARDS HER ROLE. 72 00:02:24,600 --> 00:02:26,640 SHE DOESN'T STOP WHERE YOU MIGHT 73 00:02:26,640 --> 00:02:27,560 THINK IT STOPS. 74 00:02:27,560 --> 00:02:29,160 SHE TAKES IT A BIT FURTHER AND 75 00:02:29,160 --> 00:02:33,120 JUST MAKES SURE THAT THINGS ARE 76 00:02:33,120 --> 00:02:33,720 HUMMING AND SMOOTH AND WE'RE 77 00:02:33,720 --> 00:02:35,280 REALLY EXCITED TO HAVE HER. 78 00:02:35,280 --> 00:02:37,520 HER HEART IS IN THE RIGHT PLACE. 79 00:02:37,520 --> 00:02:40,080 HER INTELLECT IS PRESENT TO 80 00:02:40,080 --> 00:02:41,440 MAKER A REAL CHAMPION WHO IS 81 00:02:41,440 --> 00:02:45,120 VERY IMPACTFUL FORWARDS QUALITY 82 00:02:45,120 --> 00:02:45,920 EDUCATION. 83 00:02:45,920 --> 00:02:47,600 AND WE ARE VERY HAPPY TO BENEFIT 84 00:02:47,600 --> 00:02:49,280 FROM HER PASSION, HER DEDICATION 85 00:02:49,280 --> 00:02:51,560 AND HER SKILL SET AND HEAR A 86 00:02:51,560 --> 00:02:54,400 LITTLE MORE ABOUT HER TODAY. 87 00:02:54,400 --> 00:02:57,640 A WORD ON SOME OF OUR PARTNERS 88 00:02:57,640 --> 00:03:00,800 SERIES, AS A CAREER DEVELOPMENT 89 00:03:00,800 --> 00:03:04,520 SEMINAR COMING UP IN A FEW DAYS. 90 00:03:04,520 --> 00:03:06,040 AND WE'LL MOVE ON AS IS USUAL. 91 00:03:06,040 --> 00:03:09,080 WE WILL GIVE YOU A LITTLE BIT OF 92 00:03:09,080 --> 00:03:13,080 PHILOSOPHY IN THE BEGINNING AND 93 00:03:13,080 --> 00:03:15,520 WE'LL BOUNCE BACK-AND-FORTH ON 94 00:03:15,520 --> 00:03:16,120 THIS. 95 00:03:16,120 --> 00:03:17,400 >> SO OUR MENTOR ALLOWS TO YOU 96 00:03:17,400 --> 00:03:19,520 SEE THE HOPE INSIDE YOURSELF. 97 00:03:19,520 --> 00:03:22,880 A MENTOR IS SOMEONE WHO ALLUSE 98 00:03:22,880 --> 00:03:23,480 YOU TO KNOW THAT NO MATTER HOW 99 00:03:23,480 --> 00:03:25,040 DARK THE NIGHT, IN THE MORNING, 100 00:03:25,040 --> 00:03:26,080 JOY WILL COME. 101 00:03:26,080 --> 00:03:27,720 A MENTOR IS SOMEONE WHO ALLOWS 102 00:03:27,720 --> 00:03:30,800 YOU TO SEE THE HIGHER PART OF 103 00:03:30,800 --> 00:03:32,240 YOURSELF WHEN SOMETIMES IT 104 00:03:32,240 --> 00:03:36,120 BECOMES HIDDEN TO YOUR OWN VIEW. 105 00:03:36,120 --> 00:03:39,520 BY OPRAH WINFREY. 106 00:03:39,520 --> 00:03:40,120 >> JOHN F. KENNEDY SAID, ONE 107 00:03:40,120 --> 00:03:41,560 PERSON CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE AND 108 00:03:41,560 --> 00:03:45,560 EVERYONE SHOULD TRY IT. 109 00:03:45,560 --> 00:03:47,360 >> MENTORING IS ALL ABOUT 110 00:03:47,360 --> 00:03:49,520 LISTENING TO PEOPLE, HELPING 111 00:03:49,520 --> 00:03:50,880 THEM GO OVER WHAT THE ISSUES ARE 112 00:03:50,880 --> 00:03:53,400 AND HOW TO CLARIFY WAYS TO DEAL 113 00:03:53,400 --> 00:03:58,760 WITH ANY PROBLEMS THAT MAY 114 00:03:58,760 --> 00:03:59,520 ARISE,. 115 00:03:59,520 --> 00:04:01,720 >> BENJAMIN FRANKLIN SAID, TELL 116 00:04:01,720 --> 00:04:05,280 ME, I FORGOT R. GET, TEACH ME I 117 00:04:05,280 --> 00:04:06,760 MIGHT REMEMBER AND INVOLVE ME I 118 00:04:06,760 --> 00:04:06,960 LEARN. 119 00:04:06,960 --> 00:04:10,440 >> WHEN ONE PERSON MENTORS TWO 120 00:04:10,440 --> 00:04:15,160 LIVES ARE CHANGED. 121 00:04:15,160 --> 00:04:15,640 >> WINSTON CHURCHILL. 122 00:04:15,640 --> 00:04:19,040 WE MAKE A LIVING BY WHAT WE GET, 123 00:04:19,040 --> 00:04:24,400 WE MAKE A LIFE BY WHAT WE GIVE. 124 00:04:24,400 --> 00:04:26,440 >> IN THE END WE WILL REMEMBER 125 00:04:26,440 --> 00:04:30,000 NOT THE WORDS OF OUR ENEMIES BUT 126 00:04:30,000 --> 00:04:31,920 THE SILENCE OF OUR FRIENDS BY 127 00:04:31,920 --> 00:04:36,600 MARTIN LUTHER KING, Jr. SO THE 128 00:04:36,600 --> 00:04:39,040 TITLE OF TODAY'S LECTURE IS HOW 129 00:04:39,040 --> 00:04:40,680 AN EAR WORM SHAPES MY LIFE AND 130 00:04:40,680 --> 00:04:40,960 MY CAREER. 131 00:04:40,960 --> 00:04:44,160 AND THE LECTURE AND LESSONS 132 00:04:44,160 --> 00:04:45,320 LEARNED FROM OUR CAREER IN 133 00:04:45,320 --> 00:04:46,920 SCIENCE AND TRAINING MENTORSHIP 134 00:04:46,920 --> 00:04:47,840 WITH A DISCUSSION OF THE SOME OF 135 00:04:47,840 --> 00:04:49,480 THE ISSUES WE FACE IN THE 136 00:04:49,480 --> 00:04:52,480 RESEARCH COMMUNITY, HEALTH, 137 00:04:52,480 --> 00:04:54,080 MENTAL ISSUES, TOXIC 138 00:04:54,080 --> 00:04:55,400 ENVIRONMENTS, MICRO-AGGRESSIONS 139 00:04:55,400 --> 00:04:57,760 AND DISCRIMINATION. 140 00:04:57,760 --> 00:04:58,400 >> A WORD ON THE LECTURE SERIES 141 00:04:58,400 --> 00:04:59,360 YOU PROBABLY HEARD BEFORE, BUT 142 00:04:59,360 --> 00:05:02,200 VERY BRIEFLY, THE LECTURE IS 143 00:05:02,200 --> 00:05:02,640 AIMED AT COUNTER 144 00:05:02,640 --> 00:05:04,080 UNDERREPRESENTATION IN SCIENCE, 145 00:05:04,080 --> 00:05:05,400 ACADEMICS AND RESEARCH BY 146 00:05:05,400 --> 00:05:07,880 FOSTERING AND EMPOWERING ROLE 147 00:05:07,880 --> 00:05:09,160 MODELING, AND TEAM SCIENCE AND 148 00:05:09,160 --> 00:05:11,600 CAREER DEVELOPMENT BY 149 00:05:11,600 --> 00:05:13,560 HIGHLIGHTING SOLUTIONS AT THE 150 00:05:13,560 --> 00:05:16,640 INTERFACE OF ACADEMIA. 151 00:05:16,640 --> 00:05:18,520 WE HONOR WOMEN USING STORIES TO 152 00:05:18,520 --> 00:05:20,640 CHALLENGE THE IMPLICIT BIZES 153 00:05:20,640 --> 00:05:26,960 THAT WE ALL CARRY. 154 00:05:26,960 --> 00:05:30,400 AND TRICIA RAY WILL GIVE US A 155 00:05:30,400 --> 00:05:32,200 BRIEF BIO. 156 00:05:32,200 --> 00:05:33,080 >> THANK YOU, JOCELYN AND 157 00:05:33,080 --> 00:05:33,880 DR. LYNNE. 158 00:05:33,880 --> 00:05:34,560 I'M GOING TO INTRODUCE OUR 159 00:05:34,560 --> 00:05:38,160 AMAZING SPEAKER FOR TODAY, 160 00:05:38,160 --> 00:05:38,920 DR. SHARON MILGRAM. 161 00:05:38,920 --> 00:05:41,280 SHE RECEIVED A BACHELOR OF 162 00:05:41,280 --> 00:05:42,240 SCIENCE DEGREE FROM TEMPLE 163 00:05:42,240 --> 00:05:44,080 UNIVERSITY AND A PH.D. IN CELL 164 00:05:44,080 --> 00:05:45,480 BIOLOGY FROM EMORY UNIVERSITY. 165 00:05:45,480 --> 00:05:48,520 SHE COMPLETED POSTDOCTORAL 166 00:05:48,520 --> 00:05:49,720 TRAINING AT THE JOHNS HOPKINS 167 00:05:49,720 --> 00:05:51,160 UNIVERSITY BEFORE JOINING THE 168 00:05:51,160 --> 00:05:52,320 FACULTY AT THE UNIVERSITY OF 169 00:05:52,320 --> 00:05:55,040 NORTH CAROLINA AT CHAPEL HILL. 170 00:05:55,040 --> 00:05:57,880 THERE SHE ROSE TO A RANK OF FULL 171 00:05:57,880 --> 00:05:58,840 PROFESSOR IN THE DEPARTMENT OF 172 00:05:58,840 --> 00:06:01,360 CELL AND DEVELOPMENTAL BIOLOGY. 173 00:06:01,360 --> 00:06:04,600 DR. MILLIGRAM SERVED AS THE 174 00:06:04,600 --> 00:06:05,160 ASSOCIATE DIRECTOR OF THE 175 00:06:05,160 --> 00:06:08,840 MEDICAL SCIENTIST TRAINING 176 00:06:08,840 --> 00:06:09,320 PROGRAM, DIRECTOR OF THE 177 00:06:09,320 --> 00:06:10,200 INTERDISCIPLINARY BIOMEDICAL 178 00:06:10,200 --> 00:06:10,800 SCIENCES GRADUATE PROGRAM AND 179 00:06:10,800 --> 00:06:12,880 THE DIRECTOR OF THE SUMMER 180 00:06:12,880 --> 00:06:14,320 UNDERGRADUATE RESEARCH 181 00:06:14,320 --> 00:06:15,240 EXPERIENCE. 182 00:06:15,240 --> 00:06:17,080 IN 2007, SHE JOINED THE NIH 183 00:06:17,080 --> 00:06:20,000 OFFICE OF THE DIRECTOR AS THE 184 00:06:20,000 --> 00:06:21,320 DIRECTOR OF THE OFFICE OF 185 00:06:21,320 --> 00:06:25,080 INTRAMURAL TRAINING AND 186 00:06:25,080 --> 00:06:26,880 EDUCATION WHERE SHE DIRECTS A 187 00:06:26,880 --> 00:06:27,720 TRANS-NIH OFFICE DEDICATED TO 188 00:06:27,720 --> 00:06:29,600 THE CAREER ADVANCEMENT OF OVER 189 00:06:29,600 --> 00:06:31,760 5000 TRAINEES. 190 00:06:31,760 --> 00:06:35,400 DR. MILLIGRAM LECTURES WIDELY ON 191 00:06:35,400 --> 00:06:36,320 CAREER, MENTORSHIP, LEADERSHIP 192 00:06:36,320 --> 00:06:38,280 AND MANAGEMENT AND RESEARCH 193 00:06:38,280 --> 00:06:38,600 ENVIRONMENTS. 194 00:06:38,600 --> 00:06:41,000 SHE LIVES IN TAKOMA PARK 195 00:06:41,000 --> 00:06:42,040 MARYLAND WITH HER WIFE AND SON. 196 00:06:42,040 --> 00:06:43,640 WE ARE SO HAPPY TO HAVE YOU HERE 197 00:06:43,640 --> 00:06:44,880 WITH US TODAY. 198 00:06:44,880 --> 00:06:49,280 PLEASE TAKE IT AWAY. 199 00:06:49,280 --> 00:06:50,560 >> DR. SHARON MILGRAM: THANK 200 00:06:50,560 --> 00:06:51,880 YOU, JOCELYN AND TRISHA AND BRAD 201 00:06:51,880 --> 00:06:55,120 FOR THE INVITATION AND ALL OF 202 00:06:55,120 --> 00:06:56,400 YOU WHO ARE HERE. 203 00:06:56,400 --> 00:06:59,960 I AM LISTENING TO THAT 204 00:06:59,960 --> 00:07:02,960 INTRODUCTION, REALIZED TIME HAS 205 00:07:02,960 --> 00:07:04,160 PASSED. 206 00:07:04,160 --> 00:07:04,840 OUR SON MOVED AWAY. 207 00:07:04,840 --> 00:07:07,920 HE LIVES IN L.A., AND WE MISS 208 00:07:07,920 --> 00:07:08,080 HIM. 209 00:07:08,080 --> 00:07:12,560 IF I GET A CHANCE TO GET OUT TO 210 00:07:12,560 --> 00:07:13,600 THE WEST COAST IT'S ALWAYS A BIG 211 00:07:13,600 --> 00:07:14,240 THING TO GET TO SEE HIM. 212 00:07:14,240 --> 00:07:17,480 I'M GOING TO TALK A LITTLE BIT 213 00:07:17,480 --> 00:07:18,360 ABOUT EAR WORMS. 214 00:07:18,360 --> 00:07:22,040 YOU PROBABLY, ALL OF YOU, HAVE 215 00:07:22,040 --> 00:07:22,640 EXPERIENCED. 216 00:07:22,640 --> 00:07:26,080 THAT'S NOT SOME MUSIC OR A 217 00:07:26,080 --> 00:07:26,880 PHRASE, A POEM THAT GETS CAUGHT 218 00:07:26,880 --> 00:07:30,360 IN OUR HEAD. 219 00:07:30,360 --> 00:07:31,240 AND NO MATTER WHAT WE DO IT JUST 220 00:07:31,240 --> 00:07:33,880 KEEPS GOING ON AND ON AND ON AND 221 00:07:33,880 --> 00:07:34,320 ON. 222 00:07:34,320 --> 00:07:37,160 AND THERE IS A LOT OF LITERATURE 223 00:07:37,160 --> 00:07:38,960 ON WHAT CAUSES EAR WORMS AND 224 00:07:38,960 --> 00:07:40,960 WHAT TO DO ABOUT THEM. 225 00:07:40,960 --> 00:07:43,040 FROM MY PERSPECTIVE, I'M GOING 226 00:07:43,040 --> 00:07:45,080 TO TALK ABOUT AN EAR WORM THAT I 227 00:07:45,080 --> 00:07:46,960 HAVE TRIED REALLY HARD TO GET 228 00:07:46,960 --> 00:07:49,920 RID OF AND I NOW APPRECIATE IT'S 229 00:07:49,920 --> 00:07:52,440 LIKE A PART OF WHO I AM. 230 00:07:52,440 --> 00:07:55,680 AND IS DRIVING IMPORTANT THINGS 231 00:07:55,680 --> 00:07:57,080 IN MY LIFE. 232 00:07:57,080 --> 00:07:59,120 BUT TO EXPLAIN THAT EAR WORM, I 233 00:07:59,120 --> 00:08:00,920 NEED TO TELL YOU A LITTLE BIT OF 234 00:08:00,920 --> 00:08:04,600 WHERE I COME FROM. 235 00:08:04,600 --> 00:08:07,600 SO I WAS RAISED AS AN 236 00:08:07,600 --> 00:08:07,960 ORTHODOX JEW. 237 00:08:07,960 --> 00:08:10,600 IN HOUR COMMUNITY WE WOULD SAY, 238 00:08:10,600 --> 00:08:12,440 WE COME FROM THE ASHEAVISH WING, 239 00:08:12,440 --> 00:08:14,760 SOME PEOPLE MIGHT LOOK AT THIS 240 00:08:14,760 --> 00:08:16,760 IN A PICTURE OF ME IN THE 241 00:08:16,760 --> 00:08:19,600 CLOTHING THAT I'M WARING AND SAY 242 00:08:19,600 --> 00:08:20,440 HA SEEDIC WING. 243 00:08:20,440 --> 00:08:22,840 IT WAS A PRETTY STRICT 244 00:08:22,840 --> 00:08:23,960 UPBRINGING. 245 00:08:23,960 --> 00:08:25,760 THIS IS ACTUALLY ONE OF THE ONLY 246 00:08:25,760 --> 00:08:27,440 PICTURES I HAVE AND ONE OF THE 247 00:08:27,440 --> 00:08:29,080 LAST BEFORE I CHOSE TO LEAVE 248 00:08:29,080 --> 00:08:30,920 THIS COMMUNITY. 249 00:08:30,920 --> 00:08:33,720 THIS IS A PICTURE OF ME IN 250 00:08:33,720 --> 00:08:33,960 ISRAEL. 251 00:08:33,960 --> 00:08:37,560 AND MANY OF THE EAR WORMS THAT I 252 00:08:37,560 --> 00:08:39,920 HAVE EXPERIENCED HAPPEN IN 253 00:08:39,920 --> 00:08:41,680 HEBREW AND COME FROM THAT 254 00:08:41,680 --> 00:08:43,320 CHILDHOOD. 255 00:08:43,320 --> 00:08:46,320 AND HERE I'M GOING TO SHARE THE 256 00:08:46,320 --> 00:08:46,920 ONE EAR WORM THAT I HAVE NEVER 257 00:08:46,920 --> 00:08:47,960 BEEN ABLE TO GET RID OF. 258 00:08:47,960 --> 00:08:51,520 SO I ACTUALLY HAD A NUMBER OF 259 00:08:51,520 --> 00:08:52,680 EAR WORMS FOR A LONG TIME. 260 00:08:52,680 --> 00:08:55,720 AND I SPEND TIME TALKING ABOUT 261 00:08:55,720 --> 00:08:56,800 THEM WITH OTHERS. 262 00:08:56,800 --> 00:08:59,520 I SPEND TIME EXPLORING SOME OF 263 00:08:59,520 --> 00:09:02,640 THEM IN THERAPY. 264 00:09:02,640 --> 00:09:04,680 I SPEND TIME WITH SOME OF THEM 265 00:09:04,680 --> 00:09:08,080 REALLY TRYING TO EMBRACE THE 266 00:09:08,080 --> 00:09:09,720 MESSAGE BEHIND. 267 00:09:09,720 --> 00:09:10,720 AND THAT IS THIS ONE. 268 00:09:10,720 --> 00:09:13,920 AND SOME OF YOU MIGHT READ 269 00:09:13,920 --> 00:09:14,120 HEBREW. 270 00:09:14,120 --> 00:09:15,280 AND MIGHT BE ABLE TO READ THIS. 271 00:09:15,280 --> 00:09:18,040 I'LL HELP YOU ALL THROUGH THIS. 272 00:09:18,040 --> 00:09:20,720 SO IT SAYS AND I'M GOING TO BE 273 00:09:20,720 --> 00:09:23,000 HONEST AND TELL YOU MY 274 00:09:23,000 --> 00:09:24,880 TRANSLATION IS CLOSE BUT NOT 275 00:09:24,880 --> 00:09:25,080 EXACT. 276 00:09:25,080 --> 00:09:29,640 BUT IT'S THE TRANSLATION THAT'S 277 00:09:29,640 --> 00:09:30,040 RELEVANT TO ME. 278 00:09:30,040 --> 00:09:32,080 SO -- 279 00:09:32,080 --> 00:09:32,520 [ SPEAKING HEBREW ] 280 00:09:32,520 --> 00:09:36,720 YOU DON'T HAVE TO FINISH THE 281 00:09:36,720 --> 00:09:37,680 WORK. 282 00:09:37,680 --> 00:09:40,680 [ SPEAKING HEBREW ] 283 00:09:40,680 --> 00:09:45,120 BUT YOU ARE NOT FREE TO IGNORE 284 00:09:45,120 --> 00:09:45,880 IT. 285 00:09:45,880 --> 00:09:48,640 IE, YOU MIGHT TAKE ON A BIG TASK 286 00:09:48,640 --> 00:09:50,880 AND IT MIGHT FEEL LIKE YOU CAN'T 287 00:09:50,880 --> 00:09:53,080 SOLVTHE PROBLEM, BUT REASON TO . 288 00:09:53,080 --> 00:09:58,280 NOW I'M GOING TO LEAVE A 289 00:09:58,280 --> 00:09:58,880 DISCUSSION OF THE SECOND PART 290 00:09:58,880 --> 00:09:59,200 FOR LATER. 291 00:09:59,200 --> 00:10:00,440 I'LL JUST READ IT AND TRANSLATE 292 00:10:00,440 --> 00:10:02,760 IT AND PUT IT IN HISTORICAL 293 00:10:02,760 --> 00:10:03,720 PERSPECTIVE FOR YOU. 294 00:10:03,720 --> 00:10:06,880 THIS IS A SONG. 295 00:10:06,880 --> 00:10:07,960 SO, IT ACTUALLY IS A PRETTY 296 00:10:07,960 --> 00:10:09,480 CATCHY TUNE AND IT HAPPENS TO BE 297 00:10:09,480 --> 00:10:12,680 A GREAT TUNE THAT FITS THE 298 00:10:12,680 --> 00:10:15,280 CADENCE OF MY RUNNING STYLE. 299 00:10:15,280 --> 00:10:16,280 SO WHEN I'M OUT RUNNING AND 300 00:10:16,280 --> 00:10:19,120 FEELING REALLY GOOD, AND I 301 00:10:19,120 --> 00:10:21,360 HAVE -- SORT OF HIT THE 302 00:10:21,360 --> 00:10:23,560 ENDORPHIN HIGH, THIS SONG, 303 00:10:23,560 --> 00:10:24,880 ESPECIALLY IF I'M KEEPING UP A 304 00:10:24,880 --> 00:10:26,760 PRETTY GOOD PACE, WILL COME INTO 305 00:10:26,760 --> 00:10:27,320 MY MIND. 306 00:10:27,320 --> 00:10:30,160 AND THE SECOND PART, AFTER THIS 307 00:10:30,160 --> 00:10:30,680 IDEA THAT WE HAVE A 308 00:10:30,680 --> 00:10:34,000 RESPONSIBILITY TO TACKLE 309 00:10:34,000 --> 00:10:34,320 PROBLEMS, IS. 310 00:10:34,320 --> 00:10:37,760 [ SPEAKING HEBREW ] 311 00:10:37,760 --> 00:10:43,760 WE WILL REBUILD THE TEMPLE IN 312 00:10:43,760 --> 00:10:47,240 OUR TIME SOON. 313 00:10:47,240 --> 00:10:49,280 IN JEWISH HISTORY THERE ARE TWO 314 00:10:49,280 --> 00:10:51,720 TIMES WHEN THE HOLY TEMPLE IS 315 00:10:51,720 --> 00:10:52,160 DESTROYED. 316 00:10:52,160 --> 00:10:54,960 THERE IS THIS IDEA IN ORTHODOX 317 00:10:54,960 --> 00:10:56,280 JUDAISM, THAT SOME DAY IT WILL 318 00:10:56,280 --> 00:10:56,560 BE REBUILT. 319 00:10:56,560 --> 00:11:01,040 SO THIS IS REALLY A SONG ABOUT 320 00:11:01,040 --> 00:11:05,000 THE BEHAVIORS THAT SHOULD DRIVE 321 00:11:05,000 --> 00:11:06,680 THIS EVENTUAL REBUILDING. 322 00:11:06,680 --> 00:11:09,840 AND THE WHOLE THING FOR ME IS 323 00:11:09,840 --> 00:11:11,440 JUST THIS INTENSE EAR WORM. 324 00:11:11,440 --> 00:11:14,280 AND I'M GOING TO JUST PARK THAT 325 00:11:14,280 --> 00:11:17,280 FOR A MOMENT TO TELL YOU A 326 00:11:17,280 --> 00:11:18,680 LITTLE BIT ABOUT MY CAREER AND 327 00:11:18,680 --> 00:11:21,200 MYSELF AND WHAT IS IMPORTANT TO 328 00:11:21,200 --> 00:11:23,480 ME AND THEN I'M GOING TO CIRCLE 329 00:11:23,480 --> 00:11:24,920 BACK TO THIS EAR WORM. 330 00:11:24,920 --> 00:11:28,360 BECAUSE WHAT I REALLY COME TO 331 00:11:28,360 --> 00:11:31,880 REALIZE IS THAT MY CAREER AS A 332 00:11:31,880 --> 00:11:35,040 SCIENTIST AND AS A MENTOR, MY 333 00:11:35,040 --> 00:11:36,880 CAREER AS AN ADMINISTRATOR AND 334 00:11:36,880 --> 00:11:40,280 TEACHER AND MENTOR IS REALLY 335 00:11:40,280 --> 00:11:44,840 ALL, IN SOME WAY, DRIVEN BY THIS 336 00:11:44,840 --> 00:11:45,120 EAR WORM. 337 00:11:45,120 --> 00:11:49,320 EVERY OTHER EAR WORM THAT I HAVE 338 00:11:49,320 --> 00:11:53,040 DEALT WITH, IT'S LIKE I CAN JUST 339 00:11:53,040 --> 00:11:53,920 SAY, JUST STOP. 340 00:11:53,920 --> 00:11:57,320 BUT THIS ONE, IT'S ALWAYS THERE. 341 00:11:57,320 --> 00:11:58,960 SO I ALREADY SHOWED YOU THIS 342 00:11:58,960 --> 00:11:59,720 PICTURE. 343 00:11:59,720 --> 00:12:04,000 THIS IS ME IN ABOUT 1979 344 00:12:04,000 --> 00:12:05,960 IMMEDIATELY AFTER HIGH SCHOOL. 345 00:12:05,960 --> 00:12:08,360 I WENT TO STUDY RELIGIOUS 346 00:12:08,360 --> 00:12:08,600 STUDIES. 347 00:12:08,600 --> 00:12:10,920 I HAD SOME VAGUE IDEA THAT 348 00:12:10,920 --> 00:12:12,800 PERHAPS AT SOME POINT I MIGHT GO 349 00:12:12,800 --> 00:12:14,200 TO COLLEGE, BUT I HAVE TO ADMIT, 350 00:12:14,200 --> 00:12:17,720 IT WASN'T A VERY, VERY PRESSING 351 00:12:17,720 --> 00:12:19,240 THING FOR ME. 352 00:12:19,240 --> 00:12:21,160 I DID EVENTUALLY DECIDE TO GO TO 353 00:12:21,160 --> 00:12:21,400 COLLEGE. 354 00:12:21,400 --> 00:12:25,080 I PICKED PHYSICAL THERAPY AS MY 355 00:12:25,080 --> 00:12:25,280 MAJOR. 356 00:12:25,280 --> 00:12:27,720 I WAS ONE OF THE LOST CLASSES OF 357 00:12:27,720 --> 00:12:30,280 PEOPLE WHO COULD GET A 358 00:12:30,280 --> 00:12:32,880 BACHELOR'S DEGREE IN PHYSICAL 359 00:12:32,880 --> 00:12:33,120 THERAPY. 360 00:12:33,120 --> 00:12:34,120 IT'S NOW A DOCTORAL DEGREE AND 361 00:12:34,120 --> 00:12:35,560 TAKES A LOT MORE YEARS. 362 00:12:35,560 --> 00:12:38,080 I WORKED AT A REHABILITATION 363 00:12:38,080 --> 00:12:39,080 HOSPITAL. 364 00:12:39,080 --> 00:12:42,800 THIS IS MY ID. 365 00:12:42,800 --> 00:12:45,520 IT DIDN'T HAVE ANY CHIP IN IT, 366 00:12:45,520 --> 00:12:45,720 RIGHT? 367 00:12:45,720 --> 00:12:47,160 I DIDN'T SLAP IT ON ANY DOOR TO 368 00:12:47,160 --> 00:12:49,920 GET IN. 369 00:12:49,920 --> 00:12:54,400 I WORKED WITH HEAD INJURY AND 370 00:12:54,400 --> 00:12:56,080 YOUNG ADULT STROKE PATIENTS. 371 00:12:56,080 --> 00:12:59,080 AND MY EXPERIENCE IN PHYSICAL 372 00:12:59,080 --> 00:13:01,120 THERAPY DROVE ME TO GO TO 373 00:13:01,120 --> 00:13:02,520 GRADUATE SCHOOL. 374 00:13:02,520 --> 00:13:04,320 I REALIZED AS I WAS TREATING 375 00:13:04,320 --> 00:13:07,120 PATIENTS, THAT WHAT I REALLY 376 00:13:07,120 --> 00:13:09,080 WANTED TO DO WAS TEACH. 377 00:13:09,080 --> 00:13:10,920 THAT I WAS VERY INTERESTED IN 378 00:13:10,920 --> 00:13:13,520 ENGAGING WITH PEOPLE, BUT I WAS 379 00:13:13,520 --> 00:13:15,280 MUCH MORE INTERESTED IN TEACHING 380 00:13:15,280 --> 00:13:20,160 THEM AND TALKING WITH THEM ABOUT 381 00:13:20,160 --> 00:13:21,160 THE NEUROSCIENCE BEHIND THE 382 00:13:21,160 --> 00:13:23,920 STORY AND EXPLAINING TO FAMILY 383 00:13:23,920 --> 00:13:27,640 MEMBERS WHY THEIR LOVED ONE 384 00:13:27,640 --> 00:13:29,000 EXHIBITED THESE SYMPTOMS VERSUS 385 00:13:29,000 --> 00:13:30,040 THE DIFFERENT SYMPTOMS IN 386 00:13:30,040 --> 00:13:30,960 ANOTHER STROKE PATIENT. 387 00:13:30,960 --> 00:13:34,280 SO I WAS PLANNING TO GO TO 388 00:13:34,280 --> 00:13:35,720 GRADUATE SCHOOL TO STUDY 389 00:13:35,720 --> 00:13:38,400 SOMETHING RELATED TO 390 00:13:38,400 --> 00:13:40,320 REHABILITATION AND TO GO BACK TO 391 00:13:40,320 --> 00:13:42,680 PHYSICAL THERAPY. 392 00:13:42,680 --> 00:13:45,200 THIS IS ME IN GRADUATE SCHOOL. 393 00:13:45,200 --> 00:13:49,000 THAT IS AN ANGLERFISH, OR MONK 394 00:13:49,000 --> 00:13:49,200 FISH. 395 00:13:49,200 --> 00:13:53,120 THAT IS A REALLY UGLY FISH. 396 00:13:53,120 --> 00:13:56,880 ANGLERFISH HAVE THE MOST UNIQUE 397 00:13:56,880 --> 00:13:59,720 PANCREATIC ISLET OUT THERE. 398 00:13:59,720 --> 00:14:02,480 THE PANCREAS IS VERY LARGE AND 399 00:14:02,480 --> 00:14:03,720 EASY TO ISOLATE IN MAMMALS IT'S 400 00:14:03,720 --> 00:14:07,560 THE OTHER WAY. 401 00:14:07,560 --> 00:14:09,000 THE PANCREAS ISUGE AND THE 402 00:14:09,000 --> 00:14:10,040 HIGHLIGHTS ARE SCATTERED ALL 403 00:14:10,040 --> 00:14:10,320 AROUND. 404 00:14:10,320 --> 00:14:12,400 I WANTED TO STUDY REHAB. 405 00:14:12,400 --> 00:14:14,760 SO WHAT AM I DOING PULLING OUT 406 00:14:14,760 --> 00:14:16,680 THE PANCREATIC ISLETS FROM 407 00:14:16,680 --> 00:14:17,200 ANGLERFISH. 408 00:14:17,200 --> 00:14:19,760 THIS IS AT THE MARINE BIOLOGY 409 00:14:19,760 --> 00:14:20,200 LABS. 410 00:14:20,200 --> 00:14:21,960 WHAT I WAS DOING THERE? 411 00:14:21,960 --> 00:14:23,120 WHAT HAPPENED WAS, IN MY FIRST 412 00:14:23,120 --> 00:14:25,040 YEAR OF GRADUATE SCHOOL, I TOOK 413 00:14:25,040 --> 00:14:26,560 A BIOCHEMISTRY CLASS. 414 00:14:26,560 --> 00:14:32,040 THERE WAS A 45-MINUTE LECTURE 415 00:14:32,040 --> 00:14:34,080 YOU ON INSULIN BIOSYNTHESIS AND 416 00:14:34,080 --> 00:14:36,320 I WAS COMPLETELY TAKEN BY THE 417 00:14:36,320 --> 00:14:41,800 IDEA OF STUDYING END VINOLOGY, 418 00:14:41,800 --> 00:14:42,640 BIOSYNTHESIS, THE SECRETORY 419 00:14:42,640 --> 00:14:43,360 PATHWAY. 420 00:14:43,360 --> 00:14:45,960 I TOTALLY CHANGED MY INTERESTS 421 00:14:45,960 --> 00:14:48,680 BASED ON A 45-MINUTE LECTURE. 422 00:14:48,680 --> 00:14:51,920 WHAT IS SO IRONIC ABOUT THAT IS 423 00:14:51,920 --> 00:14:54,240 FOR ME, THAT EXPERIENCE IN THAT 424 00:14:54,240 --> 00:15:01,760 BIOCHEMISTRY CLASS WAS TRANSF 425 00:15:01,760 --> 00:15:02,400 TRANSFORMATIVE THE PROFESSOR 426 00:15:02,400 --> 00:15:05,240 SAID IF YOU NEVER HAD BIOKENNEL 427 00:15:05,240 --> 00:15:06,880 INDUSTRY BEFORE YOU ARE LIKELY 428 00:15:06,880 --> 00:15:07,520 TO STRUGGLE AND I SHRUNK UNDER 429 00:15:07,520 --> 00:15:09,080 MY SEAT BECAUSE I ASSUMED 430 00:15:09,080 --> 00:15:10,960 EVERYBODY ELSE HAD A 431 00:15:10,960 --> 00:15:11,480 BIOCHEMISTRY COURSE. 432 00:15:11,480 --> 00:15:13,200 MANY OF THEM DID IN FACT, AND 433 00:15:13,200 --> 00:15:15,240 THIS WAS THE FIRST TIME I 434 00:15:15,240 --> 00:15:17,920 APPRECIATED WHAT IMPOSTER FEARS 435 00:15:17,920 --> 00:15:18,120 WERE. 436 00:15:18,120 --> 00:15:20,640 AND THIS WAS A REALLY IMPORTANT 437 00:15:20,640 --> 00:15:23,120 THING FOR ME TO LOOK BACK ON 438 00:15:23,120 --> 00:15:23,720 THIS. 439 00:15:23,720 --> 00:15:26,200 AS I STARTED DOING MUCH MORE 440 00:15:26,200 --> 00:15:27,160 TEACHING, AND ADMINISTRATION AND 441 00:15:27,160 --> 00:15:30,120 THE WORK I DO AT NIH. 442 00:15:30,120 --> 00:15:32,360 I WANT TO SAY ONE REALLY 443 00:15:32,360 --> 00:15:34,720 IMPORTANT THING ABOUT ALL OF 444 00:15:34,720 --> 00:15:36,200 THIS EXPERIENCE AND THAT IS HOW 445 00:15:36,200 --> 00:15:39,360 MUCH I STRUGGLED. 446 00:15:39,360 --> 00:15:40,880 IN UNDERGRADUATE FOR NOT DEALING 447 00:15:40,880 --> 00:15:44,040 WITH ALL OF THE TOUGH ISSUES 448 00:15:44,040 --> 00:15:48,200 THAT COME WITH MY EXPLORATION OF 449 00:15:48,200 --> 00:15:52,160 MY LACK OF DESIRE TO BE AN 450 00:15:52,160 --> 00:15:52,520 ORTHODOX JEW. 451 00:15:52,520 --> 00:15:55,120 SO I STRUGGLED A LOT WITH NOT 452 00:15:55,120 --> 00:15:56,880 SEEKING SUPPORT, NOT GETTING 453 00:15:56,880 --> 00:15:59,720 RESOURCES AND SELF MEDICATING 454 00:15:59,720 --> 00:16:02,800 WITH ALCOHOL. 455 00:16:02,800 --> 00:16:03,720 I BROUGHT SOME OF THOSE HARD 456 00:16:03,720 --> 00:16:04,480 MOMENTS WITH ME TO GRAD SCHOOL, 457 00:16:04,480 --> 00:16:06,880 AND ON TOP OF JUST THE ISSUES 458 00:16:06,880 --> 00:16:08,800 THAT I NEEDED TO DEAL WITH IN MY 459 00:16:08,800 --> 00:16:11,640 LIFE, CAME THE ISSUES OF FEELING 460 00:16:11,640 --> 00:16:13,440 LIKE A LITTLE BIT OF AN 461 00:16:13,440 --> 00:16:13,680 IMPOSTER. 462 00:16:13,680 --> 00:16:16,280 AND I KNOW SO MANY OF YOU TALK 463 00:16:16,280 --> 00:16:17,800 WITH ME ABOUT IMPOSTER FEARS. 464 00:16:17,800 --> 00:16:21,160 AND IT REALLY DOES RESONATE FOR 465 00:16:21,160 --> 00:16:21,320 ME. 466 00:16:21,320 --> 00:16:26,120 AND I REALLY GO BACK TO THIS 467 00:16:26,120 --> 00:16:27,560 CRAZY LONG-HAIRED PERSON POPPING 468 00:16:27,560 --> 00:16:29,960 PANCREATIC ISLETS OUT OF 469 00:16:29,960 --> 00:16:30,480 ANGLERFISH. 470 00:16:30,480 --> 00:16:32,520 NOW I FULLY INTENDED AFTER 471 00:16:32,520 --> 00:16:34,000 GRADUATE SCHOOL TO GO BACK TO 472 00:16:34,000 --> 00:16:35,080 PHYSICAL THERAPY. 473 00:16:35,080 --> 00:16:37,480 AS YOU CAN IMAGINE, PANCREATIC 474 00:16:37,480 --> 00:16:39,520 ILIT HORMONE SECRETION WAS NOT 475 00:16:39,520 --> 00:16:41,320 VIEWED AS GREAT PREPARATION FOR 476 00:16:41,320 --> 00:16:43,320 FACULTY POSITION IN PHYSICAL 477 00:16:43,320 --> 00:16:45,160 THERAPY OR TO GO BACK AND TREAT 478 00:16:45,160 --> 00:16:45,440 PATIENTS. 479 00:16:45,440 --> 00:16:47,320 BY THEN I JUST COULDN'T IMAGINE 480 00:16:47,320 --> 00:16:47,480 IT. 481 00:16:47,480 --> 00:16:50,480 SO I DECIDED TO DO A 482 00:16:50,480 --> 00:16:50,960 POSTDOCTORAL FELLOWSHIP. 483 00:16:50,960 --> 00:16:52,480 I WENT TO A LAB AT JOHNS 484 00:16:52,480 --> 00:16:52,720 HOPKINS. 485 00:16:52,720 --> 00:16:54,600 WE CALLED OURSELVES THE 486 00:16:54,600 --> 00:16:55,120 NEUROPEPTIDE LAB. 487 00:16:55,120 --> 00:16:57,440 AND IT REALLY FELT A LOT LIKE 488 00:16:57,440 --> 00:16:57,920 THIS. 489 00:16:57,920 --> 00:17:00,000 THIS WAS US AT OUR ANNUAL TEAM 490 00:17:00,000 --> 00:17:01,160 BUILDING EVENT. 491 00:17:01,160 --> 00:17:03,040 BUT TO BE HONEST, I FELT LIKE WE 492 00:17:03,040 --> 00:17:06,160 WERE IN WHITE WATER RAPIDS A LOT 493 00:17:06,160 --> 00:17:06,440 OF THE TIME. 494 00:17:06,440 --> 00:17:10,320 IT WAS INCREDIBLY EXCITING LIKE 495 00:17:10,320 --> 00:17:13,240 WHITE WATER RAPIDS ARE, AND 496 00:17:13,240 --> 00:17:14,840 INCREDIBLY INTENSE LIKE THEY 497 00:17:14,840 --> 00:17:15,680 ALSO ARE. 498 00:17:15,680 --> 00:17:18,000 IRONICALLY RIGHT HERE IS A 499 00:17:18,000 --> 00:17:19,840 COLLEAGUE WHO WAS A POSTDOC WITH 500 00:17:19,840 --> 00:17:21,560 ME AND WE JUST RECONNECTED. 501 00:17:21,560 --> 00:17:23,680 SHE WAS AT SOME WEBINAR I WAS 502 00:17:23,680 --> 00:17:23,960 GIVING. 503 00:17:23,960 --> 00:17:27,480 SHE IS AN NIH PROGRAM OFFICER 504 00:17:27,480 --> 00:17:27,680 NOW. 505 00:17:27,680 --> 00:17:29,280 WE ARE ACTUALLY GETTING -- WE 506 00:17:29,280 --> 00:17:31,040 WERE HOPING TO GET-TOGETHER TO 507 00:17:31,040 --> 00:17:34,480 CELEBRATE THE RETIREMENT OF THE 508 00:17:34,480 --> 00:17:35,440 HEADS OF THE NEUROPEPTIDE LAB, 509 00:17:35,440 --> 00:17:36,960 PANDEMIC GOT IN THE WAY. 510 00:17:36,960 --> 00:17:39,760 FOR ME, THIS WAS A PIVOTAL 511 00:17:39,760 --> 00:17:41,600 EXPERIENCE BECAUSE MOLECULAR 512 00:17:41,600 --> 00:17:43,960 BIOLOGY WAS JUST STARTING. 513 00:17:43,960 --> 00:17:46,320 YOU KNOW, NOW IT'S HARD TO 514 00:17:46,320 --> 00:17:47,680 BELIEVE THAT IT WAS ACTUALLY 515 00:17:47,680 --> 00:17:50,880 HARD TO DO SITE-DIRECTED 516 00:17:50,880 --> 00:17:53,440 MUTAGENESIS OR TO LOCATE A GENE. 517 00:17:53,440 --> 00:17:54,040 WE HAVE SO MANY TOOLS. 518 00:17:54,040 --> 00:17:56,680 BUT THIS WAS KETTING EDGE AT 519 00:17:56,680 --> 00:17:57,640 THIS TIME. 520 00:17:57,640 --> 00:17:59,280 AND I LEARNED A COUPLE OF REALLY 521 00:17:59,280 --> 00:18:00,320 IMPORTANT THINGS HERE. 522 00:18:00,320 --> 00:18:03,600 SO FIRST AND FOREMOST, THE 523 00:18:03,600 --> 00:18:06,640 NEUROPEPTIDE LAB WAS RUN BY TWO 524 00:18:06,640 --> 00:18:09,760 PEOPLE, BETTY OWNERSHIPPER AND 525 00:18:09,760 --> 00:18:11,000 DICK MANES, WHO WERE HUSBAND AND 526 00:18:11,000 --> 00:18:12,440 WIFE OUTSIDE OF SCIENCE. 527 00:18:12,440 --> 00:18:15,400 BETTY WAS ONE OF THE FIRST 528 00:18:15,400 --> 00:18:17,760 REALLY STRONG FEMALE ROLE MODELS 529 00:18:17,760 --> 00:18:19,000 THAT I HAD. 530 00:18:19,000 --> 00:18:21,600 THERE WERE NOT VERY MANY FEMALE 531 00:18:21,600 --> 00:18:25,040 FACULTY AT EMORY WHEN I WAS A 532 00:18:25,040 --> 00:18:25,440 GRADUATE STUDENT. 533 00:18:25,440 --> 00:18:28,040 AND I DIDN'T HAVE A LOT OF ROLE 534 00:18:28,040 --> 00:18:30,080 MODELS IN MY PERSONAL LIFE 535 00:18:30,080 --> 00:18:33,840 BECAUSE THE PRESSURE ON ORTHODOX 536 00:18:33,840 --> 00:18:36,920 GIRLS IS TO QUICKLY GET MARRIED, 537 00:18:36,920 --> 00:18:39,760 START A FAMILY AND WHILE WE TALK 538 00:18:39,760 --> 00:18:42,280 MORE NOW IN THAT COMMUNITY ABOUT 539 00:18:42,280 --> 00:18:43,560 EDUCATION FOR GIRLS, IT WASN'T A 540 00:18:43,560 --> 00:18:45,840 BIG PART OF MY GROWING UP. 541 00:18:45,840 --> 00:18:48,760 SO NUMBER 1, I STARTED TO SEE 542 00:18:48,760 --> 00:18:50,440 THAT YOU COULD BE A REALLY 543 00:18:50,440 --> 00:18:51,320 POWERFUL WOMAN. 544 00:18:51,320 --> 00:18:55,120 NUMBER 2, IS I LEARNED THE POWER 545 00:18:55,120 --> 00:18:56,920 OF MENTORING. 546 00:18:56,920 --> 00:18:59,720 SO THIS IS A GUY NAMED FRED WHO 547 00:18:59,720 --> 00:19:02,960 I HAD NOT HEARD FROM OR HAD ANY 548 00:19:02,960 --> 00:19:05,520 AWARENESS OF WHERE HE WAS FOR 549 00:19:05,520 --> 00:19:05,800 YEARS. 550 00:19:05,800 --> 00:19:08,400 FRED KNOCKED ON THE DOOR OF OUR 551 00:19:08,400 --> 00:19:10,920 LAB AND HE SAID, I NEED A PLACE 552 00:19:10,920 --> 00:19:14,040 TO DO AN INTERNSHIP AND I'M JUST 553 00:19:14,040 --> 00:19:14,280 LOOKING. 554 00:19:14,280 --> 00:19:15,720 IT'S NOT WORKING OUT SO I'M 555 00:19:15,720 --> 00:19:18,280 KNOCKING ON DOORS AND I CAN 556 00:19:18,280 --> 00:19:18,640 START TOMORROW. 557 00:19:18,640 --> 00:19:20,560 AND I DON'T KNOW, FOR WHATEVER 558 00:19:20,560 --> 00:19:22,160 REASON I SAID, YES. 559 00:19:22,160 --> 00:19:23,080 SO FRED AND I WORKED TOGETHER 560 00:19:23,080 --> 00:19:24,360 FOR A LONG TIME. 561 00:19:24,360 --> 00:19:26,600 WE JUST RECONNECTED. 562 00:19:26,600 --> 00:19:28,560 HE IS A PSYCHIATRIST AT JOHNS 563 00:19:28,560 --> 00:19:32,360 HOPKINS AND I WAS LOOKING FOR 564 00:19:32,360 --> 00:19:36,040 SOME INFORMATION ABOUT 565 00:19:36,040 --> 00:19:36,680 PARKINSON'S AND COGNITIVE MENTAL 566 00:19:36,680 --> 00:19:37,800 HEALTH AND COGNITIVE DECLINE AND 567 00:19:37,800 --> 00:19:39,360 HIS NAME CAME UP. 568 00:19:39,360 --> 00:19:42,160 AND HE STILL LOOKS SHOCKINGLY 569 00:19:42,160 --> 00:19:42,680 THE SAME. 570 00:19:42,680 --> 00:19:45,160 THE THIRD THING THAT I LEARNED, 571 00:19:45,160 --> 00:19:46,520 PROBABLY THE THIRD MOST 572 00:19:46,520 --> 00:19:48,600 IMPORTANT THING WAS THE POWER OF 573 00:19:48,600 --> 00:19:51,360 BEING WILLING TO ASK FOR HELP. 574 00:19:51,360 --> 00:19:53,640 SO DOWN HERE IS RICH JOHNSON WHO 575 00:19:53,640 --> 00:19:59,720 WAS OUR RESIDENT AND MOLEC 576 00:19:59,720 --> 00:20:00,200 LABILEGIST. 577 00:20:00,200 --> 00:20:02,440 MUTAGENESIS WAS DIFFICULT, DNA 578 00:20:02,440 --> 00:20:04,280 SEQUENCING WAS DIFFICULT. 579 00:20:04,280 --> 00:20:05,520 THESE WERE ALL TECHNIQUES THAT 580 00:20:05,520 --> 00:20:07,600 WERE HAPPENING BUT STILL HARD TO 581 00:20:07,600 --> 00:20:12,400 DO AND FOR ME, AS A PHYSICAL 582 00:20:12,400 --> 00:20:14,120 THERAPIST, CELL BIOLOGIST THEN 583 00:20:14,120 --> 00:20:16,360 TRAINING IN MOLECULAR BIOLOGY, 584 00:20:16,360 --> 00:20:18,960 THE WILLINGNESS TO ASK FOR HELP 585 00:20:18,960 --> 00:20:22,320 AND HOW GRACIOUSLY HE GAVE HELP 586 00:20:22,320 --> 00:20:23,440 REALLY MATTERED A LOT. 587 00:20:23,440 --> 00:20:26,280 THIS IS AT SOMEBODY'S GOODBYE 588 00:20:26,280 --> 00:20:27,040 PARTY. 589 00:20:27,040 --> 00:20:32,200 SO, MY POSTDOC WAS A TIME WHEN I 590 00:20:32,200 --> 00:20:34,240 REALLY CAME TO APPRECIATE THAT I 591 00:20:34,240 --> 00:20:35,480 MIGHT NOT BE GOING BACK TO 592 00:20:35,480 --> 00:20:36,600 PHYSICAL THERAPY. 593 00:20:36,600 --> 00:20:41,760 IN FACT, I APPLIED FOR A JOB 594 00:20:41,760 --> 00:20:43,280 THAT WAS A JOINT APPOINTMENT 595 00:20:43,280 --> 00:20:44,520 BETWEEN THE ANATOMY DEPARTMENT 596 00:20:44,520 --> 00:20:45,880 AND A PHYSICAL THERAPY 597 00:20:45,880 --> 00:20:46,200 DEPARTMENT. 598 00:20:46,200 --> 00:20:48,720 AND I THOUGHT, THIS JOB IS FOR 599 00:20:48,720 --> 00:20:49,240 ME. 600 00:20:49,240 --> 00:20:51,480 THE ONLY PERSON THEY WANT TO 601 00:20:51,480 --> 00:20:51,760 APPLY IS ME. 602 00:20:51,760 --> 00:20:54,480 SO MUCH SO THAT I SPENT MONEY ON 603 00:20:54,480 --> 00:20:57,520 A FED-EX BECAUSE WE DIDN'T APPLY 604 00:20:57,520 --> 00:20:58,360 ON LINE BACK THEN. 605 00:20:58,360 --> 00:20:59,880 I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE AN E-MAIL 606 00:20:59,880 --> 00:21:00,120 ADDRESS. 607 00:21:00,120 --> 00:21:01,400 I WAS CERTAIN I WAS GOING TO 608 00:21:01,400 --> 00:21:02,880 FED-EX IT AND THEY WERE GOING TO 609 00:21:02,880 --> 00:21:04,240 OPEN IT AND THEY WERE GOING TO 610 00:21:04,240 --> 00:21:04,480 CALL ME. 611 00:21:04,480 --> 00:21:06,240 YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED? 612 00:21:06,240 --> 00:21:06,520 CRICKETS. 613 00:21:06,520 --> 00:21:07,000 NOTHING HAND. 614 00:21:07,000 --> 00:21:09,800 I DIDN'T GET A CALL BECAUSE I 615 00:21:09,800 --> 00:21:12,080 ACTUALLY SORT OF DRIFTED VERY, 616 00:21:12,080 --> 00:21:15,640 VERY FAR AWAY FROM PHYSICAL 617 00:21:15,640 --> 00:21:15,880 THERAPY. 618 00:21:15,880 --> 00:21:17,480 SO I DIDN'T END UP ACTUALLY 619 00:21:17,480 --> 00:21:20,680 GOING BACK TO A PHYSICAL THERAPY 620 00:21:20,680 --> 00:21:20,880 PROGRAM. 621 00:21:20,880 --> 00:21:23,160 I ENDED UP BEING A FACULTY 622 00:21:23,160 --> 00:21:25,480 MEMBER AT UNC CHAPEL HILL. 623 00:21:25,480 --> 00:21:28,720 THIS IS MY VERY FIRST LAB. 624 00:21:28,720 --> 00:21:30,160 THIS IS THE VERY FIRST PIECE OF 625 00:21:30,160 --> 00:21:31,840 EQUIPMENT I BOUGHT. 626 00:21:31,840 --> 00:21:33,520 THIS IS AGAIN NOT FANCY AT THIS 627 00:21:33,520 --> 00:21:36,960 POINT BUT THIS IS A TABLE TOP 628 00:21:36,960 --> 00:21:37,320 ULTRACENTRIFUGE. 629 00:21:37,320 --> 00:21:39,800 IT COST MORE MONEY THAN I EVER 630 00:21:39,800 --> 00:21:41,600 IMAGINED HAVING IN MY LIFE. 631 00:21:41,600 --> 00:21:42,680 AND I HUGGED IT ON MY FIRST DAY. 632 00:21:42,680 --> 00:21:44,400 THERE IS ACTUALLY A PICTURE OF 633 00:21:44,400 --> 00:21:45,720 ME HUGGING IT. 634 00:21:45,720 --> 00:21:49,280 NOW DURING MY POSTDOC, IN 635 00:21:49,280 --> 00:21:51,160 LEARNING ABOUT THE POWER OF 636 00:21:51,160 --> 00:21:53,520 MENTORING AND THE POWER OF 637 00:21:53,520 --> 00:21:55,520 LEARNING FROM OTHERS, WHAT JUST 638 00:21:55,520 --> 00:21:57,200 COMES NATURALLY THERE IS THE 639 00:21:57,200 --> 00:21:58,920 POWER OF COLLABORATION. 640 00:21:58,920 --> 00:22:02,160 AND I THINK THE REASON WHY I WAS 641 00:22:02,160 --> 00:22:07,000 SUCCESSFUL, I AM NOT YOUR 642 00:22:07,000 --> 00:22:07,760 PICTURE-PERFECT SCIENTIST 643 00:22:07,760 --> 00:22:09,480 HEADING TOWARDS AN ACADEMIC 644 00:22:09,480 --> 00:22:10,320 CAREER. 645 00:22:10,320 --> 00:22:11,560 I STARTED BEHIND. 646 00:22:11,560 --> 00:22:13,120 I STAYED BEHIND. 647 00:22:13,120 --> 00:22:15,080 I STRUGGLED THROUGH GRADUATE 648 00:22:15,080 --> 00:22:15,320 SCHOOL. 649 00:22:15,320 --> 00:22:18,040 I TOOK MY QUALIFYING EXAM TWICE. 650 00:22:18,040 --> 00:22:19,400 I APPLIED FOR GRADUATE SCHOOL 651 00:22:19,400 --> 00:22:21,520 TWICE FOR THAT MATTER. 652 00:22:21,520 --> 00:22:25,080 I REALLY WASN'T -- THE PICTURE 653 00:22:25,080 --> 00:22:25,720 ON THE WHEATIES BOX OF WHO WAS 654 00:22:25,720 --> 00:22:27,880 GOING TO SUCCEED IN SCIENCE. 655 00:22:27,880 --> 00:22:29,520 BUT IT WAS THIS, THE POWER OF 656 00:22:29,520 --> 00:22:29,880 COLLABORATION. 657 00:22:29,880 --> 00:22:33,360 SO I HAD 10 PAPERS, 40% WERE 658 00:22:33,360 --> 00:22:35,400 COLLABORATIVE PAPERS WITH OTHER 659 00:22:35,400 --> 00:22:36,960 POSTDOCS WITH GRAD STUDENTS, 660 00:22:36,960 --> 00:22:37,600 WITH FRED. 661 00:22:37,600 --> 00:22:40,000 HE ENDED UP IN A NEIGHBORING LAB 662 00:22:40,000 --> 00:22:41,520 BUT WORKING WITH US. 663 00:22:41,520 --> 00:22:44,800 AND THEN THROUGH OTHER KINDS OF 664 00:22:44,800 --> 00:22:46,040 COLLABORATIONS. 665 00:22:46,040 --> 00:22:49,040 AND THAT FOLLOWED ME INTO MY 666 00:22:49,040 --> 00:22:50,280 FACULTY POSITION. 667 00:22:50,280 --> 00:22:55,320 EARLY ON IN MY TIME AT U IN. 668 00:22:55,320 --> 00:22:58,280 C, SOMEBODY WAS CHATTING WITH ME 669 00:22:58,280 --> 00:22:59,200 OUTSIDE -- UNC. 670 00:22:59,200 --> 00:23:01,280 I GUESS SHE WAS WAITING ON THE 671 00:23:01,280 --> 00:23:02,160 CENTRIFUGE OR WAITING TO USING 672 00:23:02,160 --> 00:23:04,520 THE BALANCE, AND I WAS TALKING 673 00:23:04,520 --> 00:23:06,840 ABOUT MY INTEREST IN HOW 674 00:23:06,840 --> 00:23:07,760 PROTEINS MOVE THROUGH CELLS AND 675 00:23:07,760 --> 00:23:10,320 SHE WAS A COLLEGE STUDENT 676 00:23:10,320 --> 00:23:11,600 TALKING ABOUT HER INTERESTS, AND 677 00:23:11,600 --> 00:23:13,320 THEN SHE SAID SOMETHING I'M NOT 678 00:23:13,320 --> 00:23:15,720 QUITE SURE EXACTLY WHAT LED TO 679 00:23:15,720 --> 00:23:17,400 WHAT, BUT SHE SAID, YOU SHOULD 680 00:23:17,400 --> 00:23:19,160 MEET MY DAD. 681 00:23:19,160 --> 00:23:20,600 AND I SAID, OH, WHO IS HE? 682 00:23:20,600 --> 00:23:23,720 SHE SAID HE WORKS AT THE UNC 683 00:23:23,720 --> 00:23:25,640 CYSTIC FIBROSIS CENTER. 684 00:23:25,640 --> 00:23:28,240 AND MY OPENNESS TO COLLABORATION 685 00:23:28,240 --> 00:23:31,680 AS WELL AS THEIR OPENNESS TO 686 00:23:31,680 --> 00:23:35,160 COLLABORATION LED TO 13 YEARS, 687 00:23:35,160 --> 00:23:38,440 AMAZING SET OF COLLABORATIONS 688 00:23:38,440 --> 00:23:41,160 WITH CLINICIANS AND BASIC 689 00:23:41,160 --> 00:23:43,640 SCIENTISTS AT THE UNC CYSTIC 690 00:23:43,640 --> 00:23:44,200 FIBROSIS CENTER. 691 00:23:44,200 --> 00:23:47,760 I HAD NEVER WORKED ON CYSTIC 692 00:23:47,760 --> 00:23:48,280 FIBROSIS BEFORE. 693 00:23:48,280 --> 00:23:50,320 I HAD TO READ ABOUT WHAT IT WAS. 694 00:23:50,320 --> 00:23:52,000 SO AND THAT IS A THEME, RIGHT? 695 00:23:52,000 --> 00:23:53,640 I TOOK A CLASS. 696 00:23:53,640 --> 00:23:55,360 SOMEBODY TALKED ABOUT INSULIN 697 00:23:55,360 --> 00:23:57,280 AND I CHANGED MY DIRECTION. 698 00:23:57,280 --> 00:23:58,480 I MET SOMEBODY. 699 00:23:58,480 --> 00:24:00,120 I TALKED ABOUT CYSTIC FIBROSIS, 700 00:24:00,120 --> 00:24:02,560 I READ ABOUT IT, LEARNED ABOUT 701 00:24:02,560 --> 00:24:03,680 IT AND CHANGED DIRECTION. 702 00:24:03,680 --> 00:24:07,440 I THINK IT IS ONE OF THE THINGS 703 00:24:07,440 --> 00:24:09,520 THAT MAKES ME LOVE SCIENCE SO 704 00:24:09,520 --> 00:24:09,920 MUCH. 705 00:24:09,920 --> 00:24:13,480 I CONTINUE COLLABORATING AS A 706 00:24:13,480 --> 00:24:14,520 FACULTY MEMBER. 707 00:24:14,520 --> 00:24:16,520 OVER HALF OF MY PUBLICATIONS 708 00:24:16,520 --> 00:24:19,160 WERE SUBSTANTIAL COLLABORATIONS 709 00:24:19,160 --> 00:24:20,480 WITH NEIGHBORING LABS, WITH 710 00:24:20,480 --> 00:24:22,160 COLLEAGUES AT OTHER U.S. 711 00:24:22,160 --> 00:24:23,320 INSTITUTIONS ACROSS THE GLOBE. 712 00:24:23,320 --> 00:24:26,840 MANY OF THEM LED BY MY STUDENTS 713 00:24:26,840 --> 00:24:27,360 AND POSTDOCS. 714 00:24:27,360 --> 00:24:31,520 YOU HAVE REMARKABLE POWER TO 715 00:24:31,520 --> 00:24:33,760 DRIVE YOUR PI OR YOUR FACULTY 716 00:24:33,760 --> 00:24:36,120 MENTOR IN NEW DIRECTIONS. 717 00:24:36,120 --> 00:24:39,280 SOME OF THESE WERE 718 00:24:39,280 --> 00:24:41,200 TRANSFORMATIVE FOR ME. 719 00:24:41,200 --> 00:24:44,280 BUT IT WAS ALL DRIVEN BY 720 00:24:44,280 --> 00:24:44,600 COLLABORATION. 721 00:24:44,600 --> 00:24:46,240 SOMETHING ELSE THAT I LEARNED AS 722 00:24:46,240 --> 00:24:50,760 A FACULTY MEMBER WAS THAT MY 723 00:24:50,760 --> 00:24:52,760 MOOD OFTEN DROVE THE MOOD OF THE 724 00:24:52,760 --> 00:24:53,120 LAB. 725 00:24:53,120 --> 00:24:57,400 THAT WHEN I WAS ON TOP OF MY 726 00:24:57,400 --> 00:25:00,600 GAME, WHEN I WAS CALMLY 727 00:25:00,600 --> 00:25:01,200 RESPONDING TO THINGS, SO WERE 728 00:25:01,200 --> 00:25:01,600 PEOPLE IN MY GROUP. 729 00:25:01,600 --> 00:25:04,440 AND THESE ARE SOME FOLKS IN MY 730 00:25:04,440 --> 00:25:06,040 GROUP, VARIOUS TRADITIONS WE 731 00:25:06,040 --> 00:25:06,760 DEVELOPED IN OUR LAB. 732 00:25:06,760 --> 00:25:10,200 ONE WAS CELEBRATING PAPERS BY A 733 00:25:10,200 --> 00:25:11,520 TRIP TO BEN & JERRY'S. 734 00:25:11,520 --> 00:25:15,600 SOME OF YOU MAY KNOW DR. YOI, 735 00:25:15,600 --> 00:25:17,720 THIS IS HER IN HER EARLY DAYS. 736 00:25:17,720 --> 00:25:20,960 I WAS HONORED TO HAVE HER AS A 737 00:25:20,960 --> 00:25:22,920 ROTATION STUDENT WHEN SHE 738 00:25:22,920 --> 00:25:24,240 STARTED HER MDP HAD. 739 00:25:24,240 --> 00:25:25,080 D PROGRAM. 740 00:25:25,080 --> 00:25:27,160 SHE IS AN NCI FACULTY MEMBER NOW 741 00:25:27,160 --> 00:25:27,600 YOU. 742 00:25:27,600 --> 00:25:30,960 WE STARTED DOING A SUMMER 743 00:25:30,960 --> 00:25:31,360 ACTIVITY TOGETHER. 744 00:25:31,360 --> 00:25:33,520 THIS WAS A CRAZY ONE WHERE WE 745 00:25:33,520 --> 00:25:36,400 WENT TO LAKE JORDAN. 746 00:25:36,400 --> 00:25:37,280 WE WOULD HOST STUDENTS FROM 747 00:25:37,280 --> 00:25:38,480 VARIOUS COLLEGES. 748 00:25:38,480 --> 00:25:41,320 THIS WAS CELEBRATING FORT LEWIS 749 00:25:41,320 --> 00:25:43,240 COLLEGE, A COLLEGE IN DURANGO 750 00:25:43,240 --> 00:25:43,880 COLORADO. 751 00:25:43,880 --> 00:25:49,000 MOST OF US HERE ARE WEARING FORT 752 00:25:49,000 --> 00:25:50,040 LEWIS T-SHIRTS WE HAD A GREAT 753 00:25:50,040 --> 00:25:51,280 IMPORTANT TRADITION THAT THE 754 00:25:51,280 --> 00:25:52,120 GR STUDENTS MADE A CAKE 755 00:25:52,120 --> 00:25:54,520 FOR THE GRADUATE STUDENT WHO 756 00:25:54,520 --> 00:25:54,800 DEFENDED. 757 00:25:54,800 --> 00:25:57,240 THIS IS THE EPITHELIAL SODIUM 758 00:25:57,240 --> 00:25:57,480 CHANNEL. 759 00:25:57,480 --> 00:25:57,920 HERE IS THE PORT. 760 00:25:57,920 --> 00:26:00,160 IT HAS MULTIPLE SUBUNITS. 761 00:26:00,160 --> 00:26:05,600 AND ALL OF OUR CAKES HAD TO BE 762 00:26:05,600 --> 00:26:05,960 SCIENCE-THEMED. 763 00:26:05,960 --> 00:26:08,000 THIS WAS A TIME WHEN I REALIZED 764 00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:10,600 THAT WHEN I WAS TOO DRIVEN, I 765 00:26:10,600 --> 00:26:12,920 WASN'T THE BEST OF BOSSES OR 766 00:26:12,920 --> 00:26:13,480 MENTORS. 767 00:26:13,480 --> 00:26:18,080 THIS IS REALLY WHEN I GAINED AN 768 00:26:18,080 --> 00:26:20,000 APPRECIATION FOR THE POWER OF 769 00:26:20,000 --> 00:26:22,280 WHAT IT MEANS TO MODEL GOOD 770 00:26:22,280 --> 00:26:23,520 BEHAVIOR. 771 00:26:23,520 --> 00:26:25,880 WHAT IT MEANS TO LEARN TO 772 00:26:25,880 --> 00:26:29,160 SUPPORT OTHERS IN THE GROUP. 773 00:26:29,160 --> 00:26:30,600 I FIND IT UNBELIEVABLE THAT I 774 00:26:30,600 --> 00:26:33,880 HAD NEVER HAD A SINGLE 775 00:26:33,880 --> 00:26:35,480 MANAGEMENT WORKSHOP AND I WAS 776 00:26:35,480 --> 00:26:36,120 RUNNING A GROUP. 777 00:26:36,120 --> 00:26:38,200 THESE ARE LIKE PEOPLE WHO 778 00:26:38,200 --> 00:26:38,560 MATTER, RIGHT? 779 00:26:38,560 --> 00:26:42,840 AND WHEN I BEHAVE POORLY, THAT 780 00:26:42,840 --> 00:26:44,640 POOR BEHAVIOR RUNS DOWNHILL. 781 00:26:44,640 --> 00:26:48,640 AND SO, THIS WAS A 782 00:26:48,640 --> 00:26:49,200 TRANSFORMATIVE EXPERIENCE 783 00:26:49,200 --> 00:26:51,440 BECAUSE I CAME TO NIH WITH A 784 00:26:51,440 --> 00:26:52,320 DESIRE TO CHANGE THIS. 785 00:26:52,320 --> 00:26:55,280 I CAME TO NIH IN 2007. 786 00:26:55,280 --> 00:26:57,200 I WORK IN THE OFFICE OF THE 787 00:26:57,200 --> 00:26:57,480 DIRECTOR. 788 00:26:57,480 --> 00:27:00,040 I ANSWER DIRECTLY TO THE DEPUTY 789 00:27:00,040 --> 00:27:00,800 DIRECTOR FOR INTRAMURAL 790 00:27:00,800 --> 00:27:01,240 RESEARCH. 791 00:27:01,240 --> 00:27:03,640 I CAME WITH MY LAB, MY LAB WAS 792 00:27:03,640 --> 00:27:07,960 HOUSED IN NHLBI AND NHGRI. 793 00:27:07,960 --> 00:27:12,320 I CLOSED MY LAB AFTER SOME HARD 794 00:27:12,320 --> 00:27:12,920 INTROSPECTION REALIZING I WAS 795 00:27:12,920 --> 00:27:15,400 NOT AS GOOD OF A SCIENTIST AS I 796 00:27:15,400 --> 00:27:17,600 USED TO BE BECAUSE MY ATTENTION 797 00:27:17,600 --> 00:27:19,440 WAS SPLIT TOO MUCH. 798 00:27:19,440 --> 00:27:20,440 AND I HAD ALWAYS SAID, IF I 799 00:27:20,440 --> 00:27:24,000 COULDN'T DO SCIENCE AT THE LEVEL 800 00:27:24,000 --> 00:27:24,560 I WANTED TO DO IT, THEN I'M 801 00:27:24,560 --> 00:27:25,880 GOING TO WALK AWAY. 802 00:27:25,880 --> 00:27:27,720 AND SO I DECIDED TO CLOSE MY LAB 803 00:27:27,720 --> 00:27:30,920 AND DEDICATE MYSELF FULLY TO THE 804 00:27:30,920 --> 00:27:31,160 OITE. 805 00:27:31,160 --> 00:27:34,120 I HAVE TWO REALLY IMPORTANT 806 00:27:34,120 --> 00:27:35,880 HIDDEN IDENTITIES THAT SHAPE IN 807 00:27:35,880 --> 00:27:37,360 SOME WAYS MY WORK HERE. 808 00:27:37,360 --> 00:27:39,480 AND THE FIRST IS THAT I AM ONE 809 00:27:39,480 --> 00:27:45,040 OF THE MANY MILLIONS OF LGBTQ 810 00:27:45,040 --> 00:27:46,360 AMERICANS OR MEMBERS OF THE 811 00:27:46,360 --> 00:27:48,600 GLOBAL LGBTQ COMMUNITY. 812 00:27:48,600 --> 00:27:49,600 THAT IS MY WIFE. 813 00:27:49,600 --> 00:27:52,600 HER NAME, BY THE WAYZ, IS ALSO 814 00:27:52,600 --> 00:27:52,840 SHARON. 815 00:27:52,840 --> 00:27:56,960 SO SHE THANKFULLY GOES BY THE 816 00:27:56,960 --> 00:27:57,280 NICKNAME WREN. 817 00:27:57,280 --> 00:27:58,280 BUT IT'S CONVENIENCE BECAUSE OUR 818 00:27:58,280 --> 00:28:00,800 FRIENDS CAN SAY THEY ARE GOING 819 00:28:00,800 --> 00:28:02,000 TO GET-TOGETHER WITH THE 820 00:28:02,000 --> 00:28:02,240 SHARONS. 821 00:28:02,240 --> 00:28:04,800 THIS PROBABLY IS THE MOST 822 00:28:04,800 --> 00:28:05,480 IMPORTANT OF MY HIDDEN 823 00:28:05,480 --> 00:28:06,160 IDENTITIES. 824 00:28:06,160 --> 00:28:08,840 SO I'M THE WHITE PRIVILEGED 825 00:28:08,840 --> 00:28:11,120 MOTHER OF A BLACK MAN. 826 00:28:11,120 --> 00:28:13,600 THIS IS HIM A LOT YOUNGER. 827 00:28:13,600 --> 00:28:15,400 HE HAS GROWN AND AS I SAID 828 00:28:15,400 --> 00:28:17,240 EARLIER, HE HAS MOVED AWAY RIGHT 829 00:28:17,240 --> 00:28:21,960 AT THE START OF THE PANDEMIC. 830 00:28:21,960 --> 00:28:25,400 TO BE A PERSON WHO CARRIES A 831 00:28:25,400 --> 00:28:27,480 TREMENDOUS AMOUNT OF WHITE 832 00:28:27,480 --> 00:28:30,520 PRIVILEGE AND TO LOVE SO DEEPLY, 833 00:28:30,520 --> 00:28:35,080 A BLACK PERSON, IS FOR ME, A 834 00:28:35,080 --> 00:28:37,520 DRIVER EVERY DAY. 835 00:28:37,520 --> 00:28:42,560 I JUST CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH HOW 836 00:28:42,560 --> 00:28:46,720 MUCH AWARENESS THIS GIVES ME 837 00:28:46,720 --> 00:28:49,600 ABOUT MY RESPONSIBILITY TO DO 838 00:28:49,600 --> 00:28:51,120 BETTER IN THIS WORLD. 839 00:28:51,120 --> 00:28:53,560 YOU KNOW, I LOOK AT WONDER. 840 00:28:53,560 --> 00:28:54,480 HIS NAME IS WONDER. 841 00:28:54,480 --> 00:28:55,800 AND YES, HE IS A WONDER. 842 00:28:55,800 --> 00:28:59,840 I LOOK AT WONDER AND I SEE 843 00:28:59,840 --> 00:29:00,440 INFINITE POSSIBILITY BUT I'M 844 00:29:00,440 --> 00:29:02,880 WELL AWARE THAT NOT EVERYBODY 845 00:29:02,880 --> 00:29:03,400 DOES. 846 00:29:03,400 --> 00:29:05,080 AND I THINK THAT OF EVERYTHING 847 00:29:05,080 --> 00:29:08,600 THAT I DO IN MY WORK, IT IS 848 00:29:08,600 --> 00:29:12,680 BEING AN ALLY FOR MEMBERS OF 849 00:29:12,680 --> 00:29:14,720 MARGINALIZED COMMUNITIES THAT 850 00:29:14,720 --> 00:29:16,000 MATTERS THE MOST. 851 00:29:16,000 --> 00:29:19,080 I BENEFIT GREATLY FROM ALLIES. 852 00:29:19,080 --> 00:29:21,400 THE REASON GAY MARRIAGE EXISTS 853 00:29:21,400 --> 00:29:22,720 IN THIS COUNTRY IS BECAUSE OF 854 00:29:22,720 --> 00:29:24,720 THE WORK OF ALLIES. 855 00:29:24,720 --> 00:29:26,480 AND SO, I BENEFIT GREATLY FROM 856 00:29:26,480 --> 00:29:30,640 THE WORK OF ALLIES AND I HAVE AN 857 00:29:30,640 --> 00:29:34,360 INTENSE RESPONSIBILITY TO BE A 858 00:29:34,360 --> 00:29:34,640 GOOD ALLY. 859 00:29:34,640 --> 00:29:37,880 HERE AT NIH I DO A LOT, MORE 860 00:29:37,880 --> 00:29:39,240 THAN I EVER IMAGINED I DO. 861 00:29:39,240 --> 00:29:41,520 A HUGE AMOUNT OF ADMINISTRATIVE 862 00:29:41,520 --> 00:29:42,080 WORK. 863 00:29:42,080 --> 00:29:42,600 NOT MY FAVORITE PART. 864 00:29:42,600 --> 00:29:43,920 I TEACH A LOT. 865 00:29:43,920 --> 00:29:47,640 I USED TO GO TO MEETINGS AND 866 00:29:47,640 --> 00:29:49,280 RECRUIT IN PERSON. 867 00:29:49,280 --> 00:29:51,000 I HELP RUN PROGRAMS. 868 00:29:51,000 --> 00:29:53,000 I SPEND A LOT OF TIME WITH 869 00:29:53,000 --> 00:29:54,000 TRAINEES. 870 00:29:54,000 --> 00:29:58,000 THIS IS ME WITH A GROUP OF 871 00:29:58,000 --> 00:30:00,960 POSTBACS AT THE -- WHICH MUSEUM? 872 00:30:00,960 --> 00:30:01,600 THE PORTRAIT GALLERY WE USED TO 873 00:30:01,600 --> 00:30:03,440 DO A TRICK ONCE A YEAR TO 874 00:30:03,440 --> 00:30:06,040 EXPLORE IDENTITY THROUGH ART AT 875 00:30:06,040 --> 00:30:07,160 THE PORTRAIT GALLERY. 876 00:30:07,160 --> 00:30:10,760 HERE, BY THE WAY, IS A MEMBER OF 877 00:30:10,760 --> 00:30:12,880 FRED'S GROUP AND AMEN TEE THAT 878 00:30:12,880 --> 00:30:15,480 I'M PROUD TO ALSO CALL ONE OF MY 879 00:30:15,480 --> 00:30:16,080 MENTORS. 880 00:30:16,080 --> 00:30:17,360 HERE IS JOSE. 881 00:30:17,360 --> 00:30:18,720 MANY OF YOU KNOW HIM. 882 00:30:18,720 --> 00:30:20,160 I HAVE SPENT A LOT OF TIME 883 00:30:20,160 --> 00:30:22,800 DURING THE PANDEMIC ON LINE, 884 00:30:22,800 --> 00:30:24,240 WITH VARIOUS GROUPS -- THIS IS 885 00:30:24,240 --> 00:30:25,320 OUR DOG. 886 00:30:25,320 --> 00:30:27,920 WE HAVE A DOG AND A CAT. 887 00:30:27,920 --> 00:30:29,680 SO I'LL GIVE HIM SOME TREATS. 888 00:30:29,680 --> 00:30:32,440 SO MY JOB IS EVERYTHING FROM 889 00:30:32,440 --> 00:30:34,800 DEALING WITH ISSUES FOR AN 890 00:30:34,800 --> 00:30:36,320 INDIVIDUAL STUDENT, TO LOOKING 891 00:30:36,320 --> 00:30:38,440 AT SYSTEMS AND SAYING, WHAT IS 892 00:30:38,440 --> 00:30:41,800 WRONG WITH THIS? 893 00:30:41,800 --> 00:30:43,080 AND THAT BRINGS ME TO WHAT IS 894 00:30:43,080 --> 00:30:44,280 MY -- THE THING THAT I HAVE TO 895 00:30:44,280 --> 00:30:46,720 KEEP WORKING ON? 896 00:30:46,720 --> 00:30:49,160 SO I CAME TO DECIDE THAT THE 897 00:30:49,160 --> 00:30:52,800 REASON THAT I COULDN'T LET GO OF 898 00:30:52,800 --> 00:30:55,200 THIS EAR WORM IS THAT IT'S 899 00:30:55,200 --> 00:30:55,680 TELLING ME SOMETHING. 900 00:30:55,680 --> 00:30:57,400 ONE OF THE NICE THINGS ABOUT 901 00:30:57,400 --> 00:30:59,280 BEING RAISED AS A ORTHODOX JEW 902 00:30:59,280 --> 00:31:02,200 IS YOU LEARN THIS IDEA ABOUT 903 00:31:02,200 --> 00:31:03,520 INTERPRETING ANCIENT TEXT, WHICH 904 00:31:03,520 --> 00:31:05,680 IS, WE EACH IN TERNITY IT WITHIN 905 00:31:05,680 --> 00:31:09,040 THE CONTEXT OF THE RELIGION -- 906 00:31:09,040 --> 00:31:10,680 INTERPRET IT -- WE ALSO GET TO 907 00:31:10,680 --> 00:31:13,840 INTERPRET IT WITHIN OUR OWN 908 00:31:13,840 --> 00:31:14,080 MEANING. 909 00:31:14,080 --> 00:31:15,080 I HAVE DECIDED THAT THIS EAR 910 00:31:15,080 --> 00:31:18,760 WORM IS DRIVING FOR ME, THE 911 00:31:18,760 --> 00:31:21,400 THING THAT I HAVE TO KEEP 912 00:31:21,400 --> 00:31:22,160 WORKING ON. 913 00:31:22,160 --> 00:31:25,840 AND THAT COMES BACK TO SOME OF 914 00:31:25,840 --> 00:31:27,720 THE COMMENTS THAT I MADE OF 915 00:31:27,720 --> 00:31:29,120 APPRECIATING THE IMPORTANCE OF 916 00:31:29,120 --> 00:31:31,160 MENTORING, THE IMPORTANCE OF 917 00:31:31,160 --> 00:31:34,560 COMMUNITY, THE IMPORTANCE OF 918 00:31:34,560 --> 00:31:37,000 BEING A TEACHER, BUT ALSO BEING 919 00:31:37,000 --> 00:31:38,120 A LIFELONG LEARNER. 920 00:31:38,120 --> 00:31:42,640 AND SOME OF IT IS TIED TO THESE 921 00:31:42,640 --> 00:31:44,040 HEADLINES, WHICH TO ME, ARE 922 00:31:44,040 --> 00:31:47,040 REALLY DEVASTATING. 923 00:31:47,040 --> 00:31:49,640 WE OWE STUDENTS BETTER THAN 924 00:31:49,640 --> 00:31:49,880 THIS. 925 00:31:49,880 --> 00:31:52,960 YOU SHOULD NOT HAVE TO FACE 926 00:31:52,960 --> 00:31:53,600 BURNOUT AND MENTAL HEALTH 927 00:31:53,600 --> 00:31:56,120 PROBLEMS TO BE IN THE BIOMEDICAL 928 00:31:56,120 --> 00:31:57,360 RESEARCH FIELD. 929 00:31:57,360 --> 00:31:59,720 RESEARCHERS FACE SHOCKING LEVELS 930 00:31:59,720 --> 00:32:01,920 OF STRESS, NEARLY TWO-THIRDS OF 931 00:32:01,920 --> 00:32:03,560 THOSE WHO TOOK PART HAD 932 00:32:03,560 --> 00:32:06,320 WITNESSED BULLYING OR 933 00:32:06,320 --> 00:32:06,600 HARASSMENT. 934 00:32:06,600 --> 00:32:09,360 THAT WAS A SURVEY OUT OF THE 935 00:32:09,360 --> 00:32:10,400 EUROPEAN UNION. 936 00:32:10,400 --> 00:32:11,640 ADDRESSING RACISM AND 937 00:32:11,640 --> 00:32:13,920 DISPARITIES IN THE BIOMEDICAL 938 00:32:13,920 --> 00:32:14,200 SCIENCES. 939 00:32:14,200 --> 00:32:16,920 WE HAVE TALKED ABOUT DIVERSITY 940 00:32:16,920 --> 00:32:19,760 FOR SO LONG, YET WE STILL HAVE 941 00:32:19,760 --> 00:32:20,680 ISSUES WE NEED TO ADDRESS. 942 00:32:20,680 --> 00:32:23,800 AND FINALLY, THESE DATA FROM 943 00:32:23,800 --> 00:32:26,080 SOME OF THESE ARTICLES SHOW A 944 00:32:26,080 --> 00:32:29,440 6-FOLD HIGHER RATE OF ANXIETY 945 00:32:29,440 --> 00:32:33,400 AND DEPRESSION IN OUR COMMUNITY. 946 00:32:33,400 --> 00:32:35,520 AND I THINK THE BASE OF THIS, IS 947 00:32:35,520 --> 00:32:37,920 DRIVING THIS EAR WORM FOR ME, IS 948 00:32:37,920 --> 00:32:41,240 THAT I NEED TO HELP CHANGE THAT. 949 00:32:41,240 --> 00:32:43,480 AND IT IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN 950 00:32:43,480 --> 00:32:45,080 REALLY QUICKLY BUT I DON'T HAVE 951 00:32:45,080 --> 00:32:47,600 THE RIGHT TO WALK AWAY. 952 00:32:47,600 --> 00:32:49,080 THAT IS THE EAR WORM. 953 00:32:49,080 --> 00:32:49,440 LET'S BE HONEST. 954 00:32:49,440 --> 00:32:52,920 WE WORK IN A VERY DIFFICULT 955 00:32:52,920 --> 00:32:53,160 SYSTEM. 956 00:32:53,160 --> 00:32:54,800 IT'S HIGH KNOWLEDGE, HIGH 957 00:32:54,800 --> 00:32:55,840 INTENSITY, HIGH STRESS. 958 00:32:55,840 --> 00:32:58,080 IT'S FULL OF SETBACK. 959 00:32:58,080 --> 00:33:00,400 EVEN WHEN WE GET A GRANT OR WE 960 00:33:00,400 --> 00:33:02,080 GET A PAPER ACCEPTED, THERE IS 961 00:33:02,080 --> 00:33:03,840 ALL KINDS OF CRITICISM IN IT. 962 00:33:03,840 --> 00:33:05,520 NOBODY EVER SAYS, GOD, I LOVE 963 00:33:05,520 --> 00:33:06,160 THIS PAPER. 964 00:33:06,160 --> 00:33:09,960 THANK YOU FOR SUBMITTING IT! 965 00:33:09,960 --> 00:33:10,200 PUBLISHED! 966 00:33:10,200 --> 00:33:11,760 WE FACE HEARING CRITICISM ALL 967 00:33:11,760 --> 00:33:12,440 THE TIME. 968 00:33:12,440 --> 00:33:14,080 WE FACE DISAPPOINTMENTS ALL THE 969 00:33:14,080 --> 00:33:14,280 TIME. 970 00:33:14,280 --> 00:33:17,280 AND LET'S BE HONEST, THIS MODEL 971 00:33:17,280 --> 00:33:19,240 WAS SET UP LONG AGO. 972 00:33:19,240 --> 00:33:21,480 AND IT DOESN'T REALLY WORK 973 00:33:21,480 --> 00:33:21,880 ANYMORE. 974 00:33:21,880 --> 00:33:24,560 IT'S TOO HIERARCHAL. 975 00:33:24,560 --> 00:33:26,800 ONE PERSON HOLDS TOO MUCH POWER 976 00:33:26,800 --> 00:33:28,120 FOR SOMEBODY'S PROGRESSION 977 00:33:28,120 --> 00:33:29,000 THROUGH THIS FIELD. 978 00:33:29,000 --> 00:33:31,280 AND WE HEAR ALL KINDS OF 979 00:33:31,280 --> 00:33:32,080 MESSAGES. 980 00:33:32,080 --> 00:33:33,480 FISH DON'T SEE WATER. 981 00:33:33,480 --> 00:33:36,280 SO WE DON'T EVEN NOTICE SOME OF 982 00:33:36,280 --> 00:33:37,040 THESE MESSAGES. 983 00:33:37,040 --> 00:33:40,040 WE SORT OF DON'T HEAR THEM BUT 984 00:33:40,040 --> 00:33:40,920 THEY SEEP IN. 985 00:33:40,920 --> 00:33:43,640 PUBLISH OR PARISH, CRANE RISES 986 00:33:43,640 --> 00:33:45,400 TO THE -- CREAM RISES TO THE 987 00:33:45,400 --> 00:33:45,600 TOP. 988 00:33:45,600 --> 00:33:46,360 GOOD SCIENTISTS ALWAYS THINK 989 00:33:46,360 --> 00:33:47,160 ABOUT SCIENCE. 990 00:33:47,160 --> 00:33:49,160 WE WORK IN A REALLY DIFFICULT 991 00:33:49,160 --> 00:33:49,880 SYSTEM. 992 00:33:49,880 --> 00:33:51,120 AND HERE AT NIH, THERE ARE A LOT 993 00:33:51,120 --> 00:33:53,400 OF SILOS AND A LOT -- IT CAN BE 994 00:33:53,400 --> 00:33:55,600 HARD TO FIND RESOURCES. 995 00:33:55,600 --> 00:33:57,480 NOW WHEN WE THINK ABOUT WHY IT 996 00:33:57,480 --> 00:34:01,000 IS THAT WE HAVE SO MUCH BULLYING 997 00:34:01,000 --> 00:34:02,240 AND HARASSMENT AND 998 00:34:02,240 --> 00:34:03,760 DISCRIMINATION, WHY PEOPLE ARE 999 00:34:03,760 --> 00:34:07,080 ON THE RECEIVING END OF 1000 00:34:07,080 --> 00:34:08,120 MICRO-AGGRESSIONS, WE HAVE TO 1001 00:34:08,120 --> 00:34:09,280 APPRECIATE THAT WITHIN A 1002 00:34:09,280 --> 00:34:11,600 RESEARCH GROUP, THE PI PLAYS A 1003 00:34:11,600 --> 00:34:12,280 MAJOR ROLE. 1004 00:34:12,280 --> 00:34:14,000 IF WE LINE THEM ALL UP, WE GET 1005 00:34:14,000 --> 00:34:19,000 ALL THE WAY FROM REALLY GREAT 1006 00:34:19,000 --> 00:34:20,680 MENTORS TO TOUR MENTORS, PEOPLE 1007 00:34:20,680 --> 00:34:21,240 WHO REALLY BEAT THE LOVE OF 1008 00:34:21,240 --> 00:34:21,960 SCIENCE OUT OF YOU. 1009 00:34:21,960 --> 00:34:23,400 AND ALL OF US HAVE OUR GOOD DAYS 1010 00:34:23,400 --> 00:34:25,360 AND OUR BAD DAYS BUT THERE ARE 1011 00:34:25,360 --> 00:34:28,000 PEOPLE, REALLY STRIVING AND 1012 00:34:28,000 --> 00:34:30,440 TRYING, AND THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO 1013 00:34:30,440 --> 00:34:31,000 AREN'T. 1014 00:34:31,000 --> 00:34:34,080 NOW IT'S NOT JUST THE PI. 1015 00:34:34,080 --> 00:34:35,480 THE WHOLE COMMUNITY MATTERS. 1016 00:34:35,480 --> 00:34:37,920 HOW EACH AND EVERY PERSON IN A 1017 00:34:37,920 --> 00:34:40,320 GROUP TREATS THE OTHERS MATTERS. 1018 00:34:40,320 --> 00:34:41,920 HOW EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US 1019 00:34:41,920 --> 00:34:44,040 WORKS ON OUR OWN BIASES, WORKS 1020 00:34:44,040 --> 00:34:46,720 ON OUR OWN DISCOMFORTS, WORKS ON 1021 00:34:46,720 --> 00:34:48,320 TAKING CARE OF OURSELVES BUT 1022 00:34:48,320 --> 00:34:50,800 ALSO TAKING CARE OF OTHERS. 1023 00:34:50,800 --> 00:34:53,320 SO IT ISN'T JUST THE PI. 1024 00:34:53,320 --> 00:34:55,480 IF WE WISH TO CHANGE THE CULTURE 1025 00:34:55,480 --> 00:34:57,440 OF SCIENCE, EACH AND EVERY ONE 1026 00:34:57,440 --> 00:35:00,040 OF US, FROM THE HIGHEST LEADER 1027 00:35:00,040 --> 00:35:02,800 ALL THE WAY DOWN TO EVERY 1028 00:35:02,800 --> 00:35:04,480 INDIVIDUAL IN THE COMMUNITY 1029 00:35:04,480 --> 00:35:07,280 NEEDS TO EMBRACE CULTURE CHANGE. 1030 00:35:07,280 --> 00:35:09,160 NEEDS TO EMBRACE CARING ABOUT 1031 00:35:09,160 --> 00:35:10,280 EACH OTHER. 1032 00:35:10,280 --> 00:35:12,640 NEEDS TO EMBRACE WELL-BEING. 1033 00:35:12,640 --> 00:35:17,120 NEEDS TO EMBRACE TRAINING AROUND 1034 00:35:17,120 --> 00:35:17,680 RELATIONSHIP MANAGEMENT. 1035 00:35:17,680 --> 00:35:19,920 AROUND ANGER MANAGEMENT. 1036 00:35:19,920 --> 00:35:22,560 AROUND HOW WE ENGAGE WITH EACH 1037 00:35:22,560 --> 00:35:25,160 OTHER EVERY DAY. 1038 00:35:25,160 --> 00:35:27,640 CULTURE CHANGE REQUIRES WORK AT 1039 00:35:27,640 --> 00:35:28,560 EVERY LEVEL. 1040 00:35:28,560 --> 00:35:31,440 A LOT OF SELF REFLECTION, A LOT 1041 00:35:31,440 --> 00:35:32,520 OF GROUP REFLECTION. 1042 00:35:32,520 --> 00:35:36,000 WE HAVE TO ASK OURSELVES WHAT 1043 00:35:36,000 --> 00:35:38,800 ARE OUR ATTITUDES AND BEHAVIORS 1044 00:35:38,800 --> 00:35:41,000 IS HELPFUL AND WHAT OF OUR 1045 00:35:41,000 --> 00:35:41,960 ATTITUDES AND BEHAVIORS ARE NOT 1046 00:35:41,960 --> 00:35:44,000 HELPFUL AND NEED TO BE 1047 00:35:44,000 --> 00:35:44,280 RE-LEARNED? 1048 00:35:44,280 --> 00:35:45,760 WE NEED MAKE AGREEMENTS WITH 1049 00:35:45,760 --> 00:35:46,800 EACH OTHER. 1050 00:35:46,800 --> 00:35:48,560 WE NEED TO SHOW UP FOR OURSELVES 1051 00:35:48,560 --> 00:35:49,880 AND FOR OTHERS. 1052 00:35:49,880 --> 00:35:53,320 AND WE REALLY NEED TO EMBRACE 1053 00:35:53,320 --> 00:35:57,440 THE IDEA THAT WE ARE NOT HANDS 1054 00:35:57,440 --> 00:35:58,680 WITH PIPETTES OR KEYBOARDS. 1055 00:35:58,680 --> 00:36:01,960 WE ARE NOT JUST IDEA GENERATORS. 1056 00:36:01,960 --> 00:36:02,920 WE ARE WHOLE PEOPLE. 1057 00:36:02,920 --> 00:36:07,080 AND IF WE WANT TO WORK WITHIN A 1058 00:36:07,080 --> 00:36:10,240 FIELD, THAT IS NURTURING AND 1059 00:36:10,240 --> 00:36:12,840 SUSTAINING, THAT DOESN'T HAVE 1060 00:36:12,840 --> 00:36:14,200 BULLYING AND HARASSMENT 1061 00:36:14,200 --> 00:36:14,680 PERVASIVE THROUGHOUT. 1062 00:36:14,680 --> 00:36:15,680 IF WE WANT TO WORK WITH THAT 1063 00:36:15,680 --> 00:36:18,560 KIND OF FIELD, WE NEED TO REALLY 1064 00:36:18,560 --> 00:36:19,840 LOOK AT THE BIG PICTURE. 1065 00:36:19,840 --> 00:36:22,280 AND YOU KNOW, I LIKE TO THINK OF 1066 00:36:22,280 --> 00:36:25,160 TRAINING NOW AS A TABLE. 1067 00:36:25,160 --> 00:36:26,800 THERE ARE FOUR LEGS. 1068 00:36:26,800 --> 00:36:27,320 ON TOP OF IT IS A STUDENT 1069 00:36:27,320 --> 00:36:29,600 LEARNING SOME SCIENCE. 1070 00:36:29,600 --> 00:36:30,800 SOME HEALTH CARE HOW TO BE, 1071 00:36:30,800 --> 00:36:32,600 WHATEVER IT IS THAT YOU WANT TO 1072 00:36:32,600 --> 00:36:33,040 BE. 1073 00:36:33,040 --> 00:36:34,760 BUT EACH OF THE LEGS OF THE 1074 00:36:34,760 --> 00:36:37,200 TABLE HAS TO BE REALLY STRONG 1075 00:36:37,200 --> 00:36:39,400 FOR YOU TO DO THAT. 1076 00:36:39,400 --> 00:36:41,520 AND THAT INCLUDES THINGS LIKE 1077 00:36:41,520 --> 00:36:42,200 CAREER DEVELOPMENT AND 1078 00:36:42,200 --> 00:36:44,360 LEADERSHIP AND MANAGEMENT 1079 00:36:44,360 --> 00:36:44,640 TRAINING. 1080 00:36:44,640 --> 00:36:45,440 IT'S AFFINITY GROUPS AND 1081 00:36:45,440 --> 00:36:47,080 TRAINING AND DIVERSITY EQUITY 1082 00:36:47,080 --> 00:36:49,240 AND INCLUSION AND ACCESSIBILITY. 1083 00:36:49,240 --> 00:36:51,440 IT'S ALLYSHIP TRAINING. 1084 00:36:51,440 --> 00:36:53,280 IT'S PAYING ATTENTION TO 1085 00:36:53,280 --> 00:36:55,000 WELL-BEING AND MENTAL HEALTH AND 1086 00:36:55,000 --> 00:36:56,760 RESILIENCE AND LEARNING THE 1087 00:36:56,760 --> 00:36:57,920 SCIENCE BEHIND THAT. 1088 00:36:57,920 --> 00:37:00,640 AND THE FOURTH LEG ARE CIVILITY 1089 00:37:00,640 --> 00:37:01,120 TRAINING. 1090 00:37:01,120 --> 00:37:02,760 CIVILITY PROGRAMS, MENTOR 1091 00:37:02,760 --> 00:37:04,440 TRAINING, MANAGING UP TRAINING. 1092 00:37:04,440 --> 00:37:06,520 HOW DO TRAINEES GET THE MOST OUT 1093 00:37:06,520 --> 00:37:09,760 OF THEIR BOSSES? 1094 00:37:09,760 --> 00:37:13,640 SO I THINK THAT BASED ON THIS 1095 00:37:13,640 --> 00:37:14,880 HERE, FOR ME AT LEAST S TO THINK 1096 00:37:14,880 --> 00:37:15,280 HOW DO WE DO THAT? 1097 00:37:15,280 --> 00:37:17,400 HOW DO WE EMPOWER STUDENTS TO 1098 00:37:17,400 --> 00:37:18,240 SPEAK UP? 1099 00:37:18,240 --> 00:37:22,800 HOW DO WE HELP PIs LET GO OF 1100 00:37:22,800 --> 00:37:24,880 OLD UNHELPFUL BELIEFS BEHAVIORS? 1101 00:37:24,880 --> 00:37:26,600 HONEST TRUTH IS, MANY OF US GREW 1102 00:37:26,600 --> 00:37:28,600 UP, MYSELF INCLUDED, AT A TIME 1103 00:37:28,600 --> 00:37:30,480 WHEN WE WERE NOT TOLD ANYTHING 1104 00:37:30,480 --> 00:37:35,400 ABOUT HOW TO MANAGE. 1105 00:37:35,400 --> 00:37:35,920 I DIDN'T HAVE MY FIRST 1106 00:37:35,920 --> 00:37:36,760 MANAGEMENT COURSE UNTIL I WAS 1107 00:37:36,760 --> 00:37:40,040 FAR INTO MY CAREER. 1108 00:37:40,040 --> 00:37:42,840 IT'S SHOCKING TO ME I WAS 1109 00:37:42,840 --> 00:37:45,360 ENTRUSTED WITH THE LIFE, CAREER 1110 00:37:45,360 --> 00:37:47,720 GOALS, ASPIRATIONS OF YOUNG 1111 00:37:47,720 --> 00:37:49,680 PEOPLE WITHOUT ANY TRAINING. 1112 00:37:49,680 --> 00:37:53,440 SO I THINK FOR ALL OF US, IT IS 1113 00:37:53,440 --> 00:37:54,560 SORT OF TO EMBRACE ALL OF THIS. 1114 00:37:54,560 --> 00:37:57,440 I LIKE TO ASK MYSELF A QUESTION 1115 00:37:57,440 --> 00:38:00,480 OF WHAT AM I DOING TODAY? 1116 00:38:00,480 --> 00:38:01,720 AND I LEAVE YOU WITH THE SAME 1117 00:38:01,720 --> 00:38:02,760 QUESTION. 1118 00:38:02,760 --> 00:38:04,160 WHAT AM I DOING TODAY TO 1119 00:38:04,160 --> 00:38:06,720 CONTRIBUTE TO MUCH-NEEDED 1120 00:38:06,720 --> 00:38:08,200 CULTURE CHANGE IN MY RESEARCH 1121 00:38:08,200 --> 00:38:14,760 COMMUNITY OR IN THE RESEARCH 1122 00:38:14,760 --> 00:38:15,360 COMMUNITY, MY GRADUATE PROGRAM 1123 00:38:15,360 --> 00:38:15,720 AND MY BRANCH. 1124 00:38:15,720 --> 00:38:16,360 SO THAT ALL MEMBERS CAN ENGAGE 1125 00:38:16,360 --> 00:38:17,760 AND CONTRIBUTE AND FLOURISH? 1126 00:38:17,760 --> 00:38:20,240 AND I REALLY, REALLY THINK THAT 1127 00:38:20,240 --> 00:38:23,000 FOR ME, IT SEEMS SO MUCH MORE 1128 00:38:23,000 --> 00:38:24,240 IMPORTANT THAN A LOT OF THE WORK 1129 00:38:24,240 --> 00:38:27,320 THAT I DO. 1130 00:38:27,320 --> 00:38:27,840 I THINK I'M GETTING OLD. 1131 00:38:27,840 --> 00:38:30,680 I ACTUALLY WILL HAVE LIKE A BIG 1132 00:38:30,680 --> 00:38:32,040 DECADE BIRTHDAY COMING UP SOON, 1133 00:38:32,040 --> 00:38:34,360 WHICH IS A CHALLENGE, BECAUSE IT 1134 00:38:34,360 --> 00:38:36,600 LEADS YOU TO ASK YOURSELF WHAT 1135 00:38:36,600 --> 00:38:38,920 YOUR CONTRIBUTION IS OR FOR ME, 1136 00:38:38,920 --> 00:38:43,320 WHAT IS THAT BASED ON -- WHAT IS 1137 00:38:43,320 --> 00:38:43,800 THAT EAR WORM DRIVING? 1138 00:38:43,800 --> 00:38:45,520 AND SO I THINK THAT IS WHAT I 1139 00:38:45,520 --> 00:38:48,200 LIKE ABOUT BEING AT NIH. 1140 00:38:48,200 --> 00:38:49,360 PEOPLE, LIKE BRAD AND JOCELYN 1141 00:38:49,360 --> 00:38:51,120 STEP UP AND SAY, I HAVE AN IDEA. 1142 00:38:51,120 --> 00:38:52,800 THIS IS A COLLABORATION BETWEEN 1143 00:38:52,800 --> 00:38:55,360 A PI AND A TRAINEE. 1144 00:38:55,360 --> 00:38:58,000 OTHER TRAINEES ARE INVOLVED. 1145 00:38:58,000 --> 00:39:00,840 TRISH STEPPED UP AND IS INVOLVED 1146 00:39:00,840 --> 00:39:01,040 TODAY. 1147 00:39:01,040 --> 00:39:04,280 SO MANY I GET INVITATIONS FROM 1148 00:39:04,280 --> 00:39:05,880 TRAINEES, AT VARIOUS BRANCHES. 1149 00:39:05,880 --> 00:39:08,880 I LOVE ABOUT THIS COMMUNITY IS 1150 00:39:08,880 --> 00:39:10,720 THAT WE ARE ALL TRYING TO MAKE 1151 00:39:10,720 --> 00:39:10,960 CHANGE. 1152 00:39:10,960 --> 00:39:13,000 EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US IS A 1153 00:39:13,000 --> 00:39:14,440 DIFFERENT PERSON. 1154 00:39:14,440 --> 00:39:15,440 WE HAVE DIFFERENT STRENGTHS. 1155 00:39:15,440 --> 00:39:17,560 I JUST THOUGHT I'D WRAP UP AND 1156 00:39:17,560 --> 00:39:19,840 COME BACK TO ME FOR A MOMENT. 1157 00:39:19,840 --> 00:39:20,560 SO I HAVE SOME REAL FOUNDATIONAL 1158 00:39:20,560 --> 00:39:23,000 STRENGTHS, THINGS THAT HAVE 1159 00:39:23,000 --> 00:39:24,400 TAKEN ME THROUGH THAT, WHAT 1160 00:39:24,400 --> 00:39:26,080 SOMETIMES I LOOK BACK SEEMS LIKE 1161 00:39:26,080 --> 00:39:26,600 A CRAZY JOURNEY. 1162 00:39:26,600 --> 00:39:29,000 I WAS SO CLOSE TO FAILING OUT OF 1163 00:39:29,000 --> 00:39:30,800 UNDERGRAD AND HERE I AM. 1164 00:39:30,800 --> 00:39:34,200 AND I NEVER IMAGINED THAT I 1165 00:39:34,200 --> 00:39:35,240 WOULD HAVE SUCH A SATISFYING 1166 00:39:35,240 --> 00:39:35,920 CAREER. 1167 00:39:35,920 --> 00:39:37,640 AND I DID THAT ON SOME 1168 00:39:37,640 --> 00:39:39,480 STRENGTHS, FLEXIBILITY, 1169 00:39:39,480 --> 00:39:40,280 OPTIMISM, HUMOR. 1170 00:39:40,280 --> 00:39:43,480 I'M VERY OKAY WITH RE-DOS. 1171 00:39:43,480 --> 00:39:44,560 SECOND TIME AROUND, THIRD TIME 1172 00:39:44,560 --> 00:39:44,800 AROUND. 1173 00:39:44,800 --> 00:39:46,960 THAT IS OKAY WITH ME. 1174 00:39:46,960 --> 00:39:48,200 AND I REALLY LOVE LIFELONG 1175 00:39:48,200 --> 00:39:49,080 LEARNING. 1176 00:39:49,080 --> 00:39:51,440 BUT I COME TO APPRECIATE THAT 1177 00:39:51,440 --> 00:39:53,400 STRENGTHS OVERUSED BECOME 1178 00:39:53,400 --> 00:39:53,720 LIABILITIES. 1179 00:39:53,720 --> 00:39:55,720 AND I CAN BE TOO FLEXIBLE AND 1180 00:39:55,720 --> 00:39:56,680 NOT FINISH SOMETHING. 1181 00:39:56,680 --> 00:39:59,200 I CAN USE HUMOR AT THE WRONG 1182 00:39:59,200 --> 00:39:59,400 TIME. 1183 00:39:59,400 --> 00:40:01,240 I CAN BE TOO OPTIMISTIC AND NOT 1184 00:40:01,240 --> 00:40:01,640 ADDRESS AN ISSUE. 1185 00:40:01,640 --> 00:40:03,400 I THINK THAT IS A KEY THING FOR 1186 00:40:03,400 --> 00:40:06,680 ALL OF US TO REMEMBER. 1187 00:40:06,680 --> 00:40:07,440 I LIKE EVERYTHING ABOUT MY WORK 1188 00:40:07,440 --> 00:40:09,640 MORE WHEN I SET FLEXIBLE 1189 00:40:09,640 --> 00:40:13,040 BOUNDARIES, WHEN I TAKE CARE OF 1190 00:40:13,040 --> 00:40:13,280 MYSELF. 1191 00:40:13,280 --> 00:40:14,840 I THINK A KEY THING THERE AND 1192 00:40:14,840 --> 00:40:17,200 THE REASON I MENTIONED SOME OF 1193 00:40:17,200 --> 00:40:18,400 MY STRUGGLES IN UNDERGRAD, I 1194 00:40:18,400 --> 00:40:20,520 THINK THAT A LOT OF US HAVE TO 1195 00:40:20,520 --> 00:40:24,000 DEAL WITH OLD BAGGAGE AND SHAME. 1196 00:40:24,000 --> 00:40:28,960 AND BEFORE WE CAN TAKE CARE OF 1197 00:40:28,960 --> 00:40:29,240 OURSELVES. 1198 00:40:29,240 --> 00:40:30,800 WE HAVE TO REALLY BELIEVE WE ARE 1199 00:40:30,800 --> 00:40:32,320 WORTH TAKING CARE OF. 1200 00:40:32,320 --> 00:40:32,920 AND IT WAS NO FUN TO DO THAT. 1201 00:40:32,920 --> 00:40:34,200 BUT I'M REALLY THANKFUL THAT I 1202 00:40:34,200 --> 00:40:35,280 SPEND SOME TIME ON THAT. 1203 00:40:35,280 --> 00:40:38,600 I USED TO LOOK AT MY BACKGROUND 1204 00:40:38,600 --> 00:40:40,600 AS A LIABILITY. 1205 00:40:40,600 --> 00:40:44,480 AND NOW I VIEW IT AS A DRIVER, A 1206 00:40:44,480 --> 00:40:47,520 DRIVER OF THINGS THAT ARE REALLY 1207 00:40:47,520 --> 00:40:47,880 IMPORTANT TO ME. 1208 00:40:47,880 --> 00:40:48,920 I TALKED A LITTLE BIT IN THE 1209 00:40:48,920 --> 00:40:50,320 MIDDLE ABOUT COLLABORATIONED. 1210 00:40:50,320 --> 00:40:52,440 I WANT TO STRESS SOMETHING 1211 00:40:52,440 --> 00:40:53,240 REALLY KEY. 1212 00:40:53,240 --> 00:40:55,680 WE THINK COLLABORATIONS RELY ON 1213 00:40:55,680 --> 00:40:57,600 SUBJECT MATTER EXPERTISE BUT 1214 00:40:57,600 --> 00:40:59,720 REALLY THEY ARE A LOT ABOUT 1215 00:40:59,720 --> 00:41:01,000 RELATIONSHIP MANAGEMENT. 1216 00:41:01,000 --> 00:41:02,960 THEY ARE ABOUT LEARNING HOW TO 1217 00:41:02,960 --> 00:41:04,480 ENGAGE WITH OTHERS. 1218 00:41:04,480 --> 00:41:07,320 IT IS SO MUCH EASIER TO BLAME 1219 00:41:07,320 --> 00:41:10,080 THINGS ON OTHERS BUT I FIND IT 1220 00:41:10,080 --> 00:41:11,440 MUCH MORE HELPFUL TO LOOK AT 1221 00:41:11,440 --> 00:41:13,840 MYSELF AND MY ROLE TO ASK WHAT 1222 00:41:13,840 --> 00:41:18,120 AM I DOING AND NOT DOING TO 1223 00:41:18,120 --> 00:41:18,480 CONTRIBUTE THIS? 1224 00:41:18,480 --> 00:41:21,440 AND FINALLY, WE ALL REALLY NEED 1225 00:41:21,440 --> 00:41:22,680 TO DEVELOP OUR EMOTIONAL 1226 00:41:22,680 --> 00:41:23,040 INTELLIGENCE. 1227 00:41:23,040 --> 00:41:24,680 WE ARE SO IN OUR HEADS. 1228 00:41:24,680 --> 00:41:27,160 WE ARE TRAINED TO BE THAT WAY AS 1229 00:41:27,160 --> 00:41:27,480 SCIENTISTS. 1230 00:41:27,480 --> 00:41:30,440 BUT EMOTIONS ARE DATA. 1231 00:41:30,440 --> 00:41:32,320 EMOTIONS DRIVE US IN HELPFUL OR 1232 00:41:32,320 --> 00:41:33,560 UNHELPFUL WAYS. 1233 00:41:33,560 --> 00:41:34,480 WE MIGHT AS WELL LEARN TO HAVE 1234 00:41:34,480 --> 00:41:38,880 THEM DRIVE US IN HELPFUL WAYS. 1235 00:41:38,880 --> 00:41:41,400 SO I THINK ABOUT MY LIFE AS I'M 1236 00:41:41,400 --> 00:41:41,800 AT A CERTAIN PLACE. 1237 00:41:41,800 --> 00:41:43,360 I HAVE THIS INTERNAL LANDSCAPE 1238 00:41:43,360 --> 00:41:45,040 OF WHAT IS HAPPENING FOR ME. 1239 00:41:45,040 --> 00:41:47,160 I HAVE MENTORS AND LEARNING 1240 00:41:47,160 --> 00:41:48,280 COMMUNITIES, MANY OF THE 1241 00:41:48,280 --> 00:41:50,280 TRAINEES I INTERACT WITH ARE 1242 00:41:50,280 --> 00:41:52,200 PART OF MY MENTORING AND 1243 00:41:52,200 --> 00:41:53,240 LEARNING COMMUNITY. 1244 00:41:53,240 --> 00:41:56,280 IT'S REALLY JUST COMBINATION OF 1245 00:41:56,280 --> 00:41:59,000 INTERNAL AND EXTERNAL THAT 1246 00:41:59,000 --> 00:41:59,640 DRIVES ME TOWARDS PLACES I WANT 1247 00:41:59,640 --> 00:42:00,480 TO GO. 1248 00:42:00,480 --> 00:42:04,280 I THINK EACH OF US IS IN A NOW 1249 00:42:04,280 --> 00:42:07,400 AND WE'RE LOOKING TOWARDS A 1250 00:42:07,400 --> 00:42:07,600 LATER. 1251 00:42:07,600 --> 00:42:10,400 AND I THINK IT MEANS SPENDING 1252 00:42:10,400 --> 00:42:12,280 TIME INWARD AND OUTWARD. 1253 00:42:12,280 --> 00:42:14,080 I DON'T THINK WE TALK ENOUGH 1254 00:42:14,080 --> 00:42:15,560 ABOUT WELL-BEING IN SCIENCE. 1255 00:42:15,560 --> 00:42:17,320 SO I'M GOING TO CHALLENGE EACH 1256 00:42:17,320 --> 00:42:19,760 OF YOU TO MAKE WHAT I CALL A 1257 00:42:19,760 --> 00:42:20,720 WELLNESS COLLAGE. 1258 00:42:20,720 --> 00:42:24,280 THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE TAKEN THE 1259 00:42:24,280 --> 00:42:24,880 RESILIENCE SCIENTIST SERIES ARE 1260 00:42:24,880 --> 00:42:26,880 PROBABLY TIRED OF SEEING THIS. 1261 00:42:26,880 --> 00:42:28,280 BUT EACH OF US HAS THINGS THAT 1262 00:42:28,280 --> 00:42:29,320 MAKE US FEEL GOOD. 1263 00:42:29,320 --> 00:42:30,600 THEY MAKE US FEEL CONNECTED TO 1264 00:42:30,600 --> 00:42:31,920 THE WORLD. 1265 00:42:31,920 --> 00:42:33,480 THEY MAKE US FEEL HEALTHY. 1266 00:42:33,480 --> 00:42:36,400 THEY MAKE US ABLE TO DEAL WITH 1267 00:42:36,400 --> 00:42:36,960 THE SHIT AT WORK. 1268 00:42:36,960 --> 00:42:38,960 AND LET'S BE HONEST, THERE IS 1269 00:42:38,960 --> 00:42:43,200 SOME OF THAT. 1270 00:42:43,200 --> 00:42:44,320 FOR ME, IT'S SPORTS, IT'S 1271 00:42:44,320 --> 00:42:45,360 FAMILY, IT'S ATTAR. 1272 00:42:45,360 --> 00:42:48,640 THIS IS ME -- THESE ARE 1273 00:42:48,640 --> 00:42:50,160 PRE-PANDEMIC, HENCE NO MASK. 1274 00:42:50,160 --> 00:42:53,520 IT'S TRAVEL AND NATURE AND I AM 1275 00:42:53,520 --> 00:42:54,440 AN AVID COOK AND HERE I AM 1276 00:42:54,440 --> 00:42:56,040 TAKING SOME COOKING LESSONS. 1277 00:42:56,040 --> 00:42:58,000 IF I EVER NEED TO FEEL GOOD, I 1278 00:42:58,000 --> 00:43:00,040 GET INTO THE KITCHEN. 1279 00:43:00,040 --> 00:43:02,280 IT'S FRIENDS, IT'S LITTLE 1280 00:43:02,280 --> 00:43:02,480 PEOPLE. 1281 00:43:02,480 --> 00:43:04,520 I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH LITTLE NEME 1282 00:43:04,520 --> 00:43:06,720 MY LIFE SO I BORROWED THEM AT 1283 00:43:06,720 --> 00:43:09,320 TAKE YOUR CHILD TO WORKDAY. 1284 00:43:09,320 --> 00:43:12,600 EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US HAS A 1285 00:43:12,600 --> 00:43:14,320 WELLNESS COLLAGE. 1286 00:43:14,320 --> 00:43:14,760 AND WE HIDE THEM. 1287 00:43:14,760 --> 00:43:16,480 WE ARE EM BEAR SYSTEMED TO TALK 1288 00:43:16,480 --> 00:43:18,720 ABOUT THEM. 1289 00:43:18,720 --> 00:43:19,360 -- EMBARRASSED. 1290 00:43:19,360 --> 00:43:21,560 WE THINK SCIENCE IS FOCUSED ON 1291 00:43:21,560 --> 00:43:22,600 SCIENCE ALL THE TIME BUT A PART 1292 00:43:22,600 --> 00:43:25,240 OF WHY WE ARE IN THE PLACE WE 1293 00:43:25,240 --> 00:43:27,240 ARE IN, I REALLY ASSEMBLE A LACK 1294 00:43:27,240 --> 00:43:28,760 OF WELL-BEING. 1295 00:43:28,760 --> 00:43:30,680 AND SO WITH THAT, I WANT TO 1296 00:43:30,680 --> 00:43:32,200 THANK ALL OF YOU. 1297 00:43:32,200 --> 00:43:34,080 I ALSO, FOR THOSE OF YOU AT NIH 1298 00:43:34,080 --> 00:43:35,800 I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR COMING. 1299 00:43:35,800 --> 00:43:37,920 FOR THOSE WHO ARE WATCHING FROM 1300 00:43:37,920 --> 00:43:39,880 OTHER PLACES, WE HOPE TO WELCOME 1301 00:43:39,880 --> 00:43:42,720 YOU TO NIH AT SOME POINT IN YOUR 1302 00:43:42,720 --> 00:43:44,160 CAREER AND IF NOT, WE WELCOME 1303 00:43:44,160 --> 00:43:49,360 YOU INTO THE BROADER NIH 1304 00:43:49,360 --> 00:43:52,000 COMMUNITY THAT IS VIRTUAL AND 1305 00:43:52,000 --> 00:43:52,760 INCLUDES EVERYONE. 1306 00:43:52,760 --> 00:43:54,000 SO I THOUGHT I WOULD END BY 1307 00:43:54,000 --> 00:43:55,440 TAKING YOUR QUESTIONS HEARING 1308 00:43:55,440 --> 00:43:57,320 WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY. 1309 00:43:57,320 --> 00:43:58,400 THERE ARE LOTS OF ELEPHANTS IN 1310 00:43:58,400 --> 00:44:00,240 THE ROOM WHEN I TALK ABOUT 1311 00:44:00,240 --> 00:44:03,320 FINDING TIME TO TAKE CARE OF 1312 00:44:03,320 --> 00:44:03,600 YOURSELF. 1313 00:44:03,600 --> 00:44:05,320 SO WE CAN TALK ABOUT THE 1314 00:44:05,320 --> 00:44:06,600 ELEPHANTS IN THE ROOM OR 1315 00:44:06,600 --> 00:44:09,280 ANYTHING ELSE THAT YOU WANT TO 1316 00:44:09,280 --> 00:44:11,040 TALK ABOUT. 1317 00:44:11,040 --> 00:44:13,040 I REALLY -- THERE IS NOT A 1318 00:44:13,040 --> 00:44:14,360 QUESTION I WON'T ANSWER. 1319 00:44:14,360 --> 00:44:15,680 SO JUST ASK. 1320 00:44:15,680 --> 00:44:17,240 SO THANK YOU. 1321 00:44:17,240 --> 00:44:18,640 >> FANTASTIC, SHARON. 1322 00:44:18,640 --> 00:44:20,360 AS I CAN DO ON THE VIRTUAL 1323 00:44:20,360 --> 00:44:23,880 SCREEN ONLY, REALLY AMAZING 1324 00:44:23,880 --> 00:44:24,080 TALK. 1325 00:44:24,080 --> 00:44:26,240 AND I FEEL LIKE THAT I KNOW YOU 1326 00:44:26,240 --> 00:44:27,320 BETTER THAN I DID BEFORE, WHICH 1327 00:44:27,320 --> 00:44:30,200 IS PROBABLY THE BEST MEASURE OF 1328 00:44:30,200 --> 00:44:31,560 A GREAT TALK. 1329 00:44:31,560 --> 00:44:34,640 AND I WANT TO TALK ABOUT -- 1330 00:44:34,640 --> 00:44:35,960 WHILE PEOPLE ARE GETTING THEIR 1331 00:44:35,960 --> 00:44:37,280 THOUGHTS TOGETHER, I'M SURE 1332 00:44:37,280 --> 00:44:38,720 THERE ARE MANY QUESTIONS. 1333 00:44:38,720 --> 00:44:41,320 I USUALLY WRAP UP WITH A SUMMARY 1334 00:44:41,320 --> 00:44:44,040 OF NOTES, SUMMARIZING THINGS. 1335 00:44:44,040 --> 00:44:44,680 I'M GOING TAKE ABOUT 60 SECONDS 1336 00:44:44,680 --> 00:44:46,720 AND WE'LL SWITCH TO SECONDS. 1337 00:44:46,720 --> 00:44:48,800 YOU DON'T HAVE TO FINISH THE 1338 00:44:48,800 --> 00:44:50,280 WORK BUT YOU'RE NOT FREE TO 1339 00:44:50,280 --> 00:44:53,160 IGNORE T YOU WILL REBUILD A TEMP 1340 00:44:53,160 --> 00:44:55,200 NEL OUR OWN TIME SOON. 1341 00:44:55,200 --> 00:44:58,360 RESPONSIBILITY, RESPONSIBILITY, 1342 00:44:58,360 --> 00:45:02,440 RESPONSIBILITY. 1343 00:45:02,440 --> 00:45:02,800 INSTRUCTINGEL. 1344 00:45:02,800 --> 00:45:03,200 IMPOSTER SYNDROME. 1345 00:45:03,200 --> 00:45:03,680 PIVOTAL EXPERIENCES. 1346 00:45:03,680 --> 00:45:06,680 THE SMALL THINGS CAN MAKE A 1347 00:45:06,680 --> 00:45:07,000 DIFFERENCE. 1348 00:45:07,000 --> 00:45:08,520 ROLE MODELS. 1349 00:45:08,520 --> 00:45:08,800 MENTORING. 1350 00:45:08,800 --> 00:45:09,720 POWER OF ASKING FOR HELP. 1351 00:45:09,720 --> 00:45:12,680 THE POWER OF COLLABORATION. 1352 00:45:12,680 --> 00:45:14,720 OPENING DOORS COME FROM MULTIPLE 1353 00:45:14,720 --> 00:45:16,160 PLACES. 1354 00:45:16,160 --> 00:45:17,040 TEAM BUILDING. 1355 00:45:17,040 --> 00:45:19,080 PAUSE TO APPRECIATE. 1356 00:45:19,080 --> 00:45:21,320 EPITHELIAL SODIUM CHANNEL CAKE. 1357 00:45:21,320 --> 00:45:23,440 ONE OF MY FAVORITES. 1358 00:45:23,440 --> 00:45:24,720 BEHAVIOR IS CONTAGIOUS FROM A PI 1359 00:45:24,720 --> 00:45:26,160 OR TRAINEE. 1360 00:45:26,160 --> 00:45:28,400 HIDDEN IDENTITIES. 1361 00:45:28,400 --> 00:45:31,200 WHITE PRIVILEGE LOVING DEEPLY A 1362 00:45:31,200 --> 00:45:32,680 BLACK SON NAMED WONDER. 1363 00:45:32,680 --> 00:45:34,400 RESPONSIBILITY. 1364 00:45:34,400 --> 00:45:36,000 MARGINALIZED COMMUNITIES BEING A 1365 00:45:36,000 --> 00:45:38,960 DRIVER AND ALLY. 1366 00:45:38,960 --> 00:45:41,960 THE DOG. 1367 00:45:41,960 --> 00:45:44,640 WHAT IS OUR LIFELONG LEARNING 1368 00:45:44,640 --> 00:45:44,880 LESSONS? 1369 00:45:44,880 --> 00:45:47,680 DON'T BE AFRAID TO NOTICE 1370 00:45:47,680 --> 00:45:49,800 BURNOUT, MALE PROBLEMS, BULLYING 1371 00:45:49,800 --> 00:45:50,960 HARASSMENT, DIVERSITY OR THE 1372 00:45:50,960 --> 00:45:51,920 LACK SHOULD OF. 1373 00:45:51,920 --> 00:45:52,200 CHANGE. 1374 00:45:52,200 --> 00:45:54,280 WE HAVE NO RIGHT TO WALK AWAY. 1375 00:45:54,280 --> 00:45:55,960 THE SYSTEM IS DIFFICULT. 1376 00:45:55,960 --> 00:45:57,480 FISH DON'T SEE WATER. 1377 00:45:57,480 --> 00:46:00,960 WE LIVE AMONG SILOS. 1378 00:46:00,960 --> 00:46:01,480 COMMUNITY, CULTURE BIASES, 1379 00:46:01,480 --> 00:46:03,200 TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF AND 1380 00:46:03,200 --> 00:46:04,400 OTHERS IS IMPORTANT. 1381 00:46:04,400 --> 00:46:06,400 EMBRACE CULTURE CHANGE. 1382 00:46:06,400 --> 00:46:07,400 WELL-BEING, ANGER MANAGEMENT, 1383 00:46:07,400 --> 00:46:08,520 SELF REFLECTION. 1384 00:46:08,520 --> 00:46:12,280 SHOW UP FOR YOU AND FOR OTHERS. 1385 00:46:12,280 --> 00:46:13,840 EMBRACE THE IDEA THAT WE'RE ALL 1386 00:46:13,840 --> 00:46:14,040 PEOPLE. 1387 00:46:14,040 --> 00:46:15,200 WE ARE A WHOLE PERSON. 1388 00:46:15,200 --> 00:46:17,640 THINK BROADLY. 1389 00:46:17,640 --> 00:46:19,400 I LOVE YOUR 4 LEGS OF BEING A 1390 00:46:19,400 --> 00:46:22,720 HUMAN IN A TRAINEE SYSTEM. 1391 00:46:22,720 --> 00:46:25,400 RESILIENCE, AFFINITY AND ALLY 1392 00:46:25,400 --> 00:46:25,720 SHOULD HAVE. 1393 00:46:25,720 --> 00:46:26,320 MENTOR TRAINING AND CIVILITY 1394 00:46:26,320 --> 00:46:26,960 PROGRAM AND CAREER DEVELOPMENT. 1395 00:46:26,960 --> 00:46:29,720 IT'S NOT ANY ONE OF THOSE ALONE. 1396 00:46:29,720 --> 00:46:31,160 ENTRUST THE AGES OPERATIONS OF 1397 00:46:31,160 --> 00:46:33,000 YOUNG PEOPLE. 1398 00:46:33,000 --> 00:46:33,600 -- AGES OPERATIONS. 1399 00:46:33,600 --> 00:46:35,840 IT'S A SPONSE -- ASPIRATIONS. 1400 00:46:35,840 --> 00:46:37,200 WHAT AM I TODAY? 1401 00:46:37,200 --> 00:46:41,000 ASK EACH OF YOUR -- HOW AM I 1402 00:46:41,000 --> 00:46:41,600 GOING TO CONTRIBUTE TO CULTURE 1403 00:46:41,600 --> 00:46:42,480 CHANGE IF WHAT AM I DOING TO 1404 00:46:42,480 --> 00:46:42,800 CONTRIBUTE? 1405 00:46:42,800 --> 00:46:45,040 HOW CAN I BE A PART OF THE 1406 00:46:45,040 --> 00:46:46,640 SOLUTION? 1407 00:46:46,640 --> 00:46:47,720 STRENGTHS AROUSE BECOME 1408 00:46:47,720 --> 00:46:48,440 LIABILITIES. 1409 00:46:48,440 --> 00:46:49,640 WE ALL DEVELOP FLEXIBLE 1410 00:46:49,640 --> 00:46:51,840 BOUNDARIES, LET'S KEEP THEM 1411 00:46:51,840 --> 00:46:52,360 FLEXIBLE. 1412 00:46:52,360 --> 00:46:54,400 RECOGNIZE YOUR OLD BAGGAGE AND 1413 00:46:54,400 --> 00:46:55,480 TAKE CARE OF IT. 1414 00:46:55,480 --> 00:46:58,400 DECIDE WHAT CAN YOU DO? 1415 00:46:58,400 --> 00:46:59,760 LOOK WITHIN WITH DOES EMOTIONAL 1416 00:46:59,760 --> 00:47:00,120 INTELLIGENCE. 1417 00:47:00,120 --> 00:47:01,480 DECIDE WHAT IS NOW AND WHAT WILL 1418 00:47:01,480 --> 00:47:02,120 BE LATE AND WHERE YOU FIT IN AND 1419 00:47:02,120 --> 00:47:04,200 HOW TO MAKE THAT HAPPEN. 1420 00:47:04,200 --> 00:47:06,680 DON'T IG 94 YOUR OWN WELL-BEING. 1421 00:47:06,680 --> 00:47:09,880 HAVE A WELLNESS COLLAGE AND 1422 00:47:09,880 --> 00:47:10,440 REMEMBER THE LITTLE PEOPLE. 1423 00:47:10,440 --> 00:47:12,560 I HAD TO -- I REALLY THAT IS 1424 00:47:12,560 --> 00:47:15,000 THE -- I USUALLY TAKE A COUPLE 1425 00:47:15,000 --> 00:47:15,720 OF NOTES. 1426 00:47:15,720 --> 00:47:18,360 YOU REALLY ARE MOTIVATIONAL AND 1427 00:47:18,360 --> 00:47:21,040 YOU SPEAK TO ME. 1428 00:47:21,040 --> 00:47:21,760 >> I'M GROWN AWAY. 1429 00:47:21,760 --> 00:47:21,960 OKAY? 1430 00:47:21,960 --> 00:47:23,840 THANK YOU FOR THAT SUMMARY. 1431 00:47:23,840 --> 00:47:26,480 >> AND BEING A GOOD ACADEMIC I 1432 00:47:26,480 --> 00:47:29,160 AM, I NEED TO SHUT UP BECAUSE I 1433 00:47:29,160 --> 00:47:30,240 HAVE THE AUDIENCE AND YOU 1434 00:47:30,240 --> 00:47:33,120 LISTENING AND I HAD TO TALK. 1435 00:47:33,120 --> 00:47:33,520 IT'S A PROBLEM. 1436 00:47:33,520 --> 00:47:35,320 IT'S A LIABILITY. 1437 00:47:35,320 --> 00:47:36,720 MY OWN LIABILITY SO I'M GOING TO 1438 00:47:36,720 --> 00:47:40,440 SHUT UP AND LET JOCELYN TAKE 1439 00:47:40,440 --> 00:47:40,640 OVER. 1440 00:47:40,640 --> 00:47:41,160 >> THANK YOU VERY MUCH. 1441 00:47:41,160 --> 00:47:41,920 AND BRAD THAT WAS AMAZING. 1442 00:47:41,920 --> 00:47:43,800 HAVING A SUMMARY OF THE WHOLE 1443 00:47:43,800 --> 00:47:45,720 LECTURE IS AMAZING. 1444 00:47:45,720 --> 00:47:50,000 ONE OF THE THINGS THAT STOOD OUT 1445 00:47:50,000 --> 00:47:51,800 TO ME AND I'M SURE LIKE FOR MANY 1446 00:47:51,800 --> 00:47:54,400 TRAINEES AS WELL IS THE WAY YOU 1447 00:47:54,400 --> 00:47:55,560 DEALT WITH IMPOSTER SYNDROME, 1448 00:47:55,560 --> 00:47:58,440 WHICH IS SOMETHING THAT OH, MY 1449 00:47:58,440 --> 00:48:00,600 GOD, IS SO DIFFICULT TO DEAL 1450 00:48:00,600 --> 00:48:03,040 WITH EVERY DAY. 1451 00:48:03,040 --> 00:48:05,080 AND I DON'T KNOW. 1452 00:48:05,080 --> 00:48:08,040 LIKE THE MORE I LEARN, THE MORE 1453 00:48:08,040 --> 00:48:10,920 I DEAL WITH IMPOSTER SYNDROME, 1454 00:48:10,920 --> 00:48:14,040 ME AND MANY OTHER TRAINEES LIKE 1455 00:48:14,040 --> 00:48:14,400 MYSELF. 1456 00:48:14,400 --> 00:48:16,200 SO THAT WAS INSPIRATIONAL. 1457 00:48:16,200 --> 00:48:18,000 SO THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR 1458 00:48:18,000 --> 00:48:20,040 SHARING YOUR EXPERIENCES AND WE 1459 00:48:20,040 --> 00:48:22,400 HAVE A COUPLE OF QUESTIONS FROM 1460 00:48:22,400 --> 00:48:23,400 THE AUDIENCE AS WELL. 1461 00:48:23,400 --> 00:48:26,600 BUT I WANTED TO JUST THANK YOU 1462 00:48:26,600 --> 00:48:26,880 PERSONALLY. 1463 00:48:26,880 --> 00:48:29,640 THIS WAS TRANSFORMATIVE. 1464 00:48:29,640 --> 00:48:30,160 THANK YOU. 1465 00:48:30,160 --> 00:48:30,840 >> IMPOSTER SYNDROME NEVER GOES 1466 00:48:30,840 --> 00:48:31,960 AWAY. 1467 00:48:31,960 --> 00:48:32,960 WE ALL SNEAK IN AND OUT OF IT 1468 00:48:32,960 --> 00:48:33,480 THROUGHOUT YOUR LIVES. 1469 00:48:33,480 --> 00:48:36,760 NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE OR WHAT 1470 00:48:36,760 --> 00:48:42,440 WHAT NOBEL PRIZE YOU HAVE WON. 1471 00:48:42,440 --> 00:48:43,960 OR STATUS OR STATE OF LIFE. 1472 00:48:43,960 --> 00:48:44,640 >> I'D LIKE -- I'M SORRY, BRAD. 1473 00:48:44,640 --> 00:48:45,440 I DON'T WANT TO INTERRUPT. 1474 00:48:45,440 --> 00:48:48,200 I REALLY WISH WE COULD ALL WORK 1475 00:48:48,200 --> 00:48:52,040 ON REFRAMING IMPOSTER SYNDROME 1476 00:48:52,040 --> 00:48:53,240 TO IMPOSTER FEARS. 1477 00:48:53,240 --> 00:48:57,040 SO FEARS ARE A NORMAL HEALTHY 1478 00:48:57,040 --> 00:48:57,360 EMOTION. 1479 00:48:57,360 --> 00:48:58,240 IT'S ADAPTIVE OTHERWISE WE 1480 00:48:58,240 --> 00:49:01,000 WOULDN'T FEEL IT. 1481 00:49:01,000 --> 00:49:01,840 EVOLUTION, RIGHT? 1482 00:49:01,840 --> 00:49:03,280 IT TELLS US THAT IT IS ADAPTIVE. 1483 00:49:03,280 --> 00:49:05,280 FEAR TELLS US WE ARE AT RISKY. 1484 00:49:05,280 --> 00:49:08,680 I THINK WHEN YOU ARE A STUDENT 1485 00:49:08,680 --> 00:49:10,400 IN A REALLY INTENSE ENVIRONMENT 1486 00:49:10,400 --> 00:49:13,120 AND YOU ARE LEARNING NEW THINGS, 1487 00:49:13,120 --> 00:49:14,680 IT IS TOTALLY APPROPRIATE TO BE 1488 00:49:14,680 --> 00:49:15,520 A LITTLE BIT WORRIED THAT YOU 1489 00:49:15,520 --> 00:49:20,160 MIGHT NOT BE AT YOUR TOP GAME. 1490 00:49:20,160 --> 00:49:21,160 WHEN YOU'RE BRAD WOOD WHO IS 1491 00:49:21,160 --> 00:49:21,960 EXPECTED TO PERFORM AT A SUPER 1492 00:49:21,960 --> 00:49:25,040 HIGH LEVEL AND YOU HAVE YOUR UPS 1493 00:49:25,040 --> 00:49:26,960 AND DOWNS AND DISTRACTIONS AND 1494 00:49:26,960 --> 00:49:28,680 SINNEDLY YOU'RE ASKED TO BE A 1495 00:49:28,680 --> 00:49:30,400 BRANCH CHIEF OR A DIRECTOR OF 1496 00:49:30,400 --> 00:49:31,720 WHATEVER, IT'S REASONABLE TO SAY 1497 00:49:31,720 --> 00:49:32,480 WAIT A MINUTE. 1498 00:49:32,480 --> 00:49:35,920 I MIGHT LET PEOPLE DOWN. 1499 00:49:35,920 --> 00:49:38,400 I THINK FEAR NORMALIZES IT AND I 1500 00:49:38,400 --> 00:49:41,080 THINK THAT WAS THE SIMPLE CHANGE 1501 00:49:41,080 --> 00:49:42,400 I MADE. 1502 00:49:42,400 --> 00:49:43,480 AND THE REASON THAT HAPPENED WAS 1503 00:49:43,480 --> 00:49:45,760 A VERY FUNNY STORY WHICH I TELL 1504 00:49:45,760 --> 00:49:47,600 IN THE RESILIENCE SCIENTIST 1505 00:49:47,600 --> 00:49:48,360 SERIES. 1506 00:49:48,360 --> 00:49:50,400 I MADE A MATHEMATICAL CALL 1507 00:49:50,400 --> 00:49:52,040 FLATION A ROTATION AS A GRADUATE 1508 00:49:52,040 --> 00:49:52,400 STUDENT. 1509 00:49:52,400 --> 00:49:54,680 AND AS A RESULT, I GENERATEDDED 1510 00:49:54,680 --> 00:49:58,560 THIS MASSIVE EXOTHERMIC REACTION 1511 00:49:58,560 --> 00:50:00,760 AND ACRYL MIDE EXPLODED OUT 1512 00:50:00,760 --> 00:50:03,920 OF -- BECAUSE WE DIDN'T BAGELS. 1513 00:50:03,920 --> 00:50:05,280 WE MADE GELS. 1514 00:50:05,280 --> 00:50:06,960 THERE WAS ACRYL MIDE -- ALL OVER 1515 00:50:06,960 --> 00:50:08,040 THE LAB. 1516 00:50:08,040 --> 00:50:10,960 AND MY MENTOR WAS A LITTLE TAKEN 1517 00:50:10,960 --> 00:50:11,160 ABACK. 1518 00:50:11,160 --> 00:50:13,200 LIKE MY SECOND DAY OF THE 1519 00:50:13,200 --> 00:50:13,480 ROTATION. 1520 00:50:13,480 --> 00:50:15,200 I CANNOT BELIEVE HE LET ME COME 1521 00:50:15,200 --> 00:50:17,680 BACK THE NEXT DAY. 1522 00:50:17,680 --> 00:50:20,320 BUT I THINK THAT HE NORMALIZED 1523 00:50:20,320 --> 00:50:20,680 THAT MISTAKE. 1524 00:50:20,680 --> 00:50:22,720 HE IS LIKE, THIS COULD HAPPEN TO 1525 00:50:22,720 --> 00:50:23,800 ANYONE AND THE QUESTION IS, DO 1526 00:50:23,800 --> 00:50:25,680 YOU COME BACK TOMORROW WITH YOUR 1527 00:50:25,680 --> 00:50:28,400 HEAD UP HIGH OR NOT? 1528 00:50:28,400 --> 00:50:30,400 I COULDN'T LOOK AT HIM. 1529 00:50:30,400 --> 00:50:32,640 AND I THINK FOR ME, HE 1530 00:50:32,640 --> 00:50:33,800 NORMALIZED MISTAKES. 1531 00:50:33,800 --> 00:50:36,960 AND I THINK THE WAY I HAVE DEALT 1532 00:50:36,960 --> 00:50:39,440 WITH IMPOSTER FEARS IS TO REALLY 1533 00:50:39,440 --> 00:50:41,480 EMBRACE THE FACT THAT I MAKE 1534 00:50:41,480 --> 00:50:41,880 MISTAKES. 1535 00:50:41,880 --> 00:50:45,320 AND YOU KNOW, THERE IS A GREAT 1536 00:50:45,320 --> 00:50:48,360 LITERATURE FROM CAROL DECK, A 1537 00:50:48,360 --> 00:50:49,560 SOCIAL, EDUCATIONAL RESEARCHER 1538 00:50:49,560 --> 00:50:51,120 ON GROWTH MINDSET. 1539 00:50:51,120 --> 00:50:54,000 AND SHE SAYS IT WAY BETTER THAN 1540 00:50:54,000 --> 00:50:54,160 ME. 1541 00:50:54,160 --> 00:50:57,040 BUT I DO REALLY THINK THAT FOR 1542 00:50:57,040 --> 00:51:01,800 ME, THAT ONE PERSON WHO DIDN'T 1543 00:51:01,800 --> 00:51:02,440 SEND ME AWAY ME ME APPRECIATE 1544 00:51:02,440 --> 00:51:03,520 THAT RE-DOINGS 1545 00:51:03,520 --> 00:51:07,240 AND EVERYBODY MAKES MISTAKES. 1546 00:51:07,240 --> 00:51:09,760 FRANCIS COLLINS WHO IS A REALLY 1547 00:51:09,760 --> 00:51:12,080 IMPORTANT PERSON TO ME, ONCE I 1548 00:51:12,080 --> 00:51:13,760 POINTED SOMETHING OUT AND HE 1549 00:51:13,760 --> 00:51:16,200 RESPONDED BACK WITH AN APOLOGY. 1550 00:51:16,200 --> 00:51:17,960 NOT WHAT I WAS EXPECTING. 1551 00:51:17,960 --> 00:51:21,320 AND THAT WAS ANOTHER FOR ME, 1552 00:51:21,320 --> 00:51:22,040 TRANSFORMATIVE MOMENT WHERE IT 1553 00:51:22,040 --> 00:51:23,080 DOESN'T MATTER WHO YOU ARE AND 1554 00:51:23,080 --> 00:51:23,480 WHAT YOU DO. 1555 00:51:23,480 --> 00:51:25,680 I MEAN, HE REALLY IS JUST SUCH A 1556 00:51:25,680 --> 00:51:27,560 ROLE MODEL FOR ME. 1557 00:51:27,560 --> 00:51:29,760 AND HE WAS ABLE TO TAKE A MOMENT 1558 00:51:29,760 --> 00:51:32,400 TO ACKNOWLEDGE THAT HE MADE A 1559 00:51:32,400 --> 00:51:32,640 MISTAKE. 1560 00:51:32,640 --> 00:51:39,440 AND SO I THINK THAT A BIG PART 1561 00:51:39,440 --> 00:51:40,400 OF THIS IS BEING KIND TO 1562 00:51:40,400 --> 00:51:40,760 YOURSELF. 1563 00:51:40,760 --> 00:51:43,720 I WISH I LEARNED IT IN EASIER 1564 00:51:43,720 --> 00:51:45,760 AND BETTER WAYS. 1565 00:51:45,760 --> 00:51:47,560 MEDITATION AND THERAPY AND 1566 00:51:47,560 --> 00:51:49,480 SPORTS AND TALKING TO FRIENDS 1567 00:51:49,480 --> 00:51:50,960 ARE MUCH HEALTHIER THAN SOME OF 1568 00:51:50,960 --> 00:51:53,560 THE REALLY MALADAPTIVE THINGS I 1569 00:51:53,560 --> 00:51:54,200 TRIED AT THE BEGINNING. 1570 00:51:54,200 --> 00:51:56,160 AND IT'S ONE OF THE REASONS WHY 1571 00:51:56,160 --> 00:51:58,720 WE HAVE DROP-IN RESILIENCE 1572 00:51:58,720 --> 00:52:01,640 GROUPS AND MEDITATION GROUPS AND 1573 00:52:01,640 --> 00:52:02,120 JOURNALING GROUPS. 1574 00:52:02,120 --> 00:52:04,080 IS BECAUSE THERE ARE WAYS TO 1575 00:52:04,080 --> 00:52:04,600 DEAL WITH THIS. 1576 00:52:04,600 --> 00:52:06,160 I WANT TO TRY TO GET TO SOME 1577 00:52:06,160 --> 00:52:06,720 QUESTIONS. 1578 00:52:06,720 --> 00:52:08,440 THERE IS A QUESTION ABOUT HOW I 1579 00:52:08,440 --> 00:52:09,760 DEALT WITH THE UNCERTAINTY AFTER 1580 00:52:09,760 --> 00:52:12,440 I DECIDED TO CLOSE MY LAB. 1581 00:52:12,440 --> 00:52:14,440 SO LET ME JUST SAY, THAT I AM 1582 00:52:14,440 --> 00:52:19,120 GOING TO GO FIRST TO LEAVING 1583 00:52:19,120 --> 00:52:19,280 UNC. 1584 00:52:19,280 --> 00:52:22,640 I WENT ON SABBATICAL RIGHT AFTER 1585 00:52:22,640 --> 00:52:24,680 I GOT TENURE BECAUSE I WAS DOING 1586 00:52:24,680 --> 00:52:27,080 A WHOLE LOT OF ADMINISTRATION 1587 00:52:27,080 --> 00:52:27,680 BUT I ALSO WAS DOING SCIENCE. 1588 00:52:27,680 --> 00:52:31,400 AND I WAS GETTING A MESSAGE FROM 1589 00:52:31,400 --> 00:52:31,880 SOME OF MY CONSEQUENCE 1590 00:52:31,880 --> 00:52:32,480 COLLEAGUES THAT ADMINISTRATION 1591 00:52:32,480 --> 00:52:33,720 WAS GETTING IN THE WAY. 1592 00:52:33,720 --> 00:52:36,480 YOU COULD BE A MEMBER OF THE 1593 00:52:36,480 --> 00:52:37,760 NATIONAL ACADEMY BUT YOU'RE 1594 00:52:37,760 --> 00:52:38,360 DOING TOO MANY SERVICE THINGS. 1595 00:52:38,360 --> 00:52:41,160 ALSO SOME REALLY GENDER THINGS 1596 00:52:41,160 --> 00:52:44,160 LIKE WOMEN DO SERVICE THINGS. 1597 00:52:44,160 --> 00:52:47,120 AND IT WAS REALLY HARD FOR ME TO 1598 00:52:47,120 --> 00:52:48,280 DECIDE WHETHER I WAS A SCIENTIST 1599 00:52:48,280 --> 00:52:50,520 WHO DID A LITTLE BIT OF 1600 00:52:50,520 --> 00:52:52,600 ADMINISTRATION OR ADMINISTRATOR 1601 00:52:52,600 --> 00:52:54,120 WHO WAS GOING TO DO SCIENCE. 1602 00:52:54,120 --> 00:52:56,440 THE SAME THING HAPPENED WHEN I 1603 00:52:56,440 --> 00:52:57,520 DECIDED TO CLOSED MY LAB HERE. 1604 00:52:57,520 --> 00:52:59,920 I HAD THIS HUGE, WHAT WILL 1605 00:52:59,920 --> 00:53:01,680 PEOPLE THINK OF ME? 1606 00:53:01,680 --> 00:53:05,040 AND THEN, I DECIDED WHAT WILL I 1607 00:53:05,040 --> 00:53:05,880 THINK OF ME? 1608 00:53:05,880 --> 00:53:07,560 AND HONEST TRUTH IS, AND 1609 00:53:07,560 --> 00:53:09,800 ACTUALLY EVEN WHAT WILL MY WIFE 1610 00:53:09,800 --> 00:53:10,680 THINK OF ME? 1611 00:53:10,680 --> 00:53:13,640 BECAUSE I'M SO STRESSED AND 1612 00:53:13,640 --> 00:53:14,360 SPREAD SO THIN AND TRYING TO DO 1613 00:53:14,360 --> 00:53:15,240 SO MUCH. 1614 00:53:15,240 --> 00:53:17,120 AND I ASKED HER TO PICK UP AND 1615 00:53:17,120 --> 00:53:18,600 MOVE HERE. 1616 00:53:18,600 --> 00:53:20,680 I ASKED HER TO PUT MY CAREER 1617 00:53:20,680 --> 00:53:24,000 FIRST AND HERE I AM E-MAILING AT 1618 00:53:24,000 --> 00:53:26,080 7:00, I'M NOT COMING HOME YET. 1619 00:53:26,080 --> 00:53:28,200 OR I'M GOING IN ON THE WEEKEND. 1620 00:53:28,200 --> 00:53:32,080 SO I REALLY JUST STARTED TO PUT 1621 00:53:32,080 --> 00:53:33,440 ALL OF THE OTHER PEOPLE, THEY 1622 00:53:33,440 --> 00:53:35,280 ARE LIKE IN THE STANDS OUT IN 1623 00:53:35,280 --> 00:53:36,880 LEFT FIELD, FAR AWAY. 1624 00:53:36,880 --> 00:53:39,280 ANALOGY FOR ME.O BASEBALL IS AN 1625 00:53:39,280 --> 00:53:41,040 THERE ARE LIKE SOME PEOPLE RIGHT 1626 00:53:41,040 --> 00:53:42,680 UP THERE AND THERE ARE PEOPLE IN 1627 00:53:42,680 --> 00:53:44,200 THE STANDS. 1628 00:53:44,200 --> 00:53:46,160 AND SO I DEALT WITH THAT. 1629 00:53:46,160 --> 00:53:47,760 BY GETTING SUPPORT AND TALKING 1630 00:53:47,760 --> 00:53:49,000 ABOUT IT. 1631 00:53:49,000 --> 00:53:50,960 THERE IS A QUESTION ABOUT HOW DO 1632 00:53:50,960 --> 00:53:53,800 I DEAL WITH MENTOR MENTEE 1633 00:53:53,800 --> 00:53:54,360 RELATIONSHIPS. 1634 00:53:54,360 --> 00:53:55,160 THAT WARRANT A GOOD FIT. 1635 00:53:55,160 --> 00:53:57,600 THE HONEST TRUTH IS THAT I 1636 00:53:57,600 --> 00:53:59,160 LEARNED THE HARD WAY. 1637 00:53:59,160 --> 00:54:01,760 I THOUGHT IT WAS ALL ABOUT ME 1638 00:54:01,760 --> 00:54:02,640 AND THAT IF I ACKNOWLEDGED THAT 1639 00:54:02,640 --> 00:54:04,280 SOMEBODY WOULD THRIVE BETTER 1640 00:54:04,280 --> 00:54:05,680 SOMEWHERE ELSE THAT IT WOULD 1641 00:54:05,680 --> 00:54:07,760 REFLECT POORLY ON ME. 1642 00:54:07,760 --> 00:54:11,160 BUT I CAME TO APPRECIATE THAT IT 1643 00:54:11,160 --> 00:54:12,840 ISN'T A MATTER OF WHETHER IT'S A 1644 00:54:12,840 --> 00:54:14,560 GOOD FIT OR NOT. 1645 00:54:14,560 --> 00:54:15,880 IT'S A MATTER OF HOW KIND I AM. 1646 00:54:15,880 --> 00:54:17,880 IF YOU WANT TO MAKE CHANGE 1647 00:54:17,880 --> 00:54:20,440 YOURSELF, YOU HAVE TO BE KIND TO 1648 00:54:20,440 --> 00:54:20,880 YOURSELF. 1649 00:54:20,880 --> 00:54:22,960 AND YOU HAVE TO EXTEND THAT 1650 00:54:22,960 --> 00:54:27,000 KINDNESS TO OTHERS. 1651 00:54:27,000 --> 00:54:29,680 AND SO, I DEALT WITH THE ISSUES 1652 00:54:29,680 --> 00:54:32,840 OF MY OWN, WHEN I WAS RUNNING A 1653 00:54:32,840 --> 00:54:35,000 LAB ALSO IN THE OFFICE. 1654 00:54:35,000 --> 00:54:37,200 AND THE ADMINISTRATIVE JOBS, BY 1655 00:54:37,200 --> 00:54:39,680 TRYING TO ASK MYSELF, IS THERE 1656 00:54:39,680 --> 00:54:42,480 SOME BIAS GOING ON HERE? 1657 00:54:42,480 --> 00:54:44,080 NOT SO MUCH -- I MEAN I 1658 00:54:44,080 --> 00:54:45,640 ACKNOWLEDGE ALL THE IMPLICIT 1659 00:54:45,640 --> 00:54:45,840 BIAS. 1660 00:54:45,840 --> 00:54:47,840 I HAVE BIAS JUST LIKE EVERYBODY. 1661 00:54:47,840 --> 00:54:50,480 THE BIAS I WORRY ABOUT MOST IS 1662 00:54:50,480 --> 00:54:52,040 CONFIRMATION BIAS. 1663 00:54:52,040 --> 00:54:54,360 SO SOMEBODY EARLY ON DOES 1664 00:54:54,360 --> 00:54:55,400 SOMETHING THAT IRRITATES ME AND 1665 00:54:55,400 --> 00:54:57,760 I JUST LET THAT ASSUMPTION DRIVE 1666 00:54:57,760 --> 00:54:58,520 EVERYTHING. 1667 00:54:58,520 --> 00:54:59,800 WHEREAS IF SOMEBODY DOES 1668 00:54:59,800 --> 00:55:02,200 SOMETHING EARLY ON THAT 1669 00:55:02,200 --> 00:55:02,920 IMPRESSES ME, I JUST ALWAYS, 1670 00:55:02,920 --> 00:55:04,720 THEY HAD A BAD DAY BECAUSE THEY 1671 00:55:04,720 --> 00:55:06,400 WERE SO IMPRESSIVE. 1672 00:55:06,400 --> 00:55:10,280 AND SO I THINK ONE OF THE OTHER 1673 00:55:10,280 --> 00:55:12,080 THINGS THAT I DO AROUND BAD FITS 1674 00:55:12,080 --> 00:55:15,880 IS ASK MYSELF, IS THERE 1675 00:55:15,880 --> 00:55:16,920 CONFIRMATION BIAS HAPPENING HERE 1676 00:55:16,920 --> 00:55:19,320 AND DO I OWE SOMEONE A 1677 00:55:19,320 --> 00:55:19,720 CONVERSATION? 1678 00:55:19,720 --> 00:55:22,320 THERE IS ANOTHER QUESTION -- SO 1679 00:55:22,320 --> 00:55:22,880 LET ME JUST SAY SOMETHING 1680 00:55:22,880 --> 00:55:23,840 REMARKABLE THERE. 1681 00:55:23,840 --> 00:55:25,240 SOMEONE FROM THE NEURO57 TIED 1682 00:55:25,240 --> 00:55:29,240 LAB HERE WHO JOINED AFTER ME, I 1683 00:55:29,240 --> 00:55:29,560 AM ECSTATIC. 1684 00:55:29,560 --> 00:55:30,160 SO YOU REACH OUT AND YOU'RE 1685 00:55:30,160 --> 00:55:33,640 GOING TO GET-TOGETHER. 1686 00:55:33,640 --> 00:55:37,240 I REALLY GROUP UP IN DICK AND 1687 00:55:37,240 --> 00:55:37,680 BETTY'S LAB. 1688 00:55:37,680 --> 00:55:41,000 THEY WERE AMAZING MENTORS FOR ME 1689 00:55:41,000 --> 00:55:44,440 AND I NEVER IMAGINED THAT I 1690 00:55:44,440 --> 00:55:47,160 WOULD DO SCIENCE AT SUCH A -- IN 1691 00:55:47,160 --> 00:55:48,640 SUCH A SATISFYING WAY. 1692 00:55:48,640 --> 00:55:50,600 AND I THINK SO MUCH OF IT WAS 1693 00:55:50,600 --> 00:55:51,080 THEM. 1694 00:55:51,080 --> 00:55:52,520 SO IT'S EXCITING TO HAVE 1695 00:55:52,520 --> 00:55:56,520 SOMEBODY HERE. 1696 00:55:56,520 --> 00:55:58,160 >> JOCELYN: I WANTED TO MEET YOU 1697 00:55:58,160 --> 00:56:01,000 AND I WILL E-MAIL YOU BUT IN 1698 00:56:01,000 --> 00:56:03,960 REGARD OF THAT LECTURE, I AM THE 1699 00:56:03,960 --> 00:56:08,360 ONE FROM THAT NEUROPEPTIDE LAB. 1700 00:56:08,360 --> 00:56:09,080 AND I WILL REACH OUT TO YOU BUT 1701 00:56:09,080 --> 00:56:13,440 I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU AND TO 1702 00:56:13,440 --> 00:56:16,320 THE AUDIENCE, I'M CURRENTLY 1703 00:56:16,320 --> 00:56:18,040 SENIOR SCIENTISTS AT LABELS 1704 00:56:18,040 --> 00:56:18,320 BIOMEDICAL. 1705 00:56:18,320 --> 00:56:21,320 I LOVE MY JOB. 1706 00:56:21,320 --> 00:56:25,760 I GET TO WORK WITH MDs AND 1707 00:56:25,760 --> 00:56:29,320 STAFF AND HERE ACADEMIA AND 1708 00:56:29,320 --> 00:56:29,560 FREDRICK. 1709 00:56:29,560 --> 00:56:35,160 I LOVE MY JOB AND THIS IS VERY 1710 00:56:35,160 --> 00:56:39,200 IMPORTANT TO EVERY GRADUATE 1711 00:56:39,200 --> 00:56:40,360 STUDENT IN THE FIELD THAT YOU 1712 00:56:40,360 --> 00:56:41,600 HAVE TO LOVE WHAT YOU DO EVERY 1713 00:56:41,600 --> 00:56:42,600 DAY, NO MATTER WHAT. 1714 00:56:42,600 --> 00:56:46,640 AND YOU CAN OVERCOME ANYTHING 1715 00:56:46,640 --> 00:56:47,000 COMES YOUR WAY. 1716 00:56:47,000 --> 00:56:50,440 THE SECOND THING I WANTED TO 1717 00:56:50,440 --> 00:56:52,400 MENTION IS, I DON'T THINK NIH 1718 00:56:52,400 --> 00:56:54,920 WOULD HAVE FIND A BETTER PERSON 1719 00:56:54,920 --> 00:56:55,680 THAN SHARON. 1720 00:56:55,680 --> 00:56:58,920 BECAUSE SHARON, I NEVER MET YOU. 1721 00:56:58,920 --> 00:57:02,120 BUT PLEASE KNOW BACK THEN, IN 93 1722 00:57:02,120 --> 00:57:04,320 WHEN I WAS IN FRANCE AND STARTED 1723 00:57:04,320 --> 00:57:09,040 MY PH.D., YOU WERE MY GHOST 1724 00:57:09,040 --> 00:57:09,280 MENTOR. 1725 00:57:09,280 --> 00:57:11,560 WITH YOUR PUBLICATIONS. 1726 00:57:11,560 --> 00:57:13,680 I KNEW OF YOU AS A HARD WORKER 1727 00:57:13,680 --> 00:57:16,520 IN BETTY AND DICK'S LAB AND I 1728 00:57:16,520 --> 00:57:18,600 JUST WANTED TO BE ABLE TO 1729 00:57:18,600 --> 00:57:21,840 PUBLISH IN THE FIELD AS MUCH AS 1730 00:57:21,840 --> 00:57:24,440 YOU DID. 1731 00:57:24,440 --> 00:57:27,440 YOU WERE VERY GOOD MENTOR. 1732 00:57:27,440 --> 00:57:27,720 HARD WORKER. 1733 00:57:27,720 --> 00:57:30,920 CAME TO DO A POSTDOC WITH THEM 1734 00:57:30,920 --> 00:57:34,320 AND YES, BETTY WAS A ROLE MODEL 1735 00:57:34,320 --> 00:57:38,240 FOR ME AS A WOMAN IN THE FIELD. 1736 00:57:38,240 --> 00:57:39,280 I LEARNED SO MUCH FROM HER. 1737 00:57:39,280 --> 00:57:42,800 SO THE KEY THING IS MENTORING. 1738 00:57:42,800 --> 00:57:44,440 KEY IN MY CAREER AND LOVING MOO 1739 00:57:44,440 --> 00:57:45,160 I JOB. 1740 00:57:45,160 --> 00:57:48,680 WHAT I DO EVERY DAY SINCE GRAD 1741 00:57:48,680 --> 00:57:48,920 SCHOOL. 1742 00:57:48,920 --> 00:57:50,200 IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT YOU DO, 1743 00:57:50,200 --> 00:57:54,040 YOU WILL NEVER BE SUCCESSFUL. 1744 00:57:54,040 --> 00:57:55,960 THANK YOU. 1745 00:57:55,960 --> 00:57:56,640 >> DR. SHARON MILGRAM: THANK YOU 1746 00:57:56,640 --> 00:57:57,680 VERY MUCH. 1747 00:57:57,680 --> 00:57:58,200 THANK YOU. 1748 00:57:58,200 --> 00:58:01,320 >> BRAD: SHARON HAS HAD MANY 1749 00:58:01,320 --> 00:58:02,040 GHOST MENTORSHIPS SHE DOESN'T 1750 00:58:02,040 --> 00:58:03,280 KNOW THE EFFECTS OF. 1751 00:58:03,280 --> 00:58:06,120 THAT'S THE BEAUTY OF HER 1752 00:58:06,120 --> 00:58:07,520 AWARENESS AND THAT EVEN SMALL 1753 00:58:07,520 --> 00:58:09,320 ACTS OF KINDNESS MATTER EVEN 1754 00:58:09,320 --> 00:58:11,120 SMALL ACTS OF AWARENESS MATTER. 1755 00:58:11,120 --> 00:58:13,680 AND WE ARE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER. 1756 00:58:13,680 --> 00:58:14,360 AND LITTLE THINGS MAKE A 1757 00:58:14,360 --> 00:58:14,640 DIFFERENCE. 1758 00:58:14,640 --> 00:58:16,560 WE DON'T KNOW WHAT THOSE THINGS 1759 00:58:16,560 --> 00:58:18,640 MATTER -- YOU DON'T SEE THE 1760 00:58:18,640 --> 00:58:20,920 TRAINING THAT GOES OFF WHO IS IN 1761 00:58:20,920 --> 00:58:21,760 SOMEBODY ELSE'S LAB AND YOU HAVE 1762 00:58:21,760 --> 00:58:23,400 A CONVERSATION THAT WAS REALLY 1763 00:58:23,400 --> 00:58:25,440 TO THE HEART OR TOUGH LOVE. 1764 00:58:25,440 --> 00:58:27,280 YOU DON'T -- THOSE ARE THE 1765 00:58:27,280 --> 00:58:28,480 THINGS THAT MAKE THIS PLACE 1766 00:58:28,480 --> 00:58:32,320 CLICK AND MAKES YOUR IMPACT HERE 1767 00:58:32,320 --> 00:58:32,680 SUPER IMPORTANT. 1768 00:58:32,680 --> 00:58:33,280 >> DR. SHARON MILGRAM: AND I 1769 00:58:33,280 --> 00:58:33,920 WOULD STRESS THAT I THINK MOST 1770 00:58:33,920 --> 00:58:36,520 OF US ARE BOAST MENTORS. 1771 00:58:36,520 --> 00:58:38,120 WE HAVE INTERACTIONS THAT REALLY 1772 00:58:38,120 --> 00:58:39,920 MAKE A DIFFERENCE. 1773 00:58:39,920 --> 00:58:40,600 THERE IS A QUESTION -- I WOULD 1774 00:58:40,600 --> 00:58:43,200 LOVE TO TRY TO ADDRESS A LITTLE 1775 00:58:43,200 --> 00:58:43,640 BIT. 1776 00:58:43,640 --> 00:58:45,720 HOW DO YOU DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN 1777 00:58:45,720 --> 00:58:47,760 UNJUSTIFIED AND POSTER FEARS AND 1778 00:58:47,760 --> 00:58:49,720 CORRECT JUDGMENT? 1779 00:58:49,720 --> 00:58:50,320 BOTH AS BEING ON THE RECEIVING 1780 00:58:50,320 --> 00:58:53,000 END OR A VICTIM OR AS A MENTOR 1781 00:58:53,000 --> 00:58:55,480 TRYING TO HELP A MENTEE IN THE 1782 00:58:55,480 --> 00:58:56,600 RIGHT DIRECTION BOOSTING 1783 00:58:56,600 --> 00:58:58,440 CONFIDENCE VERSUS ADDRESSING 1784 00:58:58,440 --> 00:59:00,040 POTENTIAL NEED TO CHANGE. 1785 00:59:00,040 --> 00:59:01,880 AND I THINK THE ANSWER REALLY, 1786 00:59:01,880 --> 00:59:04,880 REALLY IS IMPORTANT. 1787 00:59:04,880 --> 00:59:05,840 AND I THINK THAT'S SOMETHING 1788 00:59:05,840 --> 00:59:08,960 THAT WE DON'T TALK ABOUT ENOUGH. 1789 00:59:08,960 --> 00:59:10,200 THAT SOMETIMES WE FEEL LIKE 1790 00:59:10,200 --> 00:59:11,520 WE'RE IN THE WRONG FIELD AND 1791 00:59:11,520 --> 00:59:12,440 IT'S RIGHT. 1792 00:59:12,440 --> 00:59:13,920 LIKE PHYSICAL THERAPY WAS -- I 1793 00:59:13,920 --> 00:59:15,720 MEAN THERE IS A REASON WHY I 1794 00:59:15,720 --> 00:59:17,560 CHOSE IT AND IT'S A REALLY NEAR 1795 00:59:17,560 --> 00:59:20,400 TO MY HEART REASON BUT IT WAS 1796 00:59:20,400 --> 00:59:20,600 WRONG. 1797 00:59:20,600 --> 00:59:24,280 AND I COULD STILL BE DOING THIS, 1798 00:59:24,280 --> 00:59:25,000 RIGHT? 1799 00:59:25,000 --> 00:59:27,320 AND SO, THE WAY WE DISTINGUISH 1800 00:59:27,320 --> 00:59:29,440 IS WE SIT WITH THE DISCOMFORT OF 1801 00:59:29,440 --> 00:59:33,000 A CONVERSATION WITH OURSELVES 1802 00:59:33,000 --> 00:59:34,040 AND WITH OTHERS. 1803 00:59:34,040 --> 00:59:37,400 THAT WE APPRECIATE THAT WE WILL 1804 00:59:37,400 --> 00:59:38,160 NOT DISTINGUISH BETWEEN THOSE 1805 00:59:38,160 --> 00:59:40,600 UNTIL WE DO SOME HARD WORK. 1806 00:59:40,600 --> 00:59:42,280 NOW FOR ME, SOME PEOPLE ARE 1807 00:59:42,280 --> 00:59:43,320 GREAT AT JOURNALING. 1808 00:59:43,320 --> 00:59:44,680 I JOURNAL WHEN I'M REALLY 1809 00:59:44,680 --> 00:59:46,560 STRESSED OR DEALING WITH A BIG 1810 00:59:46,560 --> 00:59:46,920 THING. 1811 00:59:46,920 --> 00:59:49,000 AND THEN IT FALLS AWAY. 1812 00:59:49,000 --> 00:59:52,240 SO I CONTINUE TO MEET AT SOME 1813 00:59:52,240 --> 00:59:56,360 SEMI FREQUENT BASIS WITH EITHER 1814 00:59:56,360 --> 00:59:57,680 A COACH OR SOMETIMES I USE A 1815 00:59:57,680 --> 00:59:57,960 THERAPIST. 1816 00:59:57,960 --> 01:00:00,960 IT DEPENDS ON WHAT THE ISSUE IS. 1817 01:00:00,960 --> 01:00:01,680 BECAUSE SOMETIMES I HAVE TO SIT 1818 01:00:01,680 --> 01:00:03,760 AND REALLY -- EVEN ABOUT 1819 01:00:03,760 --> 01:00:04,720 MANAGEMENT THINGS. 1820 01:00:04,720 --> 01:00:09,000 BUT SOMETIMES IT'S ABOUT ME. 1821 01:00:09,000 --> 01:00:09,600 IS MY PERCEPTION OF THIS RIGHT 1822 01:00:09,600 --> 01:00:10,160 OR WRONG? 1823 01:00:10,160 --> 01:00:12,480 SOME PEOPLE DEAL WITH THAT. 1824 01:00:12,480 --> 01:00:15,040 THEY HAVE SORT OF PEER MENTORING 1825 01:00:15,040 --> 01:00:15,320 CIRCLELESS. 1826 01:00:15,320 --> 01:00:20,400 I HAVE TRIED THAT SUMMIT AT NIH. 1827 01:00:20,400 --> 01:00:21,480 I THINK RIGHT NOW, ESPECIALLY 1828 01:00:21,480 --> 01:00:24,080 WITH THE PANDEMIC, I'M TRYING TO 1829 01:00:24,080 --> 01:00:25,640 DO THAT EVEN A LITTLE BIT MORE. 1830 01:00:25,640 --> 01:00:27,600 BUT I THINK THAT WE NEED TO SIT 1831 01:00:27,600 --> 01:00:31,480 WITH THAT DISCOMFORT OF SAYING, 1832 01:00:31,480 --> 01:00:33,000 WHICH INTERPRETATION HERE IS THE 1833 01:00:33,000 --> 01:00:35,160 ACCURATE ONE? 1834 01:00:35,160 --> 01:00:36,400 AND FURTHERMORE, IS THERE A 1835 01:00:36,400 --> 01:00:37,760 THIRD AND FOURTH INTERPRETATION? 1836 01:00:37,760 --> 01:00:40,760 BECAUSE USUALLY WE SEE IT AS A 1837 01:00:40,760 --> 01:00:43,600 OR B WHEN IT'S REALLY ABC OR D. 1838 01:00:43,600 --> 01:00:49,320 AND SO I HAVE LEARNED TO TRY TO 1839 01:00:49,320 --> 01:00:50,480 SLOW THINGS DOWN AND TAKE THE 1840 01:00:50,480 --> 01:00:52,360 TIME TO ASK. 1841 01:00:52,360 --> 01:00:54,240 AND I THINK THAT'S TRUE ON BOTH 1842 01:00:54,240 --> 01:00:54,440 SIDES. 1843 01:00:54,440 --> 01:00:57,680 I THINK WE JUST HAVE TO STOP AND 1844 01:00:57,680 --> 01:00:59,120 SAY, WHY ARE WE SO STUCK ON 1845 01:00:59,120 --> 01:00:59,480 THIS? 1846 01:00:59,480 --> 01:01:02,240 WHERE MIGHT WE BE HAVING THE 1847 01:01:02,240 --> 01:01:04,360 WRONG LENSE? 1848 01:01:04,360 --> 01:01:05,560 SO -- 1849 01:01:05,560 --> 01:01:05,800 >> BRAD. 1850 01:01:05,800 --> 01:01:08,360 AND OUR BIASES ARE DANGEROUSLY 1851 01:01:08,360 --> 01:01:10,800 CLOSE TO OUR BAGGAGE. 1852 01:01:10,800 --> 01:01:12,920 AND YOU NEED TO OPEN UP AND LOOK 1853 01:01:12,920 --> 01:01:14,320 INSIDE INSTEAD OF POINTING 1854 01:01:14,320 --> 01:01:16,560 FINGERS AND THINKING ABOUT THE 1855 01:01:16,560 --> 01:01:17,040 PROBLEMS. 1856 01:01:17,040 --> 01:01:18,440 LOOK AT THE COMMUNICATION ISSUES 1857 01:01:18,440 --> 01:01:20,720 THAT YOU HAVE CONTROL OF. 1858 01:01:20,720 --> 01:01:22,040 LOOK INSIDE OUR OWN BEHAVIORS. 1859 01:01:22,040 --> 01:01:25,720 IT'S ALL INTERRELATED. 1860 01:01:25,720 --> 01:01:28,440 IT'S A REAL POWERFUL WORDS EVER 1861 01:01:28,440 --> 01:01:30,960 WISDOM TODAY, SHARON. 1862 01:01:30,960 --> 01:01:33,200 REALLY TRANSFORMATIVE AS SUZANNE 1863 01:01:33,200 --> 01:01:35,920 PUT IT IN HER CHAT. 1864 01:01:35,920 --> 01:01:37,680 >> DR. SHARON MILGRAM: THANK 1865 01:01:37,680 --> 01:01:37,840 YOU. 1866 01:01:37,840 --> 01:01:39,120 >> I HAVE A QUESTION, 1867 01:01:39,120 --> 01:01:39,440 DR. MILLIGRAM. 1868 01:01:39,440 --> 01:01:41,720 AS SOMEBODY WHO HAS BEEN THROUGH 1869 01:01:41,720 --> 01:01:44,360 A LONG ACADEMIC JOURNEY MYSELF, 1870 01:01:44,360 --> 01:01:45,720 BECAUSE OF WHERE I GREW UP AND 1871 01:01:45,720 --> 01:01:51,720 NO EXPOSURE, I'M JUST CURIOUS AS 1872 01:01:51,720 --> 01:01:54,080 FAR AS JUST THE STATE OF SCIENCE 1873 01:01:54,080 --> 01:01:57,120 HOW IT HAS CHANGED AND THE 1874 01:01:57,120 --> 01:01:58,200 POSSIBILITY TO LIKE HOW 1875 01:01:58,200 --> 01:02:01,680 DIFFICULT IT IS TO PIVOT NOW, 1876 01:02:01,680 --> 01:02:03,880 THE EXPECTATIONS TO BOTH IN 1877 01:02:03,880 --> 01:02:05,480 ACADEMICS, TO PURSUE SOMETHING 1878 01:02:05,480 --> 01:02:07,360 ELSE, THE RAT RACE SO TO SPEAK 1879 01:02:07,360 --> 01:02:09,000 TO GET INTO GRADUATE SCHOOL, MED 1880 01:02:09,000 --> 01:02:10,280 SCHOOL, ALL THESE THINGS, AND 1881 01:02:10,280 --> 01:02:13,520 THEN ONCE YOU'RE OUT, IF YOU 1882 01:02:13,520 --> 01:02:14,160 WANT TO RUN YOUR OWN RESEARCH, 1883 01:02:14,160 --> 01:02:16,000 YOU HAVE TO HIT THE GROUND 1884 01:02:16,000 --> 01:02:16,600 RUNNING, RIGHT? 1885 01:02:16,600 --> 01:02:18,360 THE FIRST RO1 IS IN THE 40s 1886 01:02:18,360 --> 01:02:20,240 AND THE FUNDING FOLLOWED THE 1887 01:02:20,240 --> 01:02:22,240 SAME GENERATION THROUGHOUT AND 1888 01:02:22,240 --> 01:02:24,400 SCIENCE IS CHANGING BUT THIS 1889 01:02:24,400 --> 01:02:25,280 PUBLISHER PARISH IN ORDER TO 1890 01:02:25,280 --> 01:02:26,640 KEEP WHAT YOU HAVE, YOU HAVE TO 1891 01:02:26,640 --> 01:02:29,280 KEEP RUNNING THE RACE AND THERE 1892 01:02:29,280 --> 01:02:33,920 IS NOT NECESSARILY THAT 1893 01:02:33,920 --> 01:02:34,880 INTELLECTUAL VARIETY THEY MIGHT 1894 01:02:34,880 --> 01:02:35,520 BE NEEDED FOR FUTURE INNOVATION. 1895 01:02:35,520 --> 01:02:38,520 I'M CURIOUS LIKE, WHAT YOU SEE 1896 01:02:38,520 --> 01:02:40,240 AS POSSIBLE -- WHAT ARE SOME 1897 01:02:40,240 --> 01:02:42,480 IDEAS AND HYPOTHESES TO IMPROVE 1898 01:02:42,480 --> 01:02:44,440 THAT MOVING FORWARD TO ALLOW FOR 1899 01:02:44,440 --> 01:02:47,920 THAT ABILITY TO PIVOT AND THAT 1900 01:02:47,920 --> 01:02:48,400 BREATH OF INTELLECTUAL 1901 01:02:48,400 --> 01:02:51,200 EXPERIENCE TO ULTIMATELY HELP 1902 01:02:51,200 --> 01:02:53,600 LEAD TO SOMETHING SOME DAY. 1903 01:02:53,600 --> 01:02:54,200 >> DR. SHARON MILGRAM: A FEW 1904 01:02:54,200 --> 01:02:54,440 THINGS. 1905 01:02:54,440 --> 01:02:56,640 SOME CULTURE CHANGES TO PEOPLE 1906 01:02:56,640 --> 01:02:57,080 WITHIN THE COMMUNITY. 1907 01:02:57,080 --> 01:02:59,600 I WAS AT A MEETING RECENTLY AND 1908 01:02:59,600 --> 01:03:01,840 PEOPLE WERE TALKING ABOUT SOME 1909 01:03:01,840 --> 01:03:02,800 PROBLEMS IN SCIENCE. 1910 01:03:02,800 --> 01:03:04,880 AND SOMEBODY WENT TO THE MIC AND 1911 01:03:04,880 --> 01:03:06,360 SAID, WE ARE SCIENCE. 1912 01:03:06,360 --> 01:03:08,360 IF WE WANT TO CHANGE SCIENCE, WE 1913 01:03:08,360 --> 01:03:09,560 HAVE TO CHANGE SCIENCE. 1914 01:03:09,560 --> 01:03:11,320 AND YOU KNOW, THERE WAS SOME 1915 01:03:11,320 --> 01:03:12,920 CLAPPING AND -- THIS WAS MY 1916 01:03:12,920 --> 01:03:14,920 FIRST IN-PERSON DURING THE 1917 01:03:14,920 --> 01:03:15,160 PANDEMIC. 1918 01:03:15,160 --> 01:03:17,320 AND SO THE MEETING WAS 1919 01:03:17,320 --> 01:03:18,160 OVERWHELMING ANYWAY. 1920 01:03:18,160 --> 01:03:20,520 BUT THAT MOMENT FOR ME, WAS 1921 01:03:20,520 --> 01:03:20,840 OVERWHELMING. 1922 01:03:20,840 --> 01:03:22,080 THERE IS A TRUTH THAT SOME 1923 01:03:22,080 --> 01:03:23,800 CULTURE CHANGE WILL HAPPEN FROM 1924 01:03:23,800 --> 01:03:24,160 WITHIN. 1925 01:03:24,160 --> 01:03:26,440 BUT SOME THINGS LIKE THAT, LIKE 1926 01:03:26,440 --> 01:03:28,840 HOW PEER REVIEW WILL WORK, HOW 1927 01:03:28,840 --> 01:03:30,640 TENURE WILL WORK, INSTITUTIONS 1928 01:03:30,640 --> 01:03:33,320 NEED TO MAKE SOME CHANGE THERE. 1929 01:03:33,320 --> 01:03:34,480 INSTITUTIONAL LEADERS NEED TO 1930 01:03:34,480 --> 01:03:37,280 GET OUT ON A LIMB AND BE A 1931 01:03:37,280 --> 01:03:38,040 LITTLE BIT BRAVE. 1932 01:03:38,040 --> 01:03:39,840 AND I'M SEEING SOME OF THAT. 1933 01:03:39,840 --> 01:03:42,240 I AM SEEING PLACES THAT ARE 1934 01:03:42,240 --> 01:03:44,680 REALLY SAYING WHAT CAN WE DO TO 1935 01:03:44,680 --> 01:03:45,560 SUPPORT EARLY CAREER SCIENTISTS? 1936 01:03:45,560 --> 01:03:49,080 WHAT CAN WE DO TO SUPPORT 1937 01:03:49,080 --> 01:03:49,360 INNOVATION? 1938 01:03:49,360 --> 01:03:51,320 FUNDING AGENCIES HAVE TO DO 1939 01:03:51,320 --> 01:03:51,520 THAT. 1940 01:03:51,520 --> 01:03:55,000 AND I THINK ONE OF THE THINGS 1941 01:03:55,000 --> 01:03:56,520 THAT I THINK -- AND THE REASON I 1942 01:03:56,520 --> 01:03:59,040 LEFT IN THE POWER OF 1943 01:03:59,040 --> 01:04:01,040 COLLABORATION, I DIDN'T WANT TO 1944 01:04:01,040 --> 01:04:01,600 TAKE TOO LONG. 1945 01:04:01,600 --> 01:04:03,120 THOSE OF YOU WHO COME TO MY 1946 01:04:03,120 --> 01:04:04,480 WEBINARS KNOW I ALWAYS TAKE TOO 1947 01:04:04,480 --> 01:04:04,680 LONG. 1948 01:04:04,680 --> 01:04:06,920 I THINK THAT IS ONE WAY THAT 1949 01:04:06,920 --> 01:04:09,680 ALLOWS US TO HAVE THOSE 1950 01:04:09,680 --> 01:04:10,440 SERENDIPITY MOMENTS. 1951 01:04:10,440 --> 01:04:13,680 THE MORE WE CAN COLLABORATE WITH 1952 01:04:13,680 --> 01:04:17,000 OTHERS TO STRETCH AND EXPAND, 1953 01:04:17,000 --> 01:04:21,400 THE MORE I THINK WE HAVE THAT 1954 01:04:21,400 --> 01:04:24,520 CREATIVE ENERGY AND SPACE. 1955 01:04:24,520 --> 01:04:26,760 SO, I THINK WHEN FUNDING 1956 01:04:26,760 --> 01:04:30,880 AGENCIES PROMOTE COLLABORATION, 1957 01:04:30,880 --> 01:04:32,040 WHEN THEY GIVE MONEY 1958 01:04:32,040 --> 01:04:35,160 SPECIFICALLY FOR PEOPLE TO WORK 1959 01:04:35,160 --> 01:04:37,280 TOGETHER, IT FREES SOME OF US UP 1960 01:04:37,280 --> 01:04:39,120 A LITTLE BIT. 1961 01:04:39,120 --> 01:04:40,200 WHEN I WAS UP FOR TENURE, I 1962 01:04:40,200 --> 01:04:42,160 ACTUALLY HAD TO SIT WITH 1963 01:04:42,160 --> 01:04:45,920 SOMEBODY AND GO OVER EACH PAPER. 1964 01:04:45,920 --> 01:04:49,720 THE PERSON WHO HEADS THE CF 1965 01:04:49,720 --> 01:04:51,280 CENTER, RICK BUR SHAY, IT WAS 1966 01:04:51,280 --> 01:04:53,360 HIS DAUGHTER I MET OUTSIDE OF 1967 01:04:53,360 --> 01:04:56,360 THE REAGENT ROOM. 1968 01:04:56,360 --> 01:04:59,120 HE WAS -- ONE OF THE TOP FIVE 1969 01:04:59,120 --> 01:05:00,640 PEOPLE FUNDED BY NIH. 1970 01:05:00,640 --> 01:05:01,840 IT WAS FAIR FOR PEOPLE TO ASK 1971 01:05:01,840 --> 01:05:03,680 WHAT DID YOU DO AND WHAT DID HE 1972 01:05:03,680 --> 01:05:06,000 DO AND WHAT DID JACK DO? 1973 01:05:06,000 --> 01:05:08,000 BUT I WAS SO OFFENDED. 1974 01:05:08,000 --> 01:05:14,080 IT WAS LIKE SO DENYING MY 1975 01:05:14,080 --> 01:05:15,760 ABILITY TO ADD TO A PROJECT. 1976 01:05:15,760 --> 01:05:18,280 IN LOOKING AT THAT, I REALIZED 1977 01:05:18,280 --> 01:05:19,640 THOSE ARE THE KINDS OF 1978 01:05:19,640 --> 01:05:20,280 INSTITUTIONAL THINGS THAT NEED 1979 01:05:20,280 --> 01:05:20,880 TO CHANGE. 1980 01:05:20,880 --> 01:05:23,240 MAYBE A PART OF TENURE PACKAGES 1981 01:05:23,240 --> 01:05:25,760 SHOULD BE EXPLAINING EACH THING. 1982 01:05:25,760 --> 01:05:28,040 I SAW IT AS GENDERED. 1983 01:05:28,040 --> 01:05:30,600 THESE WERE ALL BIG POWERFUL MEN. 1984 01:05:30,600 --> 01:05:32,360 THEY ARE ASKING THE ONE WOMAN TO 1985 01:05:32,360 --> 01:05:32,720 DEFEND HERSELF. 1986 01:05:32,720 --> 01:05:34,040 I WOULD HAVE NEVER SEEN IT AS 1987 01:05:34,040 --> 01:05:37,520 GENDERED IF IT WAS JUST A PART 1988 01:05:37,520 --> 01:05:39,640 OF THE STANDARD WAY. 1989 01:05:39,640 --> 01:05:42,920 I THINK THAT COLLABORATION IS A 1990 01:05:42,920 --> 01:05:46,960 DRIVER OF CREATIVITY AND 1991 01:05:46,960 --> 01:05:47,680 INTELLECTUAL BREATH AND DEPTH. 1992 01:05:47,680 --> 01:05:49,760 WE REALLY NEED SOME BREATH. 1993 01:05:49,760 --> 01:05:51,440 A LOT OF US HAVE DEPTH. 1994 01:05:51,440 --> 01:05:53,280 AND SOME PEOPLE WILL CHOOSE TO 1995 01:05:53,280 --> 01:05:54,520 GO DEEPER THAN ME. 1996 01:05:54,520 --> 01:05:55,720 I USED TO JOKE I NEVER FOUND A 1997 01:05:55,720 --> 01:05:57,840 GRANT I WANTED TO REFUND. 1998 01:05:57,840 --> 01:06:00,320 IT WAS JUST A ONE-TIME -- GRANTS 1999 01:06:00,320 --> 01:06:02,120 WERE A ONE-TIME THING AND THEN I 2000 01:06:02,120 --> 01:06:02,640 WOULD WRITE ANOTHER ONE. 2001 01:06:02,640 --> 01:06:05,600 DO NOT ASK ME HOW -- I LOVE 2002 01:06:05,600 --> 01:06:05,960 WRITING GRANTS. 2003 01:06:05,960 --> 01:06:07,280 THAT WAS A PART OF IT. 2004 01:06:07,280 --> 01:06:09,840 I THINK WE ALL NEED SOME BREATH. 2005 01:06:09,840 --> 01:06:12,440 I THINK INSTITUTIONS CAN DRIVE 2006 01:06:12,440 --> 01:06:14,240 THAT BY NOT ASKING OR NOT DOING 2007 01:06:14,240 --> 01:06:15,480 U IN. 2008 01:06:15,480 --> 01:06:17,840 C DID IN THAT MOMENT -- UNC. 2009 01:06:17,840 --> 01:06:19,480 BY ENCOURAGING COLLABORATION BY 2010 01:06:19,480 --> 01:06:21,280 HAVING A SET WAY, FUNDING 2011 01:06:21,280 --> 01:06:22,840 AGENCIES, THE MEETING I WENT TO, 2012 01:06:22,840 --> 01:06:25,080 IT WAS A MENTOR AND A NEW 2013 01:06:25,080 --> 01:06:26,600 FACULTY MEMBER AND THE MONEY WAS 2014 01:06:26,600 --> 01:06:32,360 GIVEN TO THE NEW FACULTY MEMBER 2015 01:06:32,360 --> 01:06:34,760 TO DRIVE COLLABORATIONED. 2016 01:06:34,760 --> 01:06:37,760 NOSE KINDS OF INSTITUTIONAL AND 2017 01:06:37,760 --> 01:06:39,120 FUNDER-DRIVEN INITIATIVES WILL 2018 01:06:39,120 --> 01:06:44,280 HELP WITH SOME OF THAT. 2019 01:06:44,280 --> 01:06:44,960 WHY IT TAKES SO LONG, I MEAN, 2020 01:06:44,960 --> 01:06:46,680 AND WHY IT IS SO MUCH HARDER, IF 2021 01:06:46,680 --> 01:06:50,600 YOU'RE A PERSON OF COLOR, WHY DO 2022 01:06:50,600 --> 01:06:53,480 WOMEN HAVE FEWER PUBLICATIONS 2023 01:06:53,480 --> 01:06:54,080 THAN MEN? 2024 01:06:54,080 --> 01:06:56,680 SO MUCH SO THAT IS ROLLOUTED IN 2025 01:06:56,680 --> 01:06:58,760 ISSUES WITHIN OUR WORLD AND OUR 2026 01:06:58,760 --> 01:06:59,120 COUNTRY. 2027 01:06:59,120 --> 01:07:01,640 THEY HAVE TO BE TACKLED WITHIN 2028 01:07:01,640 --> 01:07:05,480 OUR COMMUNITY BUT ALSO MORE 2029 01:07:05,480 --> 01:07:10,480 BROADLY. 2030 01:07:10,480 --> 01:07:11,880 WHEN WE STARTED PUTTING IN PLACE 2031 01:07:11,880 --> 01:07:14,080 ADMISSIONS CRITERIA TO MITIGATE 2032 01:07:14,080 --> 01:07:16,880 BIAS, WE HAD MORE DIVERSE 2033 01:07:16,880 --> 01:07:17,400 COHORTS IN OUR PROGRAMS. 2034 01:07:17,400 --> 01:07:18,680 WE HAVE TO DO THE SAME AND PUT 2035 01:07:18,680 --> 01:07:20,520 THINGS INTO PLACE TO MITIGATE 2036 01:07:20,520 --> 01:07:26,000 BIAS IN PUBLICATIONS, BIAS IN 2037 01:07:26,000 --> 01:07:29,680 GRANTS AND THOSE THINGS ARE BIG 2038 01:07:29,680 --> 01:07:30,760 TOP-DOWN THINGS. 2039 01:07:30,760 --> 01:07:34,960 AND I FRUSTRATE PEOPLE BECAUSE I 2040 01:07:34,960 --> 01:07:35,600 TALK ABOUT THE BOTTOM-UP STUFF. 2041 01:07:35,600 --> 01:07:36,040 WHAT CAN WE EACH DO? 2042 01:07:36,040 --> 01:07:37,520 AND THE HONEST TRUTH IS IT NEEDS 2043 01:07:37,520 --> 01:07:39,120 TO BELIEVE MET BY TOP-DOWN AND I 2044 01:07:39,120 --> 01:07:42,960 HOPE THE NEW NIH DIRECTOR AND 2045 01:07:42,960 --> 01:07:45,320 NSF DIRECTOR AS LEADERS IN OUR 2046 01:07:45,320 --> 01:07:46,200 COUNTRY, LEADERS IN SCIENCE, I 2047 01:07:46,200 --> 01:07:48,360 HOPE THAT THEY ALL CONTINUE TO 2048 01:07:48,360 --> 01:07:49,520 APPRECIATE THAT THEY ARE A PART 2049 01:07:49,520 --> 01:07:53,680 OF THE PROBLEM AND A PART OF THE 2050 01:07:53,680 --> 01:07:54,000 SOLUTION. 2051 01:07:54,000 --> 01:07:55,400 SO THEY TOO SHOULD HAVE THIS EAR 2052 01:07:55,400 --> 01:07:55,600 WORM. 2053 01:07:55,600 --> 01:07:57,520 >> BRAD: THAT NEEDS TO HAPPEN 2054 01:07:57,520 --> 01:07:58,680 FROM THE BOTTOM UP AND THE TOP 2055 01:07:58,680 --> 01:08:01,560 DOWN AND THE SILOS DON'T BREAK 2056 01:08:01,560 --> 01:08:03,480 ON THEIR OWN WITH ALL THE GOOD 2057 01:08:03,480 --> 01:08:04,160 INTENTIONS AND GOOD HEARTS AND 2058 01:08:04,160 --> 01:08:04,440 THE WORLD. 2059 01:08:04,440 --> 01:08:07,640 YOU NEED TO INCENTIVIZE AND 2060 01:08:07,640 --> 01:08:09,720 CROSS-FERTILIZE AND FOLLOW THE 2061 01:08:09,720 --> 01:08:13,680 MONEY IN TERMS OF MAKING MORE 2062 01:08:13,680 --> 01:08:15,600 ROBUST COLLABORATION PLANS LIKE 2063 01:08:15,600 --> 01:08:16,840 THAT. 2064 01:08:16,840 --> 01:08:18,800 THAT'S A GREAT IDEA. 2065 01:08:18,800 --> 01:08:20,800 MAKING IT HAPPEN, ANOTHER 2066 01:08:20,800 --> 01:08:21,520 QUESTION. 2067 01:08:21,520 --> 01:08:25,120 BUT WE CAN START WITH THE IDEA. 2068 01:08:25,120 --> 01:08:25,720 >> DR. SHARON MILGRAM: YES. 2069 01:08:25,720 --> 01:08:26,400 WELL SAID. 2070 01:08:26,400 --> 01:08:28,920 PERFECT WAY TO WRAP UP. 2071 01:08:28,920 --> 01:08:31,040 >> BRAD: THANK YOU. 2072 01:08:31,040 --> 01:08:34,320 ANYBODY ELSE HAVE ANY QUESTIONS? 2073 01:08:34,320 --> 01:08:34,880 WE ARE RUNNING OUT OF TIME 2074 01:08:34,880 --> 01:08:35,920 ANYWAY BUT I DON'T WANT TO CUT 2075 01:08:35,920 --> 01:08:41,560 ANYBODY OFF WHO HAS -- SOMEBODY 2076 01:08:41,560 --> 01:08:42,440 SAYS -- THEY HAVE ALREADY ASKED 2077 01:08:42,440 --> 01:08:43,720 THE QUESTION. 2078 01:08:43,720 --> 01:08:46,760 SO, I REALLY APPRECIATE YOUR 2079 01:08:46,760 --> 01:08:47,360 TIME, SHARON. 2080 01:08:47,360 --> 01:08:49,680 THANK YOU TO EVERYBODY FOR 2081 01:08:49,680 --> 01:08:50,880 LISTENING IN. 2082 01:08:50,880 --> 01:08:52,720 THANK YOU JOCELYN FOR DRIVING 2083 01:08:52,720 --> 01:08:53,240 HERE. 2084 01:08:53,240 --> 01:08:55,160 AND A LOT OF GOOD FLOSS FEE AND 2085 01:08:55,160 --> 01:08:57,680 GOOD LESSONS AND I FEEL BETTER 2086 01:08:57,680 --> 01:09:00,440 KNOWING YOU'RE IN OUR MIDST AND 2087 01:09:00,440 --> 01:09:02,240 ABLE TO BE THE POWER OF CHANGE 2088 01:09:02,240 --> 01:09:05,680 THAT YOU HAVE BEEN AND BE AN 2089 01:09:05,680 --> 01:09:07,080 ADVOCATE FOR THE RIGHT THINGS 2090 01:09:07,080 --> 01:09:08,680 THAT YOU ARE. 2091 01:09:08,680 --> 01:09:09,280 >> DR. SHARON MILGRAM: THANK 2092 01:09:09,280 --> 01:09:09,440 YOU. 2093 01:09:09,440 --> 01:09:12,160 >> BRAD: THANK YOU. 2094 01:09:12,160 --> 01:09:12,720 >> DR. SHARON MILGRAM: I 2095 01:09:12,720 --> 01:09:13,280 APPRECIATE ALL OF YOU. 2096 01:09:13,280 --> 00:00:00,000 THANK YOU VERY MUCH.